why are they still in love

It wasn't too late when Xiao Zhaoshan returned home after buying the skateboard. He reckoned that Xiao Chining would fall asleep before twelve o'clock, so he wanted to see if he had taken his medicine honestly.

The first floor was pitch black, and no familiar human voice could be heard.It seems that Chi Yan went home in the afternoon, but her usual pair of high heels were gone.Xiao Zhaoshan supported the shoe cabinet and changed into slippers, it was rare for him to feel deserted in such a home.

He went straight to the master bedroom and knocked on the door, but no one responded, so he waited for a while, and tried to press the doorknob after a minute.

Unexpectedly, the door was unlocked.Xiao Zhaoshan felt a little strange in his heart.

He turned on the ceiling light in the room, and as expected, there was no one on the bed at all, and there were no boxes of medicine prescribed by the hospital on the bedside table and bay window. Looking back carefully, I didn't see the sneakers that Xiao Chining wore out today in the shoe cabinet just now.

After they broke up at the school gate, Xiao Chining never went home.As soon as Xiao Zhaoshan deduced this point, the strangeness in his heart turned into anxiety.

He was inexplicably sure that Xiao Chining must have found something in the woods, or got some bad information, so he didn't return to this bedroom where he was willing to stay for nine days without eating or drinking.

Xiao Zhaoshan went upstairs and dialed the cell phone number that had been stored for a long time but never took the initiative to call, but it rang eight|nine times, but still no one answered.

He paced back and forth on the dark balcony, repeatedly redialing and being hung up naturally. In just 5 minutes, he had memorized the eleven numbers by heart.

Apart from Hu Yingxue's family, he couldn't think of other insiders, so he could only call Chi Yan.

Chi Yan was still working overtime, and he didn't show much concern or anxiety when he heard that Xiao Chining was gone.

"Did he go skateboarding? Usually he comes back late after school, maybe he wandered somewhere again this time."

Xiao Zhaoshan tried his best to sound calm: "He threw his new skateboard on the street, but the old skateboard is still at home. Where can he go shopping?"

Chi Yan suspended the work in hand, and replied: "He is almost an adult, and there are always other pastimes besides skateboarding, so don't worry."

Xiao Zhaoshan didn't expect that the restlessness he was trying to control would be easily spotted by her, and he paused for a moment before saying, "Do you know what kind of life he lived after Hu Yingxue passed away?"

Chi Yan got up and went into the rest room of the office, and asked, "Who is Hu Yingxue?"

"The girl who jumped off the building a while ago is Xiao Chining's friend."

"It turned out to be her. What's the matter?"

"So it's impossible for Xiao Chining to have fun, he this afternoon..."

Halfway through the conversation, Xiao Zhaoshan thought that if he wanted Chi Yan to understand the importance of Xiao Chining's loss of contact, he had to explain the ins and outs, confess Hu Yingxue's last words, and explain how Hu Yingxue's death was. It affected Xiao Chining's life, and he needed to explain why he was worried that Xiao Chining would be overwhelmed.

This is bound to be an extremely lengthy, inefficient conversation.

"Forget it, it's nothing." He closed his eyes and rubbed the center of his brows, and simply gave up communicating, "It's fine if he didn't contact you, I'll think of a way."

Chi Yan deliberately took the time to listen to the family's complaints, but only got a "forget it" and said unhappily: "Xiao Ning is not a three-year-old child. He can't live without us. He has his own friends and his own social circle. , maybe you are playing games at a friend's house right now, why are you so nervous?"

friend?Xiao Zhaoshan sneered, "I hope so."

"Zhaoshan, what do you mean?" Chi Yan said in a deep voice, "Aren't you very busy recently, what are you worrying about without resting so late?"

"Worrying blindly? Do you call this worrying blindly?" Xiao Zhaoshan asked loudly, "Is he just my son?!"

Chi Yan also raised the volume: "Why are you so naive?! Xiao Chining has hands and feet, what could be the reason for not answering the phone at night? He doesn't want you to find him at all!"

Quarreling was not Xiao Zhaoshan's original intention. There had been almost no conflicts between him and Chi Yan for many years. Even in the year when Chi Yan suffered from postpartum depression and became sensitive and irritable, they were separated in two places, keeping a distance and peacefully. Solve the problem.

Although the final peacefully negotiated solution was to send Xiao Chining away.

But now I don't know whether it's the fear of Xiao Chining's loss of contact, or the anger at his father who has finally become a helpless father. He finds that he is about to be unable to restrain the urge in his heart to yell at Chi Yan. This is true and shouldn't be. .

"Yan, I don't want to quarrel with you." Finally, he chose to sit down on the wicker chair, and hastily ended the failed call, "I remember you have to catch an early morning flight, so I won't bother you, you can go and pack your luggage .”

Chi Yan ran around for several days without touching his feet, and at this time he was exhausted, and he didn't intend to say anything more, so he sighed: "You can do whatever you want, let me know if there is any news about him."

Xiao Zhaoshan agreed to come down, hung up the phone and smoked two cigarettes before getting up and going downstairs, and drove out to find Xiao Chining.

This time, it was inconvenient for him to ask his acquaintances from the police force to check the base station in the middle of the night like last time, and then went to Xiao Chining's school, trying to find him in the completely quiet neighborhood. The "woods" that Hu Yingxue mentioned, see if there are any clues.

Unfortunately, after wandering around for more than half an hour, he couldn't see any vegetation that could be called a "forest" near this boarding high school.

While looking around in the car window, he continued to call Xiao Chining.But Xiao Chining's cell phone seemed to be out of battery, and there was only a formulaic shutdown prompt, which was not good news at 01:30 in the morning.

But when Xiao Zhaoshan had no choice but to give in to the police station, the police station called him first.

The unfamiliar landline number was already enough to make him feel bad, but he didn't expect that when he picked it up, the person on the other side asked bluntly: "Hello, we are the Xicheng District Police Station. Are you Xiao Chining's parent?"

Xiao Zhaoshan slammed on the brakes and stopped on the non-motorized driveway, untimely recalling Hu Yingxue's grandparents who cried bitterly and came to the police station to claim the body that night.

How would they react when they received a call from the police that day? Would they have chills and sweaty palms like him?

Xiao Zhaoshan clung to the steering wheel tightly, his Adam's apple rolled up and down, and pretended to calmly answer: "I am, it's so late, what can I do?"

The policeman spoke quickly: "That's it, we have the evidence that your son bought drugs. If you are in the local area now, you'd better come to our office immediately."

After hearing this, Xiao Zhaoshan's first reaction was to be glad that Xiao Chining was still alive, and then he was shocked.A child who was fine a few hours ago, unexpectedly got hooked on the drug that should not be touched under his nose.

He was a little confused for a moment: "What did you say?"

"We can't disclose the specific details over the phone. Since the suspect is still a minor, you come here first and go through the necessary procedures." The policeman politely interrupted him, "We are still investigating the others, don't worry too much, come here Be safe on the road."

But how could Xiao Zhaoshan not be in a hurry, he has seen and heard too many bad deeds of drug addicts in this circle, each of them looks shocking.

A talented student who has studied abroad is still flying back to China|Yezi, a young man who dreamed of reaching the sky in one step, took a utility knife and cut off the earlobe of his cohabiting girlfriend wearing a pendant. , and turned to pimping, picking on the rich second-generation kids who had just entered the industry.

He will always remember a male classmate from the sculpture department next door. Just out of affection, he drank a glass of fruit wine that the old man handed over at a friend's party, and he became addicted without anyone knowing it. He went to drug rehab five times back and forth. So there is still no end.

This is not news, not an old story, but a lesson that actually happened before his eyes.

He and that classmate once took a woodcut printmaking class with the same teacher, and played billiards together outside the school.He knew the classmate's name and hobbies, and knew that his family was very good and his parents were loving. He knew that he was not self-sufficient, not seeking shortcuts, and because of this, he felt that he was a survivor. No matter how unreasonable the son is, he will never drink wine of unknown origin and smoke the solo cigarettes handed him by others.

It was as if everything was in vain.He has been vigilant for so many years and has avoided so many open and dark arrows, but he never thought that it was not him who was recruited, but his son.

Xiao Zhaoshan's teeth were broken with hatred, but since no one was in front of him, no fire could burn well.

On the way to the Xicheng Police Station, he forced himself to think of a way, how to get Xiao Chining out, how to take advantage of loopholes to minimize judicial responsibility, and how to find a reliable supervisor to help in the compulsory drug rehabilitation center.

As he thought about it, he was so dizzy with a headache that he almost bumped into a stray dog ​​that came out of the bushes.

He stopped sharply in the middle of the road, watching the stray dog ​​limping across the street, with cold sweat on his back.

Can't go on like this, anyone can mess up, he can't, he has to stay calm.

The police said on the phone that they had evidence of Xiao Chining's purchase of drugs, what if he was caught before he had time to smoke?

As long as you are not addicted to drugs, there is still salvation.He saved Xiao Chining.

If, if time went backwards, he forcibly followed him to the woods in the afternoon, maybe everything now would not have happened.Xiao Chining can cry if he wants to cry, and stop going to school if he doesn't want to. If he doesn't have an appetite, he can slowly raise it. If he doesn't have the desire to survive, he can't do it.

But what the hell is he going to do to make Xiao Chining wake up from the grief of losing his best friend? !

"Di-"

The sound of the horn blared through the night sky, Xiao Zhaoshan patted the steering wheel as if venting his anger, his face gradually turned grim.He restarted the car, ignoring the electronic eyes, and kicked up the speed to ninety yards.

The gray-green Cayenne was desperately overtaking and speeding on the road. The helplessness and anger that urgently needed to exit prompted him to turn the steering wheel while digging out a recently dialed number from the call log.

Just as Chi Yan put the documents into her handbag, she was about to leave for the airport with her personal assistant. When she received a call from Xiao Zhaoshan, she took it for granted that Xiao Chining had returned home, and her tone was a little careless.

"Hey, did you find it?"

Unexpectedly, there was a burst of harsh scolding from the other end of the phone.

"Xiao Chining is crazy and you are fucking crazy too?! Who told you to transfer so much money to him at once?!"

Chi Yan was so yelled at that he subconsciously took the phone away.She frowned and looked at the screen, and after confirming that it was Xiao Zhaoshan's number, her expression suddenly turned ugly.

"Zhaoshan, what are you talking about?"

Xiao Zhaoshan's eyes were bloodshot with anger: "What am I talking about? Chi Yan, why don't you ask what the hell you did?"

Chi Yan waved his hand to let the assistant go out, and endured and endured so that he didn't scold him on the spot: "I'm also curious, what did I do to make you so angry."

"Okay, then I will remind you."

Xiao Zhaoshan honked the horn angrily, and unreasonably signaled the car next to him to slow down and let him change lanes.

"Did you give Xiao Chining 20?"

"Yes." Chi Yan said bluntly, "I gave him money to let him go out to relax on National Day, what's wrong?"

"What's wrong?" Xiao Zhaoshan sneered, "20 is pocket money for you, but not for Xiao Chining!"

Chi Yan felt ridiculous: "I have the ability to give him so much, is this also wrong? I am good to my son, is this also wrong?!"

Xiao Zhaoshan ran a red light: "This is called being nice to him? Do you know what he did with the money?"

Chi Yan lost her patience. She supported the desk and said angrily: "I don't care what he did, even if he killed and set fire, it was his own choice, no one forced him!"

Xiao Zhaoshan almost roared and said, "Do you know that you are harming him? He is only 17 years old!"

"Is 17 very young? When I was 17, I was already the second place in our city's college entrance examination. I knew exactly what kind of person I wanted to be and what I wanted to do. You made money selling paintings under the contract, and now you tell me he's 'only' 17 years old?"

The more Chi Yan said, the more wronged he became: "Xiao Zhaoshan, you are abnormal, you are too abnormal. You call and quarrel with me in the middle of the night because of some trivial matters, and you take all your anger on me and say all kinds of bad things. It’s my fault that I worked so hard to spend money for him, it’s my fault that I want him to enjoy a good life, I think it’s my fault for giving birth to him!”

But Xiao Zhaoshan doesn't think she has the right to be wronged: "Did I tell you before I got married that I didn't want children? Did I tell you that we can live freely together? Chi Yan, think about it for yourself." Think, how did you answer me at that time."

Of course Chi Yan remembered, at that time she replied: "Okay, anyway, I don't like children, I just have you."

But later the facts were the opposite.Even without Xiao Chining, they were never the only ones with each other.

"Yes, it's all my fault, it's my fault that I was infatuated and wanted to have a baby to give you hope in prison." She sneered, "Since you don't want to see Xiao Chining so much, then you kill him, and then you still You, I’m still me, isn’t that consummation? Xiao Zhaoshan, you are so capable, it’s not difficult to make him disappear from this world, right? Go, kill him!”

"Chi Yan!" Xiao Zhaoshan was furious, "Do you fucking know what you're talking about!"

Chi Yan lost his composure and elegance, and shouted loudly: "Why don't I know! Don't you just regret it?! Xiao Zhaoshan, let me tell you, I, Chi Yan, have never done anything that I would regret. If it wasn't for you, you When I am willing to give birth to him? I will leave the word here today, Xiao Chining is dead or alive, what did he do with the 20 yuan, it has nothing to do with me, I gave him a life, he is willing How to squander it is his own business, I can't control it, and I don't want to control it, do you understand?!"

Xiao Zhaoshan suddenly realized that he had nothing to say about Chi Yan like this.

In the past, he always thought that he was different, but in fact, he was no different from other fathers, and Xiao Chining would always be a child in his eyes.When faced with such a serious situation, rather than blindly blaming the child for being ignorant, he is more inclined to blame the sensible adults for not being disciplined.

After seeing this clearly, he felt very disappointed, to Chi Yan, to himself, and to Xiao Chining.

So he didn't bother to blame anyone, everyone was in the same place, and each other.

He immediately disconnected the phone, gritted his teeth and rushed all the way to the Xicheng District Police Station.

Before getting out of the car, he unbuckled his seat belt and took a deep breath on the seat to calm himself down so as not to spread the loss of control to the outside of the car.He wants to solve the problem, not let the problem ferment.

In short, as long as Xiao Chining doesn't take | drugs, everything will turn around.

Taking a step back, even if Xiao Chining really takes drugs, he can take him to quit. If he fails once, he will do it twice, if he fails twice, he will do it three times, and if he fails three times, he will do it ten times and a hundred times.

Xiao Zhaoshan made up his mind, as long as he is still alive, he will never sit still and watch Xiao Chining be destroyed.

Because anyway, he has become a father.