[Gintama] Craftsman's Word

"Father."

Xiu's crisp call interrupted Shenwei's memory and brought him back to reality from the night when he and Su were lingering.Kamui took a look at his son who was looking at him innocently with curiosity, and couldn't help but look away guiltily.This kid is a bit bloody and violent.

"Are you alright?"

"Well, Auntie Moyue said that her mental condition has stabilized. Before and after the operation, Ma Ma is always in a bad mood, and she is particularly prone to illness. Once she destroyed the entire hospital during the operation, and later lost a lot of money."

Is it okay for you to focus on losing money?

Shenwei patted Xiu's head, feeling sorry for him at such a young age, he was used to talking about Su's illness.As a father, he didn't know about Xiu's existence before, never cared for him for a minute, and never even missed him for a moment; as for Su's mother, since she easily changed her mind for the revision and agreed to cooperate with Jin Zhu It can be seen that she is very good to Xiu, but Shenwei can vaguely feel a layer of estrangement. Compared with the love for his son, Su is more like fulfilling a responsibility rationally. The terms of the responsibility book called "Mother" are clearly listed , you only need to execute step by step.With such a pair of sick parents like them, the future of this child is really worrying.

After much deliberation, it turns out that it is more reassuring to hand it over to Jin Zhu.Kamui looked at Xiu full of worry.

Xiu Jian asked abruptly: "Father, what's wrong with you?"

Of course, Shenwei would not express his "sickness" concerns, he shrugged his shoulders pretending to be relaxed, and said with a sweet smile: "I'm fine, I'm fine."

Xiu blinked his big blue eyes, half-believing.

"Is it really good?"

"Yeah, very good."

Shenwei patted his arms, trying to convey to his son that Dad, I am very strong, and can make you sit on your shoulders and turn around 1800 degrees.Unexpectedly, Xiu’s intention of asking and confirming was not to play with Shenwei, but he decided that Shenwei’s condition was “very good”, so he pouted and became unhappy.

"Father is very good, but he still bullies the injured Ma Ma, I hate you."

There seemed to be a refreshing "puchi" in the air, Shenwei covered his heart, bent down and buried his head under his arms and knees.It doesn't hurt, he doesn't hurt, he has been stabbed a lot, he doesn't hurt at all.

At this time, it was too late to justify and call for grievances. Who asked Shenwei to pat his arms to ensure that he was "fine"?From a certain long-term point of view, it is a fact that he bullied Su, and Shenwei swallowed his grievances with the hidden wounds.

"I'm sorry, it's all my fault, Xiu taught father how to change, don't hate me, okay?"

Xiu shook his head like a rattle, and then said something surprising: "Ma Ma refuses to hate you, I will hate you instead of Ma Ma."

Shenwei was startled, Su "refuses" to hate him, then she...

"Xiu, has Su ever told you what she thinks of me? You tell me, I'll try every means to make you happy."

Shenwei is persuasive and persuasive, trying to find out the truth from Xiu's mouth.Xiu simply gave the answer that Shenwei wanted, but the answer was not what Shenwei "wants".

"Mama hates you. After one operation, Mama hugged me and cried, saying 'Shenwei, I hate you'."

The scene that should have been tragic was narrated lightly by Xiu, but Shenwei couldn't figure out whether his son was innocent or terrifying.He pressed his twisted heart like a blunt knife cutting flesh, buried his head and moaned softly (==): "Xiu, I'm so sad."

Although Kamui only unilaterally poured out the distress in his heart, if Xiu could give him care and comfort, he would definitely be able to stand up faster in the hardship of minus 31 degrees, but——

Xiuzhen respectfully said: "It deserves it."

Shenwei slipped his hand and pinched it from his chest to his ribs.Hey, whose child is this, why is his mouth so poisonous.Shenwei fell in the ice and snow in the ice skates that dropped to minus 62 degrees.

Xiu then added crisply: "Mr. Jin Zhu also said that father deserved it."

Hey, who's partner, you don't teach children to learn well.

Kamui scolded Takasugi in his heart, then he heard the clogs "clack" and walked down the stairs unhurriedly.Kamui raised his head and met Takasugi's eyes, Kamui smiled, and Takasugi also folded his hands, showing an inscrutable smile.

"How did you get down from the sixth floor?"

"Caring about my partners is what I should do."

"Then what are you doing down here?"

"Do you still need to ask? Of course it's because of your joke."

"Thank you for 'educating' Xiu, thank you very much."

"Well, you're welcome."

Takasugi wins the eye contact, and he brings the news that Su has been awake and is looking for Xiu.When Xiuyi heard that Su woke up, he hurriedly said goodbye to Kamui and Takasugi politely, and ran up the stairs.Takasugi left in no hurry, waiting for Kamui to ask him for help.

Seeing through Takasugi's mentality of joining in the fun, Kamui doesn't mind satisfying his pride.

"What did you find in Su, teach me, Teacher Jinzhu."

Takasugi showed obvious dislike for Kamui's "Mr. Jinzhu", he left a word and left towards the fifth floor.

"Excluding 'Night Rabbit' and 'Fighting', your wife's attributes are ordinary and simple."

"what……"

Kamui propped his head and thought hard, repeatedly splitting and chewing on the meaning of Takasugi's words, and always felt that he was just talking nonsense.If Yetu and Fighting were excluded, he would still be an ordinary and innocent boy.Kamui understands that Takasugi will not say such nonsense for no reason, but what exactly does he want to explain?Can't you explain it more clearly?

It wasn't until the line of night slipped and the stair passage suddenly fell into darkness that Kamui stood up and stretched, glanced at the faintly light upstairs, and went downstairs to his room.Lying on the bed and closing his eyes, Xiu said that Su "refuses" to hate him, and that Su hates him, Gao Sugi said that Su is "ordinary and simple", and all kinds of recent memories come to mind, mixed with memories from long ago, in Shenwei's mind Form a chaotic storm.

While half asleep and half awake, Shenwei seemed to see a shimmering clue in the memory that was whirling and flying like a blizzard.He realized that if he didn't grab it quickly, he would only be left with scattered confusion when he woke up, so he desperately recalled and reached out to grab it.Kamui was finally about to grab that clue into his hands, connecting the clues of Su's tormenting her own pain, Xiu stabbing him again and again, and Takasugi's serious "suggestion"——

"Snapped!"

There was a pain on Shenwei's face, and he was sober that he couldn't be more awake. Important clues flickering and chaotic memory storms were all crushed to pieces under the white palm in front of him.

Su leaned on her knees to straddle Shenwei, holding Shenwei's collar with one hand, and raised her other hand high to give another slap, but when she saw Shenwei woke up, she withdrew her hand.

"What did you instigate Xiu?"

"Instigating Xiu? No, I asked him a few questions about you, but he kept poking my sore spot for you, so I have no chance to instigate him."

"You didn't, why did Xiu come to me and say good things for you? Did you ask Gao Shanjin to help and abet Xiu?"

"Jin help me, please? Su, you need to communicate with Xiu to understand his thoughts, instead of putting him in your expected framework."

"I don't need you to teach me how to take care of children!"

Kamui was caught off guard and slapped again.

Woke up from the chaos in his head, followed by a severe questioning, Shenwei didn't even have time for Su to show up to surprise him, and was stunned by her first.However, when he calmed down, a cool touch fell on his face; his eyes adapted to the dark light, and he saw Su's tears constantly falling.Drops of tears were like large chunks of ice and snow, freezing Kamui's body and limbs.

"Isn't that enough, Kamui? Is it not enough to tear me apart? You have no expectations for a child, can't you be born without cultivation? You must destroy all my hopes and turn me into mud on the ground to be satisfied? I was born When I was repairing, I gave birth prematurely because of the medicine to maintain my body. On that day, Mutsu and Suzuki were not there. I walked half, climbed and half, and was exhausted when I arrived at the hospital. I had no strength to give birth, and I suffered from cold and blood collapse. I almost died in the operation On the stage. I don't welcome this child, but I took my life for him. It was his cry that snatched me back from death. I hate Xiu as your child, and hate him for his disgrace, but I love me child. Are you going to take him?"

Su broke down in sobs, tears wet Shenwei's face, contrary to the previous moment, it gave Shenwei scorching strength.He raised his hand to wipe the tears from the corners of Su's eyes, but didn't answer Su directly.

"Su, what did you think when you lost your life and were close to death on the operating table?"

Su was stunned for a moment, and suddenly waved Shenwei's hand away.

"I hate you, I don't want to die on the delivery table, I don't want to waste my life on worthless ways to die. I am Yetu, my bones are shaped for fighting, and my blood boils for fighting, even if I die in the battle with you Fighting, I don’t want to die in childbirth, I don’t want to die because of giving birth to your child. Shenwei, loving her is your freedom, I don’t interfere, but you interfered with me and completely ruined me.”

When Su said "love her", her voice trembled uncontrollably, and it was only when she "ruined me" that her voice returned to a stable tone.The fragments in Shenwei's mind are all connected into a line, why Su can hate him when she can't hate him, why she has to force herself to suffer, why Jin Zhu said that Su is "ordinary and simple"... everything points to the only reasonable s answer.

"Su, do you love me?"

He loves Su, loves the one in front of him, and doesn't love the one that wants to kill him. After being corrected by Kagura's education, Shenwei has clearly confirmed his intentions.Su who gets along day and night, Su who is in a mess, Su who joins hands and is invincible, the only one he loves is this person in front of him.But Shenwei is not sure about Su's intentions, even if he took the initiative to cater to her when he attacked her, whether it was Su who was in control at that time, Shenwei cannot be sure.He wants to restore the relationship between them, even if the previous relationship is defined as one, from the current zero to one, and then he accumulates the "ones" one by one, there is always a chance to become the lover of ten.

Of course, Shenwei hopes that Su has feelings for him beyond the first, but he dare not expect too much, but the reality gives him a big prize, telling him that what he wants is always there.Kamui suddenly wanted to laugh, the emotion called "love" is really scary, they once had it at their fingertips but turned a blind eye, and after throwing it away, they chased after it with bruises all over their bodies.

Kamui's question poked Zhongsu's sore foot, making her look gloomy.Su's reaction once again confirmed Shenwei's deduction, she loved him, what a wonderful thing, Shenwei's heart was soft and light, he stretched out his hand and hugged Su into his arms.

"I love you too, Su."

Su slapped Shenwei for the third time.

"I know."

Shenwei covered his left face that had been beaten all the time, and didn't dare to directly refute, "No, you don't know at all."

"Su, I was too naive in the past. My obsession with her is indeed just obsession. She is a part of you, your shadow, and the person I spend day and night with is always you. I beat her, and I need her. You are two different things."

Shenwei finally conveyed to her what she had missed during the day when she was in a coma. Seeing Su's lost and thoughtful expression, she relaxed a little.

Then Su pursed the corners of his mouth and smiled coldly.

"Shenwei, because it's you, I don't believe a word."

The author has something to say:

The last part of the last chapter is not very clear, it seems to have misunderstood my friends _(:3」∠)_

Also, Shenwei's illness, Kagura, has been cured, but Su's illness, Shenwei, has not been cured...