12 years after graduation, I want to get married

I had an examination for Bai Jin 12 years ago. At that time, I thought that I would never have any contact with Bai Jin again. Not only did I keep a distance from him, I entered the outermost spiritual world, and I was immediately driven out by Bai Jin.

After 12 years, I came to his spiritual world again.

Without the big eyeballs of the calamity whale to block the view, the scene in front of me overlapped with the dream I had in the medical area of ​​the 62 ship: coastal beaches and several reefs and sandstones.

I sort of understood what was going on back then.There are only five days left before returning to school, and Bai Jin has been slow to come to the medical area for an examination; I was emotionally unstable when I fell into a dream, and my mental power thread had a brief contact with Bai Jin, and the plot of the dream was transferred from the roommate Mr. his spiritual world.As the parties involved, Bai Jin and I knew nothing about this.

The fine sand on the bottom of my feet raised a thin layer as I walked forward, kicking off the dry sand on the surface. The dark sandy soil is the graveyard of rotten fish, shrimp, clam and crab; I walked a short distance of ten meters, The calf and the instep were covered with white sand, which seemed to be sucking the moisture from my skin. After I wiped off some sand with my hands, a layer of scaly dead skin had formed on my legs.

The gentle sea breeze carried the smell of salt and evaporating moisture—the hot sun above actively took life on the beach, and the rising fog seemed to be a kind of frosted glass filter, blurring everything I could see.

Hot, wet, dry, stuffy.The sky and the sea form a huge steamer, and I am a living creature in the steamer.

It's a bit like playing a holographic game with your roommate Mr. S and straying into the monsoon desert. The extreme and abnormal temperature and humidity can't be described clearly unless you are also on the scene.

I thought of Dr. Fu's description again: calm and calm like a shallow sea resort.

Then Bai Jin's control over his mental power and self-healing ability are too strong.He hadn't had a guide see the spiritual world for nine years, but his condition was just that...unexpected.

I wouldn't intentionally hope that Bai Jin would be terminally ill so he could show his skills, but as far as I can see, in the spiritual world of all the sentries I've seen, his condition is still considered good, or passed.

I'm a little dissatisfied, it's because I'm unreasonable, it's because of my dark and dirty thoughts.

Gu Chengyan, Gu Chengyan, don’t think too badly about everything. Bai Jin has been taken care of by his grandmother with S+ mental power for many years since he was born. His mental power is not lively, and everything in his vision is reasonable.

I finally reached the beach, and my feet were blistered by the scalding sea water; I stepped back quickly and jumped on the increasingly hot sand.

I carefully released a ray of mental power to dissipate the overheated soles of my feet.

Nothing unusual.

It stands to reason that the illnesses in the outer spiritual world are not as complicated as those in the inner one, but Bai Jin is so worried about me, I just want to restore his outer layer and leave.The outer layer is fine, and the inner layer will not have too many problems; besides, no one's spiritual world is completely healthy, even if we are guides, there will be slight changes with the daily encounters.

The hand with my spiritual power reached into the bubbling sea water and was instantly digested by it; the hand without barrier protection was wrinkled and bled in the boiling water, the pink and white nails fell off and floated on the water surface, and the black and purple flesh and blood exuded Strange taste; these changes were only for a moment, and then I input mental power to protect the hands and arms that no longer needed protection.

A steady stream of spiritual power enters the sea, the water temperature is gradually dropping, and the sea breeze is gradually becoming humid and cool...

Well, Baijin seems to be suffering from one of the thirty subcategories of chronic mental inflammation, which is almost the same as the clinical manifestations described in textbooks.

That's great, but that's all.

Is that all?

I once made a big mistake in treating Sentinel's spiritual world by "adding to the snake". The professor at the school severely criticized me, and I corrected it long ago—suppressed the habit—but seeing Bai Jin injured today gave me a big shock , I subconsciously feel that Baijin belongs to me, and I can take advantage of the opportunity——

After Baijin's spiritual world stabilized, I continued to input spiritual power, condensed and divided it, and tied knots with spiritual power in the field of vision that only I could see. There are six knots in total, and the distance between each knot was calculated on the spot. precise numbers.

The element of mystery is enhanced by simulating the knotting ritual of ancient humans, and sentinels are the sentinels and guides in the atavistic ancient human race; that is, the knotting of spiritual power is an immediately effective form of healing.

Endow spiritual power with visible and tactile characteristics, and fully grasp the spiritual power of compression and multiplication, so as to achieve the desired level... The teachers of my junior college were amazed at the performance of my 11-year-old genetic evolution. He encouraged me to continue to develop my abilities, and enthusiastically taught me many controversial techniques that were not allowed in the university year after year... and it took half a semester for the clinical practice professor of Sui Sui to find out that I had been using the "amplification" method to dig out sentinels Potential disorders of the spiritual world.

"Student Gu Chengyan, you can't do this in the future. The clinical subjects found by the school, these sentinels only agree to us to treat the abnormalities they show, you can't dig out what they subconsciously buried for the so-called exercise ability-in fact, just wait , will always surface, then you are qualified to treat, understand? You are just a student, you think you are his bonding guide? Even if you are a bonding guide, why do you go against the will of the patient? You simply There is no discipline, and I don’t know how to write the word respect!"

……

I haven't done that in years, maybe 15 years.

You can criticize me, you should criticize me, I know I'm getting carried away, and I take Baijin for granted.

I waited patiently, and soon I saw some dark spots appearing on the sea in the distance.

I am a person with a bad personality, saying that I may be the chief of the year, but I let my desire for treatment do such a thing.I am more morally corrupt than all of Shousui's classmates. I am not a member of the Guild Guild, so why can I perform a technique that is still controversial?I really won't do this again in the future.

I will always be docile to the one I love, but at this moment, I got into a corner and hit the idea of ​​the man I love the most.

I thought I was touching Baijin's heart.

The black dots are approaching me, they... no, they are floating on the surface of the water with gray and black faces.

I have only met a few people on the resurrection ship so far, and I have confirmed that the first officer, second officer, O'Neill and others are alive.

Until I saw their corpses in Baijin's spiritual world, oh, it turned out that some of the crew members I had treated had passed away.

Most of them were between 25 and 30 to [-] years old, from the excellent Sentinel Academy, innocent and straightforward, with outstanding abilities, but died at a regrettable youthful age.

More than half of my doubts were removed.

Bai Jin took the crew's death as his own burden.He's a good captain, always has been.

I was "reading" an excerpt from "The Epic of the Plains of Xiko" in the Korono language, which is recognized by academic circles as the language closest to the source civilization of human beings.

When the bare-armed goddess HEL'KLH drives the ox cart,

VON'ES stopped the sword that was stabbing at AL'OFH, son of the demigod.

He understands which side the balance of God is leaning on,

Don't dare to flee the battlefield with resentment.

When FUS'NH, the god of wisdom and goodness, burst into tears,

The solo giant sitting on the body of the brave GOK'IE broke his neck.

The soul left his box,

Guide him back to his hometown and put his head on the poplar tree in the east.

……

Manifesting and singing the poems of the age of gods with the energy of spiritual power, absorbing the subtle and invisible mysteries in them.

I did the same thing and removed the skulls buried in the sand. These skulls were like the Zhizhe people described by Bai Jin. The place where the brain was once contained was like a full spherical water scoop. disappear.

This is not to say that I eliminated Bai Jin's guilt, but that I treated the negative influence of his emotions on his mental state.

Everything worked out.

I glanced at the reefs isolated from the sea.He lowered his head and "looked" at his bloody hands and blistered feet.

The brackish sea breeze blows, bringing the tide of the sea.

The sky is blue, the water is green, the sand is white and the waves are white.

It's so good, calm and calm like a resort.There are no living things.

I withdrew from Baijin's spiritual world.

It seemed that Bai Jin's eyes would return to their original deep blue color after another night.

I can guarantee that he will not lose control of his emotions for quite a while.

But I just felt angry and sad, and wanted to punch Bai Jin in the face.

He is the devil who guards the dark and oppressive secret room, and I am the brave man who accidentally broke into it uninvited.

The indoor atmosphere is half hot and half cold, Baijin is hot, and I am cold.

"Is it fun to lie to me?"

I questioned him with a bad tone, cold and harsh.I felt that the blood in my limbs and bones was condensed and frozen, only the hot and sour tears accumulated and hibernated in my eye sockets.I can only keep my eyes wide open, wide open, to avoid the disappointing tears at this moment.

Bai Jin was stunned for a moment, then calmly comforted me: "...you saw those crew members—"

I twitched the corners of my mouth and looked at my sentinel in the orange light.

"Bai Jin." I blinked my stinging and hot eyes, and hot tears kept sliding down my cheeks. "Baijin, you—" I let him wipe away my tears, feeling lonely and helpless as if my heart was torn apart.

Did he see me as a union guide?

Why did he lie to me.

am i a monkeyHe watched me do this and that nervously in the spiritual world, self-righteous, smart, and self-defeating.

"You—" I once wanted to say a lot of hurtful things, wanted to crazily call him disgusting, and wanted to pour out my sadness, but in the end I still couldn't give up.I said that I will not have a cold face in front of Bai Jin for more than 1 minute, I said that he loves me and I love him is enough...so I am too greedy..."Don't talk, let me calm down. "

I pushed Bai Jin away, and sat in a dark corner with my hands on my knees.

In fact, I haven't entered Baijin's spiritual world yet.

I'm afraid no one has seen Bai Jin's spiritual world.

"Did you do it on purpose?" My words startled me, and my tone was resentful like a ghost possessed.

"what?"

I know that Bai Jin hasn't discovered the reason for my anger, so he acted so innocently, but I——

Bai Jin stood up holding the healing device, he gave up obeying my instructions, and stood in front of me to block all the light.

"Baijin, do you know that you have created a completely false spiritual world?"

Bai Jin's face was hidden in the darkness, I was a little out of oxygen, and couldn't keep raising my head to catch his expression.

"You know it. When did you start building it? How many people have you lied to? Including your grandmother?...Dr. Fu and I described your spiritual world before, and I said 'whales will run aground in shallow seas' , I was—”

"I... know." Bai Jin said with difficulty, "but I... I don't want you to see the spirit body."

"I fucking said I wouldn't see you!" I swear in front of him for the first time.

"It's not as simple as you think—"

"Then you make it clear, say it now, and I will listen."

Bai Jin seemed to be enduring some kind of pain. I vaguely saw the outline of his body swaying, and then heard him explain intermittently: "I evolved genetically when I was ten years old. You know, the spiritual world is finalized after evolution. I was born because of My father was deeply disturbed, and my mother loved my father more than me, and she immediately accepted her younger brother Bai Qian without any obstacles; my grandfather did not approve of our parents' marriage, and he hated our family; Come see me. I'm sometimes puzzled why my grandmother tells me so much about the doomed white whale when everyone else thinks it's just a white whale.

"...Since everyone isolated me and told me that I was doomed to be alone, why did you let them see my secret... It's a naive idea of ​​revenge....Stop crying, okay, my eyes are going to be swollen from crying... etc. I realized that I already had a layer of spiritual world to protect me. Grandma is a combined S+ level guide and is related to me by blood, and she has never noticed anything abnormal. It is my fault, you are not someone else, I excepted you The person Sentinel Gene also likes——I was going to use it to perfuse you because I was in a daze."

I patted my numb cheeks, stopped Bai Jin from admitting his mistake and said, "Stop talking. I'm not angry. Really."

"Gu, Gu Chengyan." Bai Jin panicked, he couldn't squat down holding the healing device, but he still wanted to touch me and comfort me.

I smelled the bloody smell from Bai Jin's body again.

"Really, I'm not angry." In fact, I was so angry that I wanted to blow Bai Jin's head off.

I said that if you still want to fall in love with me, just make up for my request.

"Okay... what is it?"

"I'm going to enter your spiritual world again - the real outer layer."

Bai Jin tore off the healing device and threw it violently on the ground, then he knelt down/hugged me, and said yes in a hoarse voice.

I smelled the smell of fresh blood, and my heart softened and I didn't ask him what was so complicated about "things are not as simple as I thought".

It's a good thing I didn't ask, otherwise I would kill Bai Jin.

Later, on the anniversary of our marriage, Bai Jin and I recalled bitterness and sweetness. I said that I was too angry, and I continued to discover symptoms without your consent. Say no, so many years have passed.

I've got a pretty good temper, haven't I?