What's on Jasmine's mind- My leader, my regiment follow-up

(One)

On the afternoon I went to get the anti-aircraft gun, I met a nemesis in my life, a little bookworm.We fell in love with each other from the first sight, but within 5 minutes, we hit each other hard.I felt that his ideas were too ideal and unrealistic, and I didn't want to watch him talk about harming the country anymore, so I agreed to take him to see the real battlefield.

But after arriving at Jiqi Slope, his passionate and provocative remarks finally got so annoying that I had to remind me to pay attention to the sparkling red light coming out of him.It was only later that I realized that maybe on the battlefield, my tenacity, courage, intuition and sensitivity were called geniuses; but in some places outside the battlefield, my performance can only be described as childish, such as "politics".

Yes, the word politics has not entered my consideration for a long time.Why I was so insensitive to this issue, even naive, in retrospect, it may be due to my education.I have never received a systematic school education, so I have rarely had the opportunity to understand various "isms" in depth.Our family has always been uprooted, and my education came largely from what my mother and I had lived through.

(two)

In my childhood memory, the image of my father is very vague. Since I was sensible, I have never seen him again. I have always been brought up by my mother.

From the age of four, my mother began to teach me to read and read, from "Hundred Surnames", "Three Character Classics", "Thousand Character Classics", "24 Filial Piety" to "Four Books", "Five Classics" and "Guan Zhi Guan Zhi".During the court trial, the long section of "Chu Ci" that fooled Lao Yu was also thanks to the ancient prose skills he had built up when he was a child.

If you want to use a four-character word to describe your mother, I think it should be: everyone is a lady.Yes, when I first read this word in a book as a child, I felt that it described my mother.As I understand it, a lady does not necessarily have to be born in a wealthy family, but she must be a scholar from generation to generation, as the so-called "poetic and literary spirit is born in the belly" kind of person.

Mother has not only read many books, but even has many books in her heart.I remember when we were young, when we couldn’t buy or borrow a certain book that my mother wanted me to read, she would write down a complete book from memory and show it to me. Memory, also completely recited "The Thirteen Chapters of Sun Tzu's Art of War".

I have never dared to ask why such a mother led me to live a turbulent life.I just vaguely felt that the reason why my mother left her "everyone" might be a kind of pain in her heart that even I didn't want to express.

Although my mother loves books, she is not the only book lover.What she always told me is that books are dead, but people are alive. People can't believe in books, and they can't stop reading.Moreover, in addition to studying, you should aspire to "travel thousands of miles".My mother always believes that traveling thousands of miles is more important than reading thousands of books, which is one of the reasons why she has been taking me around.

My understanding of our nation's history comes from my mother's narration and the books she borrowed for me.Yes, my mother rarely bought books because we moved a lot.She said that books cannot be read unless they are borrowed. Borrowed books will give you the motivation and pressure to cherish them.

I traveled with my mother all over half of China. The customs of each place, those famous mountains and rivers, and those small towns not only let me understand what geography is, but also let me feel people's livelihood from another emotional level. and the history that is happening in this land.My mother has always believed that people can grow only after experiencing things; the more setbacks, the more tempering they have, and they are opportunities for growth given by God, and should not be regarded as suffering.

My mother just taught me the basics of being a human being, and then she stopped setting too many restrictions and taboos for me. She encouraged me to develop freely, and she told me to be open-minded and inclusive in life.Look for your ideals, focus on what you want to do the most, and don't have to worry too much about the details.

I don't understand why my mother doesn't want to mention my father to me, and she doesn't want to talk about her former family. Although I always have doubts, I can't bear to make my mother sad, so I just hide this problem in my heart.Of course, our family is not a house of ghosts. More than half of the lies during the trial were to deceive Lao Yu, so that he half-believed, and I had a chance to escape.

But when I just reached adulthood, my mother died of illness, I lost my only relative, and I no longer had a home.I have been traveling around all the time. It can be said that I wandered in the rivers and lakes, or I could be said to be homeless and homeless. It was not until I joined the army at the age of 26 that I began to treat the barracks as my home.

(three)

I have also had many women, and I know that in their eyes, I am still pleasing; but those are passing clouds that have no depth, and I have no interest in deepening them. When I am with them, I just It's just playing on the spot.

The only woman I miss in my heart is my mother.My mother's life experience is a mystery, so my life experience is also a mystery.

When I met Shangguan at Nantianmen, I admitted that I was a little bit attracted to her, because there was something about her, like my mother.However, the tirade she said afterwards directly dampened my ambition.My ideals of defending my family, defending my country, and fighting against the Japanese invaders turned out to be a disregard for human life in her mouth.And I have never wanted to surpass all beings for the sake of ideals, let alone use ideals as fertilizer for the sake of surpassing all beings. I just hope that things can return to their original state.Therefore, for a woman as profound as Shangguan, I can only keep a respectful distance, avoiding her for fear of being too late, maybe, she is also another nemesis in my life.

A woman's heart, a sea needle.I never want to think too much, and I don't want to spend the time I could have spent doing things guessing women's minds.There are too many things on my mind to pretend.

But what about Jasmine?In the past, I could always easily forget her. I didn't want her to occupy my heart. There is no place in my heart reserved for women, but why would I go to see her again? ?Confused and confused, I thought of that day, the day I went to see Jasmine for the last time.