Chrollo's You Exist

Kurolo

[The secret to ultimate fulfillment and joy in life is to live in danger all the time. ]

[One should even deliberately take risks in order to reach a higher state. ]

He sat on the high platform in the ruins, looked down at the two lines of words on the page, the moonlight silently shone on his long and thin body that blended with the darkness, silently interpreting the meaning of light and shadow.

The so-called danger is the normal state of his life; joy, he has also experienced it. In the plunder that satisfies his own desires, the pleasure between life and death is joy.As for consummation, he thought for a while, should it mean grasping the real sense of life?

An image inadvertently flashed in his mind, a pair of smiling and weeping eyes reflected in the sky full of clouds under the fiery red sunset.

He is not a nostalgic person, but he clearly remembers that the setting sun, the red glow like blood, and the smiling and weeping girl made his life capture a trace of novel softness for the first time. He couldn't explain clearly, and it was close to him in an instant. The meaning of life to be pursued is different from the constant disgust after the short-term pleasure brought by repeated plundering, it is something that can fill the emptiness of the soul and satisfy it.

He wanted to explore, from her, or get it.Thinking of this, he began to really get close to her, and no longer just regarded her as an interesting toy with a certain freshness.But before he could take any action, she suddenly disappeared. He smiled and patted his forehead, thinking that she always appeared in front of his eyes.The first time she appeared out of thin air and disappeared suddenly was when he was very young, and he remembered that he had waited for her in that small shipping container all night.Although looking at him now, he felt a little lonely at the time, it was incredible and even ridiculous, but he still teased her about it, just like teasing a timid cat.He didn't want to deprive her of the ability to travel through time and space. On the contrary, he felt that it was this that aroused his interest in her. What's more, the most important thing hidden in her may be close to the desire of his own soul. You can get the ultimate enjoyment only by going deeper and deeper, and what you get too quickly will always make you lose interest and tasteless.

He goes on plundering because new desires are constantly being created.Although the prey has different methods, the essence of this kind of plunder and desire is the same, which makes him more clear about his desire for her, the desire for a certain possibility hidden in her.

When they met again, it was in the dark room of the underground palace. She huddled into a ball, like a frightened little animal. When she looked closely, she was full of awe-inspiring and inviolable pride.When she saw him, the instant brilliance in her dark and piercing eyes was like broken stars and fireflies in the middle of the night, lonely and beautiful, which made him hold her in his arms, and also made him startled slightly, his first reaction was actually It is almost tender comfort, not the excitement of facing the prey and the instinct of wanting to plunder.

This accident made him decide to keep her by his side. He wanted to see what unexpected surprises she could bring him.He is a person who is absolutely sane, sober and completely in control of himself, good at planning and weighing rules and strategies, so as to ensure the existence of the brigade to the maximum extent.But he does not reject occasional miscalculations and deviations, and he even enjoys the surprises brought by such accidents, the unexpected pleasure.

She did continue to bring him freshness, and the second half of the "Arrogant Fairy Tale" entry command that was uttered from her mouth touched him for a moment.Life is short and empty, and nothing lasts forever. He chose endless plunder before the end of death to satisfy his instant desire.And the artistic conception in that poem, under the same cognition, turns gains and losses into passing clouds and holds inner peace and satisfaction. It unintentionally ignites a certain desire deep in his heart, that kind of desire even if it is false. The longing to seek the fullness of the soul.

When she died unexpectedly in the game space, the moment she died in his arms, he could hardly restrain the sudden tyranny and anger with reason, and for the first time, he felt unstoppable frustration and an unstoppable sense of blockage in his heart.It wasn't until her unexpected resurrection that his mind went blank for a moment that he had never seen before, and his body hugged her almost instinctively, and then he felt a secret sense of joy in his heart that he had lost and found again.Such irrational behavior was originally what he tabooed the most, but all the unprecedented freshness and wonder made him enjoy it unbelievably, and he didn't want to avoid it, but looked forward to her more and more.

This special expectation was broken when she overheard the conversation between her and Ilmi Beatenike after another reunion.When he heard that she pinned all the meaning of her existence on an outsider, the sudden sense of boredom made him feel clearly disappointed and ironic.His face was expressionless, but dark flames were jumping in his dark eyes, and his heart was filled with cruel murderous intent and ice-cold anger like frost and snow.But he didn't kill her right away. Apart from being concerned about the Il fans in the house, he was also because of the murderous intent and anger, the malicious and cruel predatory desire that couldn't be ignored, the restless and tyrannical possessive desire to be satisfied. want.

He froze for a moment, for the first time he was uncertain about his thoughts, did he want to kill or did he want to?

Inside the room, Irmi sent a silent warning to him with mental pressure. He never tolerated provocations, but this time the Mr. Assassin chose one for him.Unexpectedly, she didn't appreciate it, and desperately wanted to find him.He looked at the number flashing on the screen, and his tightened fingers instantly crushed the phone, with an unpredictable smile on his lips.

He came back to her much later than he expected, and he still didn't know his true intentions.Until he saw her, and she took the initiative to go with him, his desire to possess suddenly swelled, and he no longer restrained but wanted to indulge.

Ignoring her fear and pressing her down, looking at her pale face with closed eyes, even if she lost consciousness, he once wanted to enter her to plunder wantonly, but at the last moment he withdrew his hand, because of some strange Emotions that he doesn't even know himself.

Such an abnormal state made him puzzled, and it also made him notice that he had always restrained and tolerated her in sexual matters. It was clear that he was very straightforward with other women, and he had to have no extra emotions if he wanted to.

His thoughts became more and more chaotic, and order and analysis seemed to have no effect on her, and he could not draw clear and powerful conclusions, but instead made him fall into more doubts.

"Hey, the person is gone."

Xiao Di's soft voice interrupted his thoughts, and he recovered from his contemplation, only to realize that he couldn't feel her breath.

He raised his eyes, the corner where she was originally was empty and there was no one left, only the mobile phone and bank|card left on the ground, which he gave her.This is to draw a line with him and has nothing to do with it.

He thought of her indifferent expression when she looked at him just now, it was an expression she had never dared to show in front of him, it turned out to be an unexpected determination.

With her, where can she hide?He could find her whenever he wanted.He was naturally aware of this, but he frowned slightly, suddenly feeling that he seemed to have done something wrong and missed something.

The author has something to say: the first two sentences are quoted from Nietzsche’s quotations~the summary of the content is taken from Dongpo’s poems~ not to pretend, but because the language itself is not concise, so we have to borrow the words of famous experts~~ The leader’s extras are just some of his emotional lines Supplement, it’s not strict~~~~ Forgive me, my friends, I will face the wall and think about it (⊙﹏⊙)b

I hope this supplement will make the leader's behavior less abrupt (*/ω╲*)