Blow

Wen Xiao suddenly got up.

Wen Zhengming himself felt the strangeness on his face, showed a confused expression, reached out to wipe away the tears, and then his expression became erratic.

Wen Xiao stood still.In the blink of an eye, Wen Zhengming lost the memory of the last second, and asked him with a strange face: "Who are you? Why are you here?"

He bowed his head and said to himself: "Where did Xiaoxiao and Xiaoru go...Are you not done with school yet? Why don't you go home?"

"Because they don't have a home anymore," Wen Xiao walked over to a place very close to him, and said slowly, "They don't have a home anymore, so why go back?"

Wen Zhengming was stunned, and frowned, "Why don't you have a home?" He looked up at Wen Xiao, as if he recognized Wen Xiao's identity again.

"Yes, we have a family," Wen Zhengming repeated anxiously afterwards, "We have a family, Xiaoxiao, I am a father, and my father is here."

……

For a split second, Wen Xiao felt as if his heart was being grabbed and tightened violently, as if he was suffocating.

——My father is here.

This is a sentence he has heard since he was a child, starting from the memory.

Wen Xiao was very naughty when he was a child, and he often had wild ideas. Once on a whim, he hung a fuchsia upside down on the slide, his face first touching the ground, and only after looking in the mirror did he feel the pain. The more he cried, the more painful it became.Wen Zhengming rushed over when he heard the crying, saw his bloody face, his heart ached so badly, he took him to the hospital while coaxing him: Xiaoxiao, don’t cry, with daddy here, just blow on your daddy and you won’t be in pain, okay? ?

Also in the Sanda class, Wen Xiao was the youngest, so his physical strength could not keep up, and he was beaten every time he played against each other.His nose was bruised and his face was swollen a few times, Fang Qinxin didn't want him to learn it, but Wen Zhengming insisted, and said: Don't be afraid, your father is here, and your father will accompany you.After that, I really would be there to cheer for Wen Xiao every time I had a duet.

all kinds.No matter how Wen Xiao's feelings for Wen Zhengming changed later, this sentence has been engraved in his bones, so when facing Xia Jue, his promise is often a habitual one: I am here, I am here .

This is the deep love he had learned from his father in those old days that he could only recall.

Wen Xiao sat down by the bed involuntarily.

But when Wen Zhengming wanted to pull his hand, he still avoided him.

"Xiaoxiao has grown up." Wen Zhengming was not angry, but just smiled, "I won't kiss my father anymore."

Wen Xiao looked straight at him, and asked in vain: "You really don't even remember?"

"What?" Wen Zhengming was puzzled.

It is difficult for Wen Xiao to describe his mood at the moment.He tried his best to keep himself calm, and whispered: "Forget it, I'm leaving."

Wen Zhengming asked, "Go to school?"

"...En." Wen Xiao responded.

He walked slowly to the door of the ward.

"Hey, Xiaoxiao," Wen Zhengming suddenly called out from behind him, "Dad remembered, next month is your birthday, right? Dad hasn't forgotten."

Wen Xiao paused, then quickened his pace and left quickly, almost fleeing in despair.

Like a wandering soul, he got on the subway in a daze.

People are next to each other, each face has different emotions, but none of them have anything to do with him.Wen Xiao desperately wanted to call someone to talk to.Did you hear that?At this time, Wen Rushi must be working.

Wen Xiao called Xia Jue.

The signal on the subway was intermittent, and their conversation was incoherent.

"Are you back?" Wen Xiao didn't speak for a long time, Xia Jue asked first.

Wen Xiao said in a low voice, "I just got on the subway."

"That's too soon," Xia Jue said lightly, "I looked at the map of the city at home, and found...and...by the way...Brother Kai...the day after tomorrow...what do you think?"

Wen Xiao couldn't hear many messages, but there were two words that were particularly clear: "at home".

"You wait for me at home." Wen Xiao inhaled lightly, and a warm current surged in his heart, "The signal is not working, come back and tell me."

"it is good."

Putting down the phone, Wen Xiao breathed the turbid air in the subway, but felt full of flesh and blood as if he had breathed in the popularity again.

After changing trains a few times, he got out of the subway station and ran into the community. There was an impulse, impatient, burning in his heart.

When getting off the elevator, Wen Xiao wanted to ring the doorbell when he obviously could enter the password to enter the house. When Xia Jue came to open the door, he stepped in and hugged Xia Jue tightly at the entrance.

The door is still open, not closed.Wen Xiao sucked a red mark on Xia Jue's neck; upwards, biting his earlobe, cartilage.

Hearing was full of dampness, Xia Jue snuggled into Wen Xiao's arms obediently, her eyes were closed tightly, her eyelashes were trembling, and her face was as red as if she was about to die of drunkenness.

After a long time, Wen Xiao relaxed, and his head dropped on Xia Jue's shoulder.Xia Jue patted him on the back lightly, and called him a name that had been contradicted before: "Xiaoxiao."

Wen Xiao lightly bit the soft flesh at the junction of his shoulder and neck, Xia Jue shrank slightly from the pain, begging for mercy: "Brother Xiao."

Wen Xiao straightened up and closed the door.

The two calmed down for a while before sitting down on the sofa.Wen Xiao caught a glimpse of the mark on Xia Jue's neck from the corner of his eye, and couldn't help looking away.

He thought of what Wen Rushi said later that day, describing his state as a trapped animal, unable to find a way out of the predicament, he used Xia Jue who strayed into it as a straw, crushed it tightly under his sharp claws, and rubbed it round and flattened.The repressed part of his personality was acquired, and it was precisely because of years of repression that the desire for control and tyranny lurked in his bones.

Many times, the more he liked Xia Jue, the easier it was for him to unilaterally make arrangements for Xia Jue without discussing with Xia Jue in advance.Xia Jue has a kind of subconscious obedience to him, and indulges him in this.

Even if the arrangements he made for Xia Jue are not bad at this stage, what about the future?

"Your father... How is he?" Xia Jue asked after a moment of silence in the living room.

Wen Xiao said: "It's not bad, it's just like what my sister said, the body is fine, but I can't remember people and things clearly."

"Oh," Xia Jue nodded, and asked again, "Does he still recognize you?"

Wen Xiao said: "Yeah. I know my sister and I, and I still remember my birthday."

This detail made Xia Jue startled.He said, "Then you—"

"I know what my sister means," Wen Xiao looked down at the coffee table, "Actually, that's what happened, I always have the shadow of my father on me."

Xia Jue immediately said, "But you are different people."

"I know, you don't have to be so nervous," Wen Xiao turned to him, "I'm not struggling with this matter, after all, I can't change it. I just understand one thing: while I hate my dad, I also hate myself , Hate him for giving me too much, and giving too little to my mother and others. Sometimes I wonder if without me, there would be no such deformed imbalance."

Without waiting for Xia Jue to refute, Wen Xiao continued: "As a result, my sister told me last night that she actually thought so too. It's very strange, my father was unfaithful to my mother, even more cruel to the innocent Shen Yuqiong, but he was cruel to me and me. My sister is so nice. In other words, my sister and I cannot do without my dad today, so if we want to hate him, it's hard not to bring ourselves along."

Xia Jue couldn't help holding his hand.

"My sister told me before, let me try to accept my dad - I thought it was impossible at the time, but now I understand, she actually wanted me to learn to accept myself," Wen Xiao stroked Xia Jue's palm, "Accept I have grown up to this day, and all the disgrace I have stepped on under my feet."

Xia Jue asked softly, "Then did you accept it?"

Wen Xiao said: "Not yet. But the so-called 'retaliation', I have given up."

Xia Jue leaned over and kissed him lightly on the cheek.

"Were you scared just now?" Wen Xiao asked with his head tilted.

Xia Jue was stunned: "What?"

"Suddenly treating you like this—" Wen Xiao touched the red mark on his neck, "Are you afraid?"

"Why are you afraid?" Xia Jue blushed and said seriously, "It's too late for me to be happy."

Wen Xiao said, "What if it's not just like this?"

Xia Jue thought of something, and pressed his hot face on Wen Xiao's shoulder: "What else?"

Wen Xiao straightened him up with a serious expression.

"It's not that simple for me now...to you," Wen Xiao stared into his eyes, "It's not easy for me to be close to you at first."

"You, come close to me?" Xia Jue doubted, and then thought of when the two met for the first time, they faced each other sincerely, and Wen Xiao's successive changes: he wanted to accept him halfway, but refused again in an instant.

Wen Xiao said: "At that time, I was wholeheartedly committed to a plan, which was to get revenge on my dad—my dad was an anti-gay person."

If Xia Jue hadn't opened his mouth to say that he liked him, which aroused his deep-rooted moral principles, he really couldn't imagine what would happen that night, and how bad his relationship with Xia Jue would have had a bad start.

Xia Jue bit her lip, understood a little bit, and asked, "What about now?"

Wen Xiao smiled suddenly and said, "You are my baby."

With his smile, the cold eyebrows and eyes suddenly melted with warmth, and the tough facial lines stretched out, like a sharp sword picking up flowers, and the rigidity and softness reached a balance.

Xia Jue was pierced through the center room by this sudden love words, soft, hot, and red, lying down on Wen Xiao's lap.

Wen Xiao looked at him with lowered eyelashes, his eyes turned dark.

"I might... swallow you up," Wen Xiao said.He used a rhetoric, which seemed a little more euphemistic.

In fact, it is more direct: I will occupy you.

The obsession of five years is gone, and it is the first time that he has fallen in love with someone. This kind of liking will inevitably be mixed with unfinished morbid paranoia.

Xia Jue was so immersed in the sweetness that she didn't notice anything unusual about Wen Xiao's words.

Wen Xiao took out a small object from his pocket.He has carried this thing with him for a long time, and has been hesitating whether to give it to Xia Jue, but now he can't help it.

Xia Jue said, wait for him at home.

At home.

Wen Xiao and Wen Ru are very close, there is a kind of kinship that depends on each other.Even so, Wen Ruzhen has his own career to be busy. He spent many years abroad while studying, and then settled in Shanghai after working. Wen Xiao has not experienced the feeling of being waited at home by someone who cares about him and himself for many years.

"Do you want it?" Wen Xiao held the small object between his fingers and asked Xia Jue seemingly unintentionally.

Xia Jue turned over on his lap and lay on her back, her eyes touched something like that, she paused.

Thoughts exploded, blank.Xia Jue almost forgot to breathe.

—It was a ring.

In the blink of an eye, Xia Jue suddenly understood something, as if afraid of missing an opportunity, she suddenly wanted to sit up, but Wen Xiao forcefully pushed her back.

"Do you want it?" Wen Xiao stared at him and asked.

Xia Jue couldn't make a sound and kept nodding.

Wen Xiao felt a little thirsty in his throat, and his Adam's apple twitched.He took Xia Jue's hand and put the ring on Xia Jue's ring finger very slowly.

When I put it on, I obviously didn't measure the size beforehand, but it was just right.

Xia Jue was dizzy, and the charming emotions in her heart were about to overflow, burst, and set off grand fireworks all over the sky.

"Is there another one?" Xia Jue took a long time to find her voice and asked, "I'll wear it for you too."

"It's gone." Wen Xiao said.

Xia Jue became nervous: "Is it very expensive?" He thought Wen Xiao didn't have enough money, so he only bought one.

Wen Xiao said: "No. If you want a pair, you can fight yourself."

Xia Jue raised her hand, looking at the ordinary silver ring with no design, it suddenly seemed like a dream.He understood the meaning of Wen Xiao's words, this ring was made by Wen Xiao himself.

His eyes watered.

"Crying again?" Wen Xiao pinched his nose amusedly, teasing him.Xia Jue's tears were gone, she opened her mouth to bite Wen Xiao's hand, but she couldn't.

Childish frolicking, it seems that both of them are ten years younger.

"What did you say on the phone before? I didn't hear clearly," Wen Xiao asked after sitting up straight, "Map?"

Xia Jue said: "I looked at the map at home and wanted to get familiar with it, otherwise I could only run after you, like a little pug."

"So you don't want to follow?"

"You know that you don't want to..." Xia Jue quietly climbed Wen Xiao's thigh with one hand, "Also, Brother Kai called me and said he could introduce me to a job during the National Day, the salary is quite high .”

"He asked you to go to work?" Wen Xiao grabbed his hand and squeezed it punishingly.

Xia Jue explained: "I asked him to look for it. I used to be like this. I took the opportunity to do some work when I had a short vacation. I had plenty of time and the salary was very high. Otherwise, in my father's situation, we would have starved to death. Chance to see you."

"Don't go." Wen Xiao disagreed.

Xia Jue remembered the lines of a movie and imitated: "If you don't work, you support me?"

Wen Xiao also watched that movie, he raised his eyebrows: "What do you think?"

"...Let's say goodbye," Xia Jue shook her head, "That's absolutely impossible."

He knew that Wen Xiao's family was in good condition, but those had nothing to do with him, so he couldn't take them.

Wen Xiao didn't mean that. He was still gnawing on his old age, so he said, "It's not that you're not allowed to work, it's that you rarely come to Shanghai, so don't go back to Xu Chengkai. I'll find you a better one." ? If you have money, you will not delay playing.”

"Really?"

"I'm going with you, isn't it true enough?"

Xia Jue believed in Wen Xiao very much, and she was just asking casually at first. She bent her eyes, smiled, and put her head on Wen Xiao's shoulder, rubbing against her, as if acting like a spoiled child.

"Speak nicely." Wen Xiao moved his shoulders, not to let him rub in vain.

Xia Jue was very obedient, raised her body, pressed against Wen Xiao's ear and said, "Then what do you want to hear?..."

Wen Xiao's ears tingled, and his heart shuddered, when he heard Xia Jue call him a different name.