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Anger turned into anger, and in the end Rong Zhouzhong still didn't force Shi Jin to leave Fei Yujing behind.

Shi Jin sat down beside the hospital bed, looked at Fei Yujing's appearance, and asked, "How's the injury?"

"Small injury, the water in the lungs has been removed by a minor operation, and the recovery is good." Fei Yujing replied simply, put down the file, and looked at him. Seeing that his face was not very good, he asked, "Lian Ye Did you rush over here? How did you do on the final exam?"

Shi Jin didn't expect that he still had the energy to care about this, and he felt a little helpless in his heart, and replied: "The exam is not bad... What did the doctor say, in your situation, will there be sequelae in the future?"

Fei Yujing replied: "No, the lung injury is just a minor injury. The wound will heal automatically after the accumulated water is cleared away. If the ribs are carefully raised, there will be no problems."

"That's good." Shi Jin felt a little relieved, leaned back on the chair, was silent for a while, and said guiltily, "I'm sorry, I got you into trouble."

"If you feel sorry for me, just answer my question." Fei Yujing immediately took the opportunity to make a request as if he knew he would say that.

Shi Jin was taken aback for a moment, glanced at him, nodded, and replied, "Okay, you can ask."

Fei Yujing looked at Rong Zhouzhong, who was silently pricking up his ears, and said, "Third brother, Xiaojin probably hasn't had time to eat after rushing over overnight, so go and buy him a meal."

Rong Zhouzhong looked at him sideways in disbelief, and raised his voice: "Are you really using me as a nurse?"

"I want to dismiss you." Fei Yujing was very honest, "This is a private conversation between me and Xiao Jin, it is not suitable for a third person to hear, you will come back in a quarter of an hour."

Rong Zhouzhong, who has been tortured for the past few days, was distorted by his honesty and anger, wishing to step forward to finish him with his own hands, but after taking a look at Shi Jin, he finally stood up and said with a frown: "Just a quarter of an hour, more No." With that said, he turned and strode away.

Finally, only Shi Jin and Fei Yujing were left in the room.

Shi Jin looked at Fei Yujing, and waited for him to ask a question. In fact, he already roughly guessed what Fei Yujing wanted to ask.

Fei Yujing turned his gaze back to look at him, and asked directly: "When I left the island that day, you said that you were not mad at me for using you before. After I came back, I couldn't figure it out. Xiao Jin, I want to know what you really mean. What are you angry about?"

Sure enough it was this.

Shi Jin asked back: "Why do you want to know this all of a sudden? According to your personality, you shouldn't be obsessed with this kind of thing."

"This problem is not an attachment for me, but a heart disease that disturbs my thoughts." Fei Yujing explained, still frighteningly frank, "After I came back, I would think of this problem from time to time, but I still couldn't think of a result. The more I can’t figure it out, the more I care about it, and gradually this problem becomes my heart disease, and it even affects my work efficiency. I want to know the answer, not because of you, but because I want to be disturbed by this problem from time to time Get out of the troubled situation of the mind."

This kind of question can actually turn into a heart attack, and the sentence that specifically emphasizes that it is not because of you... Shi Jin was a little bit embarrassed, and said with a deadpan expression: "This is really a selfish answer."

Fei Yujing accepted his evaluation calmly: "I thought you already knew my true nature."

But if you know it, you know it, and when you really talk to the other party about what should be an emotional matter, and take it out to analyze and talk rationally as if you were dealing with business, he still can't accept it.His side has a lot of thoughts, but Fei Yujing's side has a trouble that disturbs his thoughts, and the emotional unequal is the reason why the two of them have never been able to get close.

"Second brother, that's what I'm angry about." Shi Jin replied, continuing to be expressionless, trying to make himself appear as rational and cold as Fei Yujing at that time, "I'm looking for an emotional response, and what you give is Material and benefit compensation, I can't get what I want, so I'm very angry."

Fei Yujing was stunned for a rare moment, and asked, "Emotional?"

"Yes." Shi Jin nodded.

Fei Yujing looked at him, smiled suddenly, and said, "But Xiao Jin, I've already given you what you want."

Shi Jin was stunned, then frowned fiercely: "What?"

"I care about you and help you. I will do everything you ask for, protect you as much as possible, and even entrust my life to you. My mother is the first person in this world who can give me so much, and you are the second." Xiao Jin, you look at me with prejudice, but blame me for not tearing your prejudice into your eyes, is this too unfair to me? Of course, I am not blaming you, you have the right to see me like this, but I hope you can face up to your own thoughts, otherwise you will always be so self-contradictory and guard against me."

defense?Face up to your own thoughts?This is all a mess, completely incomprehensible.

Shi Jin frowned even tighter, feeling that he was making unreasonable words and vague concepts, and said: "No, you clearly——Obviously...Obviously..." His voice suddenly hesitated.

"Obviously what?" Fei Yujing asked.

Shi Jin looked at his eyes that seemed to see through everything, his frowning brows loosened little by little, and he was slowly speechless.Obviously... Obviously Fei Yujing was treating him as he said.

care?Yes, Fei Yujing really cared about him. Those daily greetings, the birthday presents he took the trouble to give, and the invitations he responded to as much as possible, what else were they not caring?There is also help, setting up a fund, helping Lian Jun with energy matters, and various follow-up cooperation, if it is not for his face, how can he get involved with Lian Jun who has a troubled background if he is as shrewd as Fei Yujing.The request is also the same. During the reunion dinner last year, he said that he hoped that the brothers would cook by themselves, and everyone really did it by themselves.People like Fei Yujing would take the time to learn how to cook. Who would believe such a thing?Protecting and entrusting one's life is even more important. In the meeting in April, Fei Yujing could obviously avoid that muddy water.

And the car accident in front of me, according to Fei Yujing's external behavior, just getting him into a car accident is enough for Fei Yujing to scratch the skin of the culprit, or make the other person's life worse than death, but now Fei Yujing didn't intend to use this incident to accuse him of being such a source of trouble at all, and even tried to comfort him instead.

One after another, what Fei Yujing said and did now was like a real brother.The care and love behind his various behaviors are undoubtedly all emotional responses.From the day Fei Yujing took the initiative to offer him an olive branch, Fei Yujing tried his best to do his best no matter in terms of interests or emotions.

But...why did he not feel Fei Yujing's emotional response at all?Why?

He was suddenly a little confused.

Snapped.

His forehead was slapped suddenly, he came back to his senses, and looked at Fei Yujing who suddenly attacked him.

"Xiao Jin, what are you really angry about?" Fei Yujing suddenly changed the subject, with a rare gentle tone, "I know you didn't tell the truth just now, tell me the answer to this question, I want to know."

Shi Jin looked at him, his thoughts were still on the last topic, his mind was messed up, he hesitated for a while, and finally chose to follow his heart, and replied: "I'm angry... It's because you abandoned me so quickly after my father died. , why can you be so straightforward? For you, was I so eager to get rid of the relationship? Why is it so easy for you to withdraw? "

There were vague memories and emotions flooding up from the bottom of his heart, and the bewilderment and grievance he had experienced once in the dream invaded his thoughts again. He only felt that he was standing on the street, with a stranger blocking him in front of him, and Fei Yujing was standing there. A few meters away, it is clearly close at hand, but so far away.

Reason has a chance to bring consciousness back, but emotion slowly lets go of the unwillingness that has been suppressed in the heart for too long.He suddenly had an intuition - Fei Yujing inexplicably raised this topic today, just to make him lose control of his emotions.

"Why?" He looked into Fei Yujing's eyes, and simply let himself go, and gradually he couldn't tell which time he was, "Why? In the past ten years, have you really not given any affection at all?"

Fei Yujing also looked at him, and replied honestly: "Yes."

With a click, memories and turbulent emotions shattered in an instant, and the question that he was unwilling to ask for many years finally got the answer. Shi Jin suddenly came back to his senses, slightly widened his eyes and looked at Fei Yujing.

He seems to have heard the answer he least wanted to hear.

Fei Yujing raised his hand to touch his eyes, and said, "So you're angry at this... Shi Jin, the truth always hurts, but I don't want to lie to you. I knew my position and what I really wanted since I was a child." What is it, you used to be just a symbol in my eyes, Shi Xingrui's most beloved son, and a channel to get benefits quickly and efficiently. It may be a stranger, or your life-and-death enemy, under such circumstances, I cannot bet on you with true affection."

Shi Jin looked at him without blinking, his ears clearly heard every word he said, but his brain resisted to understand the meaning expressed by the sentence composed of these words.

"I didn't abandon you, I just sorted out my perfect nutrient intake network like cutting off a nutrient delivery tube that can no longer provide me with nutrients, and may even become diseased. Everything I do is related to you Nothing in itself, just for myself. At that time, I didn't consider your feelings, I didn't consider your position, I only considered myself. I'm sorry, I have treated you like this in the past."

"What is this?" Shi Jin's fingers tightened inch by inch, and he turned his head away from his hand, "Do you have to say it like this?"

How ridiculous, in the past he thought, no, it was the original owner who thought that the reason why Fei Yujing ignored him and completely abandoned him was because he hated him and didn't like him. Even if it's negative.It turned out that the original owner had misunderstood it?This bastard Fei Yujing never cared about his younger brother at all. In Fei Yujing's eyes, his younger brother was not even considered a human being, but just a piece of garbage that was thrown away after use.

Sure enough, I shouldn't have asked these stupid questions, didn't I already know what kind of answer I would hear?

Facing such a sober bastard, it's strange that he can feel the other party's emotional response. Who knows if those responses will be another game of the other party?Who would dare indulge themselves to believe those responses?

It turned out that it wasn't that I couldn't, but that I didn't dare.His subconscious has long chosen the best posture for him to face Fei Yujing - ignore him, ignore him, don't pay attention to him, because he is a devil who can hurt others with a smile.

"Angry?" Fei Yujing withdrew his hand and asked.

Shi Jin stood up with a frown and said, "There's nothing to be angry about. I already knew what kind of person you are... You should rest, I'll come see you tomorrow."

"Xiao Jin." Fei Yujing took his arm and said, "I told you once before, and I will tell you again now, I rarely regret what I have done in this life, but in the past so For you, I regret it, I'm sorry."

Shi Jin broke away from his hand, forced a smile at him, and said: "I understand, I understand your apology. But in the future, you will still be less apologetic if you just say it for yourself and don't force the other party to respond. Let me tell you, I am not happy to hear that, anyway, no matter what my attitude is, you only do what you want, right?" After speaking, he turned and walked away quickly.

This time Fei Yujing didn't stop him, but when he was about to go out, he said, "Xiao Jin, what you want from me is not an emotional response, but an emotional need, and I will give it to you. You changed my view of family affection, and let me see a lot of things that I had overlooked before, so as long as it is what you want, I will give it to you."

Shi Jin stopped for a while, then took a deep breath, stretched out his hand and opened the door of the ward, and walked out without looking back.

Fei Yujing looked at the closed ward door, his calm expression slowly disappeared, he lowered his eyes and rubbed his forehead, showing some frustration and exhaustion on his face, and muttered to himself: "Are you in a hurry..."

Outside the ward, Rong Zhouzhong just came back with the food he had bought. Seeing Shi Jin rushing out of the ward with a bad expression on his face, he was taken aback for a moment, then frowned, and asked, "What's wrong with you?" ? Did the second brother bully you?" Then he rolled up his sleeves, as if he was going to fight Fei Yujing.

Shi Jin suppressed his emotions and shook his head, grabbed his arm and said, "Third brother, I'm sleepy, where do you live, take me there."

……

Shi Jin got a room at the hotel where Rong Zhouzhong was staying, and deliberately chose the room next to Rong Zhouzhong, then went back to the room, took a shower, and threw himself on the bed.

"Emotional needs..." He murmured these words, his eyes straightened, "Does it mean that I hope Fei Yujing can show that he needs me to care more about me... How is that possible."

He turned over and grabbed the quilt to cover himself. After a long time, he slammed the pillow irritably.

What an inexplicable conversation, don't even think about it, go to sleep!

When I woke up, the lights outside were already on.Shi Jin was so hungry that his hands and feet were limp, he got up and changed his clothes, went to find Rong Zhouzhong next door, and dragged him to look for food together.

"It's rare to have a good night's sleep." Rong Zhouzhong covered his mouth and yawned, and asked, "What do you want to eat?"

Shi Jin replied: "Mi Fan... third brother, do you need me?"

Rong Zhouzhong was dumbfounded by his question, and asked in confusion, "What do you mean?"

Shi Jin found himself unconsciously recalling the conversation with Fei Yujing again, frowned, and replied: "It's nothing, I asked nonsense, but I actually don't know what it means."

But Rong Zhouzhong became interested in this topic, thought for a while and asked, "Then do you need me?"

Shi Jin looked at him carefully from the side, and replied seriously: "Compared to you, I need Mr. Lian more."

Rong Zhouzhong was choked up, his expectations were in vain, he pressed his lower lip hard to suppress the urge to speak ill of Lianjun, and said angrily: "Me too, I need air and water more than you."

Shi Jin was amused by his answer.

"What are you laughing at? Did I say something funny just now?" Rong Zhouzhong muttered dissatisfiedly. After looking at him a few times, the corners of his mouth could not help but curl up. He reached out and rubbed his head vigorously, and said fiercely, "What do you mean?" Why are you so preoccupied every day, did your second brother say something nasty to you? Just ignore him, he's just like that, he obviously wants to express goodwill, but he insists on dragging everything into rational interests. Do you think he is mature, rational and restrained like that? Wrong! He is a coward, he dare not get caught up in any emotion, dare not ask for a response, dare not let his emotions go, he is bound in a frame, afraid that if he goes out, he will be punished. Hurt, I’m so scared to death. So ignore him, he’s out of his mind, let him die alone with his bunch of dogmas!”

Shi Jin was stunned by his rhetoric, and looked at him curiously.

Rong Zhouzhong raised his chin, showed him the most handsome angle in front of him, raised his hand and elegantly pushed the sunglasses on the bridge of his nose, and said: "The most important thing for an actor is to understand the role thoroughly, and to be able to perfectly present The heart of the character. For me, trying to figure out people's hearts is as easy as drinking water. I have seen too many people with the personality of the second brother. It is easy for me to analyze his heart. You don't have to admire him too much— —”

"It's late at night, and it's still in a brightly lit room, don't you think you look silly wearing sunglasses?" Shi Jin asked blankly.

Rong Zhouzhong's bragging was interrupted by Shi Jin, he froze, turned his head to look at Shi Jin, twitched his eyebrows, forced himself to hold his respect, and said: "I know you are doing it on purpose now. Angry at me, want to quarrel with me, vent your emotions, but I won't let you succeed."

These words are too familiar, Fei Yujing also said it before, but what Fei Yujing said at the time was that he wanted to act like a baby.Shi Jin's heart trembled, as if someone had punctured the small thoughts in his heart, he reached out and took off the sunglasses on Rong Zhouzhong's nose, and put them on his face, covering his eyes and expression.

Rong Zhouzhong was taken aback, and quickly looked around. After making sure that no one was paying attention, he reached out to grab the sunglasses, and said, "Didn't you say it's stupid to wear sunglasses indoors? Give them back to me quickly."

Shi Jin turned around and hid, saying: "I like these sunglasses, these are mine. What are you doing so carefully, this is a foreign country, no one knows you."

"You don't know anything about my status in the fashion circle, return it to me quickly." Rong Zhouzhong continued to grab it.

Shi Jin dodges flexibly, but refuses to return.

The two brothers managed to settle down until they were eating. Rong Zhouzhong finally took back his sunglasses, but he no longer needed to wear them because Shi Jin made his hair look like a chicken coop. I don't want to believe that this man with messy hair is that Rong Zhouzhong who always looks perfect to the outside world.

The two opened a private room, and when the dishes were served, Rong Zhouzhong scratched his hair, put his sunglasses on Shi Jin's face with a dark face, and said, "For you, childish guy."

Shi Jin accepted it without any pressure, and pointed to the watch on Rong Zhouzhong's wrist, and said, "That, I like it too."

"...I don't believe you really like this." Rong Zhouzhong muttered, but he took off his watch and said, "This watch strap needs to be adjusted in a special place. I will adjust the strap in city B." I'll give you the address, you can get it yourself."

Shi Jin took the watch, searched on his body, only found in his pocket a small clip for draft paper that he bought casually from the college supermarket, put his hand into Rong Zhouzhong's hand, and said, "I don't take it for nothing. Yours, exchange this with you."

Rong Zhouzhong looked at the simple military green clip in his hand, laughed at his pettiness, and stretched out his hand to his head and rubbed it wildly.

Shi Jin leaned back to dodge, and then counterattacked.

After another commotion, Rong Zhouzhong brushed his hair, glanced at Shi Jin who was finally willing to eat obediently, and asked, "Are you in a better mood?"

Shi Jin tore the two drumsticks of the grilled chicken to him, silently thanking him for his company.

"Now I've learned to be generous, hmph." Rong Zhouzhong deliberately snorted coldly, looked at the chicken legs in his bowl with satisfaction, took out his mobile phone and took two photos, then picked up the chopsticks, and gave back a chicken leg to Shi Jin.

Shi Jin looked at the chicken leg, opened his mouth and took a big bite, chewing hard.

"Want to drink?" Rong Zhouzhong asked.

Shi Jin shook his head, swallowed the chicken slowly, and suddenly asked: "Third Brother, is Second Brother really a coward?"

"Really." Rong Zhouzhong also picked up the chicken leg and took a bite, squinted his beautiful peach eyes, and said vaguely, "When I am free, I occasionally think about why our brothers have become what they are today. , Later I figured it out, we are actually like our respective mothers. Xu Jie is thoughtful and emotional, so my eldest brother is also thoughtful and emotional. My mother is a philistine, so I became mean and annoying. The mother of the fourth child is calm Introverted and tenacious, thank God, the fourth child is very similar to her. The mother of the fifth child is love first, and her mental age has always stopped at the girlhood, so the fifth child will not grow up, and the second brother... You should really go see him Mother, such a woman who soberly hates herself, is rare in this world."

Shi Jin poked the white rice in the bowl, but didn't speak.

"The second brother is like his mother, living a sober life. But they are not the same. The second brother's mother chose to be sober after going through everything. The second brother is not. He doesn't know what it is like to be sober. "Rong Zhouzhong poured a glass of fruit juice for Shi Jin, showing his mature and steady side as a brother for the first time, "Xiao Jin, second brother may not be able to empathize with the pain you have suffered in the past in his whole life, or something very strange will happen because of it. Heavy heart, but that's not because he doesn't feel guilty, doesn't blame himself, he just doesn't. He draws a clear line between himself and everyone, hurts others and traps himself, and now he's trying To cross the line to understand your thoughts, he loves you, Jin."