[Comprehensive] Escape from shame is useless

Deep in the quiet forest, the spring pool glistens in the setting sun.

On the boulder by the spring, two young girls sit with their backs facing each other. The boundary between light and dark is abruptly separated between them, as if separating two different worlds.

No, it's actually a different world.

Here is the narrow gap between this shore and the other shore, Changshi and Huangquan. Just one short step can break through all obstacles.

The unchanging scenery no longer has the space to change from day to night.The flower water chestnut that blooms out of season, the gorgeous and coquettish Bana flowers, the silent grass, and the unwavering water surface of the ancient well are like a silent landscape painting, lifeless but strangely beautiful.

"It's so quiet..." Jasmine also propped her hands behind her back, looking up at the blue sky.

I don't know how long it has been since I came here, and time seems to have stood still here, making people unable to feel its passing.

"Well, it has been, has been, and has been very quiet here, because there is nothing, so it is silent." The black-haired goddess closed her eyes, stroked her chest, and said softly, "This is my kingdom of God. The end of all life, the end of all love and hatred. Although feared by the gods and Buddhas of the heavens and loathed by the living beings, this silence and tranquility is what Huangquan should look like."

"Maybe it's like this for the dead... What about you? Miss Seya, don't you feel too lonely?"

She is not an unconscious puppet, not an undead who ended her life seeking eternity, but a woman with a human touch, who can cry and laugh, and shed tears because of one of her songs.

"Yes, it will be lonely, it will be lonely beyond recognition, and it will be painful and insane. But the so-called gods are the existences that are born in response to your wishes. As the queen of the underworld, I am death itself. So lonely Whether it's good or curious, I'm not allowed to leave my kingdom of God."

She turned around and acted like a baby at Jasmine pitifully.In the next second, the smiling face returned.

"Jasmine too, this narrow existence is the only balcony I have left where I can get in touch with eternity. I was able to meet you who ran in by mistake here, and heard such a beautiful rhythm..."

"Miss Shiya..."

"Although I can only talk through this barrier, I can't accept your gifts, and I can't touch your body. Even so, for me, this encounter is undoubtedly fate. So—"

She raised her right hand and stretched it out, her fingertips were hindered by something invisible to the naked eye at the boundary of light and shadow.But she didn't stop, her long, white fingers tremblingly crossed this seemingly insurmountable boundary, before reaching Jasmine's eyes.

"Although there is nothing here now, it is full of mud, and in your opinion, there are even terrible monsters everywhere. But I promise, I will keep your soul pure and let you live more freely than now."

The wind is blowing up.The swaying poppy quickly withered in the wind, and ripples suddenly appeared on the sparkling water, and the ink-like darkness began to infiltrate the courtyard under the sun, bypassing the brown-haired girl who was still sitting on the boulder, The entire space was rendered into a night sky.Only Jasmine was left, still bathed in the last ray of skylight, dazzling in this boundless depth like a newborn sun.

Izanami's hand stopped firmly at the edge of the light, and the raging flame that Jasmine couldn't see wrapped her entire hand, burning blazingly.The alternation of day and night has been completed, the space barrier is collapsing, and the regular scythe has been aimed at her head.

But she still smiled nonchalantly and sent her an invitation:

"If you want, can you and your music be brought into my kingdom of God?"

Kingdom of God?Miss Seya's kingdom of God, Huangquan Hirasaka.

Leave from this shore, go to the other shore, and become a resident of the other shore.

That is the hidden.

【If the gods invite you to his kingdom, will you go? 】

[I don't want to go, I don't want to go to a place where Zheng Jun is not there. 】

[Then don’t go, stay here, stay by my side. 】

Zhengjun...

But now, I have no way to stay!

Kuroki Jasmine, who can't play in front of people, has no chance to stay by your side.

Tears overflowed from the eye sockets one by one, dripping down like strings of beads, and hit the ground.

It would be fine if she didn't know anything, if she didn't think about anything, she could live in a lie of self-deception as before.

But she still noticed it after all, and she could no longer turn a blind eye.

What Zhengjun has always wanted is the radiant piano sound, the melody resounding through the world, not her.

Thinking of this, I suddenly felt that the only thing I lived on suddenly became meaningless.

In an instant, the sky fell apart.

Her world has always been very simple, music and Zhengjun, etc.

She is Zhengjun's violinist, so music and him have always been one in her concept and have never been separated.She can't imagine Zhengjun without Zhengjun's music, and she can't imagine Zhengjun without music.It's like the laws of the world that you need to eat when you're hungry, and you need to open an umbrella when it's raining.

Even when talking about the dividing point of life, the two are mentioned at the same time, and only after there is music and Zhengjun, they become shining.

So she never considered how she would choose on the day when the two conflicted.

Zhengjun has been guarding her original dream for her, remembering it for her, keeping it for her, and never slack off for a moment.He wanted her back on the stage, he wanted her to be everyone's violinist, and he wanted her so hard.

She knows better than anyone that Zheng Jun is continuing the journey she quit halfway.Bridges were erected on countless cliffs, swamps and deep pools, paving the way for her.Then he stood on the top and stretched out his hand to her, dragging her, who was already unable to move freely, up the ladder step by step.

But she is also very clear that this road is not destined to reach the end.

But it doesn't matter, as long as Zhengjun is still working hard, she can't give up.

Teikoji's double violin concerto, in fact, she has not completely broken free from the state of PTSD.Difficulty breathing, ringing in ears, barely able to stand.But Zhengjun was standing next to her, and the excitement and anticipation of playing with him supported her spirit. She forcibly relied on perseverance and the natural magic of music to neutralize the pain in her body, allowing her to transcend the shadow in a short time the power of.

It was indeed a dreamlike time, the coexistence of pain and pleasure, intertwined to reach the peak.

She thanked Ueno Airi for giving her such a special opportunity, allowing her to have such a chance to perform with Masayuki.Whether this opportunity is really a coincidence, or the "future" carefully planned by Zhengjun, she doesn't care.

But she also knew well that she survived not because of Ueno Airi's identity, but because of Zheng Jun's side.Without him, she was still that coward who couldn't walk on stage.But she couldn't bear to see his disappointed expression, so she misled him and made him really think that the name was the key factor in the problem.

In fact, if you think about it carefully, you can understand that Zhengjun cares so much that he will be blinded.

For Kuroki Jasmine, it was never herself who could change her, but Akashi Seijuro.

So when the day came when music and him belonged to both sides of the balance, it was so ironic that she would resolutely take only one of them, as if her obsession with music all this time was just a joke That's all.

When did this start?It is no longer possible to clearly distinguish the boundaries.

I only know that on the day when I know my mind, this is destined to become a secret that can never be revealed.

But even though she hasn't said anything yet, she ran away without saying a word. Zhengjun is so smart, and he knows her so well, so he must have guessed it all at once, right?As long as I think of this, I can't help but have difficulty breathing, my whole body is weak, and I can't stop shaking.She simply didn't have the courage to face his questioning, to look into his eyes, and even less to listen to his sentence.

Some things are well known, but as long as the window paper is not pierced, they can still live.

... survive?Then what?for what?

What she once thought would be held tightly was easily given up by her.

What is still left in these hands, the remaining warmth that belongs to another person is about to disappear.

The reasons for her staying were cut off one by one by herself, and the only thing she didn't want to let go of was never available.

and so--

Do you want to hold this hand and travel to another world?

Go to that place where there is no sorrow, no pain, where all is still.

The face of the goddess slowly blurred in sight, and then became clear again. The face that made her feel so intimate was showing the purest smile.Then in the next second, as if there was a deviation in the vision, the right half of her face suddenly turned into a bone.In the blink of an eye, it returned to normal again.

Jasmine was also taken aback, and took three steps back in fright, looking at the hand that was stretched out to her.That hand exuded a cold and frightening aura. Under the sun, it slowly lost its healthy whiteness, and gradually showed its gray essence, haggard and emaciated, like the last struggle of a seriously ill person, extremely ugly.

"Are you afraid? This is my essence, the true face that I have never wanted you to see."

The Goddess turned her face to one side, and raised her other hand to hide her terrifying appearance.

This is the face that Izanaki hates, and this is the reason why she was abandoned for thousands of years and stayed in Huangquan alone.Obviously, he went through the eighth hell to save her, but when he saw her face that had been corroded by Huang Quan, he turned around and ran away, no matter how hard she tried to keep her, she didn't want to stop one more step.

This is the last curse left to her by the person she adores.

"Yes, I'm sorry, Miss Shiya didn't want to become like this, I shouldn't..."

But Jasmine is different.

It's just an ordinary child who can't even be seen by spirit ghosts, yet so pure and kind.

Seeing her trembling with fear, but still trying to get close to her again, Izanami's intact half of his face burst into tears.

If only... If only he was the same as Jasmine back then.Even if he couldn't take her away, even if he gave up on her in the end, as long as, as long as this sentence is enough.

"I have been, have been waiting, waiting for someone to say this to me... Thank you, Jasmine, thank you very much."

You really are the man of my destiny.

"But I promise, even if you enter my kingdom of God, I will not let you become like this. You will always be what you are now, unchanged for thousands or thousands of years."

She blinked away her tears, and smiled at Jasmine again:

"So Jasmine too, come with me."

Let's go together, to the other shore, to the eternal resting place, to her divine kingdom.

She dismissed those who wanted to grab her.

What she wants to catch, but never looks back.

Therefore, it seems that there is nothing wrong with following Miss Shimi to the land of the underworld.

After all, on this shore, there is no longer her——

She slowly raised her right hand, abandoned the last golden light of the sky, and stretched out towards the terrifying hand that made her feel inexplicably at ease.

"Don't go! Jasmine too!"

Familiar with the bone-piercing voice, a huge storm exploded a few meters behind him.The strong wind pressure mercilessly tore her skirt and broke a few strands of her long hair, but before it touched her skin, it turned into a thousand gentle winds, blowing past her face.

The hand that was hovering in mid-air stopped there stiffly, unable to take it back, but also unable to drop it.

The one who can easily influence her, change her, and throw her heart into chaos——

"You promised me that you would not accept any invitation from the gods, you would not go to the Kingdom of God, and you would stay by my side forever!"

Jasmine also tightly held the green gem on her chest, resisting the unstoppable trembling all over her body, and slowly turned around.The red hairband seemed unable to withstand her difficult movements at the moment, and she couldn't hold on to the end.It slipped loosely from her hair, was lifted up by the wind, entangled and left her slightly messy hair, but floated onto that person just right.

In the flying hair, in the blurred vision soaked in tears, she met the man's golden and red eyes.In just a split second, the entire soul shook violently.

"Zheng...jun..."

Even standing in the darkness, he is still as dazzling as the stars and the moon.

Yes, to her, he is more precious than the world.

but--

"A promise like this... is doomed to fail."

The author has something to say: the more you want to write well, the more you will get stuck...

May be reworked.

Probably the next chapter will start to close the blade, and the dawn is ahead.