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It was still dark when Qi Yubai left Bohai.

He didn't bring anything, he just took his computer and coat, and wanted to leave directly, but he couldn't resist walking to the door of the master bedroom when he passed the living room.

There was a gap in the door of the bedroom, it was like the relationship between them, they obviously wanted to break it off, but they brought him back at the last moment.Although the rain stopped, the temperature outside still dropped to zero, and the biting cold wind must have been unbearable. Qi Yubai couldn't let Lin Nan stay in such an environment alone, so he couldn't rest assured after all if he just let him go back.

Pushing open the door, it was quiet inside, and Lin Nan's heavy breathing could be heard when he approached the bed.He was lying on his side facing outward, not sleeping very comfortably, his eyelashes were closed tightly, and his face was a little red.Qi Yubai touched his forehead very lightly, only to feel that the palm of his hand was very hot.

"Lin Nan—" Qi Yubai called out to him in a low voice.

Lin Nan didn't wake up. I don't know if he was sick or sleepy too deeply.

"Are you okay?" Qi Yubai asked again.

Still no response.Qi Yubai originally made up his mind to take a look and leave, but now he couldn't bear it anymore, and finally sat on the side of the bed, staring at the person on the bed, as if he wanted to engrave his appearance into his memory.

Only at this time can he take a look at the person he likes.Lin Nan's eyes were beautiful, but it was a pity that the eyelids were closed at this time, and a pair of pupils moved uneasily occasionally.The nose is also delicate. Sometimes when I growl at myself, I will suck it in fear, and I am very good at expressing grievances.Where are the ears?The ears are very cute, and the two pierced ears are empty at this time without any earrings. He sometimes puts the small and round earlobes in his mouth and bites them whenever he wants, which always makes Lin Nan tremble.

After watching for a while, Qi Yubai pulled the quilt to cover his body again, and even tilted it to cover his bare feet specially.

Qi Yubai didn't have any special hobbies when he had sex with others. If he had to say he did, he probably only liked to hold Lin Nan's feet when he was facing Lin Nan.The skin of Lin Nan's whole body is very fine and white, even on his feet, there is no rough place, the ankle bones are round, and the soles of the feet are slender. As long as Qi Yubai holds it, he will almost immediately find it difficult to hold it.

He slowly lowered his body, brushed aside a lock of hair lovingly with his fingers, put his forehead against Lin Nan's side face, lightly touched the white skin with the tip of his nose, and then exhaled a low breath.

Qi Yubai was still able to control Lin Nan when he couldn't see Lin Nan, and it was inevitable that his heart would throb with him being so close.He really wanted to kiss the lips in front of him, even though he hadn't really done it in a long time.

When kissing someone, you need to close your eyes and devote yourself to it, Qi Yubai can't do it.He has an indelible sense of guilt in his heart, and once he enjoys happiness, he feels even more regretful.So his lips had not tasted love for a long time.

He felt a terrible pain in his heart.Not because you're about to leave someone you love.

It is hard to let go of Lin Nan, but this is his own decision, he has no regrets, and even contradictoryly hopes that Lin Nan can really forget him and start a new life, the sooner the better.The thing that really pained him was this moment, when he found himself unable to even kiss the one he loved, which was both pathetic and ridiculous.

If you can't even give your lover a kiss, what is your lover?

He is not qualified to love Lin Nan, has no position to love and protect him, has no way to heal himself and has no spare power to love others.

"Cough-cough-"

The person in front of him suddenly let out two coughs from his throat, and the ending sounds astringent.

Qi Yubai immediately retracted the hand that was caressing his cheek.

"Cough-cough-"

There were two more coughs, Lin Nan slept very restlessly, but he didn't wake up, probably subconsciously he didn't want to see Qi Yubai again, and was so tired that he got hurt again.

Qi Yubai realized that he should go, and it was pointless to stay any longer.

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The sun in the winter morning is slow to show up, and the gloomy night drags its feet and refuses to leave.A black lacquered coupe sped out from the underground garage, leaving the familiar neighborhood with only a two-second delay at the parking pole. Staggered fallen leaves.

The whole car was intact, except for the silver bone umbrella on the left side of the body, which fell into the owner's apartment.The two good umbrellas were separated like this. Maybe the person in the apartment would not know until he lost or discarded it. It was originally a pair with the one left in the car.

The car is driven very fast on the unimpeded loop road, and the poor tires and steering wheel are forced to bear the driver's anger at themselves.He had nowhere to vent, he could only drive the car faster and faster, relying on the excellent performance of the coupe to not take his own life seriously.The car seems to be volleying on the road, and there is a risk of crashing at any time.Just like his life, it seems to be smooth sailing, and he can get everything he wants, but in fact he has suffered a complete failure, and there is little possibility of turning over.

It only took half the usual time, and Qi Yubai returned to the old house.

The gate of the courtyard has not yet been opened, and the flat ground at the gate is shimmering after the rain. Occasionally, a bird's high-pitched voice flies over the locust tree, shaking its feathers and stepping on the leaves, lingering, rushing into the car again and again people yelling.

Who are you, what are you doing here, are you finally willing to bow your head and admit defeat.

Qi Yubai parked the car outside the iron fence for a long time, from the dawn of the morning until the day was bright, even the stubble on his face appeared before he came back to his senses, he honked the horn several times with his right hand, and waited. The people in the courtyard opened the door for him.

During the few minutes of waiting, he thought about many things, fragments of the past few years flashed in his mind, and the scene in the villa was rehearsed before his eyes.He knew that once he stepped here, he would finally admit defeat and fall into the trap his father had set for him, step by step towards the so-called perfect life.

He really hoped that Lin Nan loved him more than anything, or was willing to do his best just to be with him.If so, maybe he can break free from the heavy shackles on his body and try his best, and then turn around and fly back to Bohai without wasting a second.

Unfortunately this is not the case.

"Master—!"

As soon as Zhou Li opened the door, he ran out happily, stuck to his car window and slapped it twice. The collar of his clothes even buttoned two wrong buttons, and they were still the same size as before.

"Why are you here now?" he asked in surprise.

Qi Yubai lowered the car window, and as soon as he turned his head, he was taken aback by the smile on Zhou Li's face, and said, "Master, why...why are you so haggard?"

"Didn't sleep well."

Qi Yubai waved his hand, signaling him to stay away so that he could drive in.

The car drove in slowly, and Zhou Li ran after him in small steps, as if he was afraid of Qi Yubai's temporary regret.

When he sat on the sofa in the living room, Zhou Li ran upstairs to inform Mrs. Zhou and Qi Zhonghui. He even forgot the etiquette, and the appearance of knocking on the door one by one was almost beaming.

"Mom! Wake up, young master, Mr. Qi is back!"

"Chairman, Chairman, Mr. Qi has just arrived home!"

Look, even he knows what it means for Qi Yubai to go home at this very moment.

Sister-in-law Zhou opened the door first and rushed down, and said to Qi Yubai with a smile on her face, "It's good to come back. The chairman is right. He said that you will definitely agree to move back home this week at the latest. You'll be here this weekend. Have you brought all your things?"

Seeing that Qi Yubai didn't respond, she patted her forehead again and said, "Look at me, I can't stop talking. I don't have anything to bring. I have everything at home. Just come back. I'll make breakfast." , it will be fine soon."

After finishing speaking, he turned and walked towards the kitchen, halfway there, he turned his head and looked at the person on the sofa with relief.

Qi Yubai didn't want to speak at the moment, and let himself lean on the back of the sofa regardless of his image.After all, the house has existed for many years. A crystal chandelier in the center of the high ceiling dazzled his eyes. The humidity in the air was not low, and the soil smell from the garden outside after the rain was not fresh, but rather depressing.

Not long after, Qi Zhonghui came downstairs in casual clothes, and frowned when he saw Qi Yubai.

"What do you look like, you don't even shave your beard."

Qi Yubai straightened his back on the sofa, his elbows rested on his separated thighs, his head drooped slumped, his back was pulled into an inclined plane, and his shoulder blades were protruding from his suit jacket.

Father Qi stood by his side and looked at him for a while, then suddenly heaved a deep sigh.

"Aren't you reconciled? Do you think I forced you?"

Forcing the only son to leave the person he likes, forcing him to be manipulated by himself.

Qi Yubai didn't look at his father, his eyes stayed on the front of the leather shoes, and after a moment of silence, he finally opened his mouth.

"Yes."

Father Qi was obviously surprised when he heard this word, almost thought he heard it wrong, and asked with a frown, "You think so?"

"Yes." Qi Yubai repeated again.

He is not reconciled, does not accept his fate, and wants to go back to Bohai, live the life he wants to live, and love the person he wants to love.

"You..." Father Qi's speech faltered, and he paused for a while before saying, "Do you know that I'm doing it for your own good?"

"For my own good..." Qi Yubai smiled, "Do I look good?"

Under the guise of being good for a person, overriding his will, this kind of goodness is unacceptable.

Qi Zhonghui asked back: "I am your father, will I harm you? One day you will understand the painstaking efforts of me and your mother."

Normally, he would have already had a fit, but seeing his son's current appearance, he couldn't say anything serious.Their father and son are united in the end, and the son is in pain, how can a father feel better?

"To be honest, I don't know." Qi Yubai's tone became indifferent, resisting the kindness from inside to outside."I don't know if it's painstaking or just bigotry," he said.

Maybe both father and son have to learn how to let go of their paranoia about the past and try to live their lives in the present.

"You say I'm forcing you, so let's say I'm forcing you." Father Qi sat next to Qi Yubai, raised his hand and patted him on the shoulder, "Don't worry, those photos will never be seen by others, nor will they Anyone who makes it difficult for him, as long as you don't live the life you used to. I promise you this in the name of father. Now that we are back, we father and son should turn the page of the past. Think about our previous family People go out in RVs, go for a wild ride in the countryside, or go diving on the island, how can they be as hostile as they are now?"

After forcing people to go home with harsh words, it was the turn of the Huairou policy to play.Qi Yubai knew very well in his heart that his father didn't really let go of his mother's death, and didn't really eliminate the barrier with him, it was just to stabilize him for the time being.

"Besides, you did the right thing." Father Qi continued, "People who are not suitable should know how to let go at the right time. This is also for his own good. Only those who are so ruthless towards themselves are like members of our Qi family."

Qi Yubai didn't say any more, just brushed his hand away and said, "I want to go upstairs and have a rest."

He stood up and walked up and down the stairs. The morning light piercing through the window pierced his eyes and made him squint involuntarily.

I don't know if the sick person in the Bohai apartment has woken up at this moment, if he realizes that he has left, and if he sees the message he sent.In such a long and somewhat difficult morning, I don't know whether he will cry for nothing, or calm down and heal himself.

Thinking about it, Qi Yubai's craving for cigarettes suddenly broke out without any symptoms, and even his bones felt uncomfortable. He just wanted to go to an empty room and have a good smoke.So he quickened his pace and went up the stairs without looking back.

"Meet Bai!"

Father Qi called his name after a long absence.