Late ripening

Lu Qian felt his body being dragged down until he hit the ground with a bang.He opened his eyes suddenly and woke up from the dream.

Covered in cold sweat, he panted heavily, and immediately realized that Jing Yan was still in his arms.He immediately controlled his breathing, his arms convulsed a few times, Jing Yan seemed to be a little uncomfortable and moved.

Jing Yan has been back for several weeks, and he has this dream almost every few days.

He loosened his arms as carefully as possible, went to the bathroom outside and washed his face with a small stream of water.Then got into the quilt and hugged him again.

Almost out of habit, Jing Yan buried himself in his arms in the most familiar and comfortable position.One arm was around his waist and the other was curled up across his chest.

Only in his sleep would he show a little attachment.

The two of them are like old friends who have been separated for many years and are trying to reconnect. They always speak politely and thoughtfully to each other.I am afraid that the other party will misunderstand, so I will think too much.

Lu Qian moved his office back to his study, and opened the door, hoping that Jing Yan would come in and "harass" him.But Jing Yan always reads books or plays games in the small room, only he comes out every half hour to find some topics and chat with him casually.

In the past two weeks, Jing Yan has hardly been at home. He has his own social circle, and he wants to meet and date classmates whom he hasn't seen for a long time.Every day I eat a little at noon and go out, and I don’t come home until very late.

This is obviously the normal life of all young people who leave home to go to college, but for a few moments, Lu Qian felt that they would never be able to return to the most intimate moment.He will be depressed and uncomfortable, and when Jing Yan goes out, he will be very irritable and want to smoke.

The next day, Jing Yan went out again during the day, and didn't contact him when he usually called back at [-]:[-] in the evening. He only sent a text message saying that his phone was about to run out of battery and he would go back.

When Jing Yan walked home from the subway station, Lu Qian waited downstairs for quite a while.He casually added a coat over his shirt and smoked around the trash can downstairs.

The smoke diffused slowly in the damp cold air, and soon he smelled of smoke.He held back after smoking two, not wanting Jing Yan to smell it when he came back.

"Why are you wearing so little? It's such a cold day." Jing Yan ran over quickly, trying to take off his scarf and give it to him.

Lu Qian pressed his hand, "It's okay, you put it on." The scarf is black, not the dark gray one before, and it looks very new, probably bought by Jing Yan himself.

Jing Yan held his hand, it was very cold, and the blood vessels on the back of the hand were very clear.

"Let's take a walk." Lu Qian shook his hand back, touched it lightly at first, and wrapped it in his hand after seeing that Jing Yan didn't resist.

The two of them circled slowly in the garden like old people, Jing Yan's grasped hand gradually warmed up, and the other hand was put in his pocket.

After walking around, Lu Qian didn't say a word.When passing by a wooden chair, Jing Yan grabbed him, "Sit for a while." Lu Qian wiped it with a paper towel, and then wanted to take off his coat and put it on for him.

Jing Yan sat down before him, and didn't let him take off his coat.He guessed that Lu Qian probably had something to say to him.

Lu Qian sat down next to him, he felt that the wooden chair was a bit cold.If it was before, Jing Yan probably would have taken the initiative to beg to sit on him.He also wants to hug Jing Yan now, but he dare not.

"Are you happy to go home these days?" Jing Yan heard him ask this, stretched his legs and looked at the flowers, "I am very happy. I have met a few friends, and Beijing is really cold in winter, so it is comfortable to come back here too much."

Nice to meet you too, but I can't tell you.

He leaned back, straightening his thin legs.Lu Qian rested his arms on his thighs, bent forward and leaned forward.

"You don't seem to love to act like a baby to me as much as before, and you don't need me much anymore." He turned a little bit to look at Jing Yan's legs, Jing Yan's legs were dangling, and the toes bumped into each other.

"Because I've grown up. It's fine now." Because I've grown up, because I know you didn't like it before.

It is very pleasant to be able to cling to someone wholeheartedly, to give everything to him, let him take you wherever you go, and you can get it by stretching out your hand in his arms when you are hungry or thirsty.But also shameful, like a parasitic animal, if that person abandons you, you will be thrown out naked.

This is very good for Jing Yan now, there is a distance between each other, and it is enough to absorb a little warmth from each other once in a while.

"I'm always thinking about the wrong things I did before." Lu Qian lowered his head and stared at the ground. "I made a lot of mistakes, but there is one thing I regret the most."

He straightened up and touched the seat, it was still cold.He stretched out his hand with a little force, and hugged Jing Yan to his lap.

"I shouldn't have told you to be independent, and I shouldn't have told you to do your own thing. Although you think it's fine now, I regret every day that I didn't tell you."

He stroked Jing Yan's hair, "I regret that I didn't tell you that I actually like that very much. I like you clinging to me, acting like a baby to me, asking me to help you do this and that and take care of you. I like that you circle around me all day long, and I also like it." I like that you take up all my time."

The man who was circling around his feet like a kitten and whispering was thrown out by his own hands, and turned into a real solitary animal, which can live well without human care.

"If I told you how much I love you every day before, at least you wouldn't be so negative that you are worried about gains and losses."

Jing Yan tugged at his clothes, wanting to ask if you really liked her before?So if I dare not be like before, will you still like it?But as soon as he opened his mouth, he sneezed a little.

"Let's go, it's too cold here." Lu Qian immediately put him down, put his coat on him and took him home.

As soon as Jing Yan opened the door, he could smell a burning smell.Lu Qian reacted faster than him, and ran to the kitchen in a few steps.

Jing Yan followed nervously, "What's the matter..." The lights in the room hadn't been turned on yet, so he could only see Lu Qian standing there motionless.

"It's okay." Lu Qian turned on the kitchen light, "I forgot to make soup, and the soup pot ran out of water and boiled dry. Fortunately, the power was cut off automatically."

Jing Yan was a little anxious, "Have you not eaten yet? You won't have instant noodles for lunch, right?" He was afraid that Lu Qian would not tell the truth, so he poked his head around the trash can.

Lu Qian stopped him, "I've eaten it. This soup is made for you." He didn't want Jing Yan to see the mess in the kitchen, so he turned sideways to block that piece.

"I made it for me..." Jing Yan repeated in a daze, "But before I went out, I said I wouldn't come back for dinner at night."

"You go out, I'll clean up." Lu Qian turned his back to him and answered irrelevant questions.Jing Yan seemed to understand something suddenly. He opened the refrigerator and saw several crisper boxes he hadn't seen before, filled with prepared vegetables, and one box didn't look very fresh anymore.

He took out a bowl, which contained his favorite pumpkin porridge. "Do you do this every night these days..."

Lu Qian didn't speak, and Jing Yan felt very unhappy. He didn't know whether it was because he concealed it from him or because he didn't know. "Why don't you tell me."

Lu Qian took the things in his hands, "I don't want to burden you, and I don't want you to think that I'm trying to please and take credit." He put the glass box back into the refrigerator. "I just thought that maybe one day you will be hungry at night and there will be hot soup and rice at home."

Like what you did to me before, but I can't do as much as you did to me. I dare not compare it, and I dare not remind you.

Jing Yan's eyes were hot, and he couldn't help hugging Lu Qian from behind, pressing his face against his cashmere sweater.

He became an insincere little liar. What he thought in his heart was that I would not treat you as badly as you thought. If you told me, I would deliberately come back to eat on an empty stomach at night.But what he said was another matter.

"No one eats it, what a waste..."

"I put it in the refrigerator and put it away for lunch the next day." Lu Qian was hugged by him and couldn't move, touching his hand, "But it seems like a waste. I don't know what you want to eat that day, Sometimes you do too much by accident.”

Jing Yan hummed a few times, and Lu Qian patted him to signal him to let go. "Wash the pot, I'm afraid it will stain your clothes." He skillfully took out the inner liner of the soup pot and disposed of it. There were some dry ribs and a few pieces of blackened corn in the kitchen waste.

"Then...I want to eat fried eggs now." Jing Yan looked at his busy figure, showing a little coquettish emotion.

Lu Qian paused while washing the dishes, feeling relieved. "Okay. But it's so late, let's not eat oily things. Can I make you poached eggs in sugar water?"

In the evening, Jing Yan didn't read any more novels, and chatted with Lu Qian in bed early.

"Have you put everything away?" Lu Qian rubbed Jing Yan's shoulder blade and asked him with his head resting on top of his head.

Tomorrow he will go back to Beijing for class again, Jing Yan can feel that he is depressed, and he has been holding back these few days.He obediently replied "Put it away", and stretched out his arms to wrap around Lu Qian, stroking his back.

He touched it for a while, then put his hand in from the hem of Lu Qian's clothes, and his fingers moved up inch by inch along the spine.

Lu Qian hugged him tightly, and grabbed his arm again, "Don't move anymore." He kissed Jing Yan and nodded.

Although Jing Yan couldn't move his arm, his fingers still touched him. "Let's try again..." He raised his head and kissed Lu Qian.

It will take several months before we can see each other again, he wants to try his best to make Lu Qian happy this night.

Lu Qian accepted the kiss gently, and extended it quietly, but still kept an eye on Jing Yan's state.He only dared to touch his lips for a few more seconds, and before Jing Yan could recover, the two separated.

"We still have a long time to live, don't be in a hurry. Wait until you feel better." He skipped the sentence "When you can fully accept me", and patted Jing Yan through his clothes.

These days, he tried to avoid touching himself directly, holding hands on the sofa and secretly watching his face.Jing Yan didn't want to see him walking on thin ice, and there was a sore in his heart.

"Actually, it won't hurt to kiss as usual..." He touched Lu Qian's chest and whispered.Lu Qian quickly leaned over and kissed him in front of his eyes.

Just when his mouth was wet, Lu Qian stepped back a little to see Jing Yan's expression, a little confused, but not uncomfortable.He stuck it up again to deepen the kiss.

A goodnight kiss made Jing Yan heave a sigh of relief, fortunately, it's not that he doesn't want to kiss himself anymore.

The next morning Lu Qian sent the two of them to the airport, and Mrs. Yu deliberately went through the security check first, leaving some alone time for Jing Yan.

"After you go back, you still have to eat meals on time, and call me more when you are free." He smoothed Jing Yan's raised hair, "I will... next month..." He just started, there is a The phone comes in.Lu Qian looked at the number he didn't recognize, then hung up.

"I'm going on a business trip to Beijing next month, can you give me some free time?"

Jing Yan shook his arm with a smile, "Got it." The two said goodbye endlessly at the security check gate, and seeing that the time was about to come, Lu Qian thought of something, took something out of his pocket and put it on for Jing Yan.

It was Lu Qian's previous watch, much larger than Jing Yan's, with a silver-gray dial, but it buckled just right.

"I adjusted the strap." Lu Qian looked at the slightly scratched glass surface, "Do you think it's a bit ugly?"

"No." Jing Yan blinked and raised his arm to show him, "It's very suitable."

When the radio sounded a reminder to prepare for boarding, Lu Qian quickly and firmly hugged Jing Yan, and spoke in a voice that only two people could hear. "I'll wait for you at home."

After letting go of his hand, Jing Yan obviously should have run in, but his footsteps were a bit slow.Lu Qian saw him pinching the strap of his schoolbag, staring at him like a deer, cupped his face and gave him a soft kiss like last night.

He watched Jing Yan run in contentedly, and the two waved through the glass door.Surrounded by people in twos and threes who came to see off the plane, Lu Qian stood in the crowd and waited for a while until Jing Yan could no longer be seen.His shoulders slumped to leave.

The phone in his pocket rang again, and Lu Qian took it out to find that it was the same number.As soon as he pressed the button and said "Hello", a strange woman's voice came from the phone.

"Hello, is this Mr. Lu Qianlu?"