[Comprehensive] Escape from shame is useless

November 11st, Halloween day.

As the oldest music academy in Yokohama, the orchestra department of Star Academy holds the annual Halloween concert at the nearby Yokohama Minato Mirai Concert Hall as usual.Because it is a school performance, tickets are distributed free of charge. There are 2500 seats, except that members of the orchestra have 5 invitation tickets, and the remaining 2000 tickets are open to the public.

Locals who love music have long been accustomed to this annual show, and booked tickets on the official website in advance.So back in early October, all tickets were already sold out.

Jasmine, who has long wanted to see the elegance of the orchestra, is no exception, but she doesn't have to compete with others. Ueno has reserved two seats in the first row of the concert hall for her from the very beginning, and even Akashi's He gave her two tickets together.

Considering it is still a working day, the concert starts at 7pm.

And before that, Yuno took Jasmine to a special place——

Jinjing General Hospital.

When she got off the car and saw this familiar sign again, Jasmine was still a little puzzled.Since Yukimura was successfully discharged from the hospital, they have never been to this place again.After a year, I set foot here again, and I feel a little nostalgic looking at the unchanging scenery.

"Yuno, is this...?"

She bought a fruit basket at the nearby fruit shop, and without much explanation, she took Jasmine's hand and walked in.

He mysteriously said that he would take her to a certain place, but ended up here...

Look at this posture, is this a visit?

Who are you looking at?

While waiting for the elevator, the two looked up boredly, and the numbers on the display screen lit up one by one, and Yuno's sudden words aroused her curiosity.

"Don't you really want to know why I am suddenly interested in medicine?"

Jasmine also nodded repeatedly, she really wanted to know.

In her impression, Yuno used to read those psychology books because of her.In the face of a mentally ill patient, if you want to get along normally without stepping on thunder or stimulating her emotions, unless you are born with a high degree of affinity and high EQ, you need to know some basic knowledge.What can be said, what can't be said, what can be done and what can't be done, you must know it well.This way, even if you accidentally say something wrong, you will know how to make it up.

Yuno just watched it, and didn't plan to learn it systematically.After all, knowing how to get along with her and knowing how to treat her are two different things.But now it is different. She is studying medical knowledge systematically and comprehensively. It is a study that clearly wants to understand the pathology and solve the disease, with the goal of becoming a doctor.

It must be a very special opportunity to change the mind of Yuno, who has always been blind except for inheriting the family business.If it weren't for yesterday's occasion where she was really not allowed to ask too much, she would definitely have asked directly after persuading Yuno.

With a sound of "ding", the elevator door opened in response.The two made way to open the passage, and after everyone inside came out, they walked in, closed the door, and pressed the button for the 8th floor.The empty elevator with only the two of them vibrated and began to climb slowly.

"From a very young age, I knew that I was very good at destroying things. Whether it was the pine branches in the garden, the birds in the forest, or the fragile arms and slender necks of those peers in the dojo... as long as I exerted a little force, They are easy to break. This kind of destruction is as simple as eating and drinking for me, so judo, karate, kendo... and assassination, which you don't know, I am proficient in all of them."

She continued to look at the digital screen indicating the floor, and continued in a flat tone:

"I know what to do to end a person's life silently and in the shortest possible time. I also know what kind of knife and what angle to use to cut off a certain artery in order to cause that person to lose a lot of blood. But The most commonly used ones are knowledge such as the technique of breaking the tendon, the speed when the blade cuts into the muscle, etc. Elder Gui also said that if I want, I can even become an excellent professional assassin."

When she said the last sentence, Yuno curled her lips helplessly and outlined a bitter smile.

Jasmine also heard the word "professional killer" and thought of the man hired by Pappoulis from Italy to kill her parents.Such a person has no power to fight back in the face-to-face confrontation with Yuno, and is forced to run away.

But with such an unprecedented talent, hearing her say it in such a calm tone, I just feel distressed.

Jasmine also held Yuno's hand tightly, in exchange for a nonchalant smile from her.

"It was only after a long time that I realized that these things that I am proud of are things that most people living in this world do not need to master at all. Facing such a strange world, I can only pretend to be myself. Therefore, my wife Yuno, who was born in a tea ceremony family with excellent character and learning and elegant manners, came into being. But no matter how dazzling this halo is, no matter how many people are attracted by it, it is nothing more than a false mask in the final analysis. I still The self who upholds the law of the jungle, or the self who resorts to violence because of a trivial matter, or my wife Yuno, who is branded with the mark of the underworld all over her body."

The elevator stopped on the 8th floor, Yuno took Jasmine and walked towards the left corridor familiarly.On the department sign that flashed across the wall, the words "Neurology Inpatient Department" were written.Based on her extremely superficial understanding of medicine, she guessed that the people living on this floor were probably mentally ill... Oh no, it's too impolite to say that, it's only the people with mental illness.

There are many wards on this floor, and the occupancy rate is also very scary. Along the way, at least forty or fifty patients have been seen.

But this corridor is still very long, not even half of it.

"Do you remember what you told me last year when you filled out the admission application form?"

I don't know because there are more people passing by in the corridor, or because the story just happened to be here, Yuno didn't continue the content that ordinary people would look at them with strange eyes when they heard it, but changed it to a very suitable one. The topic of student status.

Jasmine's memory is not as good as Yuno's and Akashi's. She actually can't remember what she said a year ago.After thinking hard for a long time, he said in a speculative tone: "Let you become an alien?"

Yuno laughed out loud when she heard this, and turned her head and gave her a blank look, "Yes, you were the one who said you wanted me to take the East Dali III exam, but you still dared to fool me yesterday, saying that I said it myself, you are really brave. "

"Hey hey..." She scratched her face embarrassingly.

"Not only that, but you also said that my brain is so good that it would be a loss to all mankind to waste it, and you also said that my journey should be the stars and the sea." She said teasingly.

"Ah, stop talking!" Jasmine also covered her face in despair, "Why do you have to remember this kind of black history so clearly!"

Enough of Yuno's jokes, and returned to the topic.

"After listening to your words, I am very confused, and Jasmine is also. My world is only so small, and my future is already predetermined. I can't even find where the sea of ​​stars and stars you mentioned belong to me."

When she said this, she looked blankly at the passage that was still going on, as if this was the future she was facing, a straight dark road with no forks, as if endless, extending under her feet.

"But because you said it, I am willing to give it a try. It doesn't matter if I don't know where it is, just look for it slowly, learn slowly, maybe one day the door will appear in front of my eyes."

She stopped in her tracks, outside the door of a ward.

"—and then, it did appear."

Following her gaze and turning her head, Jasmine also turned her gaze from the dark passage ahead, and saw the familiar name on the door card outside the ward that surprised her.

Miyazono Kaoru.

Kaoru?Is it the Xiao Xun she knew?

Giving her a reassuring look, Yuno gently knocked on the door.

"Kuno, it's me, my wife Yuno."

"Come in, Yuno-senpai."

Pushing open the door and entering, the person sitting on the hospital bed just turned his head from the window, as if he wanted to say something, but turned into surprise the moment he saw Jasmine Ye.

"Sister Jasmine too? Why did you—" She wanted to cover her face in a panic, but felt wrong for a second, and wanted to cover her head again, and finally complained to Yuno:

"Ah, that's right, Yuno-senpai said earlier that she would bring Jasmine-senpai here, so I should make preparations sooner!"

"What are you going to do? Are you wearing that stupid wig?" Yuno put the fruit basket on the bedside table and complained calmly.

"Not stupid! Super cute!"

During the short time when the two quarreled, Jasmine finally came to her senses that Kaoru had been seriously ill and was hospitalized since she was a child. It took her a while to realize that the girl on the bed who was waving her teeth and claws at Yuno was the Kaoru Miyazono she knew. .

There is no way, except for the change of personality, there is no one left of her iconic beautiful blond hair.

Even wearing a hospital hat can't completely cover up the bald head, and the particularly conspicuous gauze at the back of the head.

"Xiao Xun, what's wrong with you?" Jasmine, who had finally recovered her voice, ran to the bed eagerly, and grabbed her hand.

"Ah?" Bewildered by this question, Miyazono turned his head blankly: "Sister Yuno, did you bring Sister Jasmine without saying anything? I can't believe it..."

Miyazono had no choice but to explain slowly from the beginning.

So Jasmine also heard a story. A girl who had been seriously ill since she was a child fainted by the side of the road and was rescued by an enthusiastic girl passing by. However, she also found out that she was not long in the world. She decided to indulge her life in her last days, but was killed by the enthusiastic girl. Pressed and pushed into the operating room—causing her to cry and cut off all her hair, and dislike the ugly wig that her friend gave her (emphasized three times here)—the result was a miraculous recovery. story.

Facing Jasmine's extremely complicated expression of not knowing whether to praise or complain, Yuno spread her hands, took an apple from the fruit basket and washed it.When the other two thought she would peel and cut it open for Gong Yuan to eat, she took a bite of it herself, eating it with relish.

"I said Yuno-senpai, it's fine if you don't bring me Koruri, that's my apple!"

"I bought it, and I can eat it when I want."

Then the two quarreled again.

This is the first time I have seen such an energetic Yuno, ah, and an energetic Kaoru.

It feels so interesting!

The three of them chatted casually for a while, and after making an appointment to bring her a handmade Koruri the next time they came to see her, Jasmine followed Yuno and left the ward.The two did not go back directly after taking the elevator downstairs, but found a bench in the atrium of the hospital and sat down, continuing the unfinished topic just now.

"It was really just a coincidence that I met Kaoru who passed out on the road." Yuno looked at the children running around in the yard, showing a nostalgic smile.Gong Yuan, who was walking on the sidewalk that day, was bouncing around in the same way.

"But now that I think about it, I feel that this is actually an arrangement of fate. Do you know what day it is?"

Jasmine also tilted her head: "What day is it?"

"November 12."

"what."

"Yes, the birth date of the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit Jesus in Christian legend. For me, there is another reason why I consider it sacred. Because it is my angel Jasmine, your birthday "Under the warm winter day, Yuno turned his head to look at her, the light in his eyes had never been softer, shining clear but not glaring light.

"Yuno..." Jasmine was of course very moved, and then gave her a hand knife in disgust, "So don't call me an angel anymore, idiot! It's too shameful!"

"No! You are my angel, my princess! You deprived me of the right to marry you, and you can't deprive me of my remaining dignity!" Xiong Hug.

Jasmine was also speechless, "Is your dignity worth such a thing?! Okay, okay, stop making trouble, and you decided to become a doctor just because of Xiaoxun?"

Yuno finally smiled and rubbed against her twice before continuing.

"It's not that simple. At the beginning, it was just because I couldn't understand what the doctor said during the consultation..."

She made a promise that Miyazono would never die of illness, even if it was just impulsive, she couldn't go back on what she said.So the best neurology experts in Japan were called to conduct a comprehensive review of her.But when they told her about her illness, Yuno found that she couldn't keep up with the rhythm, couldn't understand those professional terms, and could only understand that the condition was poor.

"In order to understand how bad the situation is, I went to buy a neurology book. It turned out that it was useless to read only this book. Medicine is a step-by-step subject. Skip the basics and go directly to professional books... even read I can't understand it."

"So you decided to learn from scratch?" Jasmine was also shocked. What kind of action is this? !

"Yeah, there's no other way, you have to do what you promised her."

So I started reading from the most basic entry-level medical books, and accumulated my knowledge bit by bit.But Gongyuan's illness can't last that long, she only has less than a year, and she can't wait for her to grow up slowly.So from that day on, she only slept for 4 hours a day, and even secretly took out medical books to read during class time.It's not that she hasn't been discovered by the teacher, but as a super top student, she perfectly persuaded the teachers to turn a blind eye to her with the reason of preparing for college courses in advance.

"Then you understand?"

"I can barely understand part of it. But it is because I understand part of it that I know how difficult it is to save her." Speaking of this, Yuno stretched out her hand, with a particularly low tone.

"I've heard people say before that medical skills are the real art against the sky. I haven't really felt it yet. I also heard from Yato that even gods can't save humans. Only doctors can do it. I didn't think too much about it." Many. It was only in the process of learning that I slowly discovered how difficult it is for people to live in a healthy and healthy way. There are countless diseases, countless bacteria and viruses, and there are so many types that I only know. Read them out at the fastest speed, without repeating them for 5 minutes. Human beings are struggling to survive in such an environment full of threats."

Sensing the overwhelming depression from her sudden change of tone, Jasmine also became agitated.

"Do you know, Jasmine, it's too difficult to save someone. Really, it's so difficult that you can't even imagine the price you have to pay. There is not even a drug that has no side effects in this world. A treatment that won’t fail.” She looked at her hand and smiled miserably, “But it’s that simple to kill someone, it only takes a second, and you just wave your hand lightly, and it’s over without a sound So I don’t know exactly when it started, I would stare at the open medical books in a daze, and my mind kept echoing questions—”

"I, who can only destroy since I was a child, have destroyed how many things that others have carefully cared for and worked hard to create? How many people have been born in this world with great difficulty, and have survived countless diseases and countless natural disasters and man-made disasters? I kept asking myself like this, and one day I finally had a small wish... I, with my hands like this, want to create something, and I want to save something.”

"Yuno, you succeeded, you saved Xiaoxun, didn't you?" Jasmine also grabbed her hand and said.

"Multiple sclerosis, this is Kaoru's disease. Do you know how low the cure rate of this disease is?" She smiled wryly and shook her head, "Less than 1%, lower than cancer. So her improvement is not due to my hard work." The result, Jasmine, is just a miracle, the hard work of her chief surgeon, and the mercy of the heavens."

"One day there will be a solution. Look, isn't cancer gradually curable now?" Jasmine didn't know what she was talking about. She really didn't know anything about medicine. It wasn't what Yuno wanted to hear at all.She just didn't want Yuno to continue to sink down, in her opinion, she had done a good job.

"Besides, who said you haven't created anything? You made delicious porridge for me and prepared a great campus environment for me-although the process is too big, you can skip it now. You protected my parents during the crisis, and you did not abandon him during the saddest time in Yukimura. You are the goddess in the minds of all the students in Rikkai University. Don’t take the bond as a creation, it’s still very Important, very important stuff!"

"Haven't you already made up your mind to be a doctor, so start planning now! Start next semester, no, start next week, don't waste time in Xingzuo, go to the high school you should go to, and pass you I want to live a high school life, and then I will be admitted to East University University III, and I will completely embark on the road of aliens!"

"Next, next week? I'm not ready yet..."

Jasmine was also very dissatisfied with Yuno's hesitating and hesitating, she raised her eyebrows and asked, "What psychological preparation do you need? Didn't you drop out of school and break with your family?"

"I can't bear to be separated from you!" Yuno rushed over with sincere feelings.

A little, a little moved, no, right, now is not the time to be moved!

She pushed her away resentfully and continued to persuade: "Don't forget your ideals, your ambitions! Now you should not waste a single second. How do you say it? Ah yes, Indulging in such innocent emotions only makes people weak! You're not weak, are you?"

"...This sentence is really damn familiar."

"What about the answer?"

"okay, I get it."

That night, after sitting down in the first row of the concert hall and receiving the sheet music that Akashi handed over, Jasmine also sighed regretfully.

"If I had known tonight's track was "From the New World", I should have asked Yuno to listen to it."

This Dvořák Ninth Symphony, the strong sense of openness and progress, as well as the reluctance and nostalgia for the past, are really too appropriate for her now.

I don't know what hidden meaning is in her words, but it doesn't affect Akashi's answer.

"Let's forget it. If after the orchestra's performance is over, they find that their president is sleeping in the first row... Not to mention the problem of damaging morale, the perfect image my wife has created for a long time will definitely be destroyed. .”

Jasmine also imagined how sleepy Yuno was lying on her back on the backrest, and couldn't stop laughing.

"Pfft—yes...that would be too pitiful."

At the beginning of the performance, when the strong and passionate melody sounded, Jasmine also said silently in her heart.

Welcome to the new world, Yuno, I hope you will like it.

The author has something to say: it's almost time to end the countdown.