[Comprehensive] Martyrdom is not a good civilization

The siren sounded from a distance, and the penetrating sound cut through the indifferent silence, injecting new vitality into the world.

After Xun left, Xue Nai also left.

Dazai and I held the Ambilight Shard, and the scorching temperature came from it.

I clearly felt that the body seemed to become light and floating, and the density of the whole person became smaller and lighter, and something was transpiring from the inside of the body.

No discomfort, very mysterious feeling.

"Mr. Dazai, we are leaving." The expected ecstasy did not invade my heart, and I even felt bored--the boredom of returning to the bleak, trivial and incomprehensible daily life.

"That's right, there's no way to try innovative suicide methods here. I'm just like the mold growing in the bridge hole." Dazai stretched his body and sighed in a tone, but he couldn't see any emotion on his face, joy or joy. It's not even boring.

I held up the fragments against the sun, and through it, the world was covered with colorful halos, and the colors of life seemed to be more vivid.It's amazing, it's what breeds bright life, and it's also what releases endless darkness.

Looking at Dazai through the fragments, if Dazai is black without any change even if the halo is covered, I am probably gray outside the color, and the color is colorful gray?

"Mold is not as lethal as Mr. Dazai." The scene in my field of vision began to distort, and I pinched the fragments in my palm and looked at Dazai, "Although I don't know if there will be a next time, goodbye Mr. Dazai."

"I'll see you later, Ayako."

Dazai smiled at me.

Like an insomniac who suddenly woke up from a light sleep in the middle of the night, I felt extremely tired after the momentary white light hit, heavier than my physical or mental fatigue. There were black spots in front of my eyes, and I stretched out my hand to support the wall Hold on to your body.

"Well……"

I lowered my head and saw the sandals on my feet and the nightdress I was wearing, and only then did I really feel that I was back.

Rounding up, I stayed there for two full days and disappeared for more than 24 hours. I don’t know if anyone reported me as missing.

Even if there is no reason, it is not a good civilization to be absent from class for no reason, it is really troublesome.

My body relaxed a little, I let go of the hand that was supporting the wall, and moved slightly to leave.

"Huh? What kind of non-flashy gesture are you doing, Ayako?"

There was a sound of footsteps, and someone hurried over and reached out to hold my shoulder, his movements were gentle but the words he said were not very gentle.

"Cousin, why are you here?" I blinked to understand what was going on, Keigo Atobe seemed to think I was going to faint?

"Can't you come over the weekend if you have nothing to do, huh?" Keigo Atobe looked down at me and carefully led me out of the alley.

The temples are swollen and painful, as if someone smashed them with small nails, it hurts very badly.The earth seems to have a special gravitational force on my body, and it attracts the soles of my feet trying to pull me to the ground and bury my body.

I pretended to be innocent and smiled flatteringly at him: "No, of course not. I feel very honored by my cousin's arrival!"

"Don't think I'll let you go if you say good things," Atobe Keigo raised his eyebrows. The mole under his eyes was very aggressive. The expression he made to me since childhood meant that I was going to be unlucky. "Your physique is too poor. If I hadn't come, would you faint here? You're too gorgeous, Ayako, start your morning exercises tomorrow!"

"Yes, yes..." To be honest, facing cousin Jingwu, I feel a sense of awe in front of my old father.

Isn't it just morning exercise, I just happen to be ready to start exercising, this is not a problem at all!

"Don't worry, I'll make you a simple training menu later."

Seeing that I was standing still, Atobe Keigo let go of his hand and poked my cheek vigorously.

"Okay, I'll pay attention in the future~" I reached out to cover Keigo Atobe's fingertips, hugged his arm and acted like a baby, and quietly transferred part of my weight to him, "It's rare that my cousin is free to play with me , don’t keep saying such disappointing things!”

"Hmph, I'll let you off today."

"Long live cousin!"

Atobe Keigo sent me back to the apartment. I thought he came to look for me after receiving the news that I was missing, but he bought a bunch of lilies after the game to see how I was doing alone.

It's still that Sunday, and the two days I've been away haven't flowed at all, like a dream.

If I die there, will time here stop forever, probably not.Maybe my dead body will reappear in the alley, and it will be an unsolved case if the murderer can't be found in the end?Or disappear forever?

Speaking of the case, I thought of that unlucky Kudo, and I wondered if his life was going smoothly recently.

"...Are you listening, huh?" Keigo Atobe patted the top of my head.

"Listening, listening!" I opened my eyes wide and watched Keigo Atobe trying to pass the test.

"It's not good to be good. From now on, send me a message every morning during morning exercise, and be more obedient."

Atobe Keigo's voice sounded like a sigh. He opened the bouquet and picked out the most beautiful flowers inside and put them into the vase.

The stretched petals are like the soft and white limbs of a young girl, clean and vigorous.

"I know."

I inherited my mother's frailty. There is nothing wrong with my physical function, but my physical fitness is not very good. When the seasons change, I often have a big cold and a small cold.

I can't always refuse the kindness of others to release me.

Keigo Atobe carefully arranged the petals, picked up the wrapping paper on the bouquet and a few flowers that were not blooming enough: "I'm going back to training, I'll take the garbage with me, you have a good rest."

Keigo Atobe is the Head of the Tennis Division of Hyotei, and the Tokyo regional qualifiers will soon be held. It is not difficult for him, but it is not a reason to relax.

Although my cousin is flamboyant and coquettish, and sometimes even fussy, he is really a gentle and hardworking person.

After Atobe left, I slumped on the sofa to let go of my thoughts, and waited for the stagnation in my body to disappear before I got up to move around.

My brain still hurts.

I got up and took two steps, and from the pocket of my nightgown, I took out the fragments of Xunyi and the old pendant doll on the keychain of the dormitory.

I picked up the palm-sized doll and shook it. The smiling face of the doll was facing me. From my angle, I just saw a zipper opening under the doll's skirt.

I carefully opened it, and pulled out a carefully folded yellowed note from inside.

The edge of the paper strip is a bit frayed, I was careful not to accidentally tear the paper along the crease.

The childish handwriting was displayed in front of me. Hiragana and Katakana were mixed on the note. I followed it word by word: Sister Xue Nai, please be happy!

At the bottom corner is a funny sun smiling face.

My heart seemed to be trembling, and I saw writing on the reverse side.

Gently turn over the paper:

Now I am very satisfied, Ayako should be happy too!

The handwriting is very new, the color of the signature pen is clear, imitating the smiling face on the front, and a little sun is drawn under this sentence.

My heart seemed to be soaked in warm water, and all the uncomfortable fatigue on my body drifted away at this moment.

I solemnly stuffed the note back, and put the doll in the window, where when the weather is fine, the curtains can be drawn to bask in the sun.