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If you choose him, you will feel unhappy about breaking up with him and will mind for a long time.

"...So you went to find a new relationship because I chose to have Mom and Dad instead of being with you? Do you mind that I didn't choose you? Are you very angry with me?"

I have mixed feelings in my heart. I want to say that he can tell me what is in his heart without suppressing his feelings. Don’t face it alone, don’t go to be with others without saying anything, and don’t make yourself uncomfortable. It makes me feel uncomfortable for not being able to figure out his heart, and I will face it with him.

As long as he is willing to tell me, I will face it with him.

"If you really mind, just tell me, I..."

He gave me a cold look and interrupted: "I don't have a new love."

"If you don't have a new love, then what are you and Qin Mo!"

"A piece of cake."

"It's nothing if you put people to sleep?"

"Do you trust me or him?"

"I believe you, otherwise why would I ask you what is the relationship with him? If I believe him, I will just get out of your room, so as not to be sentimental. You just say that he told me that you often sleep with him or does he move by himself? not real?"

"I have nothing to tell you."

"You just say whether what he said is true or false, just one word."

"Summer showers."

Seeing that Ji Wanli didn't want to tell me clearly about Qin Mo, I couldn't help but lose my temper and yell at him, "Don't call me by my name now! Tell me clearly! How can I choose you if you keep silent like this? If you don't want to break up with me and want me to choose you, just tell me! You don't tell me to let me know what you are thinking, how do you want me to choose you?!"

After yelling, I realized my impulse, trembling, cowardly, and gently buried my head into Ji Wanli's chest.

"You always don't tell me anything like this, you always hide things silently and don't want to tell me, it's really sad. I want to know what you did to him, I want to know what you are thinking, don't Keep it from me, okay?"

"What's the point of telling you?" After a pause, Ji Wanli asked me back, "Could it be that you would choose me when I said I wanted you to choose me? You wouldn't break up with me? You would be like what you said when you were a child." So stay with me forever?"

"I……"

I can't say I will.

Because I know that when I am with him, I need to face huge pressure from all aspects. That kind of pressure is not something that can be easily overcome. The fans who love me, have to abandon everything to choose to be with him.

There are too many risks and too much pressure, and it is difficult for me to face them regardless.

"You won't choose me, no matter how much I tell you, it's useless." My reaction obviously disappointed Ji Wanli, "I love you, but you don't love me."

"I love you!" I retorted forcefully.

Maybe it was not love before, but I absolutely love him now.

Even though I dare not take the risk of being with him in the name of a brother, even though I don't know when I started loving him, I love him.

I know.

——I also believe in this cognition in my heart.

Ji Wanli didn't believe it, he pushed me away coldly.

"If you really love me, you won't dare to be with me. If you don't love me."

"What should we do with our parents? I think it's wrong to worry about their feelings? I think it's wrong to have my own parents?" I just worry too much, I told Ji Wanli, it's not that I don't love him, " I dare not, I admit that I dare not, I am cowardly. But this does not mean that I do not love you!"

"You're right." Ji Wanli said calmly: "You're not wrong at all. I told you a long time ago that it was me who was wrong. I shouldn't love you."

Usually, when I speak louder to Ji Wanli, he will yell back ten times. Now I keep losing my temper at him, but he is so calm. The calmness makes me feel terrible. So calm, "...Don't say that, love can't be controlled."

"No, I admit I was wrong. I will love you with brotherly affection."

"My brother's feelings? Are you willing to treat me as your younger brother?" I opened my eyes wide in shock. Ji Wanli was still unwilling to break up with me during the tour, but now he took the initiative to look at my brother.It is said that the best way to get out of a broken relationship is to find a new love, explaining to him, "You are really with Qin Mo..."

"It's up to you who I'm with."

"Are you really together? Wait, didn't you just say that he was presumptuous when he said you were together? Did you just lie to me?"

"It was because he was self-righteous, and it was you who made trouble for no reason."

"I'm not making trouble for no reason. I just want to know if you have done anything to him! I didn't interfere with you being with him!"

"Xia Zhenyu, we broke up, you are my younger brother now."

"so what?"

"So, you are not qualified to ask so many questions."

Ji Wanli's indifference made my chest split open, piercing my bones.

I know we broke up, I'm his younger brother now, I shouldn't ask him so many emotional matters, but I really can't accept the fact that he will be with someone else.Just thinking about what he did to me would do to others, kissing, hugging, sleeping... I can hardly suffocate.

I can't just sit back and watch.

There is no way to die.

"As your younger brother, can I even care about your feelings?"

"Caring like jealous?" Ji Wanli narrowed his eyes.

"I didn't, no, no..."

Although I wanted to deny it, Ji Wanli was right, I was jealous.

The series of actions I have taken from just now are all because of jealousy.

In the past, I told Jiang Zhetian that I didn't understand the feeling of being jealous, and even gave him dog food to make him jealous. Now that I think about it, I am really sorry for him.

After experiencing it, I understand that jealousy is an extremely uncomfortable thing. I can't stand it for a minute. I wish I could immediately snatch Ji Wanli back from that Qin Mo, hold on tightly, and never let go, but I don't have the courage.

No courage to face the expectations of Ji Xinyan and Xia Yan, no courage to face the pressure from the outside world, no courage to hold on to Ji Wanli tightly.

...I don't even have the courage to reach out.

Maybe I really don't love Ji Wanli, I dare not even reach out my hand, but when he was 14 years old, he dared to make an oath to leave everything behind and take me away.

Seeing that I was silent and dejected, Ji Wanli helped me get my clothes and asked me to get dressed quickly to catch the eight o'clock plane, with a calm tone as if nothing had happened.Thinking that he would go from never breaking up with me to treating me like a younger brother in just one month, I was very sad and heartbroken. After wearing two clothes for more than half an hour, my whole body was extremely depressed.

From the hotel to the airport to the flight, I didn't talk to him, and he didn't talk to me. We tacitly kept each other cold.It was because I felt uncomfortable that he really treated me like a younger brother and was still with others, and my heart was so broken that I couldn't even use the strength to speak, and it was because he didn't have enough sleep to make up for it.

It's ridiculous, it's me who wants to break up, I don't want to be together, it's me who wants to be a brother, why is it me who can't accept all this?

Am I doing it on my own?

so sad.

It hurts... really hurts.

Even though we took an early flight, we still couldn't make it to Ji Wanli's fan wedding in time due to the traffic jam.When we entered St. Emile's Basilica at twelve o'clock, the bride had been handed over to the groom by her father.When the guests watching the ceremony saw our two famous idols, they exclaimed and became agitated.

The inviter, the bride, burst into tears and was very moved. While comforting the bride, the groom frantically took pictures of Ji Wanli with his mobile phone.

Seeing this, Ji Wanli walked up to the two of them.

"Happy wedding."

I hurriedly followed, and when he finished his congratulations, on behalf of our group, I stuffed my heart for the couple into the top pocket of the groom's suit, and then Ji Wanli and I sat down in the first row reserved by the bride and groom to watch the ceremony.

After exchanging the rings, the groom told the pastor to wait, he had something to say.

"Before I take the oath, I have a few words to say."

Then the groom and the bride turned around to face all the guests watching the ceremony.

"You may not believe it, but my wife and I met and fell in love because of today's special guest, Ji Wanli. At that time, I just broke up with a big man sitting in the middle of the square crying. Seeing that there was no one else, I howled twice. "The bridegroom sang the lyrics I wrote, "If you knew that I prayed to meet you day and night, would you still walk towards me with a smile without hesitation?"

After speaking, the groom looked at the bride.

"Then she appeared, like in the song, and came to me with a smile on her face."

The bride covered her face in embarrassment at first, and then followed the groom's words amidst the booing of the guests: "I saw this guy crying and howling in the middle of the square, so I ran to have a look, but I didn't expect that he was humming the song of my master." I am curious to ask this guy, do you also listen to Ji Wanli’s songs? He said he is Ji Wanli’s hardcore male fan, and I said it’s a coincidence that I am too. After chatting a few words, I saw that he was sad about falling out of love, so I invited him to sing K , sang the song of Ji Wanli all night, we exchanged phone calls and fell in love with each other."

Speaking of which, the bride and groom looked at each other shyly and smiled, and then they walked up to Ji Wanli together, and took the microphone they used in KTV that night when they met as a memorial of love, and gratefully gave it to their common idol Ji Wanli.

"Thank you for keeping us together, thank you."

"I like that line you sang too."

Ji Wanli took out the single signed by the two of us and returned it to the two of them.

There was a tidal wave of applause in the church.

In the end, the bride and groom swear that no matter how old or poor they are, they will never leave. The white lace was pinched by the groom, and a kiss was printed between the bride's lips.

The bell rings, the dove flies