why are they still in love

Obviously, it is almost the same as when he was in Hangzhou. He spent every day without hearing from Xiao Zhaoshan. The only difference is that now he occasionally skates to the gallery, looks at the word "Zhao" and smokes two cigarettes. Listening to the songs that Xiao Zhaoshan had heard in the wind, walking through the streets and alleys of Beijing.

Xiao Chining has never experienced missing or caring, these two emotions are insulated from him.But if Chi Yan can be made to like him more, he is willing to admit that he misses Xiao Zhaoshan.

Anyway, the result is not bad.Chi Yan was very pleased with his reliance, as if he had completely forgotten all his troubles in the gallery, and his face was full of satisfaction: "We are too busy, Xiao Ning, as long as you can understand."

Xiao Chining put down his skateboard and nodded: "I understand, you all have your own careers."

On Sunday afternoon, Xiao Zhaoshan took the only direct flight back home that day, and Chi Yan just finished a video conference, so he drove Xiao Chining, who also had no class, to the airport.

The airport pick-up gate was full of people, Chi Yan put the bag on the car, stepped on a pair of [-]cm black stiletto shoes, and wore a khaki double-breasted satin long windbreaker with a tight waist, with his hands in the windbreaker In his pocket, he stood calmly and peacefully outside the sea of ​​people and waited.

Xiao Chining noticed her well-manicured curly hair, and the smooth instep and ankle stretched out by the high-heeled shoes. He couldn't help feeling amused, especially after seeing Chen Yu, who was walking with Xiao Zhaoshan, pushing a load of luggage.

They didn't stop, Xiao Zhaoshan walked slowly towards Chi Yan who was standing by the pillar with certainty, and ignored Xiao Chining who was beside him, without saying a word.

After he walked in front of him, Chi Yan took his hands out of his pockets, slightly stretched his arms and gently wrapped his arms around his waist: "Thanks for your hard work."

Even though his face was full of tiredness that could not be concealed, Xiao Zhaoshan had a proper smile at this moment.He tilted his head and kissed the tip of Chi Yan's ear, and said completely relaxed, "Let's go."

Xiao Chining deliberately went to see Chen Yu, but found that his face was the same, and even greeted Chi Yan respectfully, and introduced himself: "Mr. Chi, I have known you for a long time. I am Chen Yu, an intern at the gallery."

Chi Yan pointed at Xiao Zhaoshan with his eyes, and said with a smile: "Then you must be very capable. It's been a long time since he personally brought interns."

Chen Yu showed his student spirit in a timely manner, and replied modestly: "Thanks to Teacher Xiao for taking care of me, I'm just lucky."

That's right, it's so capable, it's all done on the bed, where do ordinary people get such luck, Xiao Chining complained.

"This weekend, I didn't ask the driver to come." Chi Yan took Xiao Zhaoshan's hand, turned his face and said, "You have been on the plane for more than ten hours. Come and drive."

Xiao Zhaoshan held her hand back and said affirmatively, "Well, send Chen Yu back later."

Xiao Chining and Chen Yu walked behind them side by side, falling a few steps away, just enough to capture the sight of the talented and beautiful couple clasping their fingers and whispering intimately in the noisy hall.

"How do you feel now?" Xiao Chining asked.

"What do you think?"

"Your teacher Xiao and his wife are very affectionate, but you are just a bed partner who can't see the light."

Chen Yu smiled instead: "It's fine if it's not the mistress."

"It's no different from Xiaosan." Xiao Chining still looked at the pair of overlapping hands in front of him.

"Do you think a call girl who pays and delivers is the same as a mistress?"

Xiao Chining finally looked away from his lover who had nothing to do with him, and said slightly ironically: "It seems that you are a fool who is willing to be submerged."

"You'll understand when you're older. It's worth it to get a good-looking resume." A trace of blankness appeared on Chen Yu's face, "Forget it, you'll never understand."

"Worth being reduced to a 'prostitute'?"

"The whore|customer is handsome and has a good body, and the job is good." Speaking of this, Chen Yu seemed to no longer hesitate, "I can sleep with a handsome guy and get money, why not do it?"

Xiao Chining can see that there really are people in the world who love the future to the point of being stupid.

He smiled and asked, "Aren't you afraid that you will lose everything if you lose your heart?"

Chen Yu didn't answer for a long time, Xiao Chining saw the corners of his mouth tense, and didn't understand why he had the upper hand and didn't get any pleasure.

When they were about to reach the outdoor parking lot, Xiao Zhaoshan and Chi Yan crossed the road first, and he and Chen Yu were stopped by a row of taxis that had just loaded up guests at this end of the road.

At this time, Chen Yu suddenly asked: "Why did you go crazy in the gallery that day?"

Xiao Chining shrugged: "Do you think that's crazy?"

"Isn't it crazy to self-mutilate in public?" Chen Yu lowered his head, pushed the suitcase to his right, and stood closer to Xiao Chining, "At that time, there were so many glasses and so much blood, but you were like It's as if you don't feel pain, and everyone will be frightened by you."

Xiao Chining smiled indifferently: "Learn more from your teacher Xiao, and he won't."

"So." Chen Yu didn't smile, he turned his head by the side of the slowly leaving traffic, and said solemnly, "At that time, I fully understood that if you fall in love with someone like him, you will go crazy like you of."

is it?

Xiao Chining inexplicably remembered the distraught appearance of the two of them, remembering the bowl of noodles that Xiao Zhaoshan served for Chen Yu, and briefly lost his reaction.

Xiao Zhaoshan sat on the co-pilot and closed his eyes to rest his mind. The car was very quiet. The jet lag and long flight made him exhausted, and made him even more annoyed by Xiao Chining's unexpected appearance.

He was not afraid of Xiao Chining's actions, nor was he afraid that he would reveal the matter between himself and Chen Yu. After all, Chi Yan was away for many years, and there were many men in bed. They were clear in their hearts and always respected each other.

But he is very tired now, so even when he was resting, his brain never stopped vigilant, in case Xiao Chining made something wrong for him later, he could immediately throw him out of the car.

However, Xiao Chining's expression was very calm from the moment he saw Chen Yu. He was still a child who "can stay at home" in Chi Yan's eyes. He even offered to help carry two large pieces of luggage into the car when he got in the car. trunk.

He had been obedient for too long against his will, and Xiao Zhaoshan knew that this would inevitably lead to an even more astonishing explosion.

Thinking of this made him even more tired.

He frowned and opened his eyes, wanting to quietly see some signs, but unexpectedly, as soon as he looked in the rearview mirror, he bumped into Xiao Chining's persistent, almost innocent eyes.

He keeps looking at himself.

Xiao Zhaoshan was stunned for a moment, then lowered his eyelashes slightly, and condescendingly met his gaze in the mirror, clearly witnessing the whole picture of his expressionless face gradually showing the smile that a young child would raise to a trusting father. process.

For a moment, he had the illusion that Xiao Chining's meekness during this period of time was real.

But after a while, Xiao Chining silently said with that sympathetic expression, "Father, so I'm crazy."

Xiao Zhaoshan didn't understand his lips, but he easily sensed that a hurricane might have landed quietly.

"Zhaoshan. Zhaoshan?"

"Huh?" He came back to his senses, but his eyes still stayed on Xiao Chining in the rearview mirror, "What's wrong?"

"I just asked you if I missed the exit." Chi Yan sighed, "I haven't driven for a long time, and I almost can't understand the navigation."

Only then did Xiao Zhaoshan look away, turned his head and took the phone out of the holder, chose another route and put it back again: "It's okay, just go out the front exit."

Chen Yu, who was sitting behind the driver's seat, apologized repeatedly: "It's my fault, I should keep an eye on it, and please trouble Mr. Chi."

"It's all on the way, what's the trouble? I'm afraid I won't be able to turn around on the high speed." Chi Yan raised his eyes and smiled at him in the rearview mirror, "You don't think I'm a poor driver."

"Where is Mr. Chi, your skills are considered very good, at least much better than me, a road killer who has been holding a book for two years and always turns off when starting on a hill."

The car got off the expressway smoothly at the second exit. Thanks to Chi Yan and Chen Yu's long-sleeved dancing, the car finally gained popularity.Xiao Zhaoshan didn't care to listen to his wife talking and laughing with his lover. When he looked in the rearview mirror again, he found that Xiao Chining was still looking at him.

As if he was sure that he would definitely compete with it, he looked over stubbornly all the time.

Anyone who is followed by such a pair of eyes between teenagers and adults will never be indifferent.For the first time, Xiao Zhaoshan saw the vitality exuded by Xiao Chining after leaving the hospital bed.

He naturally thought of the tears of that 14-year-old child in the hospital in Hangzhou.

Xiao Zhaoshan himself had never cried before, so he became interested in the reason for his tears.

At first, he thought that Xiao Chining was crying because he had a fever again and couldn't stand the headache, but when Xiao Chining opened his foggy eyes and poured out endless nostalgia without reservation, he was surprised by these two tears Certainly not out of pain.

Never had a moment been more interesting to him as a child.

"Why are you crying?" he asked with a smile.

The child pursed his lips, and answered him hoarsely but firmly: "I, I want to go home."

But isn't home right here?

He gently combed the child's sweat-drenched forehead hair, and asked with a little pity: "Which home do you want to go back to?"

A brand-new teardrop fell on Xiao Zhaoshan's wrist, leaving a wet trace, drowning one of his billions of pulses.

"I want to go back to you..." said the child.

Just like seeing a rare and beautiful flower, one will want to pick it off for at least a second, and seeing a monk who is born with a symbol and desperation will make people want to seduce him into the mundane world, destroying beauty and purity It has become people's daily pastime and unwilling extension.Xiao Zhaoshan is no exception.

Seeing the child's pitiful appearance, he wanted to make him more pitiful.

He stretched out his fingers and scratched the corners of Xiao Chining's red eyes.

"But neither your mother nor I need you."

Line after line of tears was intercepted by the fingertips.

"Why..." Even though the child closed his eyes, it didn't stop him from crying, "Why don't you need me? I need you very much..."

Xiao Zhaoshan suddenly figured out what it was that Xiao Chining couldn't finish saying before he fell into a coma that day.

Three years have passed, and the child seems to have grown into a stingy young man, self-righteously smashing everything, and finally coming to him, asking questions time and time again, and showing old wounds time and time again.Blood ties never make sense.

With a heartbeat, he immediately changed his mind and asked Chi Yan to temporarily divert him to the gallery.

By the brush pool, he lit a cigarette and quietly stared at the painting that failed to reach the ideal state after many attempts.

He imagined that the woman by the window gradually had familiar facial features and eyes.

In her mind, she turned into a young girl, staring out the window stubbornly and desperately, as if she had asked the three thousand prosperous worlds for Xiao Chining: "Why, why can't you love me?"