lark

When Qi Yubai came out of the house, he was almost in a bad mood.

He drove the car out of the courtyard of the old house, and walked to the side of the road after walking only a few hundred meters.Before he finished smoking a cigarette, the cold wind had already penetrated through his suit jacket.

He returned to the car and wanted to start the car directly, but then remembered that he had promised Lin Nan that he would look for him at night.Thinking of this name, Qi Yubai paused for a moment the depression that had been accumulating in his heart.Lin Nan is docile and obedient, like warm water, without any aggressiveness, and hardly makes himself really unhappy.

Qi Yubai called Lin Nan and planned to set off to pick him up now.Lin Nan's voice on the phone seemed to be drunk, more pleasant than ever.Hearing that Qi Yubai was going to pick him up, there was a hint of joy in his voice, and he said softly, "Then I'll wait for you."

Qi Yubai didn't tell anyone, and occasionally he would reminisce about the time he spent with Lin Nan.He kissed Lin Nan's neck on the bed, and Lin Nan reflected pink from the bottom of his skin as if he couldn't stand it.When they separated for a while, Lin Nan couldn't help but make up various reasons to call him, making insinuations and wanting to meet him.He had an intuition that Lin Nan needed him very much, from the bottom of his heart.This made Qi Yubai feel good. He liked the feeling of being needed, which was very different and comfortable.

He doesn't have any mental burden when he is with Lin Nan, and he doesn't worry about being calculated. After all, the other party's scheming is very clumsy and cannot escape his eyes.What's more, Lin Nan doesn't have sharp teeth, nor can he say any barbed words, just like those heard in the old house.He felt that he was very safe, and he could safely hold Lin Nan in his arms, relaxing both physically and mentally.This is a kind of emotional catharsis, and he gradually has a feeling of dependence.

There is nothing wrong with raising Lin Nan all the time like this, Qi Yubai had imagined that.He still has some capital, and he can give Lin Nan a lot, such as TV series, movies, houses, and money. He just waits for Lin Nan to speak.

He didn't think about deeper things, because there was no need to think about them.Just like what his father said, when Bai Shaoyin was alive, he only loved her, but when he died, he became afraid of her.Because he had lost forever the opportunity to explain to his own mother that there was no way for him to tell her that a man loves a man the same way a man loves a woman, that there is nothing shameful or dirty about it.In the same way, he will never be able to get his mother's understanding again. Whoever he loves and spends his life with will not be blessed at all.

His father predicted it very accurately. When he was sleeping in Bohai, he had the same dream repeatedly, dreaming of the last time he and his mother were together.He was standing in the living room, with his arms around the waist of a beautiful boy, their lips were tightly pressed together, while Bai Shaoyin was standing at the door, his face was as white as a ghost, and the food box in his hand hit the ground with a groaning sound. A loud bang woke up the nightmare.

"Son, what do you like, why does no one like it?" Bai Shaoyin asked him this question several times.In her heart, it is unbelievable that her outstanding son is still single in his thirties.

At this time, Qi Yubai would always perfunctory her: "What's so good about getting married."

"What's wrong?" Bai Shaoyin retorted with a smile: "Look at your mother, marrying your father will lead a happy life, and giving birth to you will make you even happier. People have to get married and start their own family. To be complete, how old do you have to be to play before it is considered enough?"

She herself is happily married, and she thinks that marriage is the best solution in life, and she naturally hopes that her son will have a happy family like his parents.Little did he know that his son had already made up his mind not to marry for the rest of his life, let alone have any children, but he just dragged her and didn't know how to speak to her.

Thinking of these, Qi Yubai's head would instinctively ache.Annoyed, he stopped himself from recalling any further, and drove straight to the hotel where the crew was located.When he was about to arrive, he called Lin Nan again, who was very drunk and complained why he hadn't arrived yet.Hearing Lin Nan's slurred words, he roared without suppressing his temper.

In fact, he didn't want to get angry on purpose, he just couldn't help venting his discomfort on Lin Nan, and Lin Nan would be fine if he was sure.

After Lin Nan was drunk, his temper was not as docile as usual, and he even choked with him.Qi Yubai restrained himself from yelling at him, and stepped on the gas pedal even deeper after hanging up the phone.

He didn't want to see Lin Nan in Bohai tonight, and it was inconvenient for Lin Nan to take the nanny car to Carlton by himself, so he had to drive to pick him up by himself.

Fortunately, when we arrived at the hotel, the crew had almost dispersed, the protagonists had all left, the director and producer had already been taken away, so the security guards were also evacuated.Qi Yubai thought at first that Lin Nan would be waiting for him sitting on a chair in the corner, but he searched around the hall but did not see a familiar figure.He thought for a while, turned aside and dialed Lin Nan's number.

The phone rang a few times and no one answered. Qi Yubai was holding the phone and thinking about the next step, when the security door two meters away was suddenly pulled open forcefully, attracting his attention.

There should be a stairwell on the other side of the door. A handsome young man who looked familiar came out of it. When he saw Qi Yubai, he paused and turned his face away strangely, as if he was afraid of being recognized.Qi Yubai had some impressions of him, and vaguely remembered that he was a star.

The beeping on the phone continued, he frowned, and was about to turn around and leave when Lin Nan's words "I'll go to the stairs and tell you" suddenly flashed in his mind.

He stopped on his feet for two seconds, then turned around and walked quickly into the stairwell.

It was so dark in the passage, I don't know who turned off the lights.Qi Yubai stood by the door and borrowed the light from outside to find the switch, flicked on the light, and then saw a thin back sitting on the stairs.

"What are you doing here?" Qi Yubai asked.

Lin Nan turned around when he heard the voice, his eyes were full of drunkenness and confusion, and his blushing face was a little more beautiful than usual.

Qi Yubai took two steps closer, and found that Lin Nan was smiling at him. The smile was obviously the same as before, but it seemed to come from the heart, and the voice was softer than before, even nasal. "Where did you go just now? Why did you throw me here..."

Qi Yubai frowned and walked over, stood at the top of the two flights of stairs looking down at him, and asked in a deep voice, "Why are you sitting on the ground?"

Lin Nan stood up half-understood when he heard the words, and stared at him with a bit of grievance in his watery eyes, "Didn't you sit down just now?"

"What are you talking about?" Qi Yubai went down two steps and stood beside Lin Nan.

Lin Nan suddenly raised his arms around his neck, looked up at him, and felt that there was no part of the facial features of the man in front of him that he loved deeply.His eyes were full of love and affection, his eyelashes trembled a few times, and he said softly: "Shall we continue..."

"Continue what?"

"Continue like this..."

After being drunk, Lin Nan seemed to have gained a lot of strength. Qi Yubai was surrounded by Lin Nan's arm, and his waist was pressed against the armrest.The breath exhaled from Lin Nan's lungs sprayed gently on Qi Yubai's face, and the alcohol content was not low.Two petals of soft lips pressed against his lips tremblingly. Although they were tightly closed and did not exceed the limit, the kiss was full of affection.Qi Yubai was still for a moment, feeling that Lin Nan shuddered all over, shaking his body slightly like an electric shock, and then slowly relaxed, turning his head slightly, and kissing his lips a little harder.

Soon Qi Yubai came to his senses. Looking down at Lin Nan's obsessed expression, he instinctively reached out and pushed Lin Nan away heavily. Lin Nan's back hit the wall all at once.

"what--"

Lin Nan touched the back of his head gently, and cried out in pain.

Qi Yubai leaned on the armrest and looked at Lin Nan with cold eyes, straightened his clothes that were wrinkled by Lin Nan, and whispered: "Lin Nan, are you crazy?"

"You..." Lin Nan seemed to wake up a little bit from his drunkenness, looked at Qi Yubai in surprise, his water-shearing eyes showed a wounded look, "You...you just... didn't you just accept..."

"Accept what?" Qi Yubai frowned deeply, staring at Lin Nan with dark eyes.

"Accept my heart..."

Qi Yubai shook violently, every muscle in his body was tense, the dull pain in his head reappeared, he turned around and was about to leave here.

Lin Nan became anxious, grabbed Qi Yubai's hand tightly from behind, and shook it twice as if begging, "Really...you accept it, really..."

Qi Yubai stopped in his tracks and said without turning his head, "It's not me who accepts your wishes."

"Huh?" This sentence is beyond Lin Nan's ability to understand at the moment. He has been frozen in the stairwell for so long, and he is supported by the heat in his body after drinking.He didn't understand what Qi Yubai was talking about, but his body felt more and more cold, and he couldn't help shivering heavily, "It's so cold here..." He said, "Let's go, you take me away... ..."

He stretched out his hand to pull Qi Yubai's sleeve, but was avoided without a trace.

Qi Yubai turned his head, the hurt look in his eyes was hidden deeply, his back was straight, but his words were a little slumped.

"You were with me before, and those appearances were all pretended?"

"I..." Lin Nan looked up at Qi Yubai under the backlight in a daze. His dark face and frighteningly cold eyes made him feel scared, "I didn't..."

When Qi Yubai heard these three words, he paused and asked, "Then tell me, who am I?"

Lin Nan was stared at by him, his whole body was chilling, his stomach throbbed, and the feeling of nausea rushed from his body to his throat.He took two deep breaths, suppressing the nausea temporarily, moved his lips, and was about to speak, but heard: "Forget it."

Qi Yubai walked up the steps without looking back, and quickly opened the door to leave.

Walking to the parking lot, there were not many cars left, and Rolls Royce was very conspicuous.Qi Yubai opened the door and got into the car. When he was wearing his seat belt, he turned his head and caught a glimpse of the scarf on the passenger seat.He drove half a circle in the parking lot, found a trash can, got out of the car and threw the scarf into it.