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[Senior, you may be... just a textbook-style shaking S. 】

Zhao Qingling deeply remembers that when he was studying at the University of Washington, a genius student who had already published two SCI psychology papers in the first semester of his junior year once commented on him like this with a paralyzed face.

Zhao Qingling was very disapproving.

How can someone be innocent like this out of thin air?How can you say that he is shaking S?

He obviously has no hobby at all about things like SM?

Not now.

He didn't want to tie up Cheng Che to drip candles, use a small whip, or make other kinds of sauces.

Although, it is true that there is often a physiological desire to laugh and make him cry, but if it is because of pain that makes him cry, forget it, the heart can't stand it.

[But senior, emotional tremors like yours... are only more trembling than physical tremors, right? 】

Zhao Qingling retorted sternly: "I'm not shaking very much, am I?"

And having said that, what is "emotional shaking"?

He admitted that he was slightly out of his mind.

But as an ordinary human who grew up smoothly in this cruel world, who doesn't have some small, harmless perverted little hobbies in private?

Zhao Qingling has always felt that his "little hobby" is actually not too much.

At best, it's nothing more than liking to bully the person you like emotionally a little bit, not just a little bit.

Only "slightly" really.

He has a clear bottom line and never does anything that is truly excessive.

Even if he is occasionally cold and capricious, he will definitely make up for it with gifts and all kinds of sweetness afterwards.As for saying a few more words with other handsome guys and beautiful women on purpose, anyway, after returning home, they absolutely consciously will not have any follow-up contact.

But it's just... like to make troubles and see the troubled and wronged faces of the other party.

But it's just a bit crooked by nature.

How did it become Shaking S?

[Actually... There are not many people who do a little bit in real life. In many cases, as long as one is willing to fight and the other is willing to cooperate, there is no big problem. 】

[But you are called a senior, but your personal conditions are a bit good, so this is more troublesome. 】

【…】

[Because you think~ You are like this, so no matter who is with you, it is inevitable that you will be a little worried about gains and losses.But you also like to bully others, so that others are under a lot of pressure and will be abused and tortured by you, and it is easy to accumulate negative emotions. 】

[In this way, once you can't control the emotional explosion, the only way is to break up.So let's talk about your problem... you still have to consider changing it, or you may never find a partner for the rest of your life? 】

Such heartfelt words from a senior student in psychology made Zhao Qingling stop seriously for a long time after graduating from graduate school at the age of 25.

Because he felt that what the apprentice said made sense.

Even though he is tall, rich and handsome, with superior conditions and simple and kind (?), but the facts have proved that he is born with such a bad habit of not doing things that make him uncomfortable, and it is really difficult for him to be with anyone for a long time.

The problem is, he also wants to change.

But how to change nature?

If it can be changed, there will be no saying that "the country is easy to change and the nature is hard to change", right?

For a time, Zhao Qingling himself was also in despair.

Sometimes when you think about it, you might as well just forget it, why don't you just bear the scumbag name and be lonely, and don't harm others.

……

But now, holding Cheng Che in bed, Zhao Qingling, who is self-satisfied, can't wait to hurry up and drag his junior back from the psychological counseling volunteer team of the Antarctic scientific research station.

Send text messages, make phone calls, and send videos to bombard that paralyzed face——

Damn it, who said that if I don't change my personality, I can't find a partner for the rest of my life. I just persist in not changing at all. Isn't this how I found a partner? !

Still perfectly ideal.

Very very good.Really, handsome and mature, infatuated and virtuous, obedient and cute... There are no shortcomings at all.No!

It's the kind...the super ideal type who wants to live a good life with him.

Holding Cheng Che in his arms every day, he is like a little white rabbit holding a giant mushroom in the sun, and his heart is full of warm satisfaction.

Most importantly, they have successfully dated for three months now!

For three months, not only did Cheng Che not leave him, but he showed no sign of wanting to leave him!

"~~~" Zhao Qingling deeply felt that he was really lucky.

Catch such a fool.

I have loved him to death since high school, ten years have passed, and I am still so stubborn.

[Senior, I don't mean anything else, but don't you think that such a person, such a relationship...is a little too heavy?Pretty scary? 】

I remember that it was half a year ago, and my junior was planning to go to Antarctica.On the overseas phone call, Zhao Qingling was asked such a question.

It is heavy, of course heavy.

Zhao Qingling also felt that Cheng Che was heavy.

So with that said...

Isn't it just right?great!Isn't the heavy one the best!

In other words, why are some people afraid of heavy?

It's really strange, isn't emotion the heavier and sweeter it is, and the heavier it is, the happier it is?

Not to mention, with his insane character who naturally likes to make troubles - people who are not heavy can't even last half a month with him, right?

……

Zhao Qingling didn't know about other messy things, and didn't want to care about them.

The only thing he knew was that the short three months with Cheng Che had allowed him to experience a level of happiness and satisfaction that he had never experienced in the first half of his life.

All the so-called treasures and satisfactions that I have read in novels and seen in movies, the so-called "having him is like having the whole world", all of which he once thought were just fiction, non-existence, exaggeration and delusion All emotions and feelings have been proven to be real.

Even so happy... there is a sense of trance and unreality.

Before reuniting with Cheng Che, Zhao Qingling once thought pessimistically that maybe among the six or seven billion people in this world, there would be no one suitable for him at all.

After all, he's an idiot inside.

And everyone likes tall, rich and handsome, but they don't like that tall, rich and handsome person who is also an idiot.

So in this world, probably only Cheng Che, who is stupid, single-minded, admits death, and stupid, will not despise him.

"So, I...was I blind back then?"

Recently, Zhao Qingling has often fallen into real regrets.

I can't figure it out, what was I doing when I was in high school?

How could it not be discovered? !

This person was obviously by my side at that time, how could he not notice it at all?

It's obviously such a heavy person - it should be easy to find out, shouldn't it? !

……

Ordinarily, Zhao Qingling is not a very emotionally insensitive person.

But I don't know what's wrong, in those years of high school, I really only treated Cheng Che as an ordinary buddy from the beginning to the end.

The two have been in the same class since entering high school.

Cheng Che's grades are not bad, he is reticent and low-key, he has no obvious advantages except his tall stature, and his face is hidden under black-rimmed glasses all the year round.

Zhao Qingling was completely different from him.

As a popular figure on campus and the captain of the basketball team, he is lively, cheerful, and popular with others. He is called brothers and sisters with a bunch of gangsters in his class every day, but his grades are always stable in the top ten of his grade.

In such a colorful and busy life, it is impossible to notice such an ordinary creature like Cheng Che.

In the first year of high school, the two had no intersection.

It wasn't until the second year of high school that they became close by chance, but Zhao Qingling didn't care too much.After all, he has a lot of younger brothers, and they often go out in groups of three or four. There are many Cheng Ches and few Cheng Ches, so it doesn't make much difference to him.

With such an ordinary level of friendship, of course, he really didn't realize that Cheng Che had a crush on him, or that he was in love with him at all.

It wasn't until the reunion ten years later that Zhao Qingling discovered that in high school, he was probably the only one who didn't know that Cheng Che liked him.

Everyone else knows.

The whole class knows it.