why are they still in love

Xiao Chining has never won the first place since he was a child.

In the past in school, he belonged to the kind of poor student who would not overly attract the attention of the teacher, and his grades had been stable at the bottom ten in the class for a long time.

The only time he was close to No.1 was when he participated in a municipal children's painting competition in Hangzhou seven years ago, and won the second prize in the whole district, ranking third in the group.

Qiu also scolded him because of this, thinking that he had neither inherited Xiao Zhaoshan's extraordinary talent nor Chi Yan's intelligence and hard work, otherwise he would have won the city's gold award, how could he be someone else's child? things.

Ten-year-old Xiao Chining was lying on the bed at night and weeping quietly, not because of the loss of the gold award for himself, but because of the sentence that Qiu Yin said casually: "Are you the son of your parents?"

He is not a genius like Xiao Zhaoshan, Xiao Chining has always known it.

He is not good at how to apply the right color to the right place, and it is purely by practice that he can pretend to be comfortable in front of his classmates and teachers.

Before he was promoted to junior high school, he missed extracurricular activities every day. Except for completing homework under the supervision of Quin, he just stayed in the study alone to read and practice pens, and basically did not go out to play.

His peers were watching cartoons, he was reading professional books related to oil painting, his peers gathered together to raise electronic pets, and he practiced color sense and composition alone at his desk.

So day after day, until junior high school he decided to give up oil painting.

When he was a child, he still couldn't recognize all the words in the book, and his understanding was limited to knowing the existence of a certain definition and a certain sect.It took him a whole week to read the [-]-word writing, comparing it with the Oxford English-Chinese Dictionary and the Xinhua Dictionary, and gnawed it down with difficulty.

Just like learning to cook from a TV cooking show, he doesn’t feel bitter at all even without companions, toys, and butterflies on the playground swing[1].

Because in his early ten years old, he still yearned to grow up and return to his parents.

At that time, he will be proficient in cooking and painting, so he can say without any criticism: "I, Xiao Chining, am the son of Chi Yan and Xiao Zhaoshan."

How things came to this point, how he became what he is, is no longer important.The important thing is that he grew up so irresistibly.

He looked at Xiao Zhaoshan, as if he was looking at himself in his prime in the future.Frank, calm, and unpredictable.

He didn't know what efforts he had made that allowed him to rise to No.1 in Xiao Zhaoshan's heart.He has reason to suspect that this sentence is irony or joking, and it is the pity of a frank, calm and mysterious person, but it will not be a heart-to-heart.

When the elevator door opened, he still kept his eyes wide open, observing Xiao Zhaoshan's side face motionlessly, trying to see the truth.

Xiao Zhaoshan walked into the car with ease, turned around and saw that he had no intention of getting on the elevator, so he blocked the sensor and brought him in.

"There is no rest, if you are not sleepy, I will be sleepy."

The tone of accusation was expressed by him as indulgent.

Xiao Chining stood beside him blankly, turning his head to look at him intently.

"Dad, am I still drunk?"

After pressing the floors, Xiao Zhaoshan put one hand in his pocket, frowned at the elevator door, and didn't look at him.

"Ask yourself not me."

"I didn't take | drugs." Xiao Chining said, "but I'm afraid it's an illusion."

Xiao Zhaoshan immediately pinched his shoulder: "Is it a hallucination?"

Xiao Chining let out an "ah" and pressed the back of his hand painfully: "It doesn't seem to be..."

Xiao Zhaoshan felt benevolent and righteous: "This is the end. Let go."

Xiao Chining didn't let it go: "Father, what about Chi Yan?"

"It has nothing to do with her." Xiao Zhaoshan replied.

Xiao Chining grabbed his hand and rubbed it against his face: "Isn't she number one in the previous term?"

Xiao Zhaoshan looked at him sideways, did not refuse the intimacy, and even took the initiative to pinch the tender flesh of his cheek with his index and middle fingers.

It's a good thing, the clingy, noisy and chattering Xiao Chining finally came back.

"She was never No.1." Xiao Zhaoshan said.

"Who is that?"

"No one is."

The elevator door opened, and Xiao Zhaoshan pulled his hand out of the elevator.Xiao Chining, who was following behind him, took out the key before him.

The house is still dark, except for a spotlight that was not turned off in time on the stairs leading to the second floor.When Xiao Zhaoshan changed his shoes, he took another look at the house, but he no longer felt that the place was deserted.

He was in a good mood for a long time.

"Is that painting?" Xiao Chining followed behind him, continuing to babble, "Is it your gallery business, or money?"

Xiao Zhaoshan went straight to the kitchen and took a glass of boiled water from the water purifier: "I'm not short of paintings, and I'm not short of money, what do you think."

Xiao Chining guessed: "It's you?"

Xiao Zhaoshan drank most of the glass in one go before turning back and leaning against the cupboard, folded his arms and asked, "Is this question very important?"

Xiao Chining nodded affirmatively in front of him: "Well, it's very important."

"I want to know who I defeated, I want to know how much gold this No.1 has, and I want to know how much you love me, Dad." Xiao Chining looked at him, "There is nothing more important than this. Dad, you have to tell I."

But Xiao Zhaoshan hasn't thought deeply about this issue yet.

He tapped the glass with his fingertips, and after a long silence, he answered seriously: "You can treat it as worthless, or you can cherish it in your heart. How important you are to me is all up to you."

Xiao Chining did not admit his ambiguous attitude.

He took the glass away from Xiao Zhaoshan's hand and put it aside, he stretched his arms around him without authorization, and sent himself into his embrace.

"No, Dad, don't you understand what No.1 means?"

Xiao Chining put his ear on Xiao Zhaoshan's left chest, asked himself and answered, "It's exclusive."

"Hu Yingxue told me that there is a natural barrier between No.1 and No.2. If she had been No.1, she would not have died."

Xiao Zhaoshan didn't want Xiao Chining to mention this girl frequently.After going back and forth, he almost has a shadow.

"I have lived until now, and I have never felt that no one has to live." He held Xiao Chining's wrist and made him stand up straight, "Now is not the time to discuss what love is, it is almost dawn, go change your shoes, wash and go to bed .”

Xiao Chining was about to open his mouth to say something more, but Xiao Zhaoshan interrupted him before he could make a sound.

"Be obedient." Xiao Zhaoshan said.

Xiao Chining was pushed out of the kitchen by him, and was pushed to the entrance to change into slippers, but he still persisted on the way.

"Look, Dad, you never said these two words to me before." He couldn't help turning his head back frequently, "It means that you have classified me as 'yours'. This is exclusive."

"All right, all right, I see."

Xiao Zhaoshan turned on the headlight in the bedroom for him, and answered twice perfunctorily.

"I'm going out at noon tomorrow. When you wake up, stay at home by yourself. Don't waste the guarantee I made for you."

"Okay." Xiao Chining turned around and grabbed him who was about to leave, "Let's sleep together, Dad."

Xiao Zhaoshan pulled out his shirt from his hand, and ruthlessly refused: "I told you before, I don't like to sleep with a skeleton in my arms."

Xiao Chining was obviously lost.

"right."

When the door was half closed, Xiao Zhaoshan suddenly remembered something and pushed the door open again.

Xiao Chining, who was still standing behind the door, raised his head, his eyes lit up, and he looked at him longingly.Xiao Zhaoshan almost forgot what he wanted to say.

"You... take out your phone."

Xiao Chining obediently took out the mobile phone that could still be used as evidence from his pocket: "What's wrong?"

"WeChat, Alipay, all the programs that are bound to the card that Chi Yan gave you, all will be unbound." Xiao Zhaoshan emphasized, "Unlock it now."

Xiao Chining retracted his hand: "Why?"

"No reason." Xiao Zhaoshan said sharply, "If you do something wrong, you will be punished. This is the rule."

Xiao Chining swore: "I will never touch drugs again, not in this life."

"It's useless to talk about it." Xiao Zhaoshan didn't leave him any room to change, "Hurry up, I'll see you explain."

Xiao Chining asked: "Then what should I eat? I don't have anything at home."

"I'll give you money to buy food. If you want to cook, you can order takeaway. But you have to keep an account. How much money was spent somewhere? Send me a WeChat report. If it's not enough, ask me for it. As long as you explain the reason, I will give it to you." of."

"I don't have your WeChat."

Xiao Zhaoshan took out his mobile phone and asked him to scan the code: "Add now."

Only then did Xiao Chining say: "My phone is out of battery."

Xiao Zhaoshan said dissatisfied: "I will charge you for 10 minutes. Don't play tricks."

Xiao Chining said honestly: "I didn't want to play tricks, it was really out of battery."

Xiao Zhaoshan said coldly: "So later you'd better explain to me clearly what you spent the 20 yuan on."

After finishing speaking, he left Xiao Chining's room without looking back, turned off the light on the first floor and went back to the room.

After running around all night, his body was extremely tired, so he turned up the water temperature and took a longer shower.When he came out of the bathroom in the master bedroom, Xiao Chining had already changed into his pajamas and sat on his bed first.

Xiao Zhaoshan paused for wiping his hair: "Is the battery fully charged?"

"Yeah." Xiao Chining at the end of the bed shook his phone, "Ten percent should be enough."

Xiao Zhaoshan naked | walked to the closet with his upper body on, opened the closet door and took out a set of black silk pajamas, and asked while buttoning up, "How much is left of 20?"

"Less than 16." Xiao Chining replied.

"specific number."

"15 one seven."

Xiao Zhaoshan found another pair of underwear that Chi Yan had folded for him from the drawer.

"continue."

Xiao Chining stared sideways at his putting on clothes, and asked: "So Chi Yan can also do housework, I thought her hands could only sign contracts."

With his back turned to him, Xiao Zhaoshan said without hesitation: "She can do it, and she can do it very well. She can do many things that you can't imagine very well."

Xiao Chining smiled: "Except for being a mother."

"It means that she doesn't want to be a mother." Xiao Zhaoshan simply ended the topic.

He threw the towel around his lower body back on the bed, and changed into clean pajama pants with his hands free.Xiao Chining got up from the end of the bed and helped him hang the bath towel on the coat rack in the corner.

"Don't change the subject."

Xiao Zhaoshan tidied it up, turned around and wanted to throw the half-wet bath towel into the changing basket, but found that the bath towel had disappeared.

So he hesitated to speak, and silently withdrew the hand he just extended.

"Dad, what's wrong?"

Xiao Chining walked up to him and smelled a familiar scent of sandalwood.

Xiao Zhaoshan bypassed him and walked towards the bathroom: "In addition to the 3 yuan, there is another 6000 yuan. Where did it go?"

Xiao Chining followed him closely, and replied, "Six thousand was spent on the way to find you on the National Day, and ten thousand was—"

He lowered his voice, stood at the door of the bathroom and lowered his eyes.

Xiao Zhaoshan patted on the aftershave, looked at him in the mirror: "What is it?"

"It's life-saving money that didn't save lives."

Xiao Chining raised his head and smiled faintly at him: "I had no choice but to find someone to help me that day, so I grabbed a taxi hailed by a couple and told the driver that as long as he could catch up I gave Hu Yingxue 20 yuan for the car he was riding in. He didn’t want it, so in the end I only transferred [-] yuan.”

Xiao Zhaoshan was speechless for a moment, then quickly looked away and only looked at himself in the mirror, and finished taking aftershave in two or three.

"Well, I see." He picked up the hair dryer and began to dry his hair, "Untie it, you are not allowed to keep a bank card."

As soon as he finished speaking, he saw Xiao Chining's leaving back in the mirror.

"Where are you going?" Xiao Zhaoshan turned off the hair dryer and called him to stop, "Just do it here."

Xiao Chining realized that Xiao Zhaoshan was inseparable from him, as if he had to see it with his own eyes to be at ease.He is very satisfied.

"I just went to get my phone, and it was on the bed."

He thoughtfully returned to the bathroom with his mobile phone, and deliberately stood beside Xiao Zhaoshan so that he could also see the screen.

While drying his hair, Xiao Zhaoshan watched him enter the password openly, verified according to the procedure, and unlocked all the bank cards.

When logging out of mobile banking, Xiao Chining suddenly asked, "Dad, is my payment password easy to remember?"

Xiao Zhaoshan touched the roots of his hair, and after confirming that the hair was completely dry, he put down the hair dryer.

"020406, even sequence?"

Without raising his head, Xiao Chining said calmly, "It's my birth date, Dad. April [-], [-]."

Xiao Zhaoshan was taken aback.

"Is it easy to remember." Xiao Chining completed all the steps, turned off the phone, raised his face and asked with a smile, "Dad, do you remember?"

Xiao Zhaoshan never remembered Xiao Chining's birthday.

At that time, he was still in prison, and even the news that Chi Yan almost couldn't make it to the operating table was delayed for two days. Therefore, April [-]th in [-] was just a repeating ordinary day for him.

But now that he thought about it, there was something extraordinary about this day.

Xiao Chining came to this world on this day, and he chose to become Xiao Zhaoshan's son by fate, and Xiao Zhaoshan became a father who was not a father.

"Well, I remember, April [-]th."

He walked out of the bathroom, lifted the quilt and sat on the side of the bed where he was always sleeping.

"Go downstairs and rest when you're done. Be careful of having a headache tomorrow after drinking so much."

"I'm too sleepy to go downstairs, so I'll sleep here."

Xiao Chining blatantly put his mobile phone on the bedside table, and without permission directly lay down on the side where Chi Yan usually slept.

Xiao Zhaoshan leaned on the pillow, frowned and looked at him: "Go down."

"No."

Xiao Chining quickly put on the quilt, as if he was staying here and not leaving.

"Your bed is softer than mine, and you are warmer than my quilt."

Xiao Zhaoshan was tired and was too lazy to waste his time talking, so he no longer insisted on letting him go back to his room to sleep, and turned his back to sleep after turning off the light.

Seeing that he agreed, Xiao Chining happily leaned over to wrap his arms around his waist, closed his eyes and buried himself on his back, taking a deep breath.

He traced Xiao Zhaoshan's skin under the cloth with his lips, and murmured intoxicatedly: "Dad, you smell so sweet, I like you so much."

Xiao Zhaoshan opened his eyes in the dark morning when the blackout curtains blocked him: "Aren't you sleepy?"

Xiao Chining twisted his body, tightened his hands and said, "I'm sleepy, I want to sleep with you."

His moist and hot breath hit Xiao Zhaoshan's back, and Xiao Zhaoshan's lower body quickly responded.

Xiao Chining didn't know, and kept saying, "Will Chi Yan hug you to sleep like this? Has she ever praised that you smell so good, it's the first time I saw you..."

Xiao Chining realized that he finally had the appearance of being a mistress, occupying the position of his original partner, hugging her man, speaking ill of her behind her back, and even wanted her man to divorce her.

He was amused by his own thoughts.

"It's strange that a son would say 'meeting you for the first time' to his father."

The corners of his mouth turned up, and the eyelashes on the lower eyelids fluttered happily.

"But I did regard the day I arrived in Beijing as the first official meeting with you, Dad. This was the beginning of my new life. At that time, as soon as I got in your car, I could smell the sandalwood on your body. "

"I remember that day you were wearing a white shirt with a wooden button sewn on the left chest. It was very pretty and fit well..."

When he whispered here, the person in his arms turned over unexpectedly, turned his back and kissed his half-open lips precisely.

In the dark and silent room, Xiao Zhaoshan kissed so hard that he almost swallowed Xiao Chining in his stomach.

He lifted up Xiao Chining's cotton pajamas under the quilt, stroked his frail body and tender skin whole, and at the same time did not forget to use the swollen place to imitate the frequency of copulation to touch Xiao Chining's hip bones.

Too thin, Xiao Chining was too thin, Xiao Zhaoshan felt that he could crush him with a little force.

He lowered his movements lightly, and his upper body became even more unscrupulous. The ambiguous sound of water resounded throughout the bedroom continuously.

Xiao Chining put his hands on Xiao Zhaoshan's shoulders, raised his legs to press Xiao Zhaoshan's waist, and the two of them stuck together tightly, as inseparable as tonight.

Xiao Zhaoshan had just taken a shower, his body temperature was already higher than normal, but the bed was still as hot as a scorching stove, he could only grab the precious water from Xiao Chining's mouth.

The tip of Xiao Chining's tongue was numb, and he groaned softly without knowing it. He raised his face and unreservedly offered himself for him to taste.

Xiao Zhaoshan didn't want to hear him make such a sound, and almost missed his gun, so he quickly grabbed his shoulder and pushed him away a little.

Xiao Chining opened his eyes suspiciously: "Father?"

Xiao Zhaoshan breathed heavily and stared at his eyes that were still glowing in the dark, and said in a deep voice, "Can this stop your mouth?"

He pushed Xiao Chining's legs down, closed his eyes and lay flat, trying his best to cool himself down.

"Sleep, or roll downstairs if you don't sleep."

Xiao Chining reached out to hold his high spirits, and said fearlessly, "Dad, I can help you."

Xiao Zhaoshan swiftly fanned his hand away, pulled up the half-slipped quilt, and smoothly wrapped Xiao Chining into a cocoon with his head exposed.

Xiao Chining still planned to struggle: "It's hard to sleep like this, let me help you."

Xiao Zhaoshan hugged the disobedient silkworm cocoon, and ordered through gritted teeth: "Sleep well, sleep quickly!"

[1] From Luo Dayou's "Childhood".