[Comprehensive] Escape from shame is useless

At the end of June, the entire Lihai University fell into intense preparations for the final exam.The library is full every day, and groups of study groups can be seen everywhere in classrooms after school.According to this process, the school should ask all clubs to stop activities for a week.But in fact, this week is a week of special training for various sports clubs.

Because the Kanto competition is about to start in July.

Naturally, the women's net club is no exception, and I don't know if it's because of Miu, the air in the club is low and full of murderous looks.In order not to affect the class, the menu of the morning training has not become stricter, but the club time after school——

In just three days, 5 people have already vomited during the training due to too much intensity, including a Saluo.

Perhaps for the team preparing for the battle, such a tense atmosphere is most suitable, but for Jasmine, it is really a bit out of breath.

Maybe they didn't mean it that way, but when they inadvertently meet her eyes, the light in their eyes will dim instantly.Even if they didn't talk about the unspeakable depression and anxiety, how could Jasmine, who has always been extremely sensitive to other people's emotions, not feel it?

"The final exam is coming soon, how about we have a study session?"

This heavy air lasted for three days, and she finally couldn't bear it, so she suggested.

It does sound a bit strange to use study sessions as a way to change your mood, but if you always think about unhappy things, your mood will get worse and worse.It's a pity that many things cannot be solved by her unilateral efforts.

"I'm sorry, Kuroki-senpai, we still want to train. If I don't run, I always feel that I can't forgive myself." Yiwang showed a forced smile.She tried to look into Jasmine's eyes and speak as before, but she still couldn't hold on for even a second, so she looked away.

Sha Luo gave his elder sister an elbow, and then said to Jasmine with a smile:

"If Kuroki-senpai is worried about the exam, why don't you go to Kirihara-kun's tutoring like last time? Didn't you say that the effect is pretty good?"

"But—" She proposed this for everyone, wouldn't it be pointless to go to Kirihara-kun and the others?

"Actually," Sha Luo interrupted her, removing that pretended cheerful face, "Actually, sometimes I think, it would be great if senior sister wouldn't be so gentle."

Surprised by this sentence, when Jasmine also came back to her senses, she could only see the back of Sha Luo dragging her sister away, and her mood also became depressed.

"Did I say something wrong?"

"It has nothing to do with you." Ichinose, who was standing behind her at some point, patted her shoulder, "They just realized that Miu Kanai was right."

The day after Jasmine also had a high fever happened to be the second round of the county competition.The members of the tennis club who were worried that her body would not be able to bear it decided to fight with the current lineup without her playing.

Anyway, today's competition does not affect the qualifications for qualifying, and it doesn't matter if you take a little risk.When Miwa Kanai said that, everyone didn't say anything, but they were actually holding back their breath.Maybe Jin Jing didn't care at all, but they just wanted to prove to her that even without Jasmine stepping on the turning point of singles three, they could still win the county championship by their own strength.

However, the reality was a loud slap in the face, which made them hurt.

Not to mention the champions, they were even No. 3 in the county competition, under the premise that there were only four teams in total.

Even Sharo, the most cheerful member of the team, couldn't say something like "Oh, we're not the last one, let's cheer up" in the atmosphere at that time.

2-3 in the semifinals and 1-3 in the final.

Except for Ichinose who has never lost in the singles three at the match point, the records of the others can only be described as horrible.One sister in particular, lost both games by a big score, and her mentality was completely broken.

[Competitive competition, weakness is the original sin. 】

They were forced to understand the meaning of Miwa Kanai's words, in such an unforgettable way.

"Then what should I do to make everyone happy?" She still likes the environment in the previous department, where there was tension and relaxation, and everyone had serious training, but it was not like this now, and she felt that she was being pushed to death.

"No need to do anything."

It's better to say what she is doing wrong now.Jasmine may not realize it at all, as long as they see her, everyone will think of Miu Kanai, think of her sarcasm, and then think of herself who cannot be refuted, who is unwilling but incompetent.

No matter how friendly the personality is, it cannot bridge the generation gap between geniuses and mortals. This is not a gap that can be filled with hard work and understanding.For a talented player like her, playing tennis may be just a hobby, even if she puts in the same energy as others, she will not feel that she has exceeded the limit.

Jasmine may have never thought that "playing tennis is a happy thing"--something that only people at the level of her and Miwa Kanai are qualified to say.They stand at the pinnacle, they are invincible, so they are qualified to return to the basics, to pursue more pure things, and have the possibility of regaining their original aspirations.

This is the reason why only the top tennis players can open the seamless realm.

This is the pursuit of a genius and the daily life of a genius, but for mortals like them, it is an unattainable myth.

Do you play tennis for fun?Yes, maybe it was right in the beginning.But there are always winners and losers in a game. If you win, don't mention it. Once you lose, how many people will not feel depressed because of it?What's more, because of the huge gap with the opponent, there will be a terrible psychological shadow, and it is possible to give up tennis from now on.

Similarly, Jasmine also couldn't understand why she could not care about winning or losing, but they couldn't.

On the one hand, her loss was not due to lack of ability, but the result of self-concession after some trade-offs.She can win if she wants to.It's completely different from the powerlessness that other people feel when they try their best but can't make any progress.

They can't let go of it so easily, they can't say that they will work harder next time and then go to sleep and forget about it.I can only bear that pressure, repeat the boring training, and continue to persevere in a state where I can't feel my progress at all, until the next victory comes.

On the other hand, it is also something that Ichinose has gradually realized recently - Kuroki Jasmine is actually a person with an extremely strong mind.

Maybe most people can't understand this fact. After all, Jasmine has a soft and cute personality, she doesn't seem to have any opinions, and she is silly every day, as if she has never been troubled.She is also really non-aggressive, she is the typical type that as long as she stands there, children she does not know will come to pester her to play with her.

However, if you are confused by this appearance and ignore her essence, you will make a wrong judgment.

Thinks she's just someone who has nothing but tenderness.

Not at all.

Thinking about it carefully, the most admirable thing about her is actually the ordinary parts that are often overlooked.

For example, she treats everyone equally.

For example, she treats everyone with sincerity.

For example, she will do what she promises to others no matter what.

For example, she never gives up lightly and is tenacious.

For example, she is not arrogant in victory, nor discouraged in defeat.

For example, she puts herself in the shoes of others and understands their difficulties.

For example, she will forgive those who make mistakes, if the other party has the intention of sincerely repenting.

For example, she would reach out to someone in need, even if she wasn't in a crisis herself.

In the end, her tenderness is genuine.Like morning light, like spring breeze, not too dazzling, not forcing you to accept, even don't mind you ignoring, as long as you need, she is behind you.

Pulling out each list, it seems that there is no big deal. At first glance, it seems that I can do it myself.But ask yourself, everyone can say what they say, but how many people can really do what they say, even if it is just one of them?

At least she can't.

Looking at the performance of everyone in the tennis club in the past few days, no one can achieve the rule of "not arrogant in victory, not discouraged in defeat".

Humans are creatures who learn a lot from a pit, and the accumulation of experience is acquired slowly after bumping into a wall again and again.In this process, whether it is for self-protection reasons or for experience considerations, people will gradually give up some things they have insisted on, and instead laugh at those who are still persisting as "stupid" .

is she stupidOf course, she will always be hurt, physically and mentally, by other people's mistakes.

But has she changed?No, it's the same as always.

Seeing her like this, I always think of a passage in one of her favorite books:

Don't trust people because they don't have good intentions?If the other person is not kind to me, can't I be kind to him?I trust the other party, and it has nothing to do with whether the other party betrays me.Even if you are betrayed, it's just that the person who betrays others becomes despicable!Even if no one treats me well, even if I am betrayed by others, I will not become a despicable person who doesn't trust anyone!It has nothing to do with anyone else in this world, I am kind because I want to be kind to people, I believe because I want to trust others!

I still remember the shock when I first saw this passage.When her secret was revealed by her best friend and turned into a well-known joke, when she decided to never trust anyone again.

Since then, she has regarded this passage as her creed in life, and she may never be able to achieve such freedom and maturity, but she still decides to work hard for it all her life.

Now, looking at the person in front of her who is clearly treated indifferently by her teammates, but still has no complaints, and is still thinking about how to enlighten everyone, it is like seeing the ultimate of her ideals.At the young age of 14, he has reached a height that many people cannot reach in their lifetime.

If Kuroki Jasmine couldn't bear the evaluation of being strong and mature, she would never be able to find another qualified person.

Others may not be as complicated as she thought, but the gap between them is so great that they can't turn a blind eye.She was so good that she even chose to argue with her friends in order to maintain their poor self-esteem.

Without someone to vent your anger on, you can only punish yourself in the end.

That's why I train desperately, just like erasing the parts that were lazy for various reasons and erasing all the weak parts, work hard, work hard, and work hard again.If you don't, you may feel so self-conscious that you won't even have the courage to talk to her.

That's what he said, but Ichinose understood that with Jasmine's worry-loving personality, she definitely wouldn't just say a good word and let the matter go.

"After the exam, I'm going to have a sleepover, just in the first week after the holiday."

"Huh? The first week? This is not easy..."

It was originally just a topic to divert her attention, but she did not expect to get an unexpected answer.

As soon as this thought came to her, Ichinose was stunned for a moment.It's only been two short months, yet she already has the mindset of "Jasmine will definitely not reject her".No wonder Tona Kanai Miha lost control of her expression management in an instant when she said she would not return to Teiko.

This person really has the talent to spoil everyone around him.

But now is not the time to think about that.

"What, did you have anything else to do that week?"

"Well, I'm going on a long trip that week, and I made an appointment with someone half a year ago." It's going to be fun to sleep together.But the timing was really unlucky.

"The Kanto Tournament is the week after the end of the camp. The time is very tight, and there is no way to postpone it." Ichinose's words were pure statements, and did not imply what she meant.

"Well, what should I do, what should I do...how about I go after the training?" Jasmine also frowned, writing the word entangled directly on her face.

"Is it far? Is it too late?"

"Uh, maybe... it's too late... right?"

"If something really matters, it doesn't matter if you don't come." Anyway, even if she doesn't come to the training, she probably won't lose.Of course, you can't say such slanderous things in your heart, she's not that stupid yet.

"I believe that even if you don't come to the camp, you will not slack off your daily exercise. Isn't that enough?"

So, this matter is settled.

After school the next day, Mr. Moriyama called Jasmine to the office again.

She was already familiar with being summoned by the teacher, and this time Jasmine also felt the calmness of being a big boss after her levelup.It's just looking for her for something, what's the matter, Mr. Morishan is not a devil.

"It's nothing special to call you here today, but the teacher is a little curious. Is the school you filled in the career survey form serious?"

As she spoke, she took out the survey form that Jasmine had also handed in. It was filled with the following name in the place of the first choice:

Star Academy.

The author has something to say: The words in the book that Ichinose said are from "Twelve Kingdoms", the author Inuimi Ono.

I held back 20 words, and finally praised my Jasmine once!It's cool!

And, last night when I coded until 1 o'clock, I looked up and found that all the things I wanted to buy were sold out, and my heart was very sour.

Did you all buy what you want on Double Eleven?You writers save me money! (crying blood)

I hate Calvin! ! ! ! !