why are they still in love

Xiao Chining couldn't find an accurate word to summarize all of Xiao Zhaoshan.

Say he is ruthless, and the gentleness on his face when he and Chi Yan are in the same room does not seem to be fake; say he is indifferent, but he will personally serve Chen Yu a bowl of noodles in the middle of the night after the ups and downs; say he is mean, but his real Disdain always manifests itself in ignorance and silence.

"He's a huge egotist."

Therefore, Xiao Chining tried to describe his father to Hu Yingxue in this way.

"Tsk, so there are parents like this in the world." Hu Yingxue put the cigarette butt out on the steps, got up and stepped on her newly bought skateboard, bent her knees and turned her head, and asked, "Is this right?"

After meeting unexpectedly in the woods last Monday, the two deskmates finally stopped turning a blind eye to each other in class. Occasionally, Xiao Chining openly dozed off in class and was stared at viciously by the teacher, and Hu Yingxue would poke her with her elbow as if nothing had happened. his elbow.

But Xiao Chining is willing to confess to her that part of himself is not because of the need to exchange sinful secrets with her, or because of such a trivial and difficult to ignore friendship as helping guard.If he wants to sleep, he will continue to sleep even if he is stared at to death by the teacher.

In such a short period of time, the reason for the unprecedented trust established with peers for the first time is simple-they are all equally bored, equally resentful, and have lived without accomplishing anything until now.A certain degree of similarity makes him often only need to say the first word, and Hu Yingxue can know every word after that.

It's a lot of effort, and indeed a joy to behold.And this kind of strange and irresistible joy makes Xiao Chining, who has never experienced such a feeling, want to stop it.

"Toes out, shoulders open." He jumped off his skateboard, walked over to correct her posture, "try it."

Hu Yingxue smoothly slid along the sunken square and returned to him: "It's cool. It's just a little stiff when turning."

Xiao Chining sat down on the steps facing the street, lit a cigarette, and commented: "You just started practicing, it's normal."

Hu Yingxue sat down with him, and stretched out her hand to him very naturally: "Give me a piece."

Xiao Chining frowned, but still handed her the cigarette case and lighter together: "You don't know how to buy it yourself?"

"Wake up, I'm a boarding student, how can I usually have a chance to buy it?" Hu Yingxue lit a cigarette, and returned the cigarette case and lighter to him, "I can't say in front of my parents at night, hey, you go first." A little later, I'll go to the supermarket to buy a pack of cigarettes and then come back to drink your bastard soup?"

Xiao Chining understood, and asked again: "Does your father smoke?"

"Smoking." Hu Yingxue lay back, leaning her elbows on a higher step, "Don't worry, there is perfume, I'll spray half a bottle of it later, even the dogs won't be able to smell it."

Like this, it saves effort to speak.

Other uncles, aunts, aunts, grandparents and grandparents on the square who came out to bask in the sun with their children at home saw a man and a woman wearing key high school uniforms and wearing badges, behaving intimately like a couple. Smoked a cigarette in public, and felt that the world was getting worse. Teenagers no longer took our pills, so they hurriedly picked up their toddler and walked away.

"Look, we have attracted so much suspicion." Hu Yingxue laughed.

Xiao Chining doesn't care: "Just get used to it."

Hu Yingxue took a puff of smoke, and slowly put away her smile, "I can't do it. I have been a child of someone else's family for 17 years."

Xiao Chining said casually: "Why don't we change our parents."

"Forget it." Hu Yingxue shook off the soot, "If you were my parents' son, in the end, either you would chop them with a knife, or they would chop you with a knife."

"If you were my parents' daughter, it would be pretty miserable." Xiao Chining looked into the distance and said calmly, "Even if you are the first in your grade, no one will come to hold a parent-teacher meeting for you."

Hu Yingxue sneered and said, "This is the dream of many students."

"Using other people's standards to measure your own is really stupid." Xiao Chining replied.

"Don't let me comfort you." Hu Yingxue lowered her head and stepped on the skateboard under her feet, "What's wrong with earning half a day off for nothing? Our parents don't deserve it."

Today is Friday, the routine parents' meeting in the second week of the monthly exam, and also the first full-year parents' meeting in the third year of high school. The school gave the senior three students a collective half-day holiday.

When Xiao Chining was in Hangzhou in the past, no matter how many times he got in the bottom of the exam, Qiu Yin was very keen to attend such home-school activities mainly aimed at production anxiety and family conflicts.This will make it easier for her to fully display her delicacy and calmness that is still undiminished after she is over [-] years old.

But Chi Yan and Xiao Zhaoshan obviously disdain to come here to satisfy their own vanity.

After Chi Yan knew about the parents' meeting, he said to Xiao Chining: "Let your father go, I have an important meeting that day."

Xiao Zhaoshan was more succinct: "No time." He didn't even lift his head from the work table.

For a moment, the only sound left in the studio was the rustling of his pencil tip across the sketch paper, like falling leaves.

Xiao Chining emphasized: "This is the first parents' meeting in the third year of high school, and the teacher will talk about very important things."

"Then you can participate by yourself." Xiao Zhaoshan turned his back to him, and his backlighted back seemed particularly unreasonable, "I don't have time to listen to people's persuasion on how to make you pass the test from the bottom seven to the bottom eight."

Xiao Chining was not angry when he heard the words, but smiled happily: "You remember my grades!"

On the night when the ranking came out, Chi Yan and Xiao Zhaoshan happened to go home for dinner together, and he only mentioned it casually at the dinner table.

"Father," Xiao Chining said softly, standing by the door that he had broken with his own hands, "I'm very glad that you can dislike my poor grades, really."

Xiao Zhaoshan's right hand faltered, but soon began to swing again: "If you have nothing else to do, hurry up and get out. It's very noisy."

That day Xiao Chining left the studio as he said, thinking that Xiao Zhaoshan would definitely come to attend the parent meeting in the end.However, when the parents of other students arrived at the school hall one after another this afternoon, but the Cayenne did not show up at the school gate, he knew that he still underestimated Xiao Zhaoshan's ego.

In the past, Xiao Chining would never pay any attention to such dispensable things as the parents' meeting. Even if he didn't say a word, Qiu Yin would try his best to know the time, place and theme.Now, he hoped that Xiao Zhaoshan could come, just to consolidate his qualifications to stay in the country and establish his own existence in his heart after witnessing the latter's rare retreat.

Because if it doesn't exist, there can never be love.

He wants Xiao Zhaoshan to remember the unimportant things about him, remember the ugly numbers about him, remember about him, a date that means nothing to others.

Obviously, his expectations didn't come true.

"Why didn't you become an outstanding student representative to speak in the auditorium?" Xiao Chining asked without any sarcasm, "You can speak more than they imagined."

"It's very simple." Hu Yingxue stretched out two fingers, "I am the second grader, and the teachers think that only the first grader represents an outstanding student."

"Are your parents very angry?"

"I'm very angry."

"Always a little bit away from No.1."

"They feel it's not a 'point,' it's a moat."

Xiao Chining was speechless for a while, and finally said: "It makes sense."

Hu Yingxue looked at him in disbelief, then laughed loudly, and threw the extinguished cigarette butt at him: "Xiao Chining, fuck me|your mother!"

Xiao Chining remained calm: "Go ahead, she's in a meeting. Having an office play in front of a group of old men, it's quite exciting to think about it."

"You are also a very energetic person." Hu Yingxue said, "Skipping class to go to the woods that day was the most correct thing I did this year."

"yes."

It would be a lie to say that he is unhappy, but Xiao Chining has never been praised before, and the correct answer is not knowing how to answer.

"Yes." Hu Yingxue patted him on the shoulder, "Upright, few words, but a story."

Xiao Chining was a little disgusted: "Don't use the three words 'with a story' to describe me."

"But this is the truth." Hu Yingxue leaned up the steps without being too dirty, "When you meet such parents and have such an experience, all your pain is not moaning for nothing, and all your silence is not for nothing explain."

"It's so rare." She seemed to have found a comfortable position, and let out a long sigh, "It's so good to be able to get angry, depressed, and painful with confidence."

It is impossible for Xiao Chining not to hear the self-pity in her words.

Children from other people's families can't justifiably get angry, depressed and painful, because few people can put themselves in their shoes and understand.In the eyes of the latter, they have everything that their peers dream of - excellent grades, obedience from parents, praise from teachers, praise from classmates, and a destined brilliant future.Therefore, their anger is all arrogance, and their confusion and exhaustion are all showing off maliciously.

Although he couldn't empathize, but Xiao Chining could roughly imagine, it seemed a little pitiful.

He stomped the cigarette butt under his feet, turned his head to look at Hu Yingxue who stretched her neck to look at the sky, and there was a little sympathy in her eyes unconsciously.

At this moment, a driver on the street suddenly honked his horn.

Immediately afterwards, there was another short second sound, and an impatient and continuous third sound.

"Which stupid | forceful."

Hu Yingxue straightened up and looked at the source of the harsh noise. The passenger window of the gray-green Cayenne was wide open, and the man in the driver's seat happened to meet her eyes.

So familiar.

Xiao Chining beside him stood up first, and the cigarette case and lighter on his lap fell to the ground in an instant.

Hu Yingxue looked up at him suspiciously: "What's wrong?"

Xiao Chining didn't speak, but clenched his fists.Hu Yingxue followed his line of sight and found that the car was the destination, so she compared the appearance of the man in the car from a distance as if feeling something.

It dawned on me.

Really like ah.

Although thanks to Xiao Chining, she didn't have a good impression of Xiao Zhaoshan, but at this moment she politely stood up from the steps and said, "It seems that the parent meeting is over."

Xiao Chining still didn't open his mouth, and still stood there in a daze.Xiao Zhaoshan frowned, and honked the car horn again.

Xiao Chining came back to his senses, stepped on the skateboard without saying a word, picked up the unbalanced skateboard in his hand without bending down, and then ran in that direction.

"Hey!" Hu Yingxue wanted to remind him that the cigarette was gone, but before she could finish talking, Xiao Chining jumped down the steps in three steps at a time.

In fact, Xiao Zhaoshan had already stopped by the side of the road for 2 minutes. When he came along the road, he happened to see Xiao Chining looking affectionately at the not-so-beautiful girl next to him. The wide-open eyes, and the brilliance that suddenly bloomed in them.He saw him rushing towards him holding the skateboard without listening to words, saw his hair dancing up and down and the corners of his mouth raised unconsciously, saw him running up to the brakes, trying to pretend that he was not surprised, and bowed down. Asked by the car window: "Dad, why are you here?"

Xiao Zhaoshan was paralyzed by the slow motion and trembling that he had never experienced outside of art in his life.

It turns out that Xiao Chining can have such expectant eyes, and this kind of trust that seems to come from instinct, so it turns out that he can be so energetic.

Even if someone else is sitting here today, they will never remain indifferent after witnessing the whole process of this scene.

Xiao Chining is a real person, he thought.

Hu Yingxue picked up the abandoned cigarettes and lighters from the ground, and put them into her bag logically. When she looked up again, she just caught up with the car that was driving them away.

Looking at the gray-green shadow going away, she shook her head amusedly: "The man's mouth is deceiving, how can this mother hate his father at all?"