A curtain of dream

At the door of Chu Lian's ward, Uncle Chu and Aunt Chu were talking with Chu Lian's attending doctor. Their voices were very soft, but everyone's faces were full of sadness and concern.

My mother greeted them, and the doctor looked at me and said: I am in good spirits.

I nodded, and the doctor walked away. Aunt Chu's well-maintained face was full of wrinkles, which was even worse than her mother's. The corners of her mouth twitched slightly. In front of him, he leaned slightly and said in a hoarse voice: "Luping."Why don't you recuperate in the ward, what are you doing here?

Xinyi, let her go in and see Chu Lian.Mother grabbed Aunt Chu and said in a low voice.

Aunt Chu looked at me sadly and said: Luping.Are you sure you want to go in?Our Chu Lian... is not very good.

I gritted my teeth and nodded.

She nodded slightly, and said to Uncle Chu: The two of them will meet sooner or later.

Uncle Chu didn't speak, he stood with his hands behind his back, his back slightly hunched, as if he had carried a heavy burden, my eyes were slightly moist, and I realized what a catastrophe I had caused, which affected the Wang and Chu families .I looked at Uncle Chu with pleading eyes. After a long time, he sighed and said, "Go in."

Aunt Chu gently opened the door and asked Mr. Luo to push me in.

Chu Lian was half lying on the hospital bed, half of his body was covered by a white sheet, his face had no trace of blood, his eyes were full of blue shadows, his eyes were dull, and he didn't know where to look in the room.

I was pushed to his side, and his drip was hanging on his hand, his hands were stretched out weakly, and he didn't notice my arrival at all.Aunt Chu said softly behind her: Lian'er, Luping has come to see you.

His eyeballs moved slightly, his lips trembled slightly, and he didn't move any more.

Aunt Chu leaned over, and said weepingly: For so many days, he has been like this, not talking, not looking at people, not eating or drinking, relying on hanging salt water, holding on like this, I am really afraid...he...

I turned my head, looked at Aunt Chu, stretched out my hand, held her hand, and said: Don't worry, Aunt Chu, don't worry...

Luping...she sobbed, covered her mouth with her hand, and walked helplessly aside. Uncle Chu stretched out his hand with a sad expression, and hugged Aunt Chu.

I put my eyes on Chu Lian again, and my heart suddenly throbbed. I tremblingly covered the back of his hand lightly, and his hand trembled.

Chu - Lian!I cried with difficulty.

He seemed to shake his whole body, and slowly turned his head, his eyes looked at me blankly, without focus.

I looked up at him slightly, and said softly: I'm here to see you, Chu Lian.

He didn't respond, just looked at me.

I lowered my head and tears fell. Chu Lian, who used to be sunny and healthy, became this depressed and lifeless person in front of me. : You see, I am fine, and you are fine, we are all still alive, we should be glad that we are still alive.

He suddenly let out a miserable laugh, his voice was as sharp and piercing as fingernails scraping on metal, his eyes turned blankly on my face, stared at me gloomyly, and said very slowly: Do you think Should I be glad to be alive?

I nodded and said seriously: If you die, what will your parents do?what about your sisterHow sad and sad would they be if you died?You are alive, just alive, they are already thanking God, thank God for not taking you away so cruelly, when you die, this family is also finished, so you should be lucky if you are alive!

His eyes were like a black abyss, and the endless darkness occupied his mind. I looked at his right leg covered by the white quilt.I don't want to irritate him, but I still want to say, I held back my tears and said: Even if you lose a leg, it's fine if you live.

He suddenly looked at me with fierce eyes, grinned, and smiled sinisterly, and said: You are very happy, aren't you?You see my comeuppance, you're happy, aren't you?

I looked back at him and saw myself who was also pale in his eyes. I smiled wryly and said: What qualifications do I have to be happy?You and I both understand how this accident happened, don't you?

His hand trembled slightly, and he pulled it out from under my light cover. He shivered, but still looked at me fiercely, and said through gritted teeth: I don't need you to pity me.

Chu Lian!I screamed, clenched my fists, trying not to convulse my whole body, his eyes were so desperate and fierce, like a wounded beast, trying all its strength to fight against the person who hurt him, that makes people feel Heartache and discomfort.I said word by word: You should understand that I don't pity you, nor do I sympathize with you. All of this is indeed your own fault, but please listen to me carefully, the car accident is not your fault, you don't need yourself I don't need to regret, if I didn't tell you those words in the car, distracting you, maybe today, neither of us will be in the hospital, and it will make the two adults feel sad because of our matter, So, I also have to be responsible, or in other words, it was my fault, I shouldn’t like you, which makes everything so simple become so complicated, I shouldn’t hold on to the dream of loving you, and hold on tightly, Only then will you be in a dilemma, and I am the culprit.

There was a hint of emotion between his brows, his eyes slowly softened, he looked at me full of sadness, and said: What's the use of you telling me these things now?The person I love despises me, besides, I am in this state, I am no longer good enough for her, I am in this state, life would be better than death!

My eyes were slowly filled with tears. I heard my mother and Aunt Chu sobbing softly behind me. Looking at Chu Lian's face of despair and inferiority, I wiped away my tears, looked at him with a smile as much as possible, and said with a sob : If you don't mind my appearance as a wounded soldier, I think you can propose to me.

Hearing this, he was stunned.

Mother exclaimed in surprise: "Luping!"

I wiped my tears vigorously, but there were more and more tears, and I couldn't wipe them away. I smiled and said slowly: If you feel that you have lost a leg and your value has fallen, and you will be rejected by others, Then you are wrong.I want you, I will not dislike you, because... I wiped my tears hard, smiled, smiled again, and said slowly: Because you are the Chu who I have liked since I was young, and I have liked you for so many years as soon as I like you Lian, even if you have no hands or feet, I will still like you as always. If you don't dislike me, I am not the girl in your heart. If you also like me a little bit, let's get married!

This time everyone exclaimed.

He looked at me, silent, a tear fell from his eyes, slowly across his thin cheeks, and fell on the back of his hand.He stretched out his hand and stroked my face gently for a long time, regret flashed across his eyes, he shook his head, and said in a hoarse voice: "Luping."You are a good girl, you deserve better, not someone like me, I didn't deserve you before, and now, I don't deserve you even more!

nonsense!I grabbed his hand and said eagerly: Don't be like this, Chu Lian.

His hand, in mine, was extremely cold.

He said in a hoarse voice: "It's because I don't know people well. Really, Luping, I failed you. Don't treat me so well. I can't marry you."

I looked at him and held his cold hand firmly.

His eyes flicked across my face, as if penetrating through my face, and saw another person, his eyes had a taste of longing, after a long time, he sighed and said: I can't marry you, but I promise you, Luping, I promise you, I will live a good life, I will... He suddenly pulled out my hand, suddenly roared, and roared loudly at me: Get out!go away!I don't want to see you again.

Before I had time to say anything, Mr. Luo behind me quickly turned me around and quickly pushed me out of the door of the ward. I stayed with him and saw the doctors and nurses running into his ward from the outside. I wanted to say nothing, but my mother caught up with tears in her eyes. She looked at me and said with a sob: Luping, you silly boy.

I was pushed slowly by Mr. Luo, towards my ward, watched the long hospital walk, sighed, and said: He will live, right?

Mr. Luo said firmly from behind: Yes, he will live for you.

I shook my head, and suddenly felt a huge exhaustion hitting me like a huge wave. I still had the cold touch of Chu Lian's hand on my hand. I said wearily: Actually, at that moment just now, I really wanted to marry him .

I know.Mr. Luo answered briefly.

The mother sighed beside her and said: Luping, he is not worth it.

I turned to look at my mother.

My mother looked at me lovingly and said: "Although I don't know what happened between the three of you, you two sisters have loved each other since childhood. If you like it, Ziling will like it too. I'm not surprised. Both of you are very fond of each other." I fell in love with Chu Lian, but I was careless, I didn't expect Chu Lian to be a child...

mom!I shouted: "The past, let it pass!"

Mom touched my hair and stopped talking.