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Lin Nan was finally brought home by He Shan.He vomited once in the hotel, vomited while holding a plastic bag on the road, and then vomited while holding the toilet when he returned home, barely closing his eyes all night.At first, the liquid spit out was red, which scared He Shan out of her wits, but later she realized that it was the red wine in her stomach.

So He Shan didn't leave, and stayed at home to take care of him.Lin Nan basically woke up in the middle of the night, but He Shan didn't say why she knew where he was, nor did she ask him what happened, she was surprisingly sensible.

Lin Nan curled up on the sofa, the nerves in his brain throbbing like a living frog.It takes him a moment to sort out what happened.

He remembered that "Nan Nan", that "good", and that kiss.There are many fragments in my mind, but I can't piece together a reasonable story.Why did Qi Yubai be so tender to him one moment, and overthrow everything the next moment.Qi Yubai's attitude was back and forth, Lin Nan thought he was used to it, but he didn't expect that he was still dying under the heavy trauma tonight.

Why do people drink alcohol?Drinking too much will do the wrong thing, get the wrong meaning, and screw up a relationship.

The overhead light was not turned on in the room, so He Shan moved a desk lamp out of his room, plugged it into the socket next to the TV, and turned on the lowest brightness.She was sitting on the chair next to him and dozing off, with her face facing the direction of the sofa, her head pointing downwards like beating a drum, and she was wearing a small cloth bag slung across her body.

Lin Nan lay silently on the sofa, with his left hand hanging weakly by the sofa, and stared at the ceiling with his eyes open.Tired of watching, he put the back of his right hand on his eyes, and tears began to flow out of his eyes involuntarily.The back of the hand couldn't stop it, so it dripped down the cheeks and forearms.He cried without a sound at all.Maybe it's not crying, but the body is uncomfortable, and the physical tears don't work.

In the end, the nasal cavity was blocked, and he could only breathe heavily with his mouth wide open.He Shan woke up when she heard the noise, and knelt down in front of him and asked him, "What's the matter? Are you uncomfortable?"

He didn't dare to take his hands away, and still pressed his eyes tightly with the back of his hands, lying on his back without speaking.

"If you can't drink it, then don't drink it...the director and the others are really serious, why is everyone drinking it to death?" He Shan said as she walked to the lamp, "Let me turn off the lamp, do you find it dazzling?"

Lin Nan nodded vigorously, and the room immediately darkened.He Shan was not at all cramped, she sat back on the chair by the light of her mobile phone, listened to Lin Nan's exhalation for a while, and explained aloud: "Don't breathe too fast. It's like this when you're drunk. It seems that there will be hypoxia due to alcohol, so people will take deep breaths unconsciously, take your time, and you will feel better after an hour or so."

Seeing that Lin Nan didn't speak, she also fell into silence. After watching for a while, she began to nod like a chicken pecking at rice again.Lin Nan wiped his tears with his sleeve in the dark, then cleared his throat, and called He Shan in a hoarse voice.

"Ah?" He Shan suddenly raised her head.

"Go back, I'm fine."

"How can I leave at this time? There will be no work tomorrow, so I'll stay and take care of you."

"No need, I can take care of myself."

But He Shan was extremely determined: "No, I have to stay and take care of you. Besides, it's almost dawn, and now you don't feel at ease if I go alone? Just let me stay."

Lin Nan couldn't resist her, so he sat up from the sofa and let her go to sleep in the room, where he made do for the night.

Unexpectedly, He Shan still disagreed, "How can there be any reason for an assistant to sleep in a star's bedroom? You just follow my instructions and don't worry about it." Although she is young, Lin Nan has no choice but to be persistent.

The two stayed like this for a while, when dawn broke, He Shan went to the kitchen to cook a pot of white porridge in the rice cooker, and did not put Lin Nan in the bedroom until he stopped vomiting, and then left by herself.

After this night, Lin Nan and Qi Yubai had no contact for nearly a month.

It is not accurate to say no contact.Lin Nan tried to send a text message to Qi Yubai, but of course, nothing came of it. He made a phone call, but no one answered.It was as if he had been thrown on a deserted island without Qi Yubai. It was futile to send out a distress signal, and there was no other way but to wait where he was.

Only then did Lin Nan realize how tolerant Qi Yubai was before.No matter how many times he has said "don't contact me" and "don't look for me" in the past, Lin Nan can still find him easily.Send an innocuous text message, make a phone call without a purpose, and always get a reply, no matter how poor an excuse is, that person is willing to accept it. Beneath the superficial indifference is great tolerance.But now there is no clear statement, and there is no word goodbye, everything came to an abrupt end.

He wanted to explain to Qi Yubai very much, and he also wanted to ask clearly what it meant to be "I am not the one who accepts your wishes", but relying on his own strength alone, he could never find Qi Yubai again.Zhang Hong is still willing to answer his calls, and the reply is always "Boss Qi is busy".Lin Nan panicked more and more day by day. He regretted the truth that he said casually that day, and only wanted God to give him another chance to turn the pointer of time back to before the nonsense.

He had no choice but to pretend to continue his previous life as usual.

The front of the community is still the same, and it is very congested when it is off work time.Lin Nan finally made a trip today, planning to walk to a supermarket more than 1 kilometer away to buy some vegetables and make a simple dinner for himself.

Today, there was a small sandstorm in the urban area. It was not suitable to go out, but after thinking about it, Lin Nan decided to go for a walk. Everyone at home would be moldy.He took a canvas bag and mobile phone, and walked familiarly to the main road next to the subway station, only to see that it was very cloudy outside, and the loess-like color covered the sky above his head like a filter, making people breathless for no reason angry.

There were not many people in the supermarket, probably few people chose to go out to buy vegetables in this bad weather like him.The vegetables on the shelves were not very fresh, as if they had been picked out early, and the damaged leaves were scattered in the plastic box, making people have no desire to choose.

Lin Nan is always very good at eating alone, he just picked some easy-to-keep items and wanted to leave.On the way to the cash register, there are promoters of frozen food companies cooking pasta, dumplings and glutinous rice balls on the spot.

"Hello, do you want to try this dumpling?" The salesman in a food company suit with a smile on his face reached out from behind the induction cooker to stop him, and handed him a small paper cup filled with half a dumpling.

"No, thank you." Lin Nan looked at the things in her hand and declined embarrassedly.

Probably because no one really accepted her promotion, the salesman still didn't give up his efforts: "Try it, our brand of dumplings is very good, and it sells very well abroad."

Lin Nan paused, and felt as if his heart had been pricked by a very thin needle.He turned his head stiffly, took the paper cup in her hand, and picked up a toothpick to try this ordinary quick-frozen dumpling. It didn't taste very good, it smelled like corn.

"Is this really selling well abroad?"

The salesman was taken aback for a moment, obviously he didn't expect him to focus on this question.Hastily said: "Yes! It has been sold to many countries."

Lin Nan remembered that Qi Yubai once said that he only ate quick-frozen dumplings when he was studying abroad.I don't know if it's this brand or if it's this flavor.The needle in Lin Nan's heart had just been taken out, and it was stabbed lightly and accurately towards the side.

"Give me a bag." Lin Nan said, "The best-selling flavor."

After buying all the things, Lin Nan settled the bill and walked back to the main road.The bag in his hand was a bit heavy, and one shoulder sank when he was carrying it, which seemed a bit strenuous.In fact, Lin Nan is fine with this weight, but he is in a low mood and can't get excited about doing anything, even lifting things.

After walking for a while, Lin Nan stopped and pulled the mask to prevent the dust in the air from running in through the gap.

With just one movement, his eyes suddenly saw a car in front of him, and then he couldn't move anymore.Parking was originally not allowed on both sides of this road, but the location is remote, and surveillance is sometimes absent, and illegal parking has become a common occurrence.

A luxury car is parked under the poplar tree on the side of the road. It is not a style that can be seen in such an ordinary neighborhood. The gold-plated goddess of celebration on the front of the car is not low-key in the days when the sky is full of yellow sand.Lin Nan recognized it, so he couldn't move his feet.But his memory is not good enough, and he doesn't remember whether Qi Yubai's car has this license plate number.

He hesitated for a few seconds, and finally walked forward, stood in the front of the car and took a look.

There was no one in the car, no decorations, and the rest could not be seen clearly.Daylight is an absolute luxury on days like these where the sky grows darker every moment than the last.Lin Nan thought for a while, but in the end he couldn't bear to give up this little possibility, so he went to stand under the locust tree and waited.

He had thought about it, this is not a special parking space, the owner of the car should come back soon, and it is such an expensive car, no matter how you think about it, it doesn't belong to this community.Just stand here and wait, even if it's not Qi Yubai, it doesn't matter, anyway, my home is not far away.

Standing and standing, he forgot that he was out to buy vegetables and cook, and he also forgot about being hungry.The ground was dirty, and the canvas bag in his hand kept falling down, causing the skin of his fingers to turn red, so he could only change his left hand for his right hand, and his right hand for his left hand.The weather was cold. When Lin Nan came out, he didn't expect to stay outside for so long. After standing for a while, the tips of his ears turned red from the cold.

Tired of standing, he walked back and forth next to the car body a few times to exercise his hands and feet.Until it was completely dark, the owner of the car did not show up.Lin Nan was a little discouraged, leaned against the tree trunk and closed his eyes.

In fact, it was impulsive for him to stay and wait, and he didn't even think about what to say for a while.To Qi Yubai, is he now like chewing gum that has been chewed but accidentally sticks to his body, and he wants to get rid of it but is afraid of dirtying his hands.But at least he had to figure out whether things were as he thought, otherwise he couldn't even leave willingly.

The sound of a series of leather shoes stepping on the ground came from far and near.Lin Nan opened his eyes suddenly, straightened up anxiously in the darkness, and looked in the direction of the voice.

It's a pity that the person who came was not Qi Yubai.A man who looked to be in his 40s was walking towards him while on the phone. When he came to him, he gave him a questioning look and stopped.

Lin Nan panicked: "Hello."

The visitor looked at him in a puzzled way, but he politely replied hello, and then said, "Can I trouble you to move to the side, I have to open the door."

Only then did Lin Nan realize that he was standing next to the car door, and hurriedly took two steps back, embarrassingly apologizing to the car owner.The other party didn't say anything, started the car and left him.

Hopes were once again dashed, disappointing and feeling like they really were.In this relationship, Lin Nan has always been passive, but he is still unwilling to give up this little possibility.At first, he still held his breath, but now that the car drove away, Lin Nan had no strength.He squatted down against the tree, and put the canvas bag in his hand on the ground beside him, regardless of whether it was dirty or not.

In the dialogue interface with Qi Yubai in the text message, you can only see the content sent by Lin Nan. If you want to see Qi Yubai's reply, you have to swipe up.Lin Nan turned the conversation to a day a month ago. When he was boredly waiting for Qi Yubai to get off work in Carlton's room, he once received a message from Qi Yubai.

"You order something to eat first, don't wait for me."

Lin Nan just stared at the line of words on the screen, his legs were so sore that he couldn't even take a step.People passing by occasionally looked at him strangely, but he turned a blind eye.He endured and endured, he couldn't bear it anymore, and dialed the familiar number again.

It's a pity that this time there is no waiting sound, and this number has become "temporarily unavailable".