I am not worthy

When Huo Yi saw this, he remembered the time he taught Bai Yan to play the piano. The song he hummed seemed to be "Stockholm Lover".His eyes darkened, and his eyes fell on the delicate and neat handwriting on the paper. He felt that the heart in his chest seemed to be beating faster and faster. He managed to keep his face calm and continued to read.

The diary is not written every day, but Huo Yi appears in every day.As long as it is related to him, even if it is a very small thing, it will be recorded in the diary.

For example, Huo Yi didn't remember a chance encounter on campus, and he didn't even look at him at the time.But in Bai Yan's diary, it is the source of happiness that can make him feel happy all day.Also, Huo Yi, as a cadre of the school's discipline department, when he catches students who violate the school rules and gives them warnings and punishments, Bai Yan will also record them, and the whole article is full of admiration and admiration.

He ends his diary with:

He is such a confident and radiant person, better than everyone, and I want to be that kind of person too.But I still didn't have the courage to come out by myself, so I could only watch him secretly, watching him shine brightly, illuminating my way forward.

After Huo Yi graduated, Bai Yan had no contact with him for a long time, and his diary stopped for a long time.Until that engagement banquet, Bai Yan found out that the person he was going to marry instead of Bai Yingfei turned out to be his senior whom he had been secretly in love with for many years, and all the previous grievances and fears suddenly turned into nervous anticipation.

Sunny Saturday, May 5

The Bai family wanted to marry Huo Yi, but my sister didn't want to marry herself, so she forced me to marry into the Huo family instead.I have never been able to resist the Bai family, nor my sister. I was prepared to suffer for the rest of my life, but I never thought that the person I met at the engagement banquet was actually Huo Yi.

The person I want to marry is actually Huo Yi.

I pinched myself many times, it was indeed not a dream, but I still couldn't believe it.

I haven't seen him for many years. He is taller, more handsome, and more imposing. I dare not look at him.

Although he no longer remembers me, even though he said that he already has someone he likes and the marriage with me is only temporary, I still thank God for the arrangement that I can have this brief encounter with him.

The diary that follows are all written about the details of Bai Yan after he moved in to live with Huo Yi.With a cautious and grateful heart, Bai Yan buried his love in his heart and tried his best to treat Huo Yi well.Even though he knew that this was just a marriage of intersecting interests and that he would be divorced at any time, he still held the most sincere feelings and didn't even dare to show them.

Huo Yi was in a complicated mood when he saw this, he thought of how Bai Yan was careful to please him after he moved in to live with him.At first, I thought it was to please myself deliberately for the Bai family, but I didn't expect it to be because I like it, simply like it.

Thinking of what he had done to Bai Yan during this period of time, Huo Yi suddenly didn't dare to continue watching.His eyes stayed on the same page for a long time, and Huo Yi couldn't tell what kind of mood he was in, so he slowly turned to the next page.

Thursday, February 7 overcast

what to do?My sister wanted me to steal the secrets of Huo Yi's company, how could I do something wrong to Huo Yi, I refused at the beginning.This is the first time I have refused my sister, or the request made by the Bai family. It was Huo Yi who gave me courage.Unexpectedly, they didn't give up because of this, and threatened my mother, saying that if I didn't do what they said, I would stop treating my mother.

One side is my mother's life, and the other side is asking me to hurt Huo Yi, what should I do?

This diary is very long. Except for how Bai Yingfei forced herself and how Bai Zongzheng put pressure on herself, it was all in a flustered state of being at a loss, and even the handwriting was a little messy.From these handwritings, we can see Bai Yan's helplessness and struggle at that time, but he expressed more of a state of bewilderment and fear, and did not mention how to steal secrets in exchange for his mother's medical treatment.Later, he thought of a way, which was to ask Huo Yi to borrow money, and wanted to pay for his mother's treatment by himself. After Huo Yi agreed, he felt so grateful and joyful.

At the end of this diary, he wrote:

Mom is the only family I have in this world and I can't lose her.

But he is my light.

—The light that the moths chase after the fire.

Seeing this, Huo Yi couldn't bear to look any longer, and closed the diary abruptly, tears filled his eyes at some point.As if unable to stand any longer, Huo Yi put his hands on the table and slowly bent down.

God, what the hell did he do to Bai Yan?

Thinking of the things he had done during these days, Huo Yi was filled with remorse, and felt that he was simply inhuman, and wished he could give himself a punch.Then he did that, slapped himself hard, but it didn't ease the regret in his heart.

Huo Yi carefully put the diary away, suddenly he couldn't wait any longer and wanted to see Bai Yan right away.He walked out in a hurry, but stopped suddenly when he was about to reach the kitchen, and he felt a little scared in his heart.

At this moment, Huo Yi suddenly realized his feelings for Bai Yan. It turned out that he had fallen in love with Bai Yan unknowingly.That's why I was so angry when I felt betrayed, that's why I was so angry when I saw Bai Yan and Xu Zhan entangled, and that's why, no matter how angry and angry I was, I didn't think about driving Bai Yan away or handing it over to the police , but to keep him in that way for punishment.

——All this is just that he has already fallen in love with Bai Yan, although he hasn't understood this yet, subconsciously he doesn't want to lose this person, and he wants to keep him by his side by whatever means.

He fell in love with Bai Yan.

Thinking about this, Huo Yi was both happy and sad.