why are they still in love

Xiao Zhaoshan once suspected that he was wrong, because after Xiao Chining came out of the police station, he turned back into that empty puppet, just like a sweeping tsunami abruptly stopped at the coastline, and suddenly retreated silently to the ocean.

No one spoke, Chi Yan drove the car intently, still wearing the brand new watch.

At the last intersection outside the community, she stopped at the red light and looked in the rearview mirror, and suddenly said to Xiao Chining: "People cannot be resurrected after death, so don't be too sad.

Xiao Chining leaned on the seat facing out the window, did not respond to her comfort, and was always in a daze.

Chi Yan didn't force it, and didn't express any opinions. He got out of the car and took Xiao Zhaoshan's arm and walked towards the elevator in the underground parking lot.

Xiao Zhaoshan's right shoulder ligament was strained, and he went to the hospital to apply medicine after finishing the record, leaving a strong bitter taste of swelling and pain-relieving tincture on his body.She touched his wound lightly, frowned and asked him if it hurt.

It should be very painful, but Xiao Zhaoshan said: "Fortunately, it doesn't hurt anymore."

Compared with falling from the seventh floor, this pain is really nothing.He didn't want to recall the picture of the girl falling from his hands.

After walking two more steps, he suddenly realized that Xiao Chining behind him hadn't followed, so he stopped and turned to look back.

Ten meters away from them, Xiao Chining bowed his head and shoulders, his feet shuffled and made alternating strong and weak noises, like a zombie following a living person.

Only then did Xiao Zhaoshan realize that he was lame.

"how?"

Seeing him stop, Chi Yan followed his line of sight, and was quickly taken aback by Xiao Chining, who was soaked in blood and lost his soul.

When she arrived at the police station to pick him up, Xiao Chining was sitting in the dark courtyard of the police station, lost in thought. Later, she was busy taking Xiao Zhaoshan to the hospital for treatment, and didn't have time to pay attention to his condition. Only then did she see Xiao Chining's blood-stained half of his body, locks of hair sticking to his forehead, and he looked like he had just escaped from a tiger's mouth.

"Chi Ning, hurry up, go back and take a good bath."

After hearing this, Xiao Chining didn't move. He stood there with his head buried for a while, and then he covered his stomach and slowly bent down.

At first Xiao Zhaoshan thought he was crying, and didn't intend to give any comfort, thinking that it would be good to let him cry for a while.However, Xiao Chining was buried deeper and deeper, and finally fell straight to the ground.

He felt something was wrong, walked quickly to him and squatted down, patted his back: "Xiao Chining?"

Xiao Chining lay on the ground without any reaction.

Xiao Zhaoshan still thought of the dead girl, she lay in a pool of blood and lost her breath forever.

He quickly turned Xiao Chining over by his shoulders, knowing that he would not die, but he still shook his hands uncontrollably to check his breath.

Fortunately, he is still alive, Xiao Chining is still alive.

At this moment, Xiao Zhaoshan unexpectedly experienced the relief of the rest of his life after the catastrophe.

He didn't care about the shoulder injury, he quickly picked up Xiao Chining who suddenly fell into a coma for some reason, and asked Chi Yan to drive to the hospital.

The nurse at the triage desk heard that the patient had a history of meningitis and asked them to fill out a form and go to the emergency department of brain surgery.But the brain surgeon only found out that Xiao Chining had a fever, but not other problems, and suggested that they be transferred to general surgery.

Next door to the surgical emergency department is the pediatric emergency department, and the cries of children can be heard endlessly, making Xiao Zhaoshan and Chi Yan very upset.

Xiao Chining was still quiet, and he walked between departments many times without opening his eyes.

The doctor closed the curtain and asked the family to take off his jeans so that he could have a better look at his crippled leg.

Xiao Zhaoshan took off his trousers as he said, and then his eyes were dazzled by the large scratches and old scars on Xiao Chining's legs that hadn't completely scabbed over.

"The swelling is so high," the doctor pressed his ankle to check whether there was fluid accumulation, "how did it hurt?"

Xiao Zhaoshan stared at Xiao Chining's face, and replied, "I don't know."

The doctor looked at him strangely: "Are you his father?"

"Ah."

"You don't know how the child was hurt?"

Xiao Zhaoshan didn't bother to explain, and said with a stinky face: "I just want to know why he fell into a coma."

"According to what you said, he may have been frightened. I will take him to have a blood test and take a film later."

The doctor hung up the stethoscope, lifted Xiao Chining's shirt to listen to his heart sounds, but found a new injury.

"Why are there injuries here? Who beat you?"

Xiao Zhaoshan's complexion became even worse when he saw clearly the bruise that spread from under Xiao Chining's chest to his waist.

"do not know."

"Did the patient say that he was uncomfortable before he fell into a coma?"

Can't answer "no", Xiao Zhaoshan thought, probably Xiao Chining was not feeling well anywhere, but he didn't tell him, so he chose to answer: "I don't know."

The doctor was so annoyed by his ignorant manner, he sat back in front of the computer without even looking at him after listening to the heartbeat, and tapped the keyboard to open an order.

"Since you don't know anything, you should do the checks one by one, otherwise you can't rule out potential risks. If the patient has fever symptoms, I suggest you stay in the hospital for observation, and the test results will be sent directly to the doctor on duty if you are admitted. You don’t have to go to get it, it’s more convenient than going to the outpatient clinic, and the doctor on duty will communicate with you.”

Xiao Zhaoshan had never been hospitalized, so he did what the doctor said.He put Xiao Chining on his pants, carried him back to the wheelchair he borrowed from the hospital, let Chi Yan watch him, and went to pay the fee by himself.

The last time he experienced such a scene was when his mother was seriously ill.He was admitted to the hospital, signed the consent form for surgery, received the notice of critical illness, signed the consent form for surgery again, received the notice of critical illness, and repeated the cycle for five months. death certificate.

He handed over his mother's ID card to the police station where she was registered, canceled her account and bank card, terminated all insurance for her, selected the cemetery, selected Feng Shui, selected photos, and went through the cremation procedures to melt her into one put ashes.

On the night of the burial, he sat alone in the dark living room smoking a cigarette, and finally slowly felt that "death" was not the moment when the heart stopped, but the cumbersome and long, gradually numb obliteration after the heart stopped.

He killed his own mother.

Life itself is a massacre, poverty kills love, illness kills blood, the strong kills the weak, the young kills the old, the present kills the past, the future kills the present, Xiao Zhaoshan understands that if nothing happens, sooner or later , Xiao Chining will kill him too.

And he couldn't do anything about it.

"Zhaoshan?"

Chi Yan called him back to God.

"I'll get a nurse. You've been tired all night. Let's go home."

Xiao Zhaoshan leaned on the window sill and looked at Xiao Chining's ECG on the vital signs monitor, lowered his head and wiped his face wearily: "It's okay, I'll watch it here."

Chi Yan walked around the hospital bed, came to him and hugged his waist, and asked in a low voice: "Today is my birthday, and you won't accompany me?"

Xiao Zhaoshan couldn't laugh, he held her wrists with a heavy expression, and grabbed them from the back of his waist.

"I'll come back to accompany you when he wakes up." He kissed Chi Yan's forehead, "Happy birthday, you go back to sleep first."

Chi Yan tapped his shoulder unhappy: "Have you forgotten that you are also an injured patient? There are not many free beds in this ward, how can you sleep? I will stay if it is impossible, and you can go home and rest."

Xiao Zhaoshan didn't care: "Small injuries, don't get in the way."

He put his arms around Chi Yan's waist and sent her to the door of the ward, coaxing her in a good-tempered manner: "Xiang is obedient, doctors and nurses come in and out here, it's inconvenient for you to be a woman, it's better for me to stay."

Seeing that he had made up his mind, Chi Yan no longer insisted, took out the car key from his bag and handed it to him: "Then I'll take a taxi back, and you can drive directly to work tomorrow."

"I won't go to the gallery tomorrow, you can drive the car back, it's not safe to take a taxi so late." Xiao Zhaoshan smiled with the corners of his mouth pulled, "Send me a message when you get home."

Chi Yan was reluctant but unable to refute, raised his head and kissed him reluctantly for a while before leaving.

In the ward, there was only the beeping sound of the monitor. Xiao Zhaoshan stood by the door for a while, then walked slowly to the bedside.

Xiao Chining was in the middle of an infusion, and the nurse used iodine to cut a circle on the back of his hand, and he could easily see the blood vessels picked up by the needle tip under the medical tape.Unknowingly, he was lying flat on the white hospital bed, his pale face shone with a holy light under the moonlight, and his usually bright and sharp eyebrows and eyes seemed to be fogged out, which made people's hearts unavoidably moist.

Xiao Zhaoshan helped him put the infused hand into the quilt, pity that he had to learn to bear death and parting without reunion at a young age.

An hour later the on-call doctor came again, opened his eyelids and tested him with a light to see if he had regained consciousness.

"I gave some hormones, and now there is a response, and the vital signs are relatively stable. There is no major problem. After these few bags of infusion, another bag of glucose will be enough." The doctor straightened up and said to Xiao Zhaoshan quickly, " The sprains on the feet and contusions on the ribs have to go home and recuperate slowly. The hospital beds are relatively tight. The patient can be discharged from the hospital when the fever subsides in the morning. It is best not to exercise strenuously for the past month, quit smoking and drinking, and eat a light diet to maintain a peaceful mood Smooth, take internal medicine and external medicine on time and spray on time, if the condition recurs or if you have convulsion symptoms in the later stage, don’t delay and send it to the hospital immediately.”

Xiao Zhaoshan had a headache from reading the doctor's order, but he still complied calmly after listening to it: "I will pay attention, thank you doctor."

As soon as the person left, as soon as the nerves relaxed, sleepiness surged up.Xiao Zhaoshan yawned and began to think about where to spend the night.

There is only one chair that can barely be used as a folding bed in the ward. If you want a pillow or a pillow or a quilt or a quilt, it would be too wronged to sleep there.Anyway, both of them were dirty, so he simply took off his shoes and lifted Xiao Chining's quilt, and planned to spend the night with him, at least he wouldn't catch a cold.

Perhaps it was because Xiao Chining was running a fever. As soon as he lay down, he felt that the bed was warm enough to make his body weak and sleepy.

The hospital bed in the single room was quite spacious, he put his arms around Xiao Chining's waist to prevent him from falling off the bed, and soon fell into a deep sleep.

The next day, Xiao Zhaoshan was woken up by the sound of doctors and nurses patrolling the room in the corridor. He opened his eyes and found that Xiao Chining, who should be in his arms, had disappeared. There were several straight lines and several invalid Numbers, the infusion needle was hanging on the ground with the hose attached, and two drops of blood were stained on the torn medical tape.

He searched all the stairwells and bathrooms in the inpatient department, and finally learned from the nurse who was about to get off work: "Oh, bed No. 37, he said he wanted to go out for breakfast at six o'clock, but the doctor's order didn't mention fasting. Let him sign up and go out to eat."

"is it?"

The young nurse was a little panicked: "Could it be that he hasn't come back yet?"

For the shitty breakfast, Xiao Zhaoshan laughed angrily: "It doesn't matter if we come back or not, we'll be discharged from the hospital right away."

He completed the discharge procedures, called Chi Yan before getting into the car, and asked him if Xiao Chining had returned home.

Chi Yan had just arrived at the company, and after talking to the secretary for a few words, he replied angrily: "I came back early in the morning, and I asked him why he wasn't with you, but he ignored me at all, and didn't even look at me."

Xiao Zhaoshan comforted him while starting the car: "Don't talk to him either, wait for him to relax for two days."

When he said this, he didn't expect that Xiao Chining's delay was only half a month.

In the first week, he was busy with the things Yue Zezhang asked him to do. Apart from painting, he held meetings every day, discussed exhibition ideas with the planning department, and slept in the gallery for several nights.In the second week, he stayed at home and sorted out the manuscripts, only to realize that Xiao Chining had disappeared.

It's not the "disappearance" of completely losing his whereabouts, but the "disappearance" of people who can't see him, hear his voice, or feel his breath even though they are very close.

Xiao Zhaoshan was sure that he was at home, his shoes were in the shoe cabinet, the clothes he washed before the accident were drying on the balcony, and there were several pairs of spare wheels for his skateboard in the drawer, but he had nine days, a full nine days, without Came out of the room.