Confessions of a retired star

Time to prove yourself?

This sentence made Zhu Shisi puzzled, so he had to follow Fang Shuyun upstairs.

The second floor connected by the wooden escalator exudes a faint fragrance. Fang Shuyun pushed open a dark wooden door, and the light came in from the floor-to-ceiling windows directly in front. book.

The moment the door was opened, a burst of fragrant wind of paper and ink came to his face. Being in the sea of ​​books, Zhu Shisi gasped in amazement.

"Are these your books?"

"Well," Fang Shuyun put the "Tenderness Like Water" back on the bookshelf, and sat on the chair in the middle, "So you believe me, I spend here all the time when I get home from school, and I don't think about studying."

Zhu Shisi raised his eyebrows, randomly picked out a collection of poems that seemed to have not been turned over, and asked: "'What can I use to keep you? I will give you thin streets, desperate sunsets, and wild suburbs. Moon'... what is the next sentence?"

"Test me?" Fang Shuyun stood up with a smile, walked up to Zhu Shisi, and calmly replied: "'I will give you the sorrow of a person who has been looking at Lonely Moon for a long time.'"

Zhu Shisi closed the collection of poems in admiration, and looked at Fang Shuyun: "I believe it, you are not an ordinary person, you are a god, and the stars of Wenqu came down to earth."

As he spoke, he sat on another chair, propped his head on his arms, and rubbed his frizzy hair in frustration: "Not only do you study well, but you also have money."

"Rich?" Fang Shuyun also sat next to Zhu Shisi, "Why don't I know?"

"You live in a villa, you have such a beautiful garden, and you have so many books... It would be a lie to say that you don't envy you. This is the first time I've been a guest in a villa when I grow up," Zhu Shisi said. A little red, "My dad works alone to support the family, and lives in the old wedding room allocated by the police force more than ten years ago. It's on the top floor. My bedroom leaks every summer."

Zhu Shisi smiled embarrassedly, Fang Shuyun nodded slightly, and asked, "Your father is a policeman?"

"Well, old detective, my mother used to be a middle school teacher, and later became a housewife." Zhu Shisi looked at Fang Shuyun, "Where are your parents?"

After asking, Zhu Shisi felt that something was wrong. Fang Shuyun didn't live with his parents, so there might be some unspeakable hidden secrets, so he changed his words: "Where are your grandparents?"

Fang Shuyun responded generously: "My family has been university teachers for two generations. My parents divorced when I was two years old. My father remarried abroad. My mother is busy with academics. I have lived with my grandma since I was a child."

"They are all university teachers?" Zhu Shisi focused on the front, "No wonder you study so well, it turns out that they are very strict with you, right?"

Fang Shuyun smiled and shook his head: "No, I grew up in a free-range environment. Although my mother is strict, her focus is not on me. Grandma and grandpa are very casual, and I am basically free from any constraints."

Zhu Shisi didn't quite believe it at first, but he thought of the kindness and easy-going of the two old people, and Fang Shuyun's good temper and assertiveness. He should have both a good environment and a soil for free growth. Zhu Shisi was even more envious.

He muttered: "I'm actually free-ranging too. My parents seldom interfere with me, but I don't let myself go..."

"Haha, what are you talking about?" Fang Shuyun narrowed his eyes with a smile, "You won't let yourself go?"

"Just... I think first in everything. If I relax a little bit, I will panic. When I see others surpassing me, I will get angry and have a headache."

Zhu Shisi explained in a low voice that his frank shame made him dare not look into Fang Shuyun's eyes. This was the first time he admitted his competitiveness in front of outsiders.

Seeing Fang Shuyun watching him silent, Zhu Shisi lowered his head and muttered: "You can laugh if you want to, I know I'm annoying..."

"No." Fang Shuyun took off his glasses, thoughtfully, "I was just thinking, will this long-term tense state bother you?"

"...Yes, of course." Zhu Shisi fixed his gaze on Fang Shuyun's sweater sleeve, "but I'm used to it."

"Then why don't you try to change it, for example..." Fang Shuyun turned sideways and took down a book, "Read with me."

What Fang Shuyun held in his hand was the book "Tenderness Like Water". He flipped a page and read slowly:

"'When Alan said these words, he was very feminine and soft. This made Xiao Shi feel creepy. But when Alan said these words, his hands were behind his back and his legs were crossed, just like a lady, which was a bit seductive. So he frowned and said: Are you a man or a woman. Alan said: It doesn't matter. When you want to love, you are a man, and when you want to receive love, you are a woman Yes. There is nothing less important.'”

"How does what I read make you feel?"

Fang Shuyun put down the book, his deep voice lingered in his ears, he looked more mature without glasses, Zhu Shisi kept staring at his side face, the book mentioned love and men and women, these words made Zhu Shisi uncomfortable , he blushed.

"Well, this..." Zhu Shisi pretended to be thinking, and scratched the back of his itchy hand, "I don't quite understand, no matter what gender you are, you can love, and you can also bear love."

Fang Shuyun nodded and said with a smile: "I don't think what the author expresses is a kind of gender differentiation and confrontation. As Alan said, there is nothing less important than this. Both men and women have the right to choose tenderness like water." .”

"You asked the question," Zhu Shisi also laughed. Fang Shuyun did not lead the topic on love, which made him relax. "What is this book about?"

"Don't you want to read it yourself? It's not long, and you can finish it soon," Fang Shuyun pushed "Tenderness Like Water" to Zhu Shisi's hand, "Try to relax yourself while reading."

Zhu Shisi sat upright, opened the book, the first page made his heart beat wildly, his throat was dry: homosexuality.

Xiaoshi, Alan, lover, gay.

Zhu Shisi looked at Fang Shuyun tremblingly, Fang Shuyun looked back at him naturally, after confirming that the other party was not playing a prank, Zhu Shisi said cautiously: "...I don't like this type very much, let's change it."

"Don't you like it?" Fang Shuyun thought for a while, and understood Zhu Shisi's resistance, "Oh, okay, then let's read something else."

Fang Shuyun got up and brought several novelettes and short stories of different themes, and told Zhu Shisi the highlights of the stories one by one, and also told anecdotes about each author's life.Zhu Shisi's restless mood gradually calmed down, and he discussed the plot with Fang Shuyun while flipping through the book, and most of the afternoon passed quickly.

At 04:30, grandma brought in a plate of fruit, and the two of them had a rest.

"The reversal of the ending of this story is amazing. It's hard to imagine that it was a novel written 100 years ago," Zhu Shisi said in admiration. Turning his face, Fang Shuyun was looking at him and smiling, "What are you happy about?"

Fang Shuyun ate a piece of apple and wiped his hands: "It's the first time I see you are interested in something other than study, it's so rare, I want to share this with the girls in the class, they will be happy to hear it. "

Then Fang Shuyun added another sentence: "There are many people who like you."

"Really," Zhu Shisi felt inexplicably uncomfortable, "You can get along well with girls."

"Maintaining a good relationship with classmates is the monitor's responsibility," Fang Shuyun replied easily, "If you don't want to, I won't tell others. This is a secret between me and you."

"... What kind of secret is it to read an extra-curricular book? You can say it or not."

When Zhu Shisi realized that he was blaming awkwardly, the feeling of unhappiness in his heart became more obvious, but it was subtly different from the previous unhappiness.

"Why is your face a little red?" Fang Shuyun noticed Zhu Shisi's strange expression, and touched his forehead with concern, "Is it too stuffy inside?"

He got up and opened the window, the cold wind of early winter blew in through the gap, the red tide on Zhu Shisi's cheeks cooled down quickly, and he wanted to change the subject quickly.

"I, that, shall I give you something?"

Zhu Shisi went downstairs to find his schoolbag, and his grandparents were watching TV, so they warmly asked him to have dinner.After Zhu Shisi agreed, he went upstairs, tore off a piece of homework, quickly folded out a cow, and drew some dots on the cow's body to form a picture.

Fang Shuyun looked at Zhu Shisi's skillful movements and asked, "So you know how to do handwork? That's amazing."

"For you." Zhu Shisi put the cow next to Fang Shuyun's glasses on the table.

Fang Shuyun picked it up and looked at it carefully: "Why did you give me a cow?"

"Because you're golden..." "Because I'm a Taurus?"

Zhu Shisi was rushed to answer by Fang Shuyun, he lowered his head and said "um", and laughed unconsciously.

"How do you know my birthday?"

"Just listen to what others say..."

"The connection line on it is the star map of Taurus?"

"Well, this one is Aldebaran, this one is Alcyone..."

The topic changed from reading to constellations. When talking about astronomy, Zhu Shisi talked endlessly. At six o'clock, the old man came up and called for dinner, and the two of them went downstairs unsatisfied.

It was dark early in the winter night, and grandma and grandpa didn't stay long. After sitting for a while after dinner, they took Zhu Shisi to the outside of the courtyard and asked him to come and play whenever he was free. Fang Shuyun and Zhu Shisi walked out of the alley to say goodbye to him.

"Go back quickly," Zhu Shisi pushed the bicycle, looked at the collar of Fang Shuyun's sweater, glanced at his Adam's apple that was swallowing, and retracted his gaze, "It's cold outside."

"Okay, text me when you get home."

Fang Shuyun waved his hand, and the earthy fruity fragrance wafted in the cold air again. Zhu Shisi rode on his bicycle, thinking that I would also buy a chestnut-flavored sweater after the Chinese New Year, then turned his head and said softly One sentence: "I always thought that you were also the kind of person who studied crazily in private. It turns out that you are really different from me..."

Zhu Shisi thought that Fang Shuyun had already left, but he was standing there watching him off, his brown sweater looked particularly warm under the streetlight.

"You also let me see another side, I am very happy today."

Fang Shuyun replied from behind, Zhu Shisi pretended not to hear, and rode away quickly with the dragon head in his hand, smiling quietly in the cold wind.

However, the matter did not come to an end. There was another incident that night, which changed Zhu Shisi, or made Zhu Shisi wake up.

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