What's on Jasmine's mind- My leader, my regiment follow-up

(One)

Jasmine's prayer seemed to be over, and she began to talk to the dead.

"I still remember how you looked when I first saw you." She caressed the stone tablet with one hand, but her eyes wandered into the distance.

"That was more than two years ago. At that time, I just settled down in Zenda." Her voice dropped slightly, and I also recalled the scene when I first met her.

"I just remember that a few other brothers were making half-meat and half-vegetarian jokes and asking me to toast, only you have always been so polite, and you have the brightest eyes in the world. You have so much Something special, so different from the people around me. That day, I remembered your name, you have a nice name, and I like your name."

"Later I heard that you all went to the front line in Burma, and the battle situation became more and more tense. The retreat of the expeditionary force turned into a rout, and the Japanese followed this rout, and were about to cross the Nu River. We were also in Chanda City every day. They were all worried, until that night when they heard the endless sound of guns and cannons on the Nantian Gate, that night, no one in Zenda fell asleep."

I know, she remembered our first Nantianmen battle.

"The next day, when it was known that Jiang was defending, the Japanese did not attack Jiang, but were blocked by a group of Chinese soldiers at the Nantian Gate. The people in the town were as happy as a festival, and the Zenda people immediately Turn this day into a festival. I went to the street with Heihu, not just to watch the excitement, but also to see more happy smiling faces of everyone."

"That day, I was so surprised to find that you were among the heroes who came down from Nantianmen. You were their leader and their commander. I was surprised and happy. What makes the difference. You are my real hero."

"However, I was really sad when I saw Yu Shizuo took you away like that. From then on, I started to pay attention to you and worry about you. Maybe it was from that time that I started to like you. " After finishing speaking, with a smile on her face, she raised her head and looked into the distance.

I have never heard her talk about her thoughts at such a close distance, and now I hear her recalling the past like this, I can't help but feel at a loss.

(two)

"Later, Master Yu probably also realized that you are a genius in war, and you should be reused. You became the head of the Sichuan Army. However, I don't understand why Master Yu wants to use you and suppress you. I only know that, Under his suppression, your life in the Sichuan Army Corps is very difficult." Hearing this, I could only smile wryly.

"You came to me, hoping that I could get you a war anti-aircraft gun, and later you asked for a map of the West Bank. I know that all you want is to regain the lost ground. The bureaucrats who want to make progress have to worry about the country and the people countless times, so I respect you in my heart and am willing to help you. However, judging from your attitude towards me, I am both happy and sad. The happy thing is that you can still think Thinking of me, you thought of asking me to help; the sad thing is, I can only help with this, and when you get the cannon and the map, you will leave without looking back."

Speaking of this, she paused for a moment, and then said sadly: "I know, you just use me; but what I pay for you is affection."

Hearing this, I was hit by her words, and my chest hurt. Could it be that I am such a rotten person in her mind, but I seem to be such a rotten person.

"After I got the anti-aircraft gun order and the map, I hesitated all day. I know that as soon as I hand these two things to you, I will never see you again. If I keep them Now, maybe I can see you a few more times. However, when I think of the important things you are busy with, my little selfishness and selfishness are really not worth mentioning. That night, I quit Determined to give you the things as soon as possible, even if I will never see you again, I think I should convince myself to forget you." Speaking of this, she seemed very sad, and her eyes turned red.

"The next morning, I asked someone to deliver a message to you, and you arrived in the afternoon. Sure enough, as I expected, you got these two things, and you left immediately, and you refused to stay for another minute. You don't know , How sad and desperate I was in my heart at that time, I still mustered up the courage to express my worries to you, hoping that you can survive and not die. I really didn't expect that you would stop your hurried steps, You specially stopped to comfort me and make me happy. Although the sadness in my heart did not decrease at that time, I could at least smile and send you away with a smile. I know that you were so brave on the battlefield and killed countless enemies. Your heart is very kind, you don't want to see me sad, but unfortunately, there is no place for me in your heart."

Hearing this, I couldn't help scratching my head violently. Do I have her in my heart?Or without her?I can't think clearly for a while, let's listen to her.

"Since you got that anti-war gun, the daily cannon on Jiqi Slope has attracted countless bombardments from the Japanese army, and Zenda has become more and more like a war zone. Later, the atmosphere of preparing for war became more and more intense. Our family The one in the office often doesn’t go home for several days, I know that Master Yu is very strict, as if he is about to fight.” Yes, before we were preparing to raid the Nantianmen, when we were preparing for the battle, How many military supplies need to be prepared and implemented? I know her brother, it is almost impossible to go home during that time.

"That day when I came back from grocery shopping, I suddenly saw you appearing in that alley. I understood that you came to say goodbye to me. You will soon go to the battlefield. I hid all the sadness and sadness in my heart, just wanted to have a good time. Help you cook a meal, I hope you can taste my handicrafts with peace of mind. But you are really good or bad, you promised me but you suddenly want to leave." Speaking of this, she seemed very annoyed, and gently poked with her index finger He glanced at the stone in front of him.I looked at her cute little movements, holding that innocent stone tablet and venting my anger, thinking foolishly in my heart, if I really let her see me, I would stand in front of her, I'm afraid she would slap my forehead It exploded.

"That day was the happiest day in my life, because that day I finally understood your heart. Before you left, you suddenly asked about Biluochun tea. This is the third time you have asked me this question. It made me understand, maybe you don't know it well, I still occupy such a small place in your heart." Speaking of this, that charming smile appeared on her face again, with a small smile on her face. Proud, with helplessness and sadness, just like before.

(three)

"Then you went to the Nantian Gate. The sound of your guns on the Nantian Gate was sometimes earth-shattering and sometimes intermittent. It was the only sound I paid attention to during that time. I heard your provocation against the Japanese army in the middle of the night. Hearing your voice, I was happy and excited, but then I was sad and sad, because your voice has been hoarse, I can't imagine what kind of experience you have on it. I can only pray to God as much as possible , bless you, bless all of you can survive safely."

"The period when you were at the Nantian Gate was the most painful and difficult period of my life. Because your situation was critical, because your life and death were uncertain. The only thing I can do is to sincerely burn incense and pray for you every day. Maybe God really heard my voice. Eight days after you went to Nantianmen’s No.30, Master Yu’s general attack across the river finally launched, and then, I also heard that you were rescued and you walked down safely. Nantianmen." As she told, I recalled No.30 Eight Days of Nantianmen, the day we were rescued.But at that time, what kind of situation was I in!

"Knowing that you were rescued and that you went down to Nantianmen safely, I am relieved. I know you can't come to see me right away, but you will definitely come to see me when you are free. Because you once promised me , you are a person who keeps your promise, I believe in you and wait for you." Hearing her say this, I was really sad in my heart, I only know that I have never thought of her since I got off the Nantianmen. Just put that promise behind me.

"Actually, I was always busy in those days. I found a lot of needlework for myself, all of which were outsourced workers who were paid on a piece-by-piece basis. I wanted to earn as much money as possible by myself, and when I was doing needlework , can calm down my mood, so that I won't wait for you too anxiously. However, you have never come, and I have never been able to find out about you. "

"Later, I found out that I was pregnant. I invited the doctor to come and see, and I also calculated the date. I knew how happy I was having your child. I was looking forward to it every day in those days, and you could appear on the stage as soon as possible In front of me. If you know the news, what kind of expression will you have? You should be happy too?!" When she said these words, her face was both sweet and sad.And my heart trembled, like a position that had just been hit by a shell, it was empty, and I didn't know what the reaction was.Then, there was only a burst of ecstasy, followed by a burst of great loss and sadness.

She was still talking, and I didn't have the heart to listen for a while, I just thought about what she said just now, "I know I have your child".Is she really carrying my child?I just thought about it over and over in my mind.Yes, I used to have a little bit of doubt, but I have always been unwilling to think about it. I am afraid that if I am too greedy, I will be too disappointed. But, is it really my child that Jasmine is pregnant with? ?

I only felt joy and sorrow in my heart, but my mind was empty and I didn't know what to do.

(four)

The veterinarian was standing behind me at some point, and he gave me a slight push, motioning me to look at Molly.She put her hands together and prayed to the sky again, but this time she said her prayer loudly: "God, I beg you to bless his spirit in heaven. I hope his spirit in heaven can hear what I said These words. I hope he can hear, now our child is the hope for me to live, thank you for the best gift he left me!" After speaking, I saw her tears finally fall down, It slid across her face and landed on the stone tablet.

She knelt down slowly, stroking my name on the stele with her fingers, over and over again.At this moment, I seem to be connected with her heart. I can clearly feel what she is thinking in her heart. She is recalling the happiest time when we were together...