[Gintama] Craftsman's Word

The little mermaid traded her legs to the witch, and every step she took was like walking on the tip of a knife. How would it feel?

When Kamui found Su, she was leaning on the railing on the wall, bent over, her body trembling violently, struggling to move forward inch by inch.The pain made her sweat unceasingly, and the thin T-shirt and shorts were soaked and stuck to her body, which was not enough. The sweat dripped to the ground, leaving damp marks on the road she traveled.

Kamui thought, given the fragility of the human body, the little mermaid must be in pain, but the little mermaid can still laugh and dance with the prince, so Su must be in more pain.It's not that Su can't match the Little Mermaid's patience, but Su's pain is also hard to bear with Yetu's physical strength far surpassing that of humans.

It hurts so much, why is his heart only cut through a layer of skin, instead of being cut open layer by layer?In that way, is it worth the pain of Su?Kamui pressed his chest, the beating of his heart became dull and distorted, making him lose the strength to even take a step forward.

Run away, before Su finds him, run away, if you don't run away, it will only make him pale and powerless in front of her.There seemed to be a sweet voice in his ear that tempted him to retreat, and gave his feet that were heavily nailed to the ground the strength to retreat. Looking at Su's precarious back, Kamui somehow recalled the slap that Su had slapped him.Su, who didn't want to show a little weakness in front of him, said that he only lost a pair of legs instead of his life and didn't complain, how much suffering did he endure alone behind his back?

"white."

Kamui softly called Su's name.He didn't know whether he wanted Su to forgive him or blame him more, he cut off his retreat and refused to escape, at this moment he just wanted to hold Su's arm as her support.

Su, whose senses were paralyzed by the pain, did not notice the arrival of Shenwei, nor did she know that Shenwei had engaged in a fierce ideological struggle behind her. She suddenly heard Shenwei's voice, and was frightened by the sudden shock, unable to control her body trembling. With a wide range, his legs twisted and fell to the wall.

"white……"

"do not come!"

Kamui eagerly stepped forward, but Su sternly stopped him before touching Su.His hands and feet seemed to have accepted Su's instructions first, and they froze in place all of a sudden.Su leaned on the railing and wobbled, and it took him a full minute to force himself up from the falling body.There are only a limited number of people who have the authority to let Shenwei come in here, and Qianxia can be locked in with a little thought. Su didn't ask anything, and didn't have the energy to turn around to face Shenwei, so he just said in a low voice: "You go out."

"Su, are you...preparing for the operation?"

"It's just daily." Unexpectedly, Su answered Shenwei's question, but the answer was not so friendly. Su's voice was like suppressing a beast trying to break free from the cage, "If you don't keep using it, don't keep the painful stimulation, The legs will die."

"Is there... anything I can do?"

Kamui's throat was so dry that it hurt, he tried hard to restrain his urge to run away, thinking to himself that the big deal is that all he can do is get out, and he will get out again.

"What can you do? You don't need to do anything. In order to give birth to Xiu, I dragged my two broken legs through the ice and snow step by step, and climbed to the hospital. Why didn't you come to ask me at that time, what's the matter?" What can you do? Not anymore, no, never again."

The ferocious beast broke through the shackles, and Su's words turned into a low growl.Her abnormal agitation surprised Kamui, who was used to cold treatment recently, but he was relieved immediately.Su was in unbearable pain just standing up, and it would be difficult for anyone to maintain a normal state of mind in the great pain, let alone with his "stimulus" by his side.Maybe it's good for Su to vent his emotions, especially for him, because it's easy to get mental problems if you keep it in your heart, especially if this person is Su with a dual personality.

Only then did Shenwei think of the "plain" issue that he seemed to have cared about a long time ago. The "vegetarian" thing is actually not important.

"You have always sneered at having children, why did you choose to stay with Xiu?"

"I wanted to hit him. I was ready to strike as soon as Luoyue arrived. I wanted to kill him earlier while Yueyue was still young. I was forcibly stopped by Suyue and Mutsu. I didn't succeed. Are you very angry when you hear this answer?" ?”

Su leaned against the wall and smiled with all his might, full of sarcasm.

Shenwei shook his head and said, "If you don't want it, you should destroy it. It's better than looking at him every day and thinking of my pain. Su, you collect all the past related to me, doesn't it hurt?"

"If it were you, I wouldn't be heartbroken." Su seemed a little unable to hold on, and slowly slid down the wall, "I just want to hurt. If it doesn't hurt, my leg will be broken; if it doesn't hurt, my heart will too." Broken; if it doesn't hurt, I will forget to hate you..."

Su's voice gradually weakened, and Shenwei pricked up his ears to hear her say "hate", so he forgot to distinguish him, and his heart would still ache.

Su finally couldn't bear it and fell to the ground. She simply let go of the railing and didn't plan to stand up again.Her body was curled up to look even thinner, Shenwei wanted to go forward, but she was too worried to go forward.

"Su, you hate me for taking advantage of you, right? I explained to you that I only had one thought at the time, trying to maintain the concept of 'you are mine'. I was not sober at all, and I didn't make rational judgments , I attacked you when you were not fully awake. But if we were all awake, would there be a better situation than today? With the level of bastard I was at the time, I don’t think I will do anything good to you, After all, I really thought that I loved 'Su' back then, but I loved a part of you that was not yours. Don't be angry and listen to me, Su, it's been a long time, and now I understand that my obsession with 'Su' What I read is indeed just an obsession. She is a part of you, your shadow, and the person I spend day and night with is always you. Why do I naively think that if I defeat her, I will never need you anymore? I I did a lot of ridiculous things in the past, but everyone has such things as black history, so, can you forgive me a little bit, even one percent, and then let me do something for you."

Kamui finished speaking in a gentle, steady, and most convincing voice, without being interrupted by Su in the middle, and a little bit of hope was ignited in his heart.However, he waited and waited, but there was no response from Su. Shenwei's heart trembled, and with a bad premonition, he strode forward, hugged Su's shoulders and turned her to him.Sure enough, Su had fallen into a coma before he knew it.

Shenwei opened a nearby ward, carried Su to the bed and lay down.He was helpless in the follow-up treatment, so he had to go to Mo Yue.Moyue apparently learned from Qianxia that Shenwei had "robbed" his ID card, and was on his way here.The two bumped into each other at the elevator entrance, Mo Yue's eyes were on fire, wishing to show his fox teeth and eat Shenwei raw, but he just gritted his teeth and uttered "Get out".

It was Mo Yue, not Su, who told him to go away. Of course, Shenwei didn't obediently go away. Fortunately, Xiu came after Mo Yue, and he stood outside the ward with Xiu in his arms, which didn't seem abrupt or redundant.On the way, Moyue has notified the medical team to be ready just in case. At this moment, the personnel and equipment are quickly in place, and the first aid is started.Shenwei looked at this battle, a little dazed.

"Does it need to be so exaggerated? Su's body is definitely not that bad."

"You know shit!" Renbi Huajiao's Mo Yue couldn't help but say something detrimental to her image, "Except for Leg Su's body, there is nothing wrong with it, and the problem with her legs is that she messed around with herself. If it's just the body The question is, will you Yetu be confined by disability? It’s not a mental illness caused by you ×××!"

"..." Mo Yue's words were not pleasant, but they were true to the letter. Shenwei felt that the slap in the face was a bit painful, "It's not good to say that I have a mental illness. I just have a dual personality."

"Bah, it would be much easier to cure if she still had a dual personality. She tortured herself to look like a ghost for you, a night rabbit scum. She's not crazy, are you?"

Mo Yue confided a lot of information under his fury, but Shenwei seemed not to hear it, smiled slightly, and comforted Mo Yue with the attitude that everyone has a share of bread and no need to fight: "It's just a minor illness, and there are all of them."

Moyue refused to let another Yetu slag suffering from deep well ice stand outside the ward in the polluting treatment environment, and drove Shenwei out of the 6th floor.Finding a staircase and sitting down, Shenwei put away his perfunctory attitude towards Mo Yue, recalling the many shocking facts he received in this short period of time.

Su's dual personality either merged and recovered, or worsened into a more difficult problem, so she lost control of her emotions in front of him under the stimulation of pain, and said those words?It was his last words, hoping to soothe Su's mood. I don't know if she heard even one sentence?It was the same as that time four years ago, clearly lying on the hospital bed in distress, but Su's appearance was always calm and deep, which made him even more embarrassed.

Ahhh, I really want to hug Su, only by hugging Su's warmth can I dispel his timidity of losing everything.

Kamui folded his knees and folded his arms, and buried his head deeply.

Kamui, like a stone statue, has been standing beside the bed for a long time.His body was a little stiff, so he changed his position and sat down next to the edge of the bed.

After a whole day of first aid and three days of intensive care, Su's life was finally saved. Although the broken legs could not be reattached intact, when Su woke up, it was just a simple operation to switch to a prosthetic. .It had been five days since she left the ward, and Su was still in a coma. During the examination, the doctor said that she was about to wake up.

Kamui raised his hand, and used the back of his hand to touch Su's left cheek.Su Su's skin was cold, and the temperature was lower than the heat on the back of his hand, but Shenwei seemed to feel the scorching heat of the sun, emanating from the once dry and cracked wound, causing him to quickly withdraw his hand.Kamui leaned over and cupped Su's face without admitting defeat.The scorching sun was just an illusion after all, and Su's slightly cold face was warmed up in Shenwei's hands.

Shenwei still felt that it was not enough, there was a huge hole, no matter how hard he tried to fill it, he couldn't fill it.He held Su's face up, and at the same time pressed his body lower, finally bringing him and Su close to the distance where the tips of their noses almost touch each other.Not enough, still not enough, even if Su's hands were handcuffed to him, even if he lay beside Su all night, nothing would satisfy him.

"you are mine."

Be it death or the future, everything about Su belongs to him.Only by thinking in this way, there will be a little relief in the heavy and breathless heart.Therefore, Su is his, and there is no other way.

"you are mine."

Shenwei declared to himself over and over again, but always maintained a thin line of difference with Su, and never surpassed it.Until the back of the head was pressed down, Shenwei was caught off guard, and his lips were lightly pressed against Su's lips.

Su Xiao woke up silently, his eyes were like the best black jade, and there was a pool of water in the darkness, gazing at Shenwei radiantly.When the eyes meet, the plain eyebrows and eyes bend, provoking thousands of amorous feelings.Shenwei was stunned by surprise, Su put his arms around his shoulders and neck, hugged him and pressed against himself, with his lips slightly parted and the tip of his tongue sticking out, licking Shenwei's lips slowly and carefully.

Shenwei is very bad, if you don't want to be good, you won't get better.

"Su, there is no reason for you to attack me."

Shenwei pushed Su away, and pressed her back on the bed, the soft bed sank.Su didn't speak, just looked at Shenwei and smiled slightly.

"That's right, it's you, neither Su nor 'Su', so, is it the part that connects Su and 'Su'? I don't care, it's you in this body to me, so It's all mine."

Su still didn't speak, cupped Kamui's face with both hands and closed his eyes.

"Don't you know what to do in the future? Don't think about anything, just finish it first and then talk about it?"

Kamui bowed his head and kissed Su, and started to unbutton her clothes, revealing her unhealed body.

"Can you fill me up after eating, Su? If I don't kill you after I'm done, when you wake up, I suggest you give me a slap first."

With her eyes still closed, Su shook her head, smiled, and shed tears at the same time.

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