What's on Jasmine's mind- My leader, my regiment follow-up

(One)

The following days tended to be calm. I spent most of my time in Zenda, and sometimes I went to the barracks to see Silong.Now that the Cultural Revolution is still going on, the "Gang of Four" is getting more and more powerful, and the people's lives have not been restored to what they should have been. Instead, they have gone further and further away on a certain deviated track. The land and the people on it are worried.

No matter what, life still has to go on, the common people are most concerned about living, time is passing slowly, and it is the summer of 1975.At this time, Silong and Kangmei's marriage application was finally approved after a delay for a while, and the two quietly went to get their marriage certificate, which was regarded as a major event in life.

As for the wedding, neither of the two young men expected a grand and lively wedding.The parents of the two are not around, and the leader's approval of their marriage report is considered an exception, and of course it is impossible to celebrate in the army.Kangmei just packed his luggage and moved out of the dormitory, while Silong just added a single bed in his dormitory.Two camp beds can be put together to form a big bed.

Clean up the dormitory and put away the things brought by the anti-Americanism. This is considered a married life. It is so simple that there are no happy characters on the windows and doors, and there is no need to have one.But there are always a few good friends and good brothers who want to make a fuss about the new house, so although there is no complicated wedding ceremony, but with the blessings of the brothers, Silong, who is too drunk to drink, was still ruthlessly poured drunk.

After seeing off the naughty brothers, Kangmei closed the doors and windows and sat on the bedside.Silong had fallen asleep on the bed, his face was still flushed.

Kangmei looked at his face, her heart was beating very fast, she thought to herself, he looks really good when he is asleep, he looks peaceful and peaceful, but why does he only need to open his eyes and smile slightly? , is it that bad?Why on earth should I like him?Where do I like him?In my memory, the first time I saw him was ten years ago, in the summer of [-], when I was less than fifteen years old, I saw him in my father's office. I remember his smile when he turned around, Charming and moving, from now on, the soul and the gods will remember his name, and his shadow will never be erased...

Unexpectedly, it has been ten years since I met him. These ten years are also the stage when I started to serve as a soldier and start working.Along the way, there are cheers, laughter, tears, sadness and confusion. It is not easy to get to the present.But now, it is not the end of a road, it is just another starting point of life.No matter how many winds and rains and hazes I will encounter on this road in the future, I will not be alone, I will be with him and face it together...

Kangmei looked at Silong, still thinking about things in a daze, only to see his brows slightly wrinkled, his eyes slowly opened, as if there was a second of stagnation and confusion, when his eyes fell on Kangmei's A smile finally appeared in those dark and bright eyes on his face: "Kangmei, I seem to be a little confused about the situation, and I forgot what day it is today. I blame Dong Tuantuan and Meng Yi, those two brats. It's not that I don't know that I can't drink, and Xiao Ning and Xiao Shuai are also standing next to me, making fun of me. These guys won't let me drink. They won't give up.

I'm sorry, Kangmei, did you make you wait?well!A moment of spring night is worth a thousand dollars, how can I fall asleep at this moment of a thousand dollars? ..."

Hearing this, I was embarrassed to listen to the corner of the new house again. I smiled and went back to Zenda.

The child Silong has grown up and has a family, so why should I worry about it? ?

(two)

What else is there to worry about?Maybe there is only one Jasmine, that is my biggest concern.It is still a chaotic world where people are punishing people. People in the turmoil live cautiously and depressedly. They are reluctant to let her face such a lonely and absurd world alone. I'd better stay with her for a while.

On October 1976, 10, the "Gang of Four" was arrested overnight, and the Cultural Revolution ended.Then began a series of work to set things right.

Also in October 1976, Silong and Kangmei's first child was born.It was a little girl with a sweet smile, at first glance she looked very much like her grandma Xiao Zui back then, but there was also a faint look of Jasmine.Silong named the child Yuan Tian, ​​nicknamed Tian Tian, ​​which heralds sweeter and sweeter days in the future.

Just when Xiao Tiantian was full moon, her grandfather, Zhang Lixian finally figured out the problem, and returned to the original position from the devolved farm.It turned out that some minions of the rebels and the Gang of Four were also liquidated and reviewed one after another, and a fresh political atmosphere finally ushered in the army.

The old official Zhang returned to his post, and there was a lot of work waiting for him to do. He was busy all day, but he was also in good spirits.I feel better, of course everything is fine.Xiao Zui has now been promoted to be a grandmother, and she happily helps Kang Mei take care of the children and do housework all day long.As for Silong, he is of course busier.During the Cultural Revolution, the army engaged in sports all day long and neglected training. The current combat effectiveness made him worry. Now that the chaos has finally been rectified, he is of course devoted to work, how to improve the quality and combat capabilities of officers and soldiers.

I am relieved to see Silong's busy and fulfilling life now. Another two years have passed since his peaceful life, and now it is the end of 1978.

Several things happened at the end of 1978. First of all, Lao Zhang had reached the age of retirement and retired from the position of teacher commander; and Silong is now the deputy head of the lieutenant colonel, and is very highly valued by the leaders; I have retired from Hongqi Primary School and can start to enjoy my old age.These are just a few small things related to me and our cannon fodder regiment, but during this period of time, a major event that has a far-reaching impact on the entire Chinese people happened.The Third Plenary Session of the No.11 Central Committee of China was held.

At this plenary session, Comrade Hua Guofeng asked everyone to tell the truth. The focus of the work of the whole party was shifted to socialist modernization, which achieved a major turning point in history and made a new decision of "reform and opening up".The most important thing is to stop using the slogan of "taking class struggle as the key link" and guide the people of the whole country to shift the focus of their work to building the country, developing the economy, and leading the people to live a prosperous and stable life.

After reading all the reports on the Third Plenary Session and listening to all the broadcasts in this regard, I was very excited.It seems that although our country has gone through hardships, our people have always been so tenacious. At every critical moment in history, they will make choices and strive to move towards the way things should be.Although the future life will not be smooth sailing, it can be expected and full of hope.Then, what else can I worry about? ?

(three)

It was also during this time that Jasmine received another letter from Silong.The letter said that Kangmei was pregnant with another child, and she was going to give birth in more than a month, and asked her to help.Now the mother-in-law is already helping them take care of Yuan Tian, ​​and when the second child is born, I'm afraid she will be overwhelmed, so the helpless Silong can only ask his mother for help.At the same time, I haven't been home to see my mother for several years, and I really miss her very much. In short, I hope Jasmine can leave Zenda temporarily and join the army for a while.

Jasmine hesitated for a day when she received this letter. It is said that she should go to help the child, and besides, she would like to see her in-laws and granddaughter; I feel very sad to leave this small courtyard.

In fact, what makes her feel even more reluctant is the familiar smell, the atmosphere where she can feel that I am next to her everywhere.

At this moment, I was also struggling in my heart. She was thinking about whether or when to leave the yard, and I was thinking about whether or when to leave her?Now is a great opportunity that, if missed, may never come again.

I need to talk to her about why I chose to leave.

"Jasmine, what do you think of Bao'er's letter? When are you going to leave?" I supported her shoulder and asked softly in her ear.

"I've been packing up my things for the past two days. I should go as soon as I'm done. I don't know if it's a boy or a girl this time. I've prepared both kinds of clothes." She smiled and turned to look at me , but there was a trace of loneliness in the smile.

"Why not happy? Bao'er is going to have a baby again, is that a happy event?" I suppressed the sadness and reluctance in my heart, and tried to face her with a smile.

"But why do I always feel that once I leave here, it's like leaving you. I, I don't know where the panic came from, I always feel that I can't keep you." She held my hand, and the gaze in her eyes made me unbearable Looking at each other, I turned my head slightly and made up my mind.

"Jasmine, do you know that there is also a time limit for the souls of the dead to stay in this world. Maybe 50 years, maybe a little more time. If we don't reincarnate after this period of time, we will really become lonely. Ghosts.

Wait, I don't mean to curse you!Don't even think about stupid thoughts like dying for love, I will never allow you to commit such stupidity!

Don't cry, good Molly, and hear me out.You will have a peaceful and happy old age.You now have a son, daughter-in-law, granddaughter, and maybe a grandson. In the future, the family will accompany you to grow old in harmony. You are only over 50 now, and you still have a long, long life to live. It is a good life. Pass.

It's not that I don't want to wait for you, but I still have to think about those brothers who follow me, if I can't drag them any longer, I won't be able to reincarnate or reincarnate with me..."

After saying these words, I looked at her very guilty. I don't know how she feels in her heart, but I know that my heart hurts.

(four)

She didn't speak for a moment, with tears in her eyes, and she looked numb as if she didn't respond.

Suddenly my heart moved, and I realized that I had said the wrong thing again, "Jasmine, I am not blaming you. Don't misunderstand, and don't be angry. Over the years, I have been willing to be with you, but now, I I just want to say, I...it's time to go..." Why the more anxious I became, the more I couldn't express clearly, my mind started to get messed up.

"Don't worry, I understand, I understand your heart." She held my hand and comforted me in turn.

"Article, I have always felt that I am the happiest woman in the world to have you by my side for so many years. I never thought that I would be so blessed to be with my hero, my...husband... .Together through the years.

I should be content, it would be too greedy if I am not satisfied.Don't worry, I won't stop you from doing what you want.You are such an upright man, how much time have you wasted just to be with me?A man should make contributions in this world, not love his sons and daughters, and stay with me, a half-old lady..."

Before she could finish her words, I had already blocked her mouth. I just wanted to release the pain and guilt in my heart with a deep kiss.

"Don't say you are an old lady anymore, you never grow old, in my eyes you are my Jasmine, don't say such things that make my heart hurt anymore." people.

"I'm leaving again, maybe I won't appear in your dreams again, will you blame me?" He leaned into her ear and whispered softly.

"I don't blame you, but I miss you. You have been with me for so many years, and you have been with me in the most difficult years. I am content, how can I blame you? My love for you, my miss for you, will always be Exist. Wherever you are, and whether I am still here or not, this love will always exist between heaven and earth. I...love...you...." Her voice was soft, and the last whisper was mellow and lingering .

"Jasmine, I am reincarnated, don't be so sad, I am not farther away from you, but closer to you. Of course in another form..." I comforted her.

"Can you tell me where to go? I want to find you, if only from afar," she asked.

"This, the Buddha said: Don't say it, don't say it." I shook my head slightly at her. Some things are secrets that must not be revealed. If you violate them, even God will not help you.

"Then let me see you again, let me remember the person I love the most. I don't know how many years I have to wait, and I have to go through several reincarnations before I can meet you again among thousands of people in the next life Is it possible to hold your hand again?" She looked at me, caressing my face with one hand, sliding her fingers across the eyes, eyebrows...

It suddenly occurred to me that after I left, the person who used to be called Long Wenwen really disappeared completely in this world.With the departure of the last ray of soul, there is no more dragon articles in this world, and it really passed away like a spring dream without a trace.Even if I return to this world, it will already be another identity, another life.When can we reconnect with her?Is the relationship with her gone? ?I didn't dare to think about it, it turned out that she had been pampering me all along, and condoning my selfishness and cruelty to her.

"Jasmine," I pressed against her cheek, hugging her hard, as if to suffocate her, and said in a low voice: "Don't forget me, you have to remember me, remember my smile, remember my words, remember me Live everything I have done. In the future, I can only live in one place, and that is your heart. Please don't forget.

When one day, you see my smile again, you will find that I am by your side..."