Blow

The start time of the third grade is one week earlier than that of the first and second grades, on February [-]rd.

In the evening, Wen Xiao and Xia Jue stepped into the school gate with their luggage, and found that a certain classroom on the third floor of the third-year teaching building was extremely lively, with banners hanging at the door, and decorations such as balloons and ribbons.

Wen Xiao counted and guessed it was Class [-], Grade [-].

When they packed up in the dormitory and returned to the classroom, Wen Xiao had already learned from his roommate that the scene he just saw was a welcome party for Shao Yufeng from Class Nine.

It was said that Shao Yufeng hadn't been in school since he was beaten up by Shao Yang until he vomited blood. He even missed the final exam and didn't come back until today.

"It's a pity," Du Minwen sighed in the classroom, "Missing a grade in the major exam is equivalent to giving up the recommendation - he had hope in the first place."

Wen Xiao frowned, not knowing what to say.He was wondering whether Shao Yufeng's current relationship with Shao Yang would affect Shao Yufeng's college entrance examination.

Soon, after the second class of self-study in the evening, a shocking news came from below: Shao Yufeng was about to be "transferred".

——Since there is the word "bei", it is obvious that his transfer was involuntary.It seems that Shao Yang felt that Shao Yufeng was really ashamed, so he was forced to transfer to No. [-] Middle School.

Although the difference between No. [-] Middle School and No. [-] Middle School is only one figure, the focus rate of No. [-] Middle School is [-]% higher than that of No. [-] Middle School, and the teaching resources are far better than No. [-] Middle School.Therefore, according to the thinking of normal people, it is impossible for students from No. [-] Middle School to transfer to No. [-] Middle School.

What's more, Shao Yufeng had excellent grades in No. [-] Middle School and was already in her third year of high school.Now that the college entrance examination is only four months away, transferring to another school requires an adaptation period. If this continues, he will inevitably be negatively affected.

"This is crazy..." Several boys in the front seat were discussing.

Wen Xiao also felt incredible.How many parents are working hard for their children's grades and future, but Shao Yang uses his so-called "face" to force Shao Yufeng to pay the price of failing the college entrance examination?

And who was the embarrassing one, Shao Yufeng?Shao Yufeng obviously did nothing wrong.On the contrary, Shao Yang himself disrespected the teacher in public and committed violence, so that he was taken away by the police...

If parenthood requires a qualifying exam, some people are doomed to fail it.These people are just taking advantage of their innate blood relationship to continue to act viciously.

Wen Xiao couldn't help thinking: Blood relationship itself will bring about a seemingly natural social and ethical relationship, but is this relationship really natural?And among the two parties in the relationship, Shao Yufeng's life can only be manipulated and destroyed by Shao Yang?

During self-study next night, he talked about it with Xia Jue.

"I once had a strange idea," Xia Jue thought for a while, and said, "Although I have never met my mother, when I talk about her, I still use the word 'mother' to refer to her. It seems that this word is really just a synonym, without any special emotion."

After hearing this, Wen Xiao was silent for a moment before saying, "It shouldn't be like this."

"Shouldn't it," Xia Jue said with emotion, "If one day 'father' and 'mother' become just terms without emotion, then the world will be too indifferent."

"But some parents really only have a title." Wen Xiao said.

Xia Jue nodded: "Yes. In the final analysis, family relationship is also love, and it also depends on acquired management. Blood relationship itself does not mean anything. Of course, blood relationship cannot be broken, but it can be seen in a simpler way. For example, my mother gave birth to me and left Well, then the relationship between me and her is nothing more than that."

Hearing this, Wen Xiao suddenly wanted to pat his head.

"...So in fact, it's never the relationship that's complicated, but the emotion." Xia Jue just smiled lightly and continued, "But there is one thing, no matter how deep the relationship exists, two people are still independent of each other. Bar."

Wen Xiao heard similar things from him a long time ago, but this time he was extremely sensitive.

"You can take it easy." Wen Xiao said lightly.

Xia Jue didn't notice the emotional changes of the people around her, so she was a little embarrassed and said, "Did I go too far? Anyway, Shao Yufeng's father is too much."

Wen Xiao didn't answer, his mind had already jumped to another matter.

"Are you so open about our affairs?" He asked suddenly.

"What?" Xia Jue didn't react.

Wen Xiao shook his head and quickened his pace.

"Wait a minute," Xia Jue hurriedly followed, "Wen Xiao, did you mean me and you, we..."

Wen Xiao said, "No."

"Then why are you angry?" Xia Jue asked anxiously, "I, did I say something wrong?"

Wen Xiao paused, his steps slowed down, and his tone softened a bit: "No, what you said is all right."

As he spoke, he squeezed Xia Jue's palm lightly and comfortingly, and quickly let go.With the incident of being punished last time, now they restrain themselves everywhere in school, and do nothing but study and chat together.

Xia Jue looked at him dubiously.

Afterwards, they went back to their dorms.After a long time, more than an hour after the lights were turned off, Wen Xiao still hadn't fallen asleep, lying flat on the bed with his eyes open, staring at the ceiling in a daze.

"...Even if the relationship exists and is deep, two people are still independent individuals."

Xia Jue's words echoed repeatedly in Wen Xiao's mind.

Reason told him that what Xia Jue said was right, but emotionally, he felt extremely uncomfortable.

He had probably been spoiled by Xia Jue, and it was a bit difficult to accept that Xia Jue was not his property.He has had frequent nightmares recently, and the content is similar to that during the winter vacation, all about Xia Jue's disappearance or loss of control.

The words just now directly hit his Achilles heel.

Wen Xiao exhaled slowly.

Reminiscent of the things discussed twice before, he had a hypothesis in his mind for the first time, or in other words, it was the first time that he did not choose to avoid it, but seriously faced this hypothesis.

——If Xia Jue failed to go to Beijing with him, that is, if he had to be separated from Xia Jue for at least four years, would he be able to accept it?And when Xia Jue was not around, how would he deal with himself?

Recalling the bleakest few days during the Chinese New Year, Wen Xiao closed his eyes forcefully.

There was a slight snoring sound from the next bed.

The roommates are all fast asleep.Wen Xiao was isolated from one dream after another, feeling more and more at a loss.

In the past five years, he has been immersed in revenge and self-loathing towards Wen Zhengming. Once he was withdrawn, his whole body was empty. It was Xia Jue's existence that filled the void in time.

It's just a complement, not a complement.The companionship he spends with each other day and night, even if he can't satisfy his desires, he always unconsciously wants to go too far. It's hard to imagine what kind of state he will be in if the two places are separated.

There was a trickle of water flowing through the bathroom pipe.

At this time, a little noise makes people feel more lonely than the silence of everything.

Wen Xiao suppressed the irritability in his heart and forced himself to close his eyes, but the more this happened, the more his eyes felt a sinking feeling, as if they were oppressing the nerves in the brain.He felt tingling in the head, dizzy, and had difficulty sleeping.

I don't know how long it lasted.This night, Wen Xiao had no idea how he spent it, as if he had just fallen asleep and was woken up by the wake-up bell.

Afterwards, he was absent-minded for a whole day, wandering around the world during the math quiz, scored an unprecedentedly low score, and was trained by Guo Xuefeng.

Not just this day.

Before the Lantern Festival, plus part of the winter vacation, Wen Xiao took the time to finish the three national volumes "Tianli 38 Sets" in mathematics, foreign languages, and comprehensive science, and made a new study plan for Xia Jue for the national volume.

"You don't need to focus too much on the monthly test scores this semester." In the cafeteria, Wen Xiao pointed to the key points on the table and said to Xia Jue, "The focus should still be on your national test scores, especially English and mathematics. More obvious."

Xia Jue accepted the schedule obediently, but her gaze was always on Wen Xiao's face.He heard Wen Xiao talking for a while, and finally couldn't help asking: "Wen Xiao, have you been too tired recently?"

"...Listen attentively." Wen Xiao raised his head and glanced at him.

Xia Jue said worriedly: "But here—"

Wen Xiao's eyes turned slightly blue, and his voice was also hoarse.

"I'm fine," Wen Xiao said calmly, "I didn't sleep well last night."

Xia Jue sighed, and thought to himself: You are like this, it's obviously not a day or two since you didn't sleep well.

"I have melatonin there, do you take it?" He asked, "Li Rui gave it to me during Chinese New Year."

Wen Xiao said, "No need."

It's not that Wen Xiao hasn't tried melatonin, but after taking it, he just feels dizzy, and it doesn't help sleep, but it makes him feel more uncomfortable.His insomnia was more caused by psychological factors, which Xia Jue couldn't explain clearly.

That night, Xia Jue still delivered the melatonin to his dormitory.

Unfortunately invalid.Wen Xiao couldn't remember exactly how many nights it was recently, he could only sleep for four or five hours.Almost every day, he either fell asleep late or woke up early, and was light-headed during the day, forcing himself to stay awake.

Especially when it was Valentine's Day a week later, on Xiao Zhou's Friday, he and Xia Jue had a long text message in bed.It could be felt that Xia Jue was happy, but the more he chatted, the more depressed and disturbed he was, and he didn't feel sleepy all night.

It is impossible to describe what a month this has been for Wen Xiao.During the period, I heard that Shao Yufeng ran away from home, and Shao Yang came to school to make a fuss once.

On March 687th and 528th, they passed the first monthly exam since the beginning of school.On the 20th, the rankings were released and the results were announced: Wen Xiao [-], bid farewell to the top [-] in the grade; Xia Jue [-], No. [-] from the bottom.

In the office, Mi Qunfei and Wen Xiao sat face to face, and the atmosphere was dignified.

Wen Xiao narrowed his eyes slightly.Due to lack of sleep for a long time, his body was gradually enveloped by a decadent atmosphere, his eye circles were slightly blue, expressionless, a little lazy, and he looked like he hadn't woken up.

With his appearance, this is not ugly, but it has a different taste.But obviously, Mi Qunfei didn't call him here to appreciate his new style.

"Wen Xiao," Mi Qunfei frowned deeply, "falling seven hundred and retreating more than 30——I believe you also know what this concept is."

Wen Xiao said, "I'm sorry, Teacher Mi, I'm not in a good state this time."

His voice was hoarse again, obviously.

"...Are you smoking?" Mi Qunfei asked.

Wen Xiao froze for a moment, then said, "No."

"It's fine if you don't have one," Mi Qunfei sighed helplessly, "I didn't call you here to train you. Mr. Guo and I have seen how you have been doing in the past month. You are obviously overstressed and insomnia, right? ?”

Wen Xiao hesitated and said, "It's okay."

"Don't be modest about this kind of thing, is insomnia still good?" Mi Qunfei didn't know whether to laugh or cry.

Wen Xiao lowered his eyelashes and said nothing.

Mi Qunfei began to comfort him earnestly: "Wen Xiao, our teacher has always been at ease with you, the only thing is that you are afraid that you will put too much pressure on yourself. You say you..."

After talking for more than half an hour, Wen Xiao was finally released, and Wen Rushi was specially notified to ask Wen Xiao to go home on Saturdays and Saturdays, and the parents also helped with ideological work.

"Have you quarreled with Xiaoxia?" So on Saturday night, Wen Xiao was called into the study alone by Wen Rushi, and asked, "Can you solve it yourself?"

Wen Rushi's tone was very calm, while talking, he was distracted to look at the company documents in his hand.She knew Wen Xiao well, and knew that Wen Xiao would not be nervous about the college entrance examination, but she was more likely to have some awkwardness with Xia Jue.

Wen Xiao sat on the chair, squeezed the space between his eyebrows, and said, "Where did you hear that? We're fine."

"It's not ashamed to have something to do," Wen Rushi smiled, and pointedly said, "It's a shame to have my help in this kind of thing——Your Teacher Mi told me that you have been in a very bad state recently."

Wen Xiao was silent.

"Let's talk about it?" Wen Rushi put down what he was doing and looked at him.

The room was quiet for a long time.

After a long while, Wen Xiao let out a breath from the tip of his nose, leaned forward, rested his forearms on the table, and pressed his interlocked knuckles against his forehead.

It was Wen Rushi who frowned, feeling that Wen Xiao was shrouded in a gloomy haze.

"Sister, can I not go to Beijing?" Then, she heard Wen Xiao ask in a low voice.

The author has something to say: It's not good to be a stinky fart who doesn't like to talk, and wants to take responsibility by himself.