A Thousand Mountains and Twilight Snow Continues A Thousand Paper Cranes One Thousand and 95 Days Fa

How about it, are you afraid? You think I dare not kill you, you think you know me very well, how much sincerity have you used for me in the past three years? As for the number of copies, you put five copies in Xiaoshan, and three copies with your parents and your uncle’s family, one for your good friends, and the remaining one for yourself. And me, where is my place?There is a tiny bit of space in your heart, even if it’s just a corner, it belongs to my private territory, trespassers, killing without mercy, even Xiaoshan has never had a private space, is there such a place for me Reserved, no, right?

I have been fighting for three years, and only now have I realized that I have not even won such a corner of the site. If you hadn't been careless towards me, you should have known my intentions long ago. In fact, my patience with you has long been exhausted. It’s not that I’m soft-hearted and can’t do anything, I just want to slowly persecute and torture you. In fact, I have long since lost interest in you. The reason why I don’t let you go is that I hate you for always hanging on to my father’s catchphrase. On the lips, why do you always mention it? It always reminds me of my father, reminds me of the things I have not done, makes me wander between love and hate, and even makes me become It's all your fault, I won't let you go. You are really annoying. I wanted to let you go, but you Those who don't know what's good and bad will force me, that's fine, let's end it today, we will die together, and it will be over once and for all.

And I really did that, pinching her neck tightly without any intention of relaxing, my mind was blank, but my heart was as numb as dead ashes, so numb that I could no longer feel the pain, no longer It hurts, it seems to be let go, but why the eyes are blocked by a wet and hazy mist, can't you see?But the heart can see, hear, and feel very clearly. It is a howling like a small animal whimpering, just like the howling of a scarred wolf facing the loss of his partner, a kind of sad sound. Howling, I was frightened by myself like this, and suddenly thought of her evaluation of me that I was a beast and a devil, and I couldn't help asking myself, am I?Is it a beast?If I were, I must be a wounded beast. I feel like a wolf with bruises all the way to escort my favorite partner home. Now that the task is completed, it is time to bid farewell. It turns out that I still don’t have myself after all. As strong as I thought, I still shed tears in the end, just like the tearful tear full of infinite remorse and love shed by the demonized King Lanling whose conscience was finally exchanged for his wife's blood. Under the remorse, such a majestic Lanling King's Entrance Song was born. I really want to give up my all, even if I have to pay the price of my life in exchange for the eternity of that moment, I am willing.

How far is eternity and how many days eternity is, no one knows. If 95 days represent eternity, then my love and regret for her will be one day longer than eternity, one day longer than eternity.But there is still no fairy-tale miracle in this world. After all, the wife of King Lanling did not come back to life because of the tear of regret dripping on the mask. Just like my love with her is based on remorse and hatred. In the end, I still can't understand the blessings of the world, and can only exist silently in a dark corner. Hey, I can't help but let out a long sigh from the bottom of my heart. Hatred and regret are actually a double-edged sword. It hurts too, I was too extreme back then, I shouldn't have involved her, she is innocent, but that innocent and pure smile left a deep imprint on my heart, let I can't help but fall like that without warning, what kind of out-of-control emotion is that, it's amazing to be at a loss and at the same time want to escape, especially after knowing her identity, I want to use all my senses Close, don't look, don't listen, don't feel the love that has been disturbing my heart because of her, and force myself to put on the mask of cold and disguised revenge, in front of her, just like what she said is a debt collector A cold-blooded and ruthless animal devil, yes, pretend, keep pretending, as long as I make her feel that I hate her, then I find her, don't let her go, let her hate me for the rest of my life, my goal will be achieved, no, this It's not enough, it's not enough to make her hate me and make her feel that I hate her, I have to torture her, tortured to the point where life is worse than death, I don't know why, tortured to the point where she would rather die, thinking that death can When I leave me, at the moment she dies, I will smile and slowly tell her the truth in her ear, so that she will be tortured even when she is dying, yes, that's it, revenge on someone , the highest level of revenge is not hatred, not death, but torture, making her desperate for survival but nowhere to die.

Keeping her by my side these years, I've always thought so, and I've always done this, but now, why can't I stand up with a guilty conscience, is it true that I still can't do what she said?Thinking of this, I couldn't help getting angry, and I deliberately strengthened my hand, but I saw her stubbornly enduring her grief, and finally even closed her eyes and waited for her death. Facing her face of complete despair, again There is no anger in the past, but there is only a tenacity that would rather die than bend, rather than bend, the kind of tenacity that I hate the most, and I just pinch her like this, send her a ride with my own hands, and watch her die, I think I am It can be done, as long as you are more ruthless and decisive, but the beating heart in this chest is against me, and at this moment, it is clamoring for me to hear the true voice in my heart, making me want to ignore There is no way to pretend to be stupid, to deceive oneself and others, at this last moment, I heard my heart clearly, Tong Xue, you are the only one I don't regret, I don't regret falling in love with you, that's all, since I can't do it , then I can only let go, or she is destined not to be my woman, let go of my hand weakly and slightly terrified, and saw her open her mouth and breathe greedily as if desperately at the moment I let go of it. The fresh air, as if the long-drought land has finally been nourished by rain and reborn.Yes, she seemed to be reborn at this time. This kind of result, no matter it is the best for me or her, we have died once, one life for one life, this deal, we It's cleared up and no one else, yes, no more debts, we're done.

I suddenly looked up to the sky and sighed, I wanted to cry and laugh at the same time, mother, you are wrong, you can’t love if you want to, because you can’t force your feelings, so you can’t love, and it’s impossible to love again in this life, it’s impossible to love again If you are happy, then just don’t want it all, clean it up thoroughly, be angry like crazy, use up the last bit of strength in your body, drive her out of my heart completely, and swear that you will never want to see her again She, but in fact, I also understand that after a few days, she will revert to her old ways. She can't control herself from hiding in the dark and peeping secretly. She has never known how painful it is to love someone. , can't get it but can't forget it, can't keep it but can't bear it, how can there be such a person in this world, just like Eileen Chang described: "I want you to know that there is always such a person in this world No regrets are waiting for you, no matter where you are, no matter when, anyway, you know there is always such a person, and the moment this person really appears in your life, you will find someone else It has become a general, even if you are destined not to have it in this life, it will take a whole life to let go and forget it!"

And I am a person who is not willing to give up, so I still have a glimmer of hope, and I walked to the window and overlooked the gate silently with tears in my eyes. I didn't know how to put my hanging heart, as if I was expecting something and thinking about it. To escape, with trepidation and apprehension, waiting for God to pronounce our ending, yes, I leave everything to God, but maybe God rests today and didn’t hear my appeal, anyway, the last thing I want to see The scene I arrived at still appeared. In such a quiet and dazzling night under the background of the moonlight, she was a little embarrassed and resolutely insisted on running out of the gate without a trace of nostalgia. It appeared so clearly in my field of vision. , imprinted on my heart.It wasn't until this moment that I finally let out a long breath that had been suppressed in my heart for a long time. With the breath out, I suddenly felt powerless as if the last breath in my body had been sucked out, and I collapsed into a sitting position in complete collapse. On the floor, my mind went blank, and my heart seemed to be hollowed out. Seeing her so resolute and decisive, I seemed to have nothing else to do for her except to offer her blessings from my heart.

Looking at the empty room with tears in my eyes, without her, I suddenly feel that the whole room has no warmth, no vitality, no human touch, home is no longer home, without her smell, it is equivalent to losing the feeling of home Breath, in my eyes, it is just a room, even though she has never regarded it as her home, but I am willing to wait, I am willing to reserve this place for her, waiting for her, maybe one day, she will be willing to treat this place as her home. Her home, treats me as her family, really walks into my world and integrates with me, and becomes the real owner of this place. I don't know what she means to me until I really lose her. I connected her with my life, but I was too stubborn, and it was too late to realize the epiphany. Let go today, it will be forever. I hope that the reunion at the next corner can have a brand new start. The past will leave traces, all love will leave miracles, I can still look forward, I can imagine, I can wait, at least after tonight I am no longer a passerby without leaving traces in her heart, but A sinner full of sins, she will remember me in her heart, the time is a lifetime, and the reason is because of hatred.