What is the experience of wearing in Gouxue Wen?

After opening this mouth, the following things will not be so difficult to say.

"The time when Chen An was born coincided with the rising period of the company. Lu Qi, you also know that there were many things to do when the company expanded. At that time, I was devoted to my career, and I left all the family affairs to her and the nanny. "Shen Mao smiled wryly: "Chen'an is our second child. She also had a bad mood for a period of time when she just gave birth to Yuanhang. It may be more than a month, or how long, and she will recover within three months at most. Came here. Her mother passed away during this period, and I thought it would be normal for her to recover a little slower without her mother's company, but it ended up delaying the initial period of time."

Shen Mao paused for a while before re-speaking: "Depression is probably like this. It doesn't show up in the early stage, and the patients themselves and the people around them may not be able to discover it in time. It will be too late when it is discovered. Chen'an was born probably About half a year later, I found out that something was wrong. I only found out when I asked the nanny. She either didn’t leave the room all day long, or stayed in Chen’an’s room all day. Something is clearly wrong."

Lu Qi recalled the information he had read, and the postpartum depression caused by endocrine would get better in about three months. This is indeed a bit strange for Madam Shen.He thought for a while and asked with uncertain words: "At that time, technology was not developed, and the disease of depression was described in China as something that one couldn't think about. It was a joke. So she died because she didn't receive appropriate treatment. ?"

Shen Mao nodded and shook his head again, and said: "Yes and no. At that time, the mainland didn't pay much attention to this disease, and there were few professional doctors, but the imperial capital, Hong Kong, Macau, and foreign countries still had treatment methods. I took her to n At the same time, I asked someone to contact the hospitals in these places, as long as I can cure her, I am willing to try."

According to Shen Mao's description, Mrs. Shen in this period was far from committing suicide, so Lu Qi had a hunch that something happened later.

Sure enough, Shen Mao said painfully: "I contacted a doctor in the imperial capital. He said that her condition is not serious and can be treated. But, she refuses to be treated!" Shen Mao said in a broken voice: "I beg her, She said that if we go to the imperial capital together, her illness will be cured, but she refuses to listen to anything! She said she is not ill, she doesn't believe me, and she won't let me take her anywhere, even when I enter She cried and threw something out of her room, saying that she didn’t want to see me, that I would harm her and her child.”

For a moment, he seemed to forget that he was facing Lu Qi, a junior, and said tearfully, "How could I harm her? I love her, and I love our children. They are the most important existence in my life..."

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After Lu Qi has lived these years, he can still tell whether Shen Mao is really affectionate or just pretending.But since Shen Mao loves Mrs. Shen, how could she become like this?

According to Shen Mao, Mrs. Shen was targeting him and not the child, that is to say, she did not blame Shen Chen'an, and Shen Chen'an was not the root cause of all this, so what else could be the cause of her illness.

"So did anything else happen during this period, Uncle Shen?"

"Since when did she not believe you, father?"

The two voices sounded almost simultaneously. Lu Qi was stunned for a moment, then looked back in disbelief, and found Shen Chen'an with red eyes and a bunny-like appearance standing at the door, and beside him was a helpless waiter.

Shen Mao's reaction was even bigger. He raised his head and saw Shen Chen'an, his whole body trembled, and he opened his mouth unconsciously. His lips were trembling for a long time and he didn't know what to say.

Shen Chen'an walked in as if he didn't notice the froze atmosphere in the room, pulled out the chair and sat next to Lu Qi, looked at Shen Mao who was opposite and said, "I want to hear about my mother, father Can you tell me?"

Lu Qi reacted first and asked, "Why are you here?"

"After you went out, I found that you didn't bring a computer with you, so I called Assistant Song and asked if he needed a computer for the 'urgent matter' he wanted you to go to the company, but he told me that he didn't give it to me. You call. I think you may be on business, so I called the store you often come to by accident." Shen Chenan laughed at himself and said, "Maybe it's because you and I have come more often. Just tell me here that you booked a private room for tonight, and the person who mentioned it was my father. They thought you were discussing some great event behind my back."

It is obviously inappropriate to discuss this matter as a family matter in the company, but there are many Shen family members, and Shen Yuanhang is also at home. Lu Qi chose the latter between coming directly to the door and asking Shen Mao to come out, but he did not expect to be exposed like this.He subconsciously explained, "I didn't mean to hide it from you."

"I know, so can we continue the topic just now? What happened to your mother that made her feel fear and disgust towards you, father."

Shen Chen'an is not stupid, since he knew that Lu Qi and Shen Mao came to this store, he knew what they were going to talk about. He hurried over and happened to be at the door when he heard Shen Mao say that his mother was arguing with him and that he didn't trust him. After hearing a few words, he couldn't bear it I couldn't help opening my mouth.

As for why Lu Qi kept it from him, he probably knew it in his heart, and if he really wanted to worry about it, he would have to wait until he got home.

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There was another depressive silence in the room. Having reached the conclusion that Mrs. Shen was not targeting Shen Chen'an, Lu Qi, who had initially completed his goal, restrained his aggressiveness, poured a glass of warm water for Shen Mao and said, "Uncle, think about it slowly." , it doesn’t matter if you can’t remember.”

Shanxing Shenmao might be really thirsty, he drank the cup of warm water in one gulp, warmed his hands with the cup, and said, "I don't know. Everything was the same as before at that time, she never saw a stranger No one came to see her, the nanny was with her at home when I was at work, and I was with her when I went to the hospital, I really don’t know why she changed overnight.”

What Lu Qi and Shen Chenan could think of, Shen Mao could naturally think of it too. When he found out that his wife was in a bad state, he carefully investigated what happened during that period of time, but found nothing in the end.Just like this, in an ordinary morning, she suddenly accused him hoarsely of wanting to hurt them, completely destroying the originally not peaceful life, and completely leading to an uncontrollable abyss.

Lu Qi wanted to say forget it, but Shen Chen'an asked abruptly: "What happened later? She committed suicide when I was two years old. What happened in the next year or so?"

Shen Mao met Shen Chen'an's eyes unexpectedly, dodged in embarrassment, and said hesitantly: "I was young and energetic at that time, and I didn't have much patience. I really couldn't bear the atmosphere at home, and I couldn't bear to have to be with her as soon as I got home. In the days of quarreling..."

Shen Chen'an added in a cold voice: "So you just leave her alone, right?"

Shen Mao closed his eyes, nodded his head dejectedly, buried his face in his hands, and said in a trembling voice: "I left all the family affairs to the nanny and the doctor I found, simply thinking that as long as I don't see her, she will be fine. Stimulated, she can get better. But, but she..."

She started to have suicidal tendencies, the wrist cutting that Liu Ju encountered was just one of them, she also tried other methods.This crazy behavior completely frightened Shen Mao, he could only ask people to find a doctor everywhere, and at the same time, he and the nanny took turns watching his wife.

But he couldn't follow her 24 hours a day. When he went to the company and the nanny put the two children to sleep, she simply took the medicine at home.

Shen Mao completely collapsed. He still dare not think back to the day he received the phone call and learned that his wife committed suicide at home and had been sent to the hospital for emergency treatment, and how he felt when he finally saw the dead body covered with a white cloth.

The sky is falling and that's all.

He, how could he choose to escape and leave her alone?

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The matter was more complete at this point, Shen Chenan offered to send his father to the car, and Lu Qi stood beside his car and sorted out the whole thing.

Shen Chen'an's mother had a period of postpartum depression caused by endocrine after giving birth to him. Because of lack of companionship or some other reasons, this disease, which could be cured in three months, dragged on for half a year, and it became more and more serious. The degree of medical consultation must be requested.Shen Mao found a doctor, but she didn't know what happened. She suddenly didn't trust her husband, and refused to accept any treatment. His condition almost deteriorated rapidly. At this time, he was no longer just suffering from postpartum depression.

The constant quarrels and conflicts consumed the love between them and Shen Mao's patience. He began to choose to escape, choosing to deceive himself into thinking that as long as he didn't see her, she would get better, and none of this happened again.

But she didn't recover, and became even more seriously ill. In the end, she chose to leave all of them in a decisive way, leaving a scar that could never be erased on the heart of Shen Mao, the one who hurt her.It also left eternal scars on the hearts of the two children she loved.

Shen Chenan sent Shen Mao to the car, and said abruptly before closing the door: "I have another question, do I look so similar to my mother, so similar that when you see me, you will think of her and bring back those memories of yours , so you don't like me, no matter what I don't like to see me?"

The four-year-old Shen Yuanhang doesn't have much discernment ability, this Shen Chen'an is totally understandable.But Shen Mao, who was already an adult at the time, would not know that his wife was not just postpartum depression after learning a lot of relevant knowledge?

Thinking of the way the two of them got along with each other before, Shen Chen'an suddenly had a guess.He wants to get close to himself and compromise with himself because he is the child left by his late wife, the one who is most like her; he doesn't want to see himself because his existence will always remind him of what he did back then.

Time beautifies memory, and only sweet memories with his wife are left in Shen Mao's mind. Only when he sees Shen Chen'an, the direct contact, will that unbearable memory come up clamoringly. Shen Chen'an is so inexplicable Became the switch of all negative emotions.

Looking at his father who was struck by lightning, Shen Chen'an showed a rather mocking smile, which was aimed at him as well as himself.He shook his head, took the initiative to help Shen Mao close the car door, and said, "Goodbye."

Whether he attributed his wife's death to himself, or he thought of his dead wife and his negligence when he saw himself, it didn't matter to Shen Chenan—he just suddenly felt that the self who stubbornly pursued his father's love before, Probably indistinguishable from being an idiot.

Shen Mao sat in the back seat, looked at Shen Chenan's back without looking back through the car glass, and watched him walk to another person's side without hesitation, and finally realized that the child had grown up and left.