Confessions of a retired star

The incident happened after Zhu Shisi returned home, Zhu Mingchang was out of town, Meng Tang went to the hospital to take care of her younger sister, and Zhu Shisi was the only one at home.

Zhu Shisi took a bath first and helped Meng Tang with some housework. It was still early before bedtime, and he planned to review today's learning content.

Opening his schoolbag, he found that the thin copy of "Tenderness Like Water" was in his homework book, and he probably got it in by accident when he was packing his schoolbag.

Zhu Shisi wanted to put it back in his schoolbag and return it to Fang Shuyun when he went to school tomorrow, but he accidentally opened the cover with his hands.

Xiaoshi, Alan, lover, gay, gay.

Zhu Shisi's eyes fell on these words, and he became hot for no reason. He couldn't help turning the pages of the book, and sank into the black printing.

The wet pain in his pants brought him back to his senses. It was almost one o'clock in the morning, and he realized that he had been wandering for a long time in the short twenty thousand words.

A certain part was throbbing and trembling, and Zhu Shisi couldn't tell which part it was, so he went to take a bath again that night.

Turning off the light and laying down under the quilt, recalling the words in the book, the sound of heartbeat was obvious at night, Zhu Shisi's head ached soberly.

That night, he understood why he was not as interested in the opposite sex as his peers.

It turns out he likes men.

In the morning, Zhu Shisi was woken up by the alarm clock as usual, got out of bed at 05:30, left the house at [-]:[-], and arrived at school at [-]:[-].

He didn't dream of anything that night, the short sleep kept him excited before going to bed, his heart rate was still high, he wasn't sleepy, and he was even more awake than before.

Before dawn, the campus was shrouded in white mist. In the hazy water vapor, the classroom on the third floor above the teaching building was dimly lit, and Fang Shuyun had already arrived.

At 32:33, Zhu Shisi walked into the teaching building, and at [-]:[-], Zhu Shisi arrived in the classroom.

During this 1-minute gap, he was struggling with one thing while going upstairs.

He wanted to confide and urged Zhu Shisi to tell Fang Shuyun about his new discovery, but it only took him three steps to dispel this dangerous idea.

Fang Shuyun, after reading your "Tenderness Like Water", I found out that I am gay.

Tell him such inexplicable words?So nervous.

The voice-activated light in the stairwell went out, Zhu Shisi sneered, and the light turned on again.

What he struggled with wasn't whether to reveal his budding sexuality, but how he acted like a whistleblower, trying to tell a friend of less than a week about the appalling thing.

why?Is Fang Shuyun too unique, or is there something wrong with him?

Walking into the classroom, Fang Shuyun was cleaning the sink of the water dispenser.

Zhu Shisi's footsteps were very light. He silently walked to the third row from the bottom and pulled away the stool. Only then did Fang Shuyun notice him.

"Why are you a few minutes late today?"

"……over slept."

"Did you rest late yesterday?"

"It's not too late, I went to bed early."

"Then why...?"

"I have to stay in bed occasionally," Zhu Shisi interrupted Fang Shuyun, "Don't ask, I want to study."

Fang Shuyun wiped the sink, turned to Zhu Shisi, didn't see his uncomfortable expression, and didn't see the book "Tenderness Like Water" in Zhu Shisi's hand, he cleaned it lightly, and stopped talking.

The classroom suddenly became very quiet. Zhu Shisi spread out the English book, but couldn't read it at all.He pressed "Tenderness Like Water" under the textbook, touched its hard edges and corners with his fingertips, and felt a tiny pleasure of enjoying the secret exclusively in his heart.

A few minutes later, he couldn't help but say, "Fang Shuyun."

Fang Shuyun responded, wiped off the water on his hands, and sat next to Zhu Shisi: "What's wrong?"

He was wearing a blue and white long-sleeved school uniform outside, and the chestnut-scented sweater inside. Zhu Shisiben planned to return the book to him, but when he saw the sweater, he thought of the time when the two of them read the book together yesterday afternoon. The situation, Zhu Shisi changed his words: "Cleaning the water dispenser is something that students on duty do, why do I always see you doing it?"

"Ah?" Fang Shuyun was a little surprised by Zhu Shisi's question, he quickly laughed, "My seat is near the water dispenser, so I cleaned it easily, thank you for caring about me."

Zhu Shisi squeezed the "Tenderness Like Water" at the bottom of the English book, gave a perfunctory "Yes", and returned to the text, but his eyes were fixed on the same paragraph.

Fang Shuyun noticed his abnormality and approached Zhu Shisi: "You are a bit strange today."

The heat source hit, Zhu Shisi stiffened his upper body, and leaned slightly to the side: "That's because you came earlier than me, I feel... a sense of frustration, I'm not happy."

"That's it..." Fang Shuyun looked at Zhu Shisi's red ears, and nodded thoughtfully, "I didn't read in the classroom, you study for 5 minutes first, and then I study, so you will feel better ?”

Unexpectedly, Fang Shuyun took the lie he told as the truth, Zhu Shisi lowered his head, his ears became redder: "If you want to learn, learn together."

He put the paper and pen in front of Fang Shuyun: "Come silently write the English text you learned last week and see who can write faster."

Zhu Shisi wrote quickly, trying to hide his unnaturalness, Fang Shuyun wrote two lines aside, then put down his pen: "Actually, I want to tell you something..."

The tip of the pen paused, and Zhu Shisi became nervous. Could it be that Fang Shuyun discovered "Tenderness Like Water" hidden under the English book?

"What's the matter?" Zhu Shisi continued to write silently, but the speed was obviously much slower.

"That's it..." Fang Shuyun hesitated, which made Zhu Shisi even more nervous, "Can you not go to cram school next semester?"

"Not going to cram school?" Zhu Shisi put down his pen, and the cold sweat on his back dissipated, "Why?"

Fang Shuyun sat upright and looked at Zhu Shisi seriously: "We are at the same level. Studying together is much more efficient and more targeted than tutoring outside. We discuss questions that we don't know before asking the teacher. It is better to rely on the teacher."

"Well, that's right..."

What Fang Shuyun said makes sense. The cost of cram schools is very high. If there is a way to save money and improve grades, it is not impossible to try it.

"You think about it."

Fang Shuyun didn't put pressure on Zhu Shisi, other students came in one after another in the classroom, they sat leaning against each other for a while, Fang Shuyun returned to his seat.