A curtain of dream

The author has something to say: Well, I decided to run away with the lid on, it seems that this chapter will be scolded to death. . . .

Hey, three more chapters have been updated before I know it, laughing proudly

My body recovered better than I imagined. At night, after my mother left, I asked Auntie Ye to help me sit in a wheelchair and asked her to take me to Chu Lian's ward.

It’s been three days since I went to see him last time. During these three days, I don’t know how he is, so I decided to go see him at night when my mother is away. I don’t want my mother to know and feel sad. I knew what she said last time, and she probably guessed about it, but she didn't know the specifics. I sighed, who gave birth to me and raised me, who knows me, this world is naturally a mother, but I understand this truth, but Ziling doesn't.

I don't know when Ziling will be able to adjust her state to face the current miserable situation, but one thing I can comfort is that Fei Yunfan took care of Ziling instead of me, stayed with Ziling, and prevented her from doing anything. Stupid thing, even if I doubted his intentions before, but today, not only did he not do anything to Zi Ling, but he also brought her to the hospital to see me every afternoon, although Zi Ling often sat by the bed without saying a word, But just like this, I am also very grateful to Fei Yunfan, he is a gentleman, he did not take advantage of others to bully my sister, and even brought her to me.

I pushed open the door of the ward, and saw Aunt Chu sitting on the sofa by the window, wearing presbyopic glasses by the light of the desk lamp.Looking at a book in his hand, Chu Lian lay with his eyes closed, breathing evenly.

Startled by the sound of us coming in, Aunt Chu took off her glasses and put down the book in her hand. She came over and said in a low voice, "Lu Ping, why don't you take a good rest and run over here."

I said softly: Aunt Chu, let me come and see Chu Lian.

She looked at me, her eyes full of distress, she nodded, walked behind me, pushed me to Chu Lian's bedside, asked my aunt to wait for me outside, and sat down on the sofa again.

I leaned over to see Chu Lian on the bed, he didn't sleep very well, his mouth always twitched, his brows were also furrowed, sometimes his whole body twitched, and then he calmed down again, it seemed that the twitch just now was caused by me the same hallucination.

I stretched out my hand to help him tuck the quilt up with some difficulty, and stared blankly at his sleeping face.

I gently touched his exposed fingers, touching them carefully, for fear of waking him up. There were many black and blue blood spots on the back of his hand, which must have been caused by the IV drip during this period of time. Scattered around his blood vessels, it looks particularly shocking.I raised my hand, looked at the back of my hand, smiled wryly, but it wasn't much better.

I stared at Chu Lian's green and bearded chin, feeling suffocated in my heart. Chu Lian, once a high-spirited architect, once a kind and charming big brother next door, once a man who hugged me gently and danced, now all of this, None exist anymore.All of this will never happen again.

I touched my cheek, which was cold and wet, only to realize that I was crying.I raised my eyes and met Aunt Chu's eyes. She was looking at me with a touch of pity and understanding.

Late at night, when I returned to my ward, I saw Fei Yunfan sitting on the sofa in my ward, and I was taken aback.

He looked at me quietly, walked forward, took the wheelchair from the auntie, took out a piece of money and handed it to her, and said calmly: If you are hungry, go out and buy some supper!

The aunt who accompanied the night took the money, happily left the ward, and closed the door for us.

I looked at him and asked: What happened to Ziling for coming so late?

He pushed me to the side of the bed, bent over to hug me on the bed, I pushed him away reflexively, and said solemnly: Uncle Xiao Fei, what is the matter with you coming so late?

He put his hands on the handles of my wheelchair, looked at me closely, didn't say anything, just stared at me deeply.

I looked back at him, raised my eyebrows slightly, and looked at him quietly.

He asked: Luping, you are guarding against me.

I nodded and said: Yes.Because I don't know what other things can make you visit late at night besides the matter of Ziling.

He slowly squatted down in front of me, looking at me at the same level, and there was a trace of emotion in his eyes that I couldn't understand.

You just went to Chu Lian's ward.He said.

I nodded and said: Yes, I went to see Chu Lian.

I heard that you went to his ward a few days ago and said you were going to marry him.

I nodded.

The corner of his mouth curled slightly, revealing a faint smile, looked at me, and said: Who are you atoning for?alone?

I was shocked, looked at his serious face, and said slowly: Uncle Xiao Fei, are you here to ask me this?

He stared at me, and the silence between me and him permeated.

I smiled and said softly: Yes, I want to make amends for myself.Because that day in Chu Lian's car, I knew that Chu Lian was very worried, and I knew that he must be struggling in his heart, but I was eager to know the ending he gave me, which distracted him and drove the car to the opposite lane on, hit a truck head-on.

A trace of heartache suddenly flashed in his eyes, he put his hand on mine, and he said: Do you still think this way now?Do you still want to marry him to atone for your sin?

I smiled sadly and said: I'm afraid even if I wanted to, Chu Lian wouldn't want to marry me!I felt the hands he put on mine tighten gradually. I lowered my head, looked at his slender hands, and then at him.

He stared at me firmly and said: Even if he is willing to marry, you don’t need to make atonement like that. Besides, this is a crime you have condemned yourself. Wang Luping, you have been a doer for your parents in your life. Time to be yourself.

I just felt sore in my heart, I raised the corners of my mouth, laughed at myself, and said: In my life, the most unfulfillable dream is to be myself and live for myself.However, in this world, who will live for themselves? Humans live in groups. No matter when and where, we cannot be separated from the crowd. We have loved ones around us, and loved ones who love us. In their care, for them To live, every choice is for the people we love, isn't it?

He looked at me and asked: If...you were allowed to be yourself, if you had such an opportunity, how would you choose, what would you do?

I looked at his not-so-young but handsome face, at his shiny black eyes, deep and unfathomable, my eyes passed through him, and fell on the curtains fluttering in the night wind by the window, I lightly Said lightly: If I can live for myself, I want to travel around the world with my drawing board on my back, see all kinds of beautiful scenery, and keep them in my paintings. If I can live for myself, I want to laugh out loud, I just laugh, I don’t need to care about other people’s eyes, I cry when I want to cry, I don’t have to suppress it, if... my voice drops, then I thought about it, laughed, and said: No wonder Ziling loves to dream, dream, Really good!Imagine everything, as if everything is real, lie to yourself, the world is beautiful.

Green Ping!He called my name emphatically, forcing me to look at him.

I looked at him peacefully, with a self-deprecating smile still on the corner of my mouth.

He said firmly and slowly: Be yourself, marry me, follow me, get out of here, and be yourself.

Tears slowly filled my eyes, looking at this gentle man, this strange man, is he proposing to me?I let the tears fall, and smiled: Thank you, Uncle Fei, your words are so beautiful, and now I need such compliments to repair the hole I have caused due to a broken relationship.

I'm serious, Luping.He lowered his voice.

I nodded, looked at him, and said: Thank you, but, I'm sorry, Uncle Fei, I can't marry you.

He raised his eyebrows, looked at me, and asked: Why?

I didn't answer him, but just asked in confusion: Aren't you interested in my purple water chestnut?Why did you suddenly confess to me, or did you make a mistake?

His eyes were a little angry, and he held my hand tightly and said: Do you think I like your sister?

I looked at him and asked: Isn't it?These days, you have been patiently accompanying Ziling, and I have advised my mother to rest assured that you and Ziling are together!

He gritted his teeth, suppressed his anger, and said slowly, word by word: I thought you could understand, I am with Ziling because she is your sister, the baby you want to protect wholeheartedly, so if you get hurt, I will To protect her for you, I didn't expect you to think so, Wang Luping, in your heart, am I just your uncle Fei?

I looked at him, stunned...