[Comprehensive] I thought you were going to attack me

In the first century in the sea, I said to myself: "If anyone saves me in this century, I will definitely repay him and let him have money that he can't spend all his life." However, a century has passed, and there is no Someone come save me.

At the beginning of the second century, I thought: "If you save me in this century, I must repay him and dig out all the treasures underground for him." But still no one came to rescue me.

At the beginning of the third century, I said to myself: "If anyone saves me in this century, I will definitely repay him and fulfill his three wishes." But still no one came to save me.

I stayed in the sea for 400 years, I felt very angry, so I swore: "If anyone comes to save me now, I will kill him, but let him choose the way of death." Now you save me, you can Choose how you die.

——The Tale of the Fisherman and the Devil

A week after Oda Sakunosuke disappeared, Osamu Dazai completed the entire process of the "funeral" used to deceive people.Then he went to the residence of Oda Sakunosuke alone to sort out his "relics".

I don't know if it was an accident, but he didn't find any information related to "that supernatural person".

The person who appeared at the moment when Oda Sakunosuke was dying, and after freezing for a moment, took him away.

Although there was only a dazzling light at the time, Osamu Dazai instinctively tended that "TA" was a woman-although, Oda Sakunosuke never looked like the kind of man who had the setting of "unknown confidante".

But the silhouette at that time can still find a little detail, including the movement and standing posture.Osamu Dazai has always been a person who is good at discovering details, and this time is no exception.

Then the next question is—is she the incarnation of supernatural powers, or is she herself with supernatural powers?

There is no solution to this problem.

But Osamu Dazai didn't worry about it, because he realized that this was not the crux of the problem.For a person who has no information other than an increasingly blurred and unrecordable outline, what he should do most is not to think about the identity of the other party, but to explore the root of everything—his friend, Sakunosuke Oda.

Everything about Oda Tsukuru's "life", the people he may have contacted, the encounters that may be achieved... All accidents or non-accidents in this world will leave traces, and there has never been any kindness or evil without a reason.Even "a letter from a strange woman" is still a forgotten, real encounter.

However, starting from his own heart, Osamu Dazai did not want to do this.

There are many reasons, but only one is the most important.As the youngest ever cadre of the Port Mafia, he'd done this to countless people alive, and probably even more dead.But those are enemies, opponents, objects of suspicion or potential threats...

Only not "friends".

There used to be only two people in this world who can be called "friends" by Osamu Dazai.It wasn't the imagined close, talkative relationship, or the fact that they both kept a certain distance from each other.

It can be said that they are "just friends", or "only friends".

Although it would be absurd to think rationally, it is always difficult for people to avoid the illusion: when something has a limited quantity, it becomes extraordinarily precious.

However, Osamu Dazai thought.No matter whether it is precious or overflowing, it is meaningless.

Finally, on the night of a complete defection from the Port Mafia and a conversation with Chief Farmer of the Odd Secret Service, Osamu Dazai began his investigation.

***

The day Sakunosuke Oda woke up, Osamu Dazai officially passed the entrance examination for the Armed Detective Agency.

The red-haired man opened his eyes and saw at least four people surrounding him in the room.

His eyes were hazy at first, then turned to vigilance and confusion.Then the troubled emotions subsided, he turned around the people around him, and finally looked at Osamu Dazai who was sitting closest:

"you know me?"

Ah, as expected of Odasaku.

The 20-year-old black-haired youth thought, unconsciously scratching the edge of the windbreaker twice with his fingers.

But it seems that there are many more memories lost than Miyuki... In the case of Miyuki, it should only be three days, plus some scattered parts?

Then the thought came to him again.

"Odasaku," finally Osamu Dazai said, without introducing himself immediately, "Can you tell me, what year is the last memory in your mind?"

***

"It's a bit of a surprise, Odasaku only remembers the beginning of the Dragon Head War." Dazai Osamu sighed to the person in front of him, "Is it because of the memory of 'adopting|children', or the memory of 'encountering Miyuki'?"

In a fairly tidy bedroom, there was a standard-sized double bed against the wall.There was an untied tatami mat in the corner, as if someone had just taken a nap.

The black-haired young man sat on the edge of the bed, reaching out to stroke the hair of the person on the bed.The black hair was completely loose, and when it slipped over the fingertips, it felt cool and moist.

This is Seragaki Miyuki who has been in the state of "falling asleep" or "coma" for nearly a year.

From the edge of the cliff last year, she used supernatural powers to run wild and eliminated all the enemies within 5 minutes—except for Sakai, there was also another group of guys who were caught by Osamu Dazai and came late—— Afterwards, the price of copying "dirty" for a short time made her sleep until today.

And it seems that it is very likely to continue to sleep like this.

"It's a good thing you're more at ease," the young man curled her hair under his fingertips, and his tone couldn't tell whether it was a joke or a serious one, "Otherwise, I'd definitely take care of you in the first week and send you to the hospital. "

After Seragaki Miyuki fell into a coma, of course no one paid attention.Excluding the vigorous "retirement" declaration to the outside world, her relatives and best friends came to her door almost the next day.

Including Cang Ye who rushed from Bidao to Yokohama, and their parents who just climbed out of some deep mountain and old forest.There is also Liudao Nagi, one of the guardians of the Italian Mafia Vongola, who rushed back after hearing that the honeymoon was not over, causing her new husband to have a subtle expression.

After all, Rokudoku doesn't know Miyuki Seragaki, let alone has any extra sympathy.

The number of visitors in the LME is not limited to dozens. They just sent flowers when they came. When Dazai Osamu "transferred" them to Ango Sakaguchi, the car that transported the flowers was a Chinese truck.

A group of people came and went back and forth, and there were actually only a few people who stayed here from the beginning to the end.

In the end, after thoroughly ascertaining Miyuki Seragaki's situation, and by the way, Sakunosuke Oda was brought over to sit in a row with her, but he was still left at Osamu Dazai's place.

Because Osamu Dazai said that Miyuki asked him to take care of herself.

This is not a lie, and of course Miyuki Seragaki's original words are definitely not like that.Anyway, Osamu Dazai finally achieved his goal, even if he couldn't explain it clearly, what was he thinking about having a beautiful woman who didn't eat, drink, grow, change, and even her hair and nails didn't grow anymore?

Although he always shouted to find a beautiful woman to die in love, Osamu Dazai was convinced that he had no interest in taking care of a person in the literal sense.

After thinking about it, the black-haired young man could only blame it on his being in a good mood that day.

After leading people away from that cliff, Osamu Dazai could no longer recall what kind of emotion he had when he dragged Miyuki to die in love.It's probably like a person's heartbeat at a certain moment, but it turns out that all inexplicable impulses will disappear faster than the moment of birth.

If I had to say what was left behind, it would probably be very subtle and indescribable... Depressed.

It's like after many failed suicide attempts, one day I finally want to die from the bottom of my heart.And for this reason, all possible obstacles have been cleaned up, and every step has been planned.

Then when I was about to jump off the roof, I tripped over a slight protrusion on the edge of the concrete floor.

Maybe he fell down and died in the end, maybe because he fell on the edge of the roof.But no matter what it is, this suicide will inevitably become the most profound one in memory.

Dazai Osamu looked at the sleeping Seragaki Miyuki, and felt that his mood at the moment probably resembled an attempted suicide in this situation.

Just like him, he will never forget the last words this woman said when she fell down with blood on her face at the end of her rampage:

"The next time I open my eyes, if I can see Dazai-san... that would be great."

Inexplicable words, inexplicable waywardness and self-assertion.

Just like Seragaki Miyuki, who is full of lies, duplicity, eyes chasing unknown things in the other side, and can never tell the truth from the truth.

When the mask on his face was ripped off, and he was exposed to the sun and the eyes of others for the first time, he instinctively wanted to escape.

If you can't escape, even if you choose the way of getting bloody, you have to hide yourself again.

***

In the first year, Osamu Dazai thought: After Seragaki Miyuki woke up, he would sell this place and live in a house closer to the detective agency.

The rent in Tokyo has long been due, and he never thought about renewing the lease.In other words, from the beginning to the end, no matter how he changed his residence and work place, Dazai Osamu never planned to leave the old land of Yokohama.

The woman sleeping in his room will leave by then, after all her career is rooted in Tokyo.Considering their respective attitudes towards their "predecessors", it may not be possible to break the relationship from now on.

But there won't be any more, he's sure.As people who also shy away from trouble, they probably wouldn't even see each other again if there wasn't a real coincidence.

In the second year, Osamu Dazai began to repeatedly recall the short three months they spent together.

The initial approach was of course deliberate, and in fact it was hard to say whether it was a coincidence later on.Or it gradually became something more like a habit, and even Dazai Osamu didn't need to be dispatched, the other party would come to him spontaneously.

Judging by secular standards, Seragaki Miyuki is indeed a good friend, and they are even very similar in some places.

She understands many of his ideas, can keep up with most of his plans, and will only be more excited when facing his impromptu performances.She also doesn't pay a second glance at some of his behaviors that are regarded as weird.

Of course, she has done so-called weird things herself, no less than him.

They also had an in-depth chat about his experience of committing suicide, and discussed writing a book "The Wonderful Story of Incomplete Suicide".It should be said that it was not just a discussion. Two weeks after that incident, she sent him a manuscript:

"Mr. Dazai, please give me some advice, it is best to add some details."

That was Chapter 1 named "The Wonderful Story of Incomplete Suicide".

Then Osamu Dazai thought, if she wasn't lying here now, maybe the book would have been published.

In the third year, Seragaki Miyuki was still sleeping.

One day Osamu Dazai suddenly thought, is it true that she will never wake up again as she said when she activated the supernatural power?

When this idea appeared in his mind, the black-haired young man who was about to turn 22 was suddenly captured by some strange emotion.

It seems to be infinite loss and dull pain, but also seems to be indescribable happiness and satisfaction.

Osamu Dazai thought of the last day of the variety show after the two met for the second time, at the bottom of the two-meter-deep swimming pool.At that time, he jumped down on purpose, because he was not sure whether the woman in front of him, who seemed to be full of scripts, was really as simple as she appeared.

So he jumped down and imagined many possibilities after that.

She quickly swam down and approached him quickly, as if swimming towards the deep sea in the sparkling waves.Then he saw her expression in the sea water, the sad emotion was extremely real, as if they were a pair of lovers tormenting each other.

At that moment, Osamu Dazai confirmed one thing:

She is crazy.

Only such a lunatic can rescue a person who has never heard of it, knows good and evil, and is created by vain imagination and brain supplementation, a stranger who has known each other for three years.

Therefore, Oda Sakunosuke must still be alive.

Great.

On the day Dazai Osamu passed his 22nd birthday, Oda Sakunosuke gave him a novel written by himself.

The novel is only a semi-finished product. According to Oda Sakunosuke, it is just "scattered notes with no value or connotation that he wrote for himself."It even contains a lot of troubles about taking care of children. After all, a month ago, a 27-year-old unmarried young man had just adopted a pair of twins he picked up.

It is a pair of dragon and phoenix twins. It is said that the elder brother was born 10 minutes earlier, and the younger sister who does not look much alike.

That night, Osamu Dazai finished reading Oda Saku's novel seriously.Then he suddenly thought of something, and rummaged through his messy "inventory".

"Ah, found it."

He said to himself, and opened the thin printed volume—"The Strange Story in the Process of Incomplete Suicide", which only has the cover, table of contents and two chapters.

The black-haired young man looked at the paper in his hand, and suddenly felt an inexplicable smile welling up in his heart.

Then he laughed uncontrollably, his voice getting louder and louder.Laughing so hard that the paper clenched in his hands crumpled, and laughing so hard that tears flowed out.

"Mr. Dazai, please give me some advice, it is best to add some details."

"I'm sorry, but I'm also very angry. I don't plan to die with you. Let Mr. Dazai live alone."

"The next time I open my eyes, if I can see Dazai-san... that would be great."

"You must, live seriously."

No matter what it is that has the value to pursue, it is doomed to be lost the moment it is obtained.

If you don't want to lose it, you have to take the thing you love with you at the moment you get it, and go to the eternal and irreversible death.

This is what Osamu Dazai thinks of as love.On the edge of the cliff three years ago, he "loved" a person for the first time; watching that person leave a plausible sentence, he closed his eyes in front of him.

Now, three years later, she was sleeping beside him, and he suddenly understood everything.

If you really never wake up again, it will be the best nightmare I've ever had.

I love you.I will love you like this, love you who will never leave.

Then, one day in the future, I found that my love, like every pair of sad lovers, has passed irretrievably...

The black-haired young man thought seriously, and slowly walked to the bed, leaned over and hugged the sleeping woman into his arms.

I will take you together to complete the martyrdom that we did not complete back then.

The author has something to say: Then the heroine woke up.

So Dazai-kun, a lively lover and a corpse lover, which one would you choose?

Osamu Dazai (Survival MAX): I choose the one in front of me.

***

①The name of the novel, here is a metaphor, so quotation marks are used

Because the beginning of this chapter quoted nearly 300 words of non-original content, it was not processed in order not to damage the integrity of the article.When the next chapter is updated, I will put more than [-] words in my speech for everyone to watch for free.

muah.

***

Congratulations to Dazai for completing the final self-guided strategy during the three years of the heroine's death.

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Next is the last volume, which is also the last third of the full text.Let's engage in ♂ and Buteizai to formally confirm the relationship.Then eat some candy without a knife, and after uncovering the foreshadowing of the heroine's life experience, a consummated he is ushered in.

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