[Comprehensive] Martyrdom is not a good civilization

"Little Ayako, get up."

Dazai's pleasant voice is right next to my ears, but when I heard it early in the morning when I was sleeping soundly, I just wanted to cover my ears and get under the covers.

"Sleep again... 5 minutes..."

Dazai sat on the pillow, poking my cheek with his finger: "Xiao Ayako said the same thing 10 minutes ago."

Covering my face, I arched my body and buried it on the big rabbit, with a weak voice: "I'm just so sleepy, Mr. Dazai..."

Huh... There seems to be a heat surge under his body.My eyes widened in shock, and I grabbed my phone to look at the recording software in a daze.

——0 days before your menstrual period.

There are still 0 days, isn't it today? !

"What's wrong, Ayako?"

"Mr. Dazai, can you avoid it for a while?" I pulled the quilt over my face without tears, and looked at Dazai with only a pair of eyes in embarrassment.

Dazai looked at it for a moment, then showed a clear expression: "Okay, I'll go outside and wait for Ayako."

I slowly got up from the bed, tidied the sheets and changed the fat times, my whole body was like a waste and I didn't want to move at all.

My fingers were a little cold, so I turned off the air conditioner, put on my school uniform jacket, and sat down at the dining table with a dull face.

I peeled off the tea egg and picked out the yolk inside, poking off a small piece with my chopsticks while holding my face: "Mr. Dazai, eat the tea egg."

"Well…"

Choked?So I really hate eating egg yolks.I quickly poured warm water into the bottle cap and handed it to Dazai.

Dazai gulped and drank it all in one breath, with a slightly nasal tone in his reddish eyes: "I don't want to try suicide like choking to death at all."

Dazai's kite-colored eyes glowed with water, and microwaves flowed deep in the pupils. As I looked at it, a terrible thought suddenly sprouted.

"Mr. Dazai, who is in the current body shape, can you give me the body after death?"

"Ok?"

"Mr. Dazai must look very nice when he is made into a doll and placed in the window. I will change you into nice clothes and bask in the sun with you on sunny days."

"If it's Ayako...you can."

My chin was resting on the back of my hand, and I was lying on the dining table as if I had no bones.The height of his eyes was exactly the same as Dazai's eye level, and I saw his well-defined eyelashes trembling in a large arc, and the smile on the corner of his mouth was inexplicable.

I was silent for a moment, realizing that I seemed to be out of my head and said something very inappropriate.

"Sorry... Mr. Dazai is cuter if he is alive and kicking."

Dazai reached out to poke the tip of my nose in dissatisfaction: "I answered Ayako very seriously."

"So, I also sincerely apologize to Mr. Dazai."

I looked directly at Dazai, and finally he looked away first, and sighed helplessly: "Okay, forgive you."

The episode at the dinner table came to an end, and the atmosphere quickly returned to the initial laziness.

The school started at 08:30 in the morning, and the aunt who delivered the breakfast arrived at [-] o'clock. I gnawed on the buns and reached for the soy milk.

Dazai held down my hand reaching for the soy milk, he shook his head with a serious expression: "No, the soy milk is already cold."

"Okay, let's go to the kitchen."

Skillfully picked up Dazai and put him on my shoulders, I carried the bowl to the kitchen to heat it up.

The microwave hums and I yawn sleepily against the wall.

Many girls suffer from dysmenorrhea. Fortunately, although I will be tired, sleepy and lazy, the number of pains can be counted on the fingers.

I stared at the bowl circling in the microwave and my mind went blank.

Dazai sat on my shoulder and tugged at my earlobe: "Little Ayako, the soybean milk is ready."

"Oh, good."

The soy milk is fragrant, but I suddenly don't want to drink hot ones, and even want to have a popsicle too much.It's just so strange that things that I usually don't want to eat can't be eaten at extraordinary times.

I scooped up the soy milk and blew it lightly, put one hand under the spoon and brought it to Dazai.

"Mr. Dazai drinks soy milk."

Dazai pushed the spoon away in disgust: "Tsk, it's so sweet! Ayako drinks it by herself."

I sipped my breakfast when I suddenly discovered a blind spot.

"Mr. Dazai, what did you do with the laundry last night?"

Dazai had already changed out of his pajamas when he woke up in the morning, and I remember his clothes hanging on the wooden chopsticks between the two cups after washing.

"I went to the bathroom and dried it with a hairdryer."

"It's a bit heavy to worry about in the morning."

"I just don't want Ayako to see it anymore~" Dazai waved his bandaged left hand, smiling innocently.

Dazai was only wearing a white shirt, without the blazer and tie, and he looked like the little brother next door.

"Just don't want me?"

"Because I care about Xiao Ayako's opinion." Dazai sat obediently beside the breakfast, pointing to the soy milk in the bowl, "Xiao Ayako didn't finish her drink."

"…Oh."

Is Dazai speaking in a wrong tone?I shook my dizzy head and stopped thinking about it.

After taking a sip of the soy milk on the table, I took the tissue Dazai pulled out to wipe my mouth, and couldn't help but sigh: "Mr. Dazai is so considerate today, did he secretly do something bad?"

"... Cough, no." Dazai scratched his cheek and turned his face to the side, revealing his red ears.

"Eh? Are you still saying that your ears are red?" I poked Dazai's ear and teased wickedly.

Dazai jumped on my shoulder, pulled my hair and said in a flattering tone, "Xiao Ayako, it's time for school."

"Will Dazai-san go to school with me?"

"Yeah~ Watching the house alone is boring."

"That's all right, obediently don't make trouble."

"Okay."

When I arrived at the class, almost all the students in the class had come, and the air conditioner was turned on in the classroom, and the air-conditioning that hit my face made me feel a little uncomfortable.

"Sakura Valley, good morning!"

"Good morning, Ryota." I greeted Kise Ryota with a smile, and carefully put Dazai's schoolbag on the desk.

I am in the same class as Kise Ryota, and the seats are not far away. I mistakenly thought he was a very frivolous type of boy before, but I didn’t get to know him until recently to clear up the misunderstanding.

I put the books in a pile on the right side. Outside the window on the right side, teachers often pass by during class. Although I am in the back row, the teacher can still see everything in a glance.

"Sakura, what are you doing?"

"...I want to catch fish in class today, so prepare in advance."

I am used to taking whatever books I take for each class, and the desk is very clean.But most of the classmates in the class have a lot of books piled up on their desks, so it's not conspicuous for me to do so now.

"Oh."

Satisfied with his curiosity, Atsushi Ziyuan retracted his head and dozed off on the desk.

I took a deep breath to stabilize my little heart that was frightened by Dun, took out the pencil case lightly, and carefully opened the zipper like a thief.

I threw the pens out of the pencil case, and put a few soft towels on it for Dazai to sit inside.

The zipper of the pencil case is only half closed. In order to prevent Dazai from suffocating and successfully becoming a doll in my window, I even tried my best to stuff two green leaves inside to absorb carbon dioxide.

Now Dazai is lying curled up sideways on a light blue soft towel, with green leaves covering his head and brushing the tip of his nose as he breathes, Dazai wrinkled his nose from time to time, looking funny and cute.

I took a photo and set it as a screen saver, giving me a vague illusion that I finally have a cat.

After taking the photo, I reached out to brush off the green leaves on Dazai's face, but I didn't want him to pinch my fingertips.

Dazai opened his eyes, the kite-colored eyes were distracted for a moment and then focused immediately: "It's Ayako..."

"uh-huh."

The first class is English class, the English teacher is a young female teacher, she speaks softly, and several students in the back row have been immersed in their dreams for a long time.

I took a couple of notes and glanced at Dazai in the pencil case, and in the end I didn't even think about listening to the class.

Dazai may have rolled around in the pencil case twice, and the shirt on his body is a little wrinkled. Maybe I can go to the baby clothes store to pick out some clothes for him after school?

Custom-made doll clothes are time-consuming, and I don't know if there are any ready-made clothes suitable for Dazai.

Thinking about it, I was suddenly excited, and I only hoped that the time would come to night soon.I reached into the pocket of my schoolbag and took out a pack of nuts. I smiled and tore open the opening and stuffed a cashew nut for Dazai.

The cashew nuts were about half the size of Dazai's head. He turned the nuts around and found that he couldn't eat them, so he threw them on the green leaves in disgust.

I hid in the shadow of the pile of books and covered my mouth to prevent myself from laughing out loud: "Pfft..."

Dazai picked up the cashew nuts from the leaves and threw them on me aggressively.

I picked up the cashew nut and stuffed it into my mouth, and gave Dazai a provocative smile.

"Snapped."

I was about to rub Dazai's hair, when a small ball of paper hit my head and landed on the English book, I covered my head and turned around in doubt, Kise Ryota smiled brightly at me.

I turned my head and opened the note. The font on it was the same as Kise Ryo’s character, very lively——can you invite Kosakura to watch our basketball game this weekend?

This, I mentioned it to me in May.But I don't know when Dazai's body will recover. If it is still the same on Friday, tomorrow, I have to go to Yahara to ask Ichimoren-sensei for help.

I picked up the pen and was about to tactfully refuse, when Dazai got out of the pen bag and put a hand on the back of my hand.

I rubbed Dazai's head and began to write—Ryota, the game is added...

"Snapped."

Dazai patted the back of my hand, and I shook my hand and wrote the word "refueling" crookedly.I'm so wronged, why did you hit me for no reason?

Just about to accuse Dazai of his evil deeds, I looked up and saw Dazai showing a kind smile, with a chill behind him.

I crossed out the sentence I just wrote, and re-wrote it on a new line-I have an appointment for the weekend, let's fight hard!

Re-rolling the paper, I smiled apologetically at Kise Ryota and threw the paper back.Kise Ryota's bright smile was visible to the naked eye, and he was lying on the table like a big golden retriever with his tail hanging down, staring at the note in a daze.

What happened to Kise Ryota...

Not looking at Kise anymore, I just want to poke Dazai a few times now.

I lowered my head and complained in a low voice: "Mr. Dazai, you are killing me!"

"…I don't."

"You have! That expression was so fierce just now, I thought you wanted to hit me in the dark!"

"..."

Dazai hesitated for a moment and touched the back of my hand that he just patted, showing a cute smile, but the blackness in his eyes was still full enough to overflow.

I was stunned, did I just do something to make Dazai unhappy?Because of Kise Ryota?

"Mr. Dazai, you are so awkward, why are you not happy to tell me, what happened to Ryota?"

Dazai's smile disappeared, and his voice was soft: "...Yes."

"Hey?"

There was a hint of coolness in Dazai's voice, and his iris-colored pupils fixed on me: "Obviously, I don't have a very close relationship with that Kise Ryota, but Ayako calls him 'Ryota'."

I suddenly realized what Dazai cared about—I had a better relationship with him, but I always called him "Mr. Dazai" coldly.

I called Dazai Mr. Dazai at first because I was not familiar with it, but after a long time, it became a kind of intimacy, so I have not changed it.

So Dazai also cares about this matter?I feel that I have new friends so I am unhappy, really like a child.

My frown was slowly released, and I smiled at him with my eyebrows bent: "So it's like this, I smell a lot of vinegar, Dazai?"

"……Um."