After the years have passed

I like to be careful

haven't had time to confess yet

but blushed first

It has been many days, and my mind is still blank.

Lift the pen and put it down again, repeating this action countless times every day.

And Kim Taehyung, since that good night, never looked for me again.

I bit the tip of my brush, hugged my knees and nestled on the sofa, looking at the painting table not far away, wanting to cry without tears.

Why don't you give Lara a call.

Although I just met her not long ago, I feel that I get along well with this little girl.

"Beep beep..."

"Hello ~ O'Neill~" as soon as the connection was made, it was Xiang Lala's thin and bright voice.

"Lala~ Do you miss Ernie?"

"Think about it~ I don't reply to O'Neill's message, I'm not happy!"

"These days you, O'Neill, I want to die"

Sliding from the sofa to the floor, looking at the chandelier above his head, he looked hopeless.

"What happened to Ernie?"

"My mind is full of mud, no ideas, no ideas, no flashes of inspiration!"

"Then~ you drink plenty of water, and when your brain is filled with water, the light will refract in."

"Oh~ I'll get a glass of water then"

"Hahaha... let's go"

As soon as I picked up the water glass, I realized that I had been tricked by this little girl, and I knocked on my forehead annoyed.

"...Don't let me see you, or you will die"

"Then I have to take the TOPIK certificate while I'm still alive, and then I'll go to Korea to marry Jungkook and then I'll go see Unnie."

"Huh? Are you taking the Korean certificate?"

"Yes, I signed up for the training class immediately after I came back."

"Not bad~ Little girl, work hard!"

"Well! I will work hard, O'Neill, I'm going to class, let's not talk about it now"

"Okay~ Bye"

"Oni is peaceful~"

After finishing the call, I once again sat down at the table dejectedly.

……

On the set of the drama "Hwarang" in Seoul.

Kim Taehyung finished the last shot, it was already past 8 o'clock in the morning.

These days are almost all night scenes, and he obviously lacks sleep, his expression is a little trance.

Lying in the lounge with eyes closed, I chatted with my dad on the phone.

"Taehyung?"

"Nai, Abeji, all my scenes have been filmed"

"Oh? Really? Our son has worked hard"

"It's really lucky"

“Our son is great!”

"Aberji, I have something troubling to tell you now..."

"Nai, what's the matter? Tell me"

"Aberji, I have met a girl who wants to date her now"

Kim Taehyung rested his forehead with one hand, pursing his lips in embarrassment.

"Does your son have someone he likes?"

"Oh, it seems so"

"Then does the other party know what you mean?"

"I just don't know what to say to her"

"If you really like it, be brave"

"Guess, I got it~ Ah Bo must take good care of his body"

"Yes, my son too, you have to eat on time"

"Inside~"

I continued chatting with my father for a few words, then hung up the phone.

After a light sleep for a while, he was called up by the manager.

Helped to clean up, removed makeup, changed costumes, and took him back to the dormitory.

Sitting in the car, Kim Taehyung looked out the window at the street scene passing by in time, and kept replaying those clips in his mind.

The first meeting at the Han River, the words at the autograph session, and the flustered little face at the airport because of his own initiative, the corners of the mouth turned up and down unconsciously after thinking about it.

……

Apartment in Huayushuyuan Community, Changsha.

I came out of the bathroom and wiped the ends of my hair with a dry towel.

I also stayed up all night last night. Looking at myself in the mirror, the dark circles under my eyes are getting heavier, and my face is obviously much haggard.

But it happened like this, but even a quarter of the first draft was not finished yet.

Looking at the balls of waste paper all over the floor, he sighed deeply...

Silently cleaned up the house, continued to sit at the table, picked up the paintbrush, leaned over the table with difficulty, and sketched on the paper.

He didn't raise his head until late at night.

I have no feeling in my stomach after being hungry for a day, so I naturally don't want to eat anymore.

After washing his face casually in the bathroom, he climbed into bed.

I clicked on my phone to check his latest updates, only to find that the battery had run out and turned off.

After plugging in the data cable, I fell asleep.

When I woke up the next day, it was already afternoon. I looked up at the clock on the wall, and I went into the bathroom with a greasy face.

"Knock knock..." is the sound of knocking on the door.

"Here we come, wait a moment" I quickly got dressed and opened the door.

"Muzi? Why are you here?"

As soon as I opened the door, I saw Muzi staring at me with finally reassuring eyes.

"My God! Fortunately, you are alive"

"You're cursing me to death as soon as you enter the door"

He took out a pair of slippers from the shoe cabinet and placed them at her feet.

"The professor has been calling you for two days, but no one answered, and the phone was turned off. No, that's why he asked me to come and see you."

"It's not like this happened again and again. It's not like you don't know, so what are you worried about?"

I went into the kitchen to make two cups of hot cocoa and brought it to her.

"Thank you"

"Is the studio okay recently?"

"Well, everything is as usual. But since I conveyed the message to Professor Mu for you, he seems to have been unhappy"

Muzi seemed to be attracted by something, walked to my painting table, and poked the seven clown dolls with his fingers.

"It can be expected, what about the company and the Korean side?"

"The company seems to be busy looking for a spokesperson for this new series. I heard that the Korean side has already made a decision."

"That means that China and South Korea each invite a spokesperson to shoot a poster together?"

I took a sip of the cocoa, but I still frowned slightly from being burned.

"There is more than one person on the Korean side. It seems that they invited a popular idol boy group."

"Boy group?" I was a little surprised.

"Well, the theme this time is set to be a bit Mary Sue"

"Do you know which boy group it is?"

"Then I don't know, the South Korean side said that it will not be made public for the time being."

Speaking of which, Muzi has wandered around the house several times, and he is very interested in the gadgets I brought back from Korea.

……

After Muzi left, I went back to my room and thought about it.

Judging from the current situation, the South Korean side is still in a state of secrecy, which means that it has not yet been definitively finalized.

Popular boy group?Could it be BTS?

Ah~ that's right!Maybe I can ask Kim Taehyung directly.

As soon as the phone was turned on, unread text messages in ins popped up all over the screen.

Zhen's hands were numb, and it was all from him, and the inexplicable heartbeat missed half a beat.

I clicked in, looked at each one seriously, and cried silently.

From the greeting at the beginning, gradually to the daily care, to the worry of not getting a reply, and the last sentence: I miss you so much...

They are all holding my heart tightly. The person who used to be only secretly in love with is now telling me that he misses you.

After watching the whole thing, I couldn’t help but cry. All the grievances and depressions from this period of time came up all at once. I leaned against the head of the bed, hugged my body, and shivered.

I have been paying attention to you since your debut, you will listen to every song, and you will not miss every episode of Tuan Zong.

I never follow stars, but I just like you guys, it's like watching my younger brothers grow from little boys to big boys, and then to the handsome men they are today.

But I don't know when, the name Kim Taehyung sprouted in my heart, took root, and became more and more profound. Only then did I suddenly realize that you had lived in it for so long.

After a long time, I typed out a line with trembling fingers.

"Congratulations, the shooting is over. I have been busy drawing for the past two days, so I forgot to charge my phone, sorry."

"...you finally returned to me"

"Hmm~ Have you eaten yet?"

"Eating, how about you?"

"I have already eaten"

Wiping away the tears from his face, he hooked the corners of his mouth bitterly

"Nu Na must eat on time, and don't forget to charge in the future"

"Nai~ I know, our Thai actors are really good, and the TV series will definitely be popular!"

"Then if this drama really has a good result, can Nuna promise me one thing?"

"it is good"

"But I can't wait for the TV series to air, I think if you are angry now, then promise me"

I laughed, through the screen I can imagine his expression that he is about to succeed now.

"it is good"

"Go on a date with me"

……

BTS dormitory in Seoul.

Receiving the response, Kim Taehyung raised his lips and bent them into a charming arc.

"Brother Namjoon, help me book Zhang's flight ticket to China."

"Fly to China? Yourself?"

"Guai, I want to ask for a day off"

"Why so suddenly? What are you doing in China alone?"

"You'll know when I get back"

He smiled mysteriously at Kim Namjoon, then entered the room, and never came out again.

Until the early morning of the next day, the members were still sound asleep, and quietly left the dormitory with a travel bag on their backs.

Sitting on the flight to Changsha, China, Kim Taehyung clicked on the photo that he had seen countless times. The smiles of the people in it were still there, but he never got tired of looking at it.

……

When Lai was finally sleeping soundly on the bed, Kim Taehyung actually posted on his ins saying that he had already boarded the plane and that he would see you later.

When I saw the message, I hesitated for more than ten minutes, and then my heart beat wildly.

I said it during the day, but it really flew over in the middle of the night.

Immediately turned over and got out of bed, and took out all the clothes from the closet, shoes all over the floor, and cosmetics all over the table. I have never been so neurotic in my 28 years of life.

No, I have to calm down. Facing the chaos in the room, I patted my cheek twice heavily, warning myself.

After nearly two hours of tinkering, I stood in front of the mirror and looked at myself with a satisfied smile. I straddled my small bag and rode my small electric bike and headed towards Huanghua Airport.

Parked the car, tremblingly walked to the T2 international exit, looked at the prompt screen, showing the flight information.

The plane just landed, but he should not have come out yet.

It is 5:25 in the morning, the huge pick-up area is empty, and I stand alone at the main entrance and stare inside.

Slowly, people began to come out, passed a few people, and I saw Kim Taehyung's figure, although I couldn't see his face at all, just looking at the way he walked with his head bowed, I knew it was him.

There used to be a distance of more than 800 kilometers between us. I knew him, but he didn't know me. Now the distance between me and him is less than eight steps. I like him, and I believe he also likes me.

"Yo~ here?"

I imitated his tone of voice, the way he would laugh, and stared at each other with the same affectionate eyes.

"Well, here we come"

I just raised my head so stupidly, and he just lowered his eyes so slightly, the distance was less than one meter, but it took me 30 years of life to get the favor.

"I have a car, I'll take you"

Kim Taehyung didn't answer, just stood quietly, his eyes showed me.

"Is it so pretty?"

"Well, it's beautiful"

"Your Chinese has improved, it's much better than the standard in the broadcast"

The smile in the corner of my eyes grew stronger.

"Beautiful smile"

After what he said, I couldn't pretend anymore, I lowered my head, my face must be so red right now.

"Didn't you say you want to drive me? Let's go, Nuna~"

Kim Taehyung bent down, his lips were attached to my ear, his voice was low and infinitely gentle.