[Comprehensive] Escape from shame is useless

Oops, my legs are shaking, my right arm is cramping, my breathing...it's so hot, so dry, it hurts to swallow my saliva.Stomach seems to be churning, is it about to vomit?Ah, I didn't expect her to spit it out in this kind of place, it's so embarrassing.

It's so uncomfortable. Isn't playing tennis a happy thing?Why is she working so hard in this kind of place, not happy at all, not happy at all.

I hate the game the most.

Whether it's a music competition, a tennis match, a basketball match, whatever.

As long as there is a game, there will always be losers.

But how sad it is to lose...

Obviously everyone is working so hard, everyone is trying their best, but it still doesn't work, and they will still lose.No matter how hard you try, no matter how you struggle, the mountains you can't cross, the future without hope... just lose, you have to be disgusted, squeezed out, and scolded by others willingly.Why, it's just a loss, and you've tried your best, why do you still have to encounter such a thing?

As long as I think about this, I feel that there is nothing to be happy about winning.What's the point of stepping on other people's efforts and suffering to get to the podium?Obviously, everyone is playing happily together, isn't it even happier?

So since the middle school last year, I never went to see Zheng Jun's game, and even intentionally or unintentionally distanced myself from the basketball team who had a good relationship with them.Just seeing their faces, you will think of the expressions of people who were beaten to autism by them and gave up basketball.

Is winning really that important?Is it important enough to give up something more precious for it?

Look at Heizi's expressionless eyes, look at Aomine's gradually confused expression, look at Momoi's way of trying to cry to her but hold back, pretending nothing happened in front of her, and even——

As a result, Zhengjun suffered from severe mental illness like her.

Also from that day on, there was no smile in Zhengjun's eyes anymore.

She will always remember the unspeakable shock and sadness in her heart when she saw his eyes that had turned into strange colors for the first time.Even if Zhengjun said that there is no pain and no discomfort, it is useless.

How can you not worry?No one knows better than she how hopelessly empty and disturbing mental illness can leave a person.It was a fear that could not be uttered, and it was a maze that one could never get out of alone.

In such a huge world, it seemed that he was the only one left.Even if you bathe in the sun, you can only breathe the cold air, and walking on the bustling streets is as lonely as an empty snow field.Even so, you must straighten your spine and go on, because once you fall, you will fall into the abyss completely and be lost forever.

She wanted to help him, to save him, and she didn't want him to experience the same pain as herself.However, language is pale. What's the use of words that she can't even convince herself in this situation?She wanted to smile and tell him that it's okay, everything will be fine, but the tears flowed down first, and she wanted him to coax her instead.

There has never been a moment that made her feel her own powerlessness as deeply as that time.There was nothing I could do except hold him and cry.

And it's all about winning.

So she couldn't understand that feeling, and even dreaded it.

In her opinion, the word win is almost synonymous with loss.

Then why, she is still standing here, still standing on the field?

【It's for winning. ] said a voice in my heart.

It's weird, it's so weird, she's going out there to win, it's ridiculous.

Who knows that they will lose important things, but still bite the bullet and rush to lose them?

【Not to lose anything, but to face the loss directly. 】

Isn't that still the same?

She hates losing.It doesn't matter if it's a lollipop, 1 yen, or a friend.No matter which one she lost, she was equally sad.

[There are some things that can only be gained if they are lost. 】

What kind of fallacy is this?How can there be anything in this world that must be lost to be gained?Just holding on to what is in hand is exhausting, how can it be so easy to let go?

[Such as courage, the courage to face loss, reality, and the future. 】

courage……?

[Do you want to continue to escape?Do you want to stand still and never take a step? 】

No, it will definitely hurt others.

[Do you still want to be the same as before, want to convey your words, want to be honest, and put them all back in your stomach? 】

No, it will hurt others.

[Among hurting her or hurting more people, how do you choose? 】

I don't want to choose!No one wants to hurt!

But no, no way, I can't do nothing.

I can't listen to Miha's words, and I can't go back to Teiguang.If I return to Diguang, the entire Diguang people will be affected by me and fall into chaos.No matter what happens, I can't do this kind of thing.

Miwa, my partner, my favorite tennis player, and one of my favorite friends!I don't want to live up to her expectations, I can't live up to her expectations, but I don't want to lie to her, I... don't want to continue to hide from her.

I have to make it clear to her, I have to let her know, I have to tell her clearly, I have to tell her confidently:

I can't go on with you.

So I have to win, even if it hurts her, even if it makes her suffer, even if it makes her sad, I have to win.

Only when I win, will she understand my determination, know that this is not my whim, and understand my decision.

Even so, she chose to stay away.

Even if, we have embarked on two roads that will never intersect from now on.

Yes, I have decided.

This time I want to win, I must win!

Drenched in sweat and in a trance, Jasmine also refocused her gaze on Meiyu.She clenched the racket tightly and shouted loudly to the opposite side: "I will win, I will definitely beat you! Meiyu!"

Jin Jing raised his racket high and shouted: "If you have the ability, let the horse come here!"

"Kuroki Jasmine vs Kanai Miha, No. 12 game starts, Kanai Miha serves."

At this stage of the game, no matter who it is, it has long lost the glamor and calmness it had at the beginning.The team uniform that was soiled when he threw himself on the ground to save the ball, the sweat that would block his vision for a moment every once in a while, and the dust that stuck to his face when he wiped the sweat.

Even so, the eyes of the two were still clear and pure, and their fighting spirit was polished even more unstoppably by their tenacious will.

No one cared about their disheveled appearance, and now they are more like two completely unsheathed swords, exuding unrivaled sharpness.

"Ah, Jasmine can keep up with Kanei's speed!" Mioda shouted excitedly.

On the field, because of Jasmine's cheering up, the two returned to the tug-of-war of being evenly matched, and entered a state where you would come and go, fighting for a ball for a long time.

Time passed by every minute and every second, and the scorching sun slowly rose to the top of the head.finally--

"Kuroki Jasmine VS Kanai Miha, the No.12 game ended, and Kuroki Jasmine won. The current score is 6:6. Rest for 2 minutes and enter the tiebreaker!"

The teammates on both sides thought they would go back to the players' bench to take a break, but as if they had agreed, the two walked to the net together.

"Jasmine too, let me say this one last time. After today's match, come back to Diguang with me. In the future, we will enter the professional net together. As long as we join forces, the whole of Japan and even the whole world will be invincible. Don't you want to see that kind of future? ? The whole world will bow at our feet!"

"My answer remains the same, Miha, I don't plan to be a professional gamer."

"Why? Can't you feel it?" Kanai poked Jasmine's chest hard with his fingers, and asked incomprehensibly: "At this moment, the blazing, uncontrollable flame is burning here! This is Our instinct is an unstoppable urge!"

"Well, yes..." Jasmine also pressed her chest lightly, feeling the beating heart and the high emotions dominated by adrenaline.That kind of all difficulties can be overcome, Burning Life also wants to reach the peak, and give everything to win to the final turbulent wave.

"Listen, there are cheers one after another, look, this battlefield that everyone is looking at, and there is standing in front of you—" Mei Yu took Jasmine's hand and held it tightly, fearing that she would be there again in the next second. It's like throwing it away once.

"Your eternal friend, your eternal opponent. This is an adventure story that will last a lifetime, Jasmine too, come with me~"

The reason why Meiyu insisted on fighting her was to let her feel the impact, right?This is what she is obsessed with, this is what she pursues, and this is what she is willing to fight for all her life.She wanted to share in the pleasure, to let her know that she, too, could have it.

I want to taste this kind of happiness with her.

But still different, she is different from Miu.

Just because standing here at this moment and feeling everything she said, she can say categorically that this is not what she wants.

In a trance——

Heard the echo of the wind passing through the empty hall, and the chaotic sound of tuning.

Smells the unique aroma of dry wood.

Like being under a scorching spotlight, it seemed that her whole body would be roasted in the next second.

It was full of anxiety, the urge to tell something from the bottom of my heart.

What she really likes is this kind of emotion that is calmer on the surface but more turbulent in the dark.What she wants to pursue is the sorrow and joy that can shake people's hearts, and the voice that can convey the soul.

Yes, what she wanted—

"I haven't told you yet, I've already chosen Xingzuo Academy for high school next year."

"Xing Zuo?" Jin Jing frowned, because of the name that did not exist in her memory.

"It's a... music specialized school with general subjects. I want to go to that school. It's already a matter of decision."

Yes, she should have told Meiyu earlier.Obviously Meiyu is also one of her important friends, but she has been hiding it from her.

In fact, from the very beginning, she knew Mei Yu's obsession.

She wanted the two of them to pursue career paths together, and even in freshman year she would often ask her which high school she felt was a better fit for them.And I always listened with a smile on my lips, saying "I can take the test whichever Miu likes", while thinking in my heart, "I never said that I want to go together".

Escaping, escaping, seems to be waiting for time to untie this knot for myself.But he never thought of telling her about his past, his attachments, and what he wanted.

No, maybe, she doesn't even know what she wants.

Her ideals, along with her music, died that day.

What remained was just a little bit of unwillingness that was so faint that even she couldn't detect it, it was really just a little bit.If Zheng Jun hadn't been remembering for her all the time, and even tried every means to drag her forward, this remaining thing would have disappeared long ago.

But until today, when she had nothing to do with music, during the duel with Meiyu, she suddenly discovered——

She is still the same 7-year-old self, what she thinks and what she wants has never changed.

She wants to stand on the world stage, to use the sound of the piano instead of words, to convey beliefs and spread hope.Even if this is an impossible dream, even if this is the gate to hell, she can no longer deceive herself.

She wants to be a musician.

She wants to be everyone's violinist.

"Why do you show such an expression that everything is over without authorization!" Meiyu shook off her hand, disappointed and heartbroken, "Do you think I will allow it? Say, whose idea is this, what did you ask you to do?" Messy high school?"

"No, no, it's my own decision."

However, her words still failed to reach Mei Yu's ears after all.

"I see, it's Akashi, it must be Akashi, what kind of soup did he pour on you before I knew it! No wonder he had such a strange expression when I said he came to find you, no wonder, I just said... ..." When she said this, she didn't know how ferocious her expression was at the moment, like a wild animal that had been trapped in a cage for a long time, making its last desperate struggle.

"No, Miha! Listen to me! I've decided not to go professional, listen—"

"Don't talk such nonsense!" She yelled in a broken voice, "Who do you think I have been working hard for until now? You think you just have to say no lightly, and I will give up my only persistence for so many years Is it? You are everything in my tennis career!"

"Mei... Yu?"

What did she just say, what did she say, why did she say such a thing?

In this case, how could it come from the mouth of Miha Kanai? !

"You must have been deceived, I will save you, I will save you." She suddenly smiled softly at Jasmine, but the madness in her eyes completely swallowed her divine light in the next second, "Don't worry , Jasmine too, you still have me."

Jasmine's jaw trembled slightly, and thousands of words were stuck in her throat, but she couldn't say anything at this moment.She had to grit her teeth and tense all her mind, otherwise she might cry in the next second.

No, it's not like this, Miha, it shouldn't be like this!

I am not your everything!

"It's time for a break! Jasmine Kuroki vs. Miha Kanai, let's start the 7th battle!"

No, I can't lose!

I can no longer go with the flow and let other people decide my future.

I want to win this competition, not only for myself, but also for Mei Yu!

Whether it's the strongest U17, whether it's God's blessing or curse, I won't lose...

I will never lose to you guys!

The yellow ball was thrown high, higher than the audience seats, passed everyone's sight, and then fell——

Bang!

Disappeared.

After about 10 seconds, the referee reacted from disbelief and gave a verdict.

"1:0."

"What happened just now?" Ichinose stood up in shock.

But no one could answer her question. The ball just now was too fast, and none of them could keep up with that speed.

"2:0."

The second ball was served by Miha Kanai, but even she still couldn't keep up with the ball that was hit back to her own half.

Once again, the same scene reappeared, and only then did everyone belatedly realize that Jasmine, who just hit those two balls, had undergone a change that none of them expected.

"I knew it, I knew it, you will be the first one to break through." No one knew that in this stadium, the happiest person at this moment was actually Jin Jing who was directly knocked out by two goals Chiu.

"You are indeed the most talented, Jasmine, I finally saw this day. Now you understand, you are destined to belong to the tennis court, this is your inescapable fate!"

Jasmine also clenched her racket and shook her head indifferently.

"My future is up to me to decide! If you want me to be obedient, Meiyu, then beat me!"

"Exactly what I want!"

"3:0."

"What to do, I think the situation is not good." Yukino said worriedly.

"Didn't you always support senior sister Jasmine Ye? Why, she is going to win, but you are not happy?"

"No, I'm worried about the minister. Don't you think her state is a bit strange since she grabbed 7?"

"It seems... not as calm as usual..." Kawashima said weakly.

Everyone looked at each other in blank dismay.It's not that they haven't noticed, but they've already gotten used to her invulnerability, and no one wants to admit that at this moment, Miu Kanai has completely lost what she's most proud of.

But even if you know, what can you do?

Who is Miha Kanai? She is the pillar of Teiko and the ceiling of the women's tennis world.She never broke her halberd, never bowed her head, and never even showed any spiritual flaws.They look up to her and love her, just like parents to their children, gods to believers, no one has ever walked into her heart.

Even if you want to help, you can't do anything.

"Leave it to Kuroki," Qing Shui said after a brief silence, "If anyone can make the minister open up, she is the only one left."

"Yes, what we have to do now is to ensure Diguang's three-in-a-row success."

Teiguang's team bench once again fell into silence.

There is not a single fool present here, and everyone can understand the implication of their next minister Nazuka Otoko.

They are invincible, and the always proud minister may really lose today.

"4:0."

"Am I dreaming? Jasmine seems to be winning too." Miotian looked at his teammates beside him in a trance.

"It's not a dream, senior sister is really going to win!" Sharo grabbed Miotian's shoulder and shook it several times, "It's incredible!"

"Ha, haha... I also think it's unrealistic..."

"The current senior is really too dazzling..."

"5:0."

"Xianichiro, is this...that?" Liu opened his eyes wide, not daring to ignore any changes on the field.

"I haven't seen it either, but if I had to use one word to describe it, it would be that." Sanada said in a deep voice.

"Which one is that? Don't be foolish!" Marui hugged her head in dissatisfaction.

"The third gate of the realm of selflessness—" Liu Sheng looked at the audience, the short girl sitting in the back seat of him, with a soft personality like a docile kitten, now surpassed them in front of him Everyone has reached the legendary realm that everyone is pursuing.

"It's flawless."

“6:0。抢7结束，本盘比赛总分7：6，立海大附中的黑木茉莉也获胜！”

The dust has settled.

On the field, when Jasmine also raised the racket in her hand amidst the cheers.

In the auditorium, Yuno, who had been waiting for this day, burst into tears.

"Great, you did it, you did it, Jasmine also..."

This step, you have finally taken it out!

The author has something to say: the electricity was cut for half a day today, and I almost missed orz

Because it is immoral to stop halfway, I rushed this chapter today.

There may be revisions tomorrow, if you want to see it, you can watch it, if you don’t want to see it, you can ignore the update prompt =3=

最后:

My view on □□Seamless is not the same as XF, so the things shown in this chapter are also different from the original.

To put it simply, I agree with both Ichinose and Miwa on this matter.

□□Seamless must be a talented player, with pure love for tennis, as well as the belief in winning and the will to fight, which can only be opened when they are combined.

In terms of analogy, I am more inclined to explain ZONE.