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Dance, beautiful and happy.

This reminds me of 15 years ago, the day when I attended the wedding for the first time when I was young, I didn’t understand the meaning of kissing between adults. Ji Wanli told me that if I like it, I will kiss, so I don’t doubt that there is a kiss from him. he.

Because I like him.

But now he doesn't believe that I like him, I love him.

Out of bounds

It's ridiculous, when he loves me, I don't care, when he doesn't want to love me like before because of my cowardice, I feel sad for him to the point of heartbreak, wanting to redeem everything I lost unconsciously.

"Did I kiss you when I was four years old?" I asked Ji Wanli while other guests surrounded the bride and groom to throw bouquets outside the church.Ji Wanli inspected the church, and then looked outside the church vigilantly, making sure that he and I were the only ones in the church and no one was paying attention to us, so he nodded.

"Ah."

"What was your mood at that time?"

"I didn't expect you to remember this now." He answered irrelevantly.

I feel like he doesn't want to mention it, but now my attitude towards him has become very strange, the more he doesn't want to mention it, the more I want to mention it.I always feel that he is hiding something from me behind what he doesn't want to mention, for example, he found a new love soon after breaking up with me, and I have to get to the bottom of it.

"Of course I remember! How can I not remember what I did. How did you feel when you were kissed suddenly? That was our first kiss?"

"I'm not in the mood." I said perfunctorily, Ji Wanli's cell phone rang, and I went over to see that it was Qin Mo's call. I was worried about whether he would answer the phone, so I pestered him and hugged him, standing on tiptoe. to kiss him.

"I want to kiss my brother again, to commemorate that I haven't forgotten this."

I want to know whether Ji Wanli thinks it's more important for me to kiss him or answer Qin Mo's phone call. I think I'm more important in his heart, but I didn't expect him to avoid my kiss directly: "Don't mess around."

He refused me to kiss him...

For Ji Wanli, answering Qin Mo's call is more important, isn't it?

I was stunned for a moment, and I decided to kiss him in a rebellious mentality.

"There's no one in the church right now! Don't worry," I begged Ji Wanli to kiss him desperately, "No one will find out..."

"Summer showers."

Ji Wanli's fingertips brushed across his lips, blocking my movements, and the slight warmth spread to my body touch. I heard his breathing, which was lighter than the breeze but pierced my heart heavily. He sternly yelled at me. "Don't cross the line."

"Late..." I really want to say that I regret it, I can't just watch him with others, can you share my courage and let me choose him.But he blocked him back, "We have already broken up, please take care of yourself."

Excusing the bride and groom that she had something to do, Ji Wanli left in a hurry on the phone, leaving me standing alone in the middle of the empty church. The stained glass on the domed ceiling gave off slight reflections, which made me feel dazed.

When the wedding was over, I held back my sadness to say goodbye to the bride and groom. When I took a taxi to the airport, I couldn't bear it anymore, shaking my head while holding my head.

So painful.

Why am I in such pain.

It's not the first time I've been rejected by Ji Wanli. I never cared about his rejection of me before. Why do I care so much about his rejection and fear his rejection because I'm not important?

Why.

I asked myself, there is only one answer, I love him.

I love him more than I ever imagined.

But he no longer wants to love me recklessly and rebelliously like before. He admits that falling in love with me was a mistake. He has repeatedly emphasized that we are not related by blood. Love me with brotherly affection.

Never cross the line again.

I discovered this relationship too late, Ji Wanli and I couldn't go back to the past, we missed it before I realized it.

I walked to the airport, clutching my throbbing chest, facing the fans who had been waiting for a long time and flashing lights, I suddenly flinched and wanted to run away, I told myself I couldn’t run, but I was in so much pain, I didn’t want to go back to the company, I didn’t want to go back to the group in Beijing Dorm, I don't want to go home, I don't want to see Ji Wanli again.

I don't want to continue to feel sad because of him.

My heart really hurts.

Amidst the staring and shattering pain of the crowd that seemed to be flaying and swallowing me, I eventually ran away without looking back.

I asked Fang Qubing if he could give me a vacation, but he refused on the grounds that Ji Wanli and I would debut soon.But I really didn't want to face Ji Wanli who no longer loved me like before, so I had to call Ji Xinyan.

"Mom... I'm so tired recently."

"Too much work?" She worried: "Do you want to go home and rest?"

"Yes. I really want to rest, but my manager won't let me."

"It's normal for your manager not to let you rest, and he has no right to decide your itinerary. How about this, I'll tell your team producer directly to ask you to change his itinerary, and you can go home and rest now."

"I want to go on a trip to relax first, and then go home to rest, is that okay?"

"Of course, as long as it's your request, mom can."

Ji Xinyan readily agreed, and at the same time resolved my request for a rest.

She is the major shareholder of the company, and her words are very intimidating. I relied on her relationship to successfully get a half-month vacation, and the plan for me and Ji Wanli to debut as a small team was canceled because of my long vacation. Cheng Ji Wanli's second solo album project.

The company specially issued a statement, immediately reposting the comments, Weibo squares were all my fans who scolded Fang Qubing, the most popular comment: Don't ask, if you ask, Fang Qubing died.The second hot comment: Fang Qubing can't survive the crab in my mouth.The third hot comment: Fang Qubing's jb hasn't exploded yet?

These vicious comments made me feel guilty to Fang Qubing. After I taught my fans a lesson in my heart, I silently apologized to Fang Qubing.

After receiving the notice that the holiday was confirmed, I disguised myself and sat in a KFC near the airport for ten hours looking for a tourist attraction. Ji Wanli's love is completely forgotten to travel and relax.

When the clock ticked around midnight, I decided on my destination. I took out the SIM card and threw it away, uninstalled all the social apps, and bought a one-way ticket to Chongqing as if I was an orphan that no one would care about.

As soon as I got on the plane, I couldn't hold back my eyes.

Thinking that I sat in KFC until the ten-hour evening ceremony when I drew my mobile phone card, I didn't call me. My eyes were blurred, and the city lights outside the plane window gradually turned into ghosts. The flight attendant wished me a happy journey.

I smiled at her tiredly, tears streaming down my face.

How to do.

I am not happy, I am not happy.

As long as I think that Ji Wanli will not love me like before, I feel like the rain that has lost the ability to be happy, falling and feeling sad.

After arriving in Chongqing, I tried my best to get Ji Wanli out of my mind, to let myself go completely, enjoy the holiday happily, and forget about the unhappy ones.

But Ji Wanli's voice, Ji Wanli's face, everything about Ji Wanli always appeared in my mind intentionally or unintentionally.When I go to Hongyadong, I can remember that he and I took the Pirates of the Caribbean ship. When I go to People’s Square, I can think of us holding hands in the park in Los Angeles. When I go to take the light rail, I can think of him letting me sleep on his shoulder when I go to the convenience store. The sweetness of going to the supermarket arm in arm to buy vegetables and cook...you can think of him everywhere you go.

And at night, I will think of the feeling of being held in his arms, tossing and turning until dawn.I thought not seeing him would make me feel better about him being with someone else, but it turned out to be cruel.Not only did I not feel better, it got worse and I was tortured every day and every night.

While being tormented, it also made me realize——

I love Ji Wanli so much, I love him so much that I can't tolerate half a thorn in my heart, I love him so much that I can't accept him being with someone else no matter what.

Loved enough to think he could only be with me.

But I can't be with him. He and I are brothers. Although we are not related by blood, Ji Xinyan hopes that we can be brothers. Fans and fans want to see the deep brotherhood of the members of the national idol.

Nobody wants orthopedics.

And I don't have the courage to abandon everything just to be with him.

So I understand that if I don't have the courage to be with him, I can't interfere with him being with others. Even if my heart hurts to the extreme, even if I am sad to death, I must watch him be with others.

After spending ten days exploring Chongqing, I went home to rest.

Ji Xinyan's belly is much more obvious than last month. She said that she is six months pregnant, and my younger brother will be born around my birthday. I am very emotional and curious about the existence of small lives, and I can't help but touch it and talk to it Whisper.Ji Xinyan likes the interaction between me and my younger brother who don't meet each other very much. Whenever I touch her belly, she will smile softly.

April NO.15, I feel that I have adjusted my mentality towards Ji Wanli and his new love, and I can return to work to face him, so I reinstalled my phone card and social software, and wanted to give Fang If you get sick, send me an announcement so that you won't be scolded by my fans.

The moment the five-bar signal came out and filled up, hundreds of messages and caller IDs flooded my sight, most of which were sent by Ji Wanli.

He still cares about me.

Thinking of me texting him back.

Xiao Yu: I went on a trip before, but now I am at home.

I am God: which home

Xiaoyu: our home

Before the sun went down, he hurried home.

Seeing me watching TV and eating melon seeds, he hugged me in front of Ji Xinyan. I missed his warmth and embrace, but because Ji Xinyan and him have a new partner, I still pretended to be cold and pushed him away. Kai, "I haven't seen you for a few days, why are you so excited?"

"I have something to ask you."

"Well, you ask."

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