why are they still in love

Sure enough, Chi Yan's heart softened, and he no longer insisted on sending him abroad. In the second week of August, he reported to the new boarding school.

It’s summer vacation, and there are only high school seniors making up classes on campus. The canteen is well-supplied and not crowded at all, but there are still some parents who will specially bring supper and supplements to their children after evening self-study.

Xiao Chining took advantage of Chi Yan's next business trip to pretend to be a fool to her, in order to win the privilege of not living in school.

Before the start of school, he bought a pair of dark green big fish boards and a few pairs of 95A spare wheels on the Internet. After the self-study class at 09:30 every night, when other students went back to the dormitory with their books in their hands to continue fighting, he vomited The smoke ring scoured the streets while stepping on a skateboard.

The nights in Beijing are no different from nights in other cities. Drinking happily is like a flashback before death, and rushing home is like a handful of fine snow falling, silently melting into muddy water.He is the most idle, most like a wandering soul that has been forgotten by the underworld for 1000 years.

He stopped and walked to the gallery, stood across the street, looked through the street trees at the locked storefront, only the signboard was lit, and lit the last cigarette in the cigarette case.

When Chi Yan was still at home, Xiao Chining acted as his cute little padded jacket, and Xiao Zhaoshan acted as his caring husband. The two of them could tacitly make up a pair of ordinary father and son who were not very close.But once Chi Yan left home to visit other places, Xiao Zhaoshan decided not to stay overnight at home, half a month after school started, Xiao Chining never saw him again.

Of course, he didn't come to the gallery right now out of miss, he just wandered here unknowingly because he had nowhere to go.Xiao Zhaoshan should be in a gentle town, kissing and making love with his young lover, either Chen Yu, or Zhao Yu, Qian Yu, Sun Yu, and Li Yu.In short, Xiao Zhaoshan will never be content with being lonely.

Xiao Chining stamped out the cigarette butt, glanced at the shining "Zhao" on the opposite side, and then stepped on the skateboard, intending to take a shortcut and go home to sleep.

However, when passing the narrow alley next to the gallery with only two dim street lights, he suddenly caught a low-pitched melody in the rough sound of pulleys, which came from the gallery.

Xiao Chining hadn't heard this song before. He held his breath and managed to distinguish two lines of the lyrics. After searching on his mobile phone, he found that the song was called "IDon'tHurtAnymore".

Inside the wall is still singing: "I am no longer in pain / Unbelievable / I used to care so much / I have already forgotten / It’s so good / I am no longer in pain", Xiao Chining outside the wall feels inexplicably healed His palms and knees ached again.

No employee would stay in the office to sing at eleven o'clock in the middle of the night. The person inside the wall was Xiao Zhaoshan who was supposed to be on a certain bed.Xiao Chining was suddenly willing to believe that.

He will never forget the truth he learned from Lu Mei, and he will never forget that he has a pair of parents who love each other, but these parents don't love him and only bring him scars all over his body.He once grabbed Xiao Zhaoshan's collar and asked why, but he still didn't get an answer.

In the quiet side alley, Xiao Chining leaned against the brick wall, stepped on the skateboard with one foot, and pressed the lighter repeatedly, feeling the scar on the lifeline again and again.

He finally understood in the growing injustice, he hated Xiao Zhaoshan's indifference, hated to see Xiao Zhaoshan sitting alone in the empty gallery, freely saying that he had forgotten everything, that he was not in pain anymore.

Xiao Chining is determined to make him suffer as much as himself.

The cell phone single cycled to the fifth time, Xiao Chining left the gallery, leaving the vague but clear singing voice behind.

But the lingering sound of the song followed him through the sweaty summer.

In September, at the mobilization meeting of senior three students, the principal asked each class to run a voluntary publicity blackboard newspaper. Xiao Chining became the only student in the class who wrote "I don't have an ideal university" on a post-it note.

The class teacher talked to him: "I see that your file says that your specialty is oil painting, and you won the first prize in the province. Why don't you go to art?"

Xiao Chining was straightforward: "I don't like it."

The class teacher followed the guidance: "Since you have given up your specialties, you should study hard in cultural subjects. Based on your results in the entrance examination, it is no problem to work hard to get a better second school. If you don't know which schools are more suitable, the teacher can try Give me some advice and help you set a goal."

Xiao Chining stood loosely by the desk with one leg bent, seemingly submissive but said indifferently: "Okay."

Because of this attitude, the head teacher may think that he still has room for plasticity, so he changed his seat to the girl next to the second-ranked girl in the zero-diagnosis exam during the lunch break that day.The first is said to be in the liberal arts class downstairs.

Having been at the same table for only two classes, Xiao Chining had a preliminary understanding of this top student.

Just like Chi Yan when he was young.

Qiu Yin used to whisper in his ear that Chi Yan had shown amazing comprehension and concentration since he was a child, and his grades have always been excellent. As long as it is a ranked exam, he has never fallen out of the top three in the grade, and his performance in the college entrance examination is stable. He is the second place in the city's liberal arts. Without any accident, he was admitted to the ideal school and came to Beijing. He majored in accounting. By chance, he met Xiao Zhaoshan from the Academy of Fine Arts at the same school.

In addition to his simple appearance and slightly fat body, the new deskmate is obviously similar to Chi Yan: focused, smart, with excellent grades, and impersonal.Throughout the afternoon, she never glanced at him, she only looked at the books and the teacher during class, and only covered her ears and recited history and political test points in a low voice during recess.

Why did Xiao Zhaoshan fall in love with such a woman?They are not all the way at all.

After this question appeared in Xiao Chining's mind, he found that he had already started to imagine Chi Yan concretely as Xiao Zhaoshan said.

But the strange thing is that whenever he saw Chi Yan with his own eyes, he would suddenly lose the desire to imagine, and pass by politely like most people would do when facing a stranger passing by.

Compared to Xiao Zhaoshan, Chi Yan is of course gentle, and occasionally cares about how he is adapting to the new school when he returns from a business trip, even though it is for formal self-comfort.Xiao Chining is sure that even if his answer is "not at all adapted", Chi Yan must just ask "really?" in a perfunctory manner, unable to give the encouragement and enlightenment that even any mother can give.

It doesn't matter, because whenever she asks this question, Xiao Chining always gives priority to observing Xiao Zhaoshan's expression.

Xiao Zhaoshan would often look him in the eyes, and then said abruptly, "It's not too bad that my classmates and teachers are used to him."

This is simply a creepy joke.

Chi Yan is like a human-shaped switch. Only when she is present, Xiao Zhaoshan will suddenly appear from an unknown place, put on an easy-going human skin mask outside the house, step into the house, and play a role with him again. To father and son.

Once, twice, three times, Xiao Chining still didn't have the experience to deal with Xiao Zhaoshan like this.Fortunately, he smiled and didn't say a word. Chi Yan still regarded him as a good boy who knew his way back.

Coincidentally, today is the day when the latter returns to Beijing after a business trip, in other words, it is also the day when Xiao Zhaoshan returns home.

After Xiao Chining finished his duty, he didn't choose to go wandering in the street, but went straight home with his skateboard.As soon as he left the school gate, he saw Hu Yingxue and her parents holding lunch boxes.

Hu Yingxue, his new tablemate, was arguing with his parents impatiently at this moment: "How many times have I told you, don't keep giving me these foods! You still think I haven't gained enough weight, do you?!"

Her father reprimanded seriously: "Where is the nutrition in the school cafeteria enough? Your first priority is to study, don't think about how to control yourself if you don't study well all day long!"

"Yeah, after the college entrance examination, there is plenty of time to lose weight. The fish soup I made for you today is good for your brain and quick to memorize things. Take it back to the dormitory and drink it while it's hot." Her mother kept pushing the thermos into her arms, " You don't need to wash the lunch box, take it out tomorrow night and I'll take it back to wash."

Hu Yingxue refused to take the fish soup or answer the words, she stood upright on the spot, her shoulders heaved up and down, as if she was swallowing anger.Before the attack, she probably realized that there was someone staying near her, so in the next second, she immediately turned her head and looked over, her eyes full of warnings.

Xiao Chining put the skateboard in his hand on the ground, not interested in listening or listening, just to choose a song he wanted to listen to when he put on the earphones.He clicked on "IDon'tHurtAnymore" again.Xiao Chining ignored the burden of family affection that he could never have, stepped on the skateboard without looking sideways, and left with the wind of early autumn.

At this time, he had no idea that besides this incident, he would witness Hu Yingxue's bigger and more difficult secret related to it soon.So much so that when he got home that night and learned that Xiao Zhaoshan had gone abroad, he immediately forgot that Hu Yingxue, who looked exactly like Chi Yan, would also have such hateful eyes.

It took him only half of the usual time to get home that day, and when he opened the door, the suitcase that Chi Yan hadn't had time to pack was standing beside the shoe cabinet.It is clear that in the past, after Xiao Zhaoshan picked up people from the airport, he would carry the suitcase upstairs.

When he stood there wondering what was abnormal, Chi Yan came down from upstairs wrapped in a bathrobe and holding a glass of water.

"Xiao Ning, what are you doing standing at the door?"

"I just came in." Xiao Chining came back to his senses, skillfully raised his smile that he had practiced countless times in the past month, and asked, "Where's Dad?"

Chi Yan put the empty water glass on the dining table, and asked strangely: "Your father went to Italy to see the exhibition the day before yesterday, didn't you know?"

The corners of Xiao Chining's mouth froze, and then he laughed even wider, his eyes curved into crescent moons.He still doesn't know how innocent and affectionate his smile is.

"I know, of course I know." He said softly, "I just miss him so much."