【GGAD ABO】Nirvana

New York, at midnight, the goblin in the bar twisted her waist and sang a ballad of love softly.

"This is the first time I haven't spent the summer in England." The blond man played with his wine glass, the wine was dark red like blood. "Actually, I didn't want to come...I don't have a good impression of America."

"Because of Serafina Piqueri?" Percival Graves asked curiously. "She is really tough."

"Weak at the same time—'exposure means possible war." Grindelwald looked at the black-haired man in front of him, and couldn't help raising the corners of his mouth. "I have a good impression of you, Mr. Graves. Cheers."

"Cheers." Graves raised his glass and drank it down.

Gellert Grindelwald was a powerful wizard, Graves had heard rumors.And that's exactly what happened.Grindelwald is fierce, mysterious and elusive, and even he, who is an alpha, can't help but feel a sense of obedience.But Grindelwald does not seem to be delighted by his abilities and talents. On the contrary, he seems to have fallen into a deep melancholy, like a leaden cloud floating over the Hudson River in winter.

"Are you worried about something?" Graves snapped his fingers, and the house-elf immediately brought out new spirits.

"A lot of things, I worry about a lot of things." Grindelwald said, "All kinds of bad things happen every minute and every second in the world, converging into a sinful ocean... that will eventually draw humans into war, Wizards can't do it alone."

Graves shrugged. "But Picquery thinks that as long as we keep ourselves away from non-magical people, we won't be affected."

"Isolation? That's impossible." Grindelwald's eyes flickered, and he was in a daze for a while before slowly speaking, "Say something else—are you married?"

Following his gaze, Graves saw a red-haired man laughing exaggeratedly from the giggles. "Married? No, I'm not married. Being married means taking care of the family. I thought, I have to find an omega that I am willing to take responsibility for. Sadly, I have never felt that way in my life. .” He observed Grindelwald’s expression, “What about you?”

"I don't." Grindelwald looked at his hand, the slender fingers were empty, and there was no trace of a ring left. "I proposed marriage, but it failed miserably."

"Oh?" Graves became very interested, but he immediately concealed his inner feelings, "With all due respect, I can't imagine that an omega would dare to reject you."

"Of course he dares, why wouldn't he dare?" Grindelwald laughed, with a faint hint of wildness and unruly expression under his stern expression, "He is the most perfect wizard I have ever met...imaginable, Excellence, intelligence, hard work, self-control. No one can beat him, not even me."

"He... is really an omega?"

Grindelwald nodded, "Yes, I'm also surprised...Maybe it was a joke made by that crazy old man Merlin, who insisted on creating a weakness for him. I have loved him since a long time ago. It is difficult for me to love anyone, To tell you the truth,” he sipped the red wine in his glass, “but from the moment I saw him, I fell in love with him. But at that time, I was too conceited. It’s easy to do this when you’re young wrong."

"Didn't you propose at the age of 17?" Graves asked in surprise.

"Earlier, when I was more than 15 years old, I proposed to him before I was 16 years old. At that time, he loved me more than I loved him. I didn't know what love is, and I thought that my sobriety was better than the world. I will not be blinded by emotions... I am very confident in myself. A wizard like him is fascinated by me. I can't describe my infinitely inflated arrogance. I thought I could occupy the whole of Europe and become the new king... I Use him, and later," Grindelwald put his glass on the bar, "he doesn't love me anymore, that's for sure. I'm mad...but I don't understand why I'm so angry. I want to kill everyone who gets close to him Guy, including his family, forcing him to come back to me, crying and begging for my forgiveness - stupid as hell, isn't it?"

Graves was fascinated. "Yeah, it's kind of..."

"I failed, utterly. After a long period of time, I began to reflect on what I had done. At first I hated him and threw every insult I could think of at him. But I didn't understand my heart, I Confused...why, why do I hate him so much, but every time I think of him, I can't help but smile? There seems to be something flowing in my heart. I sit down and meditate, and the thoughts of getting along with him appear repeatedly in my mind Memories. We chatted together, sat under a tree, by a river, and learned how to ride a bicycle like a Muggle. When I thought about this, the thing in my heart flowed faster and faster... Finally, I figured it out."

"You love him," Graves said softly.

"Well, I love him. It's a tragedy that I have little love—I was not born with enough love to love many people and many things and write a sonnet to spring flowers. I His sweet words are all fake, and almost no sincerity. But I love him, which is very contradictory. I only love him... My lack of emotion is tied to him alone. I am happy, angry, jealous, and sad, all because of him."

"And then?" The black-haired Auror concentrated, "You... broke up?"

"Then, I want to work hard to correct it and try to squeeze out more love. I seem to have succeeded. To use a metaphor, the previous me was not very human, because as I said before, I have no feelings. Since I decided to re- After I started, I was surprised to find that my feelings gradually increased. I began to feel that the flowers in spring are also beautiful, the fallen leaves in autumn are not bad, and the snow in winter... Falling quietly, I sat by the fire and talked with him Read a book of Muggle poetry. By the way, he came back to me, on the one hand to spy on me - don't be surprised, this is an agreement between us. He supervises whether I will become a corrupt dark wizard in people's mouth, Although he is unwilling to read my mind and heart with Legilimency. On the other hand, he tries to influence me and influence me with love. We get along very well, and there are endless words and endless letters. I am encouraged Courage took his hand, and he didn't struggle... I thought—”

Graves looked almost sympathetically. "You proposed and he turned you down."

"He was in my arms, as stiff as a rock." Grindelwald drank the rest of the wine, "I didn't give up, I asked him, and the result can be imagined."

"What about you now?"

"Right now, we're still friends, pretty good friends. He's okay with being friends with me, hanging out, eating, seeing each other at regular times - and he's gotta keep an eye on me so he doesn't blow up the idiots in the office, doesn't he? I want to see him, but I don't want to see him too much. He also goes out with other people, to the theater, to drink tea. He has a gentle personality and a pair of beautiful blue eyes. I know that many people pursue him...Maybe he will soon I will accept marriage proposals from others." Grindelwald glanced at the peculiar watch on his wrist and lowered his eyes, "I will not go to the wedding. I am sure that I will commit a terrible murder."