Sugar

After Tang Mi left, Zhao Qingling went up the escalator with her boyfriend.

It was easy to feel that the air pressure around Cheng Che quietly dropped by two pascals.

"Tang Mi... she has become so beautiful."

When Cheng Che said this, his eyes were lowered, and his voice was very soft, as if he was talking to himself.

"Didn't she always look like that?" Zhao Qingling smiled, "Oh, I forgot, you probably haven't seen her since high school. But even if you haven't, it shouldn't be too surprising. Is it also Banhua?"

Cheng Che: "Yes."

The air pressure quietly became lower.

The escalator has reached the end, and there is a small aisle next to the opposite shop. The green light points to the stairwell and the safety exit, and it is quiet.

When they passed the exit side by side, Zhao Qingling suddenly pulled Cheng Che over.

Press the whole person against the cold wall, and there is no one around.

"Baby Cheche," he wrapped his arms around his waist, looking at him seriously, "No matter how good-looking Tang Mi is, she's not half as good-looking as you."

"It's true, Cheche." His eyes were extremely serious, with a smile on his face, all shining inside was him, with infinite sincerity, "You are the prettiest."

"Really, really, I don't lie to you, it's really you who look the best."

As he spoke, he squeezed Cheng Che's wrist, and leaned over to kiss him.

Small hot kisses fell on the forehead and cheeks.

Cheng Che dodged a few times, but couldn't dodge, his voice was a little dry and hoarse.

"Zhao Qingling, what are you doing? You are outside now."

"Yeah, I know, I know, just kiss again, really just! Don't worry, no one will come."

"Let go... I just said it! You!"

"Don't let it go, don't let it go, one more time, don't be so stingy~~"

A certain person is good at playing rascal, and he never let go with a ruffian smile.

But who made him handsome, even with such a naughty smile, he was really pretty when he smiled, with stars in his eyes.

Cheng Che laughed so hard that he lost all energy and was flustered and short of breath.

……

After being frantically slapped up and down in the small aisle where no one passed by, Cheng Che went to the bathroom and straightened his serious shirt and collar.

The messy short hair was also fiddled with again, but unfortunately the eye sockets were still a little red, which looked weird.

He came out with Zhao Qingling today to eat at the newly opened western restaurant in this shopping mall.

The steak in the new restaurant is said to be very delicious, and many people recommend it on the Internet.After the steak came up, it really looked good. It was grilled with butter. The melted butter seeped into the gaps in the meat, and the tempting aroma came bursts.

"Come on, baby, here, ah~"

Cheng Che: "I can cut it myself."

"I know, but I want to cut it for you." Zhao Qingling's face was cute, but the knife and fork in his hands were neat, "I am very good at knives. When I was in school in the United States, I had nothing to eat all day long, so I could only eat. All kinds of pork chops and steaks are very familiar, and I will cut them for you in the future."

"You were in America..."

Cheng Che lowered his head slightly: "It's the same school as Tang Mi, right?"

"Well, different departments, but we can often meet," Zhao Qingling nodded and sighed, "Wow, think about those six years, thanks to Tang Mi for saving me."

"You don't know! I thought 'Washington University' must be in Washington and I just went to it! Who knows that somehow got us to that big rural area in Missouri? It takes four or 10 minutes to drive to a supermarket, and there is no one at all. It’s a decent store, but the problem of eating is going to kill me!”

"Pizza comes and goes all day long. My brain hurts from eating. I finally opened a Chinese restaurant and it was terrible. Fortunately, Tang Mi cooks once a week. At that time, I would go to her place regularly. You Don't look at her clumsy appearance, the noodles with scallion oil are quite delicious, just like those from X County!"

People are good-looking, and the food they make is delicious...

Cheng Che lowered his head and chewed the steak a couple of times, feeling a little overwhelmed.

"I can also make noodles."

Zhao Qingling: "Really?"

"Well, I'll make it for you next time."

"It's just that maybe it's not as delicious as Tang Mi's cooking."

"..."

The rising desire to survive made Zhao Qingling put on a cute face for a second: "No, no, no, it must be the most delicious. Oh, by the way, don't bother eating steak, here, wine, to celebrate our [-]th day of dating ,cheers!"

"One hundred days?"

"Well, Cheche, we have been together for [-] days, today is the anniversary."

Cheng Che was stunned, something bright flashed in his eyes.

On the opposite side, Zhao Qingling suddenly put down the fork, with a pitiful face: "Don't you remember such an important day? Woo, sad~"

Cheng Che panicked, "Sorry."

Zhao Qingling turned his head: "Hmph."

Cheng Che panicked even more: "Qingling, I..."

"how?"

"I……"

"Pfft." A hand on the opposite side stretched out to his head, rubbing him with a bright smile.

"I'm just kidding you! Look at you, you're still so silly, you take it seriously when you tease it. It's really okay~ I just remember that it's okay for these days, okay, eat quickly or you'll get cold! Come on, ah—— "

Cheng Che was stuffed with a mouthful of steak, so he could only lower his eyes and chew desperately.

While chewing, I was a little silently desperate.

Because once again, he realized deeply that facing the man in front of him, he really... has no resistance at all.

Whether it's pretending to be pitiful, looking at him tenderly, loving caressing, or the big, evil and innocent smiling face in front of him, it's enough to make him flustered and at a loss.

……

The wine for that meal had a bit of stamina.

Cheng Che drank too much and his world was spinning.

In the taxi, the whole person kept leaning against Zhao Qingling, his hair limply rubbing against Zhao Qingling's neck.

Zhao Qingling sighed, grabbed his shoulders, and complained softly:

"Just keep telling you, you worked too much overtime a while ago! Don't believe me, no, you can't do it if you drink so much! Be good, sleep on my shoulder for a while, and then I will hug you to bed when I go home to catch up on sleep. "

Cheng Che gave a soft "um" and leaned against him in a daze.

Zhao Qingling lowered his head.

As if observing some cherished small animal, he carefully observed his sleeping face.

It was a serious, handsome face that was not obvious at first glance, but definitely became more handsome with each passing day.

It's a pity that after taking off the black-rimmed glasses, faint dark circles could be clearly seen in the hollows of the eye sockets. He looked a little tired, which made Zhao Qingling a little distressed.

He suddenly remembered that last night, he woke up from hunger for some reason in the middle of the night, got up and went to the refrigerator to find something to eat, and just as he took out a frozen baguette, Cheng Che grabbed him by the collar from behind.

That person has been working overtime all day recently, and he doesn't come home until after ten o'clock every day, so he doesn't get enough sleep at all.

But when he saw him eating bread, he didn't want to, so he insisted on making him a supper while feeling sleepy.

However, every time after midnight snack, Zhao Qingling was not sleepy at all.

So Cheng Che had to accept his endless molestation and sexual harassment half-dead.

Thinking of how this guy was so annoyed that he hid under the quilt and hit him with a pillow desperately in the middle of the night last night, Zhao Qingling couldn't help but chuckled, and tenderness appeared in his eyes.

It's great, together like this, every day is very satisfying.

"Cheche, I like you the most." He said softly.

"Hmm..." Cheng Che seems to have heard it in a daze, and he answered in a vague way, and wanted to respond to him, so he was trying to open his eyes.

Zhao Qingling hurriedly kissed his forehead.

"Hey, you sleep and you sleep, I won't disturb you."

He clearly said not to disturb, but then he bowed his body and lowered his head, and secretly pecked the colorless thin lips.

On the lips, if there is nothing, there is still some sweetness of the wine just now.

……

When I got home, I carried him out of the car and carried him to bed.

After setting it up and pulling the blackout curtains, Zhao Qingling quickly took a shower by himself, and even reluctant to dry himself, he rolled into the bed and hugged the bear.

The curtains are tight, and the surroundings are as dark as night.

The warmth in his arms was the body temperature of his beloved, and Zhao Qingling soon fell into a sweet dream.

In the dream, he returned to the year when he was 14 years old.

That year Zhao Qingling was in the second year of junior high school.

Although his grades are excellent, as a young man with a vigorous spirit, this does not prevent him from always playing black games with a few buddies after school every day.

One day, when he was about to reach the Internet cafe, a younger brother whispered to his ear: "Brother Ling, that little girl is following you again."

Zhao Qingling turned his head and saw Tang Mi hiding in the corner.

Zhao Qingling is not a fool, the little girl who lives across the street likes him, he already knew it.

It's a pity that for boys in the second grade of junior high school, Internet cafes and games are of course more fun than the "likes" of pretty girls of the same age.

During that semester, cross-stitch became inexplicably popular in the class.

Many girls began to quietly embroider schoolbag pendants for boys they like.Tang Mi is also embroidering the team logo of Zhao Qingling's favorite NBA team.

Seeing that the work was about to be completed, he was caught by the teacher while stealing embroidery in class, and his things were confiscated.

It happened that Zhao Qingling's parents were not at home during those few days, so he was sent to Tang Mi's house for lunch, so that after school he had to wait patiently for Tang Mi who was dragged to the office by the teacher and reprimanded harshly.

After finally waiting, Tang Mi looked pitiful with red eyes, like a rabbit.

Walking halfway, he began to cry aggrievedly.The tears were crystal clear and kept falling.

"..."

On that day, Zhao Qingling's heart beat for the first time in his life.

For many years later, Zhao Qingling mistook Tang Mi for his "first love".

Even after the two broke up, they thought it was because they were young and ignorant that they messed up the relationship, so they chased him to the big rural areas of the United States for six years.

Now that I think about it, that was not the case at all, at all.

……

Zhao Qingling is 28 years old this year.

His understanding of himself is no longer as ignorant and superficial as it was back then.

Now he is very aware of what kind of piss he is.Anyway, if he had met a psychopath like "Zhao Qingling", he would never want to fall in love with this psychopath.

Zhao Qingling now understands very well - the person he liked back then was never Tang Mi.

What he likes is just the little girl's cute and pitiful appearance with red eyes when she sheds tears.

In fact, when Tang Mi laughed, she was much more beautiful than when she cried.

It's a pity that Zhao Qingling couldn't appreciate it.

Because what he wants to see and likes is always only the pitiful appearance of the girl who is aggrieved when she shakes her tears.

Since seeing her cry for the first time, he has been waiting by her side every day, only wanting to wait for the day when she has red eyes like a bunny again.

It's a pity that I can't wait, so Zhao Qingling decided that since she didn't cry...

Then he'll make something up and make her cry!

……

Zhao Qingling didn't know what kind of mental illness he had.

When other people fall in love, they all like to see their lover smile like a flower.

But what has always made his heart skip a beat and make his whole body feel comfortable is always the appearance of his sweetheart who is at a loss, at a loss, dejected, pear blossoms and rain.

That's why, no matter when she was with Tang Mi or when she was with other people later, no matter what kind of beginning it was, she would end up repeating the same routine——

From a model boyfriend, he gradually evolved into a hopeless "scumbag".

Indulging in doing things, doing everything possible to make the other party jealous, thinking of 1 ideas to piss the other party off.

In short, no matter what, it is necessary to make the other party's eyes and nose red, so that he will be happy and satisfied.

……

Of course Zhao Qingling knew that the brain circuits of normal people did not go so crookedly like this.

When normal people like someone, they want that person to be happy.

Sometimes it is even better to sacrifice one's own happiness to fulfill one's lover-to be reasonable, this is in line with the core values ​​of socialism, and it is the "great love" that the main theme sings.

But to no avail.

"Theory" is always just a theory, and the nature cannot be suppressed.

Only by making people anxious and crying can they feel truly "happy".

It was an eerily satisfying neurotic experience that is hard to describe.

In short, only after he has bullied the person well, can he be as satisfied as if he had eaten a delicious meal. From then on, he will obediently stop being a monster for a while, and restore his gentle and considerate nature to be a perfect boyfriend.

And when the aftertaste of pleasure is digested by time, after a while, he can't help stretching out his claws again.

On the verge of death, he repeatedly tested, found faults, caused troubles, and made people cry.

And so on and on.

……

Of course, such habitual depravity obviously has consequences.

Because as long as it is a normal person, it will be unbearable in the end.

Even if he liked him starkly at the beginning, after experiencing the psychological gap of being praised to the sky and then fell to the ground several times, he would hate his capricious "playing".

Ever since, the rich and handsome Zhao Qingling was often dumped and was infinitely single.

Even so, it is still stubborn.

……

When Zhao Qingling woke up with Cheng Che in his arms that day, it was already past six o'clock in the evening.

The person in his arms is still awake.

Zhao Qingling lightly turned on the bedside night light, looked at the sleeping face of the man in his arms, his eyes were as gentle as water and full of fascination.

He is reminiscing.

Looking back at noon, Cheng Che saw Tang Mi's expression at that moment.

To be fair, Tang Mi is indeed pretty.

Even if the weather was uncharacteristically cold these two days, she had to wear an old camel-colored coat that was full of the age of Mrs. Tang, but this 50-year-old aunt's attire could not stop the delicate and lovely gleaming from the inside out. people.

The moment he saw her appearance clearly, Cheng Che was obviously overwhelmed by such beauty.

In the eyes under the black-framed glasses, there is nowhere to hide, panic, unwillingness, obscurity, and jealousy.

That's it...it's just, it's just.

As a qualified psychopath, Zhao Qingling's liver trembled because of his boyfriend's cuteness on the spot.

So, he silently watched Cheng Che's back as he walked towards Tang Mi tenderly throughout the whole process, seeing that fool who cared so much but pretended not to care, bit the bullet and went to say hello to Tang Mi.

...His family is so complete, he is really stupid.

I'm afraid he still thinks that Tang Mi is that cinnabar mole that he can't forget in his heart.

Don't even think about it, don't say that Tang Mi has already been engaged to someone else, just say that he loves him so much now, clings to him so much, and is so obedient every day, what is there to drink from this old vinegar?

Thinking of this, Zhao Qingling lowered his head, and rubbed the tip of the nose of the man in his arms affectionately with a smile in the dim light of the night light.

Really silly.

Still jealous and depressed?I'm so stupid that I can't help it.

Ahhh, you are so handsome, so good, and so alluring, why are you still not confident, and always feel that you are not good enough and not worthy of him?

Such a stupid man, he has to take good care of him, otherwise he will be bullied by others.

With that in mind, hurry up and hug him tightly.

Do not give it to others.

I can only be bullied by myself, bullied by myself for the rest of my life, no one will give it to me!

However, even though he was full of tenderness, Zhao Qingling did not intend to clarify to any extent with Cheng Che about the fact that he had never really liked Tang Mi and the fact that he was actually a psychopath.

Can't clarify.

Because, Cheche's jealous and dark look... is so cute.

Not to mention the little depression and occasional nervousness that worry about gains and losses, it is so cute that he has a heart attack!

So to put it bluntly, he really enjoys Cheng Che's clumsiness and stupidity, that kind of desperation that he likes him and wants to be with him even though he is suffering so much.

... build your own happiness on the suffering of others.

Zhao Qingling hugged the person in his arms tightly, thinking, I'm not only a fucking psycho, but also a selfish psycho.

It's good that this fool is still willing to love him foolishly.

The author has something to say: the train of thought is so clear, hey (cover face)