why are they still in love

Chi Yan left, but Xiao Zhaoshan was still standing there.

After a burst of breaking and falling, he rushed straight to his celestial spirit cap, causing him a brief dizziness, as if he was drunk in a carnival, or lying on the waves and drifting into an isolated island.

Another family member waiting outside the operating room watched the farce from a distance, not daring to say anything.Dong Xin walked over with a gloomy face and dragged him to the stairwell.

She closed the heavy fire door tightly, checked up and down, and returned to Xiao Zhaoshan after confirming that there were no other people on the adjacent floors.

Sitting on the highest step, Xiao Zhaoshan spread his palms towards her: "Is there any smoke?"

"No, I don't smoke." Dong Xin sat down on his left side, "Someone told me the day before yesterday that he wanted to quit smoking."

Xiao Zhaoshan looked at the window at the corner of the stairs.The night was dark, and the street lamps stood straight beside the tall trees. The warm lights kept flashing and flashing, and were almost blown out by the cold wind. At this moment, he missed Xiao Chining, who was skateboarding on the square, with a figure like a lightning bolt. Xiao Chining, the sweaty Xiao Chining, the free Xiao Chining.

He hooked the corner of his mouth lightly: "If it was Xiao Chining, I would already have a pack of Marlboro in my hand right now."

Dong Xin was not in the mood to enjoy the swaying night outside the window with him. She looked at Xiao Zhaoshan and asked seriously, "Old Xiao, is it true?"

She paused: "Did you do it for anger, or did you really do those things?"

"Dong Xin, when did I tell a lie?" Xiao Zhaoshan put his elbows on his knees, relaxed and smiling, "It's not angry words, it's all true. I fell in love with my son. I want to be with him." The kind of love that lasts a lifetime."

Dong Xin stopped talking, but kept staring at him, like a judge.

Xiao Zhaoshan couldn't laugh anymore: "You feel sick too, don't you?"

He gave up on himself and said: "Well, it should be, I am so disgusting."

"Did I say anything?" Dong Xin said, "I was just thinking, and it really is."

Xiao Zhaoshan cast a puzzled look at her: "Why is that so?"

"You were called in for investigation that day, remember?" Dong Xin looked away, "Chi Ning is waiting for you at the gate of the Public Security Bureau."

"remember."

"I saw you hugging in the snow."

Dong Xin's tone became miserable: "Old Xiao, tell me the truth, Chi Ning was not forced by you, he was actually voluntary, right?"

Xiao Zhaoshan recalled the scene of that night, a strange satisfaction and sorrow filled his heart softly at the same time.

"What do you think?" He lowered his head, "Does Xiao Chining seem to love me too?"

"Well, you seemed to be very in love at that time." Dong Xin said, "I thought I made a mistake."

"But I don't even know what he's thinking, what kind of love is this?" Xiao Zhaoshan said in a low voice, "In the end, I'm still using my parents' privileges to force him to ask for some love from me, which is no different from coercion. .”

"That's why he poisoned you and stabbed your hand?" Dong Xin added the cause and effect by himself, "Because you and Chi Yan threw him in Hangzhou and never asked him for so many years. He pretended to be obedient just for revenge Your abandonment, am I right?"

"He didn't add drugs to my cigarettes." Xiao Zhaoshan's tone was inexplicably stubborn, "I came home last night and saw powder spilled on the sink."

Dong Xin deliberately said: "What if those are the leftovers?"

Xiao Zhaoshan shook his head: "No, Xiao Ning is a good boy."

Dong Xin sneered and said, "I'm not a good boy because I didn't hurt you? Wasn't it before?"

"You know I didn't mean that." Xiao Zhaoshan modified his wording, "He has always been a good boy, independent, pure, smart, and better than me."

"It's better than you." Dong Xin snorted, "Look at what you look like these days, who will believe that you are the father of a 17-year-old boy."

Xiao Zhaoshan sighed, and said solemnly: "Dong Xin, I'm learning now."

"Learn what?"

"How to be a father."

Dong Xin asked again: "Who did you learn from?"

"Who can I learn from?" Xiao Zhaoshan wiped his face annoyed, "Let's figure it out on my own, I really don't have much impression of my dad."

Dong Xin followed with a sigh: "Old Xiao, you have become less like you. But I can't say whether it is good or bad."

Xiao Zhaoshan looked at her with lazy eyes: "Where have I changed?"

"In the past, you were very self-confessed, and you were as proud as a male peacock. You were invulnerable to all poisons." Dong Xin asked, "Do you remember our study committee member in the first year of high school?"

Xiao Zhaoshan frowned: "I don't remember, who is it?"

Dong Xin stretched out his index finger and tapped his knee: "Look, this is the problem. You are completely unaware of how your so-called persistence and principles have hurt others, and you never look back."

Xiao Zhaoshan really didn't remember: "Tell me first, what did I do to her?"

"Forget it if you don't remember." Dong Xin was sure, "Chi Ning will help you remember it in the future."

"He knows?" Xiao Zhaoshan became more and more curious.

"He knows." Dong Xin gave him a disdainful look, "My godson knows a lot more than you."

Xiao Zhaoshan felt proud inappropriately: "Are you so fond of my children?"

"Compared to you, I like him to death." Dong Xin recalled many past events, "Chi Ning has the romantic, stubborn and loved talents that you have, and the sensitivity and empathy that you don't have. If he had been born 20 years earlier, there would be no such thing as you Xiao Zhaoshan, he would definitely be the talented painter in Beijing."

Xiao Zhaoshan laughed sincerely for the first time in recent days.After a while, he looked back at the night outside the window, and said solemnly: "Dong Xin, when he wakes up, you should praise him as much."

Dong Xin snorted: "Why don't you praise yourself? Is it appropriate to give me such a good job?"

"I'm afraid he won't believe it." Xiao Zhaoshan touched his injured arm, "There are many remaining issues between us, so we have to take our time. Besides, maybe when he wakes up, he won't be happy to see me at all."

Dong Xin imitated Chi Yan and kicked people: "Slow down! Do you want to wait until Chi Ningliu is 70 years old to praise him?"

"Oh, I forgot," she withdrew her foot and smashed Xiao Zhaoshan's back with her bag, "Back then you'd be fucking old!"

"How do you talk?" Xiao Zhaoshan hid for a while.

"I'm really going to be driven to death by you these days!" Dong Xin hated iron and steel, "Even a person like me who has never been a mother knows that children should praise when they do right things, and teach children when they do wrong things." You can tell him well that it is wrong to take revenge on others in this way, and it is also wrong to ignore children like you and Chi Yan. This does not conflict with your love for him and wanting to praise him. Why does he not believe it? "

Xiao Zhaoshan was skeptical about this: "When something happened, it happened. We can't pretend it never happened."

Dong Xin was so angry that his ears turned red: "All right, all right, you continue to admit death! I will bring Chi Ning with me in the future, just right, so that he won't get angry when he sees you!"

Xiao Zhaoshan refused: "Impossible, you let him choose."

"I'm too lazy to reason with you. To be honest, you're not even as good as Chi Yan. You can go all the way to the dark, and you're not afraid of being offended. You're good. You want to change your mind and be a good father, but you don't want to change for him. My own thinking habits. Is it interesting to swing back and forth, who do you think you can impress?" Dong Xin stood up neatly with his bag in his hand, "I went in to see my godson, you just stay here and stick to your principles Live forever."

She turned and walked towards the fire door: "If I use the time I have to persuade you to negotiate with Party A, I can easily get an extra apartment on the second ring road. Fuck, I'm wasting my saliva!"

Xiao Zhaoshan naturally understood Dong Xin's painstaking efforts.She didn't think he cheated on her son, she understood him quite well and gave him enough face.The rest of the persuasion is far beyond the friendship of friends.

He sat alone in the unheated stairwell, chewing on what Dong Xin said just now.

Yeah, what the hell is he rocking?He had never been so timid before.Love seems to make him brave overnight, and it seems to make him cowardly overnight.

He was guilty, because he said that he would respect Xiao Chining's decision, let him go where he wanted to go, and let their relationship freeze at the position he wanted to freeze, but on the other hand, he was reluctant to let Xiao Chining leave. Let him live a life that has nothing to do with him.

He is confused because he is no longer full of self-confidence, feeling that he is omnipotent, can control everything in life, and can do whatever he wants.

He blamed himself, because as Dong Xin said, the harm he caused to others was always unnoticed.To Chen Yu, to Chi Yan, and to Xiao Chining, he owed something, and it was difficult to make up for it.

Perhaps the older a person is, the easier it is to accept his own insignificance.Xiao Zhaoshan gradually clarified.

Why—the answer is obvious, because he is so self-righteous.It was his arrogance and indifference that made this family and Xiao Chining like this.

At five o'clock in the morning, the whole night operation was over.Xiao Chining, who had not yet passed anesthesia, was pushed into the intensive care unit by the nurses. When his vital signs stabilized, he had to undergo another fracture operation.

According to regulations, family members were not allowed to go in to accompany him. Xiao Zhaoshan could only lie on the small rectangular window of the intensive care unit and watch him from afar.However, apart from a few monitoring instruments placed by the bed, he couldn't see Xiao Chining's face at all.

But he still stopped at the door of the ward for a long time.

Everyone is equal outside the operating room, no matter how rich Dong Xin is, he can't move a Simmons to the hospital corridor.She curled up on the bench and squinted for three hours, and after receiving the news that Xiao Chining was safe from the doctor, she couldn't bear it any longer.

"Old Xiao, hurry up and find a doctor to sew up your open wound, go home and take a shower and sleep." She yawned, "I'm so sleepy, I'll come back at night."

Xiao Zhaoshan didn't close his eyes for more than 40 hours, and he was so tired that he didn't have the strength to run up and down to treat the wound.He went to the office and wrote down the phone number of Xiao Chining's attending doctor, then took a taxi home, scribbled an ibuprofen to stop the pain, and fell asleep until eight o'clock in the evening.

Xiao Chining was still asleep in the intensive care unit. The nurse told Xiao Zhaoshan that he was woken up by the pain when the anesthesia failed, but fell asleep again not long after he was put on the pain relief pump.

Xiao Zhaoshan felt that this was a good thing, instead of suffering pain consciously, it would be better to heal slowly in ignorant lethargy.

But the doctor disagreed: "Anyway, I have regained consciousness, of course it would be better to wake up." He pointed to the film clipped on the light box, "We don't know whether the patient has any discomfort, so we didn't dare to treat the subdural hemorrhage. If he is awake, we can better ask the doctor to see if surgery is needed. If he has no discomfort, my opinion is to stay still for a while, and it will most likely be absorbed by the body."

So Xiao Zhaoshan outside the intensive care unit secretly prayed for Xiao Chining to wake up soon.

On the first day, Xiao Chining woke up for a total of 15 minutes.

Xiao Zhaoshan took the time to find a doctor to suture the open wound.

The next day, Xiao Chining woke up for half an hour.

Xiao Zhaoshan didn't use Chi Yan's relationship, so he reconnected with an expert in the rehabilitation department.

On the third day, under human intervention, Xiao Chining woke up for three hours.

Xiao Zhaoshan saw the nurse leaning over his bedside through the small window, probably asking him how he felt.

He found the nurse later and asked her what Xiao Chining said. The nurse replied, "Oh, he asked me if he was dead."

On the fourth day, Xiao Chining was pushed into the operating room again.

Xiao Zhaoshan was approached by the hospital's orthopedic surgeon to discuss the treatment plan. After consulting his opinion, the doctor finally decided to use steel plates for internal fixation.The disadvantage of this solution is that the recovery is very slow, and the advantage is that it is relatively safe and the arm is not easily deformed.

Since then, Xiao Chining's right forearm has three more steel plates that should not have accompanied him.

After getting off the operating table, he was finally transferred to the general ward.It was also on this day that Xiao Zhaoshan bought a set of daily necessities and moved into the hospital.

On the fifth day, Xiao Chining was rarely sober.

It's a pity that Xiao Zhaoshan was summoned by the police to cooperate with the investigation, and Dong Xin was by his bedside.

In the evening, when Xiao Zhaoshan returned to the hospital after dealing with the matter, Xiao Chining had already fallen asleep, as if he had never woken up.He sat on the chair and stared at Xiao Chining's pale face, unable to fall asleep for a long time.

A few years ago, when he faced Xiao Chining like this, he would have no worries at all, as if he believed that nothing would happen to him, and even thought of teasing him.Now he finally felt the loneliness at his own peril.

He needs Xiao Chining.He needs Xiao Chining so much.

In the early morning of the sixth day, Xiao Chining woke up from the pain.

Xiao Zhaoshan woke up earlier and was scrubbing his body with a hot towel.Xiao Chining opened his eyes, saw his serious expression, noticed his movements that couldn't be more careful, and once thought that he was still in Zhuang Zhou's dream.

But the pain in the arms, stomach and chest was so real.

Xiao Zhaoshan immediately raised his head to look at his face, his eyes lit up with surprise: "Are you awake?"

He couldn't help laughing: "It can be considered that I have met."

Xiao Chining lowered his eyelids and looked at him calmly.

He felt that he and Xiao Zhaoshan had been separated for a full 1 years.

Xiao Zhaoshan saw his mouth moving, but couldn't hear what he said: "What's wrong? Is there something uncomfortable?"

He put the towel on the fence, leaned down | put his ear to Xiao Chining's lips, and waited patiently for his answer.

Xiao Chining hasn't eaten for several days, and relies on infusion of glucose and nutrient solution to maintain his vital signs. He is still very weak, and his words are like a slightly hot air current.

But Xiao Zhaoshan heard clearly this time.

"You've lost weight..." Xiao Chining said.

Xiao Zhaoshan's heart instantly turned into a grassland in March, savagely growing pity and love for him.

He rubbed Xiao Chining's face like touching a fragile jade.The more he looked at it, the more he liked it, the more he looked at it, the more he wanted to cry, he couldn't help but kiss Xiao Chining's lips, his eyes and the center of his brow.

"It's okay." He rubbed the tip of Xiao Chining's nose with the tip of his nose, "Didn't you poison me, it's normal."

Xiao Chining blinked blankly, and only after a short reaction did he understand what he meant.

"...Stupid | Forceful."

He scolded Xiao Zhaoshan like this, but the corners of his mouth couldn't help but twitched.