【Double Black】As You Like It

The two of them are now in the position of rescuing a poor man who fell off a cliff. Nakahara is also holding Dazai Osamu's hand tightly, but the platform he is on is also crumbling due to the previous explosion, tilted at an angle, It always feels like he's going to slide down even when he's lying on his stomach.

Even if the roof of a 32-story office building collapses, it will still be as high as 31 floors. If it falls, there will be no bones left.His body is now lying on the edge of the slope, holding Dazai Osamu's hand, and the other party is hanging in mid-air.

The injury on his waist that hit the steel bar when he jumped down was painful, but there is no way to deal with the pain. At this time, he can only bear it. The platform of this slope is actually a piece of broken ground. Who knows when it will be with him. It fell, after all, the load-bearing walls of the roof collapsed.

No matter how thin Dazai was, he was still a grown man. Chuya Nakahara, who weighed 130 pounds, had his waist wounds open, but it was impossible for him to let go, even if his waist muscles were broken.

If it is an individual, just anyone, as long as Zhongyuanzhong also uses the ability, it will save his life in minutes, but Dazai Osamu is different, it happens to be Dazai Osamu, and there is no clothing blocking the fingers, which causes gravity. The ability can't be used at all, and the two of them can only hang around here.

Taking a step back, even for Osamu Dazai, as long as both of them are not seriously injured, it is really only a matter of time before they are pulled up, but Chuya Nakahara is in a tattered body now, let alone fell from the rooftop. When he got down, just grabbing the opponent's hand at the critical moment was the result of him ignoring the steel bars inserted into the flesh, running over with all his strength and at the fastest speed.

And he almost missed the brakes and slipped off the platform with Osamu Dazai.

The people above should have died a long time ago. Osamu Dazai, who was grasped by him, woke up groggy. The other party showed that he looked up at him, and then looked down. The streets below are full of traffic, as long as you fall, it is impossible to survive.

So Osamu Dazai smiled at him and said, Chuya, let go if you can't stand it.

He was lying on the edge of the fault, and the other finger firmly grasped the cut surface of the stone slab, so as not to let him slide down due to the weight of the body due to the inclined angle.

The blood dripping from his forehead dripped onto Dazai Osamu's face, but the other party just looked at him with a smile and repeated what he said before.

"Chuya, why don't you let go."

It's a declarative sentence, not an interrogative sentence, but Chuya Nakahara just fucking wants to curse right now.

I have worked so hard to save you, now you are going to kill me now.Damn Osamu Dazai, can you speak a human language? !

He seemed to be about to say something, but Osamu Dazai seemed to know it already. The other party was hanging in the air and he held hands tightly, and then he squinted his eyes and looked at the sky and said to him.

"Chuya, your waist is about to break. If your arm bears such a heavy load, the muscles and tendons on the other side may be broken. Besides, you hurt your head when you fell. My you are not Aragami at all, and you are not even a cadre of the port mafia when you are seriously injured. If this continues, both of us will fall. But Chuya definitely doesn’t want to die, I know you are better than anyone else Enjoy life, so just satisfy me, let go and let me fall."

He was so angry that he rubbed his forehead with his arm, and let the blood from the wound stick out and hit the opponent's face tick-tock, regardless of whether he was pressing his lungs or not, he lowered his head and yelled at the opponent.

"Shut up Laozi!"

"I'm serious, Zhongya, you can see that the load-bearing wall of the roof on this floor has collapsed, and now the ground is broken, and it has not fallen down here because the steel bars inside are not broken, but you see such a big one. A few steel bars on the first-floor platform will definitely not hold up, and it’s only a matter of time before they fall, so it’s better to live with one of us than to die together, right?”

"Didn't you curse me to die every day before! Why don't you want me to live again now!"

The other party seemed to be taken aback when he heard his words, but then laughed again.

"No way." Osamu Dazai said softly, "You must have misremembered."

The opponent's hand was still so cold, as cold as an iceberg frozen on the sea below the North Pole, and this person's eyes were opening and closing as if they would fall asleep in a second.

He was so anxious that he couldn't even utter any curse words at this moment, his mind was full of words that wanted to wake up Dazai Osamu, but when it came to his mouth, he couldn't say anything.His mind is confused, he can't figure out what to do now, he even throws away the idea of ​​why the port mafia hasn't come yet, now he just wants to let Osamu Dazai live, and he must let the other party live .

Even if the other party says to fulfill his wish now, Zhong Yuanzhong doesn't want to fulfill it.

Why does he want to be perfect, why does he want to be perfect?

He is not a god wished by Osamu Dazai, not a mechanism that should satisfy his wish. Even knowing that this kind of death is the end of the other party's willingness, and even rushing to, he still wants to pull Dazai Osamu's hand at the end, so that The other side can never reach the other side.

Is it bad to live?

Well, it's good, but for Osamu Dazai, maybe it's not so good.

He understands, he understands everything, and he understands, everything.

It is clear that all these good things are burning karma for this person. The raging flames soared into the sky, burning away all those desires and wishes, leaving nothing, even burning in Dazai. In Zhi's eyes, everything in the world is the nourishment of loneliness, nourishing the food that is so huge that it cannot be described in words becomes more and more spectacular.

Perhaps the other party just couldn't feel a little bit of warmth in this flood-like world, and that's why he was so infinitely close to death.

He thought long, long ago, if Osamu Dazai really wanted to die, why did they stop him with the reason of 'I'm for your own good'? There is no cure.

This kind of "self-righteousness" idea itself is unreasonable. If you think it is good, you think it is good for others. The suicide behaviors of Osamu Dazai in the past were not moaning out of illness, nor were they attracting attention, but really hoped for himself. Dead and wounded all over.

Occasionally Nakahara also thought about it, since he knew everything, why he never really let Osamu Dazai go.

Don't save him, don't visit him, don't care about him.

Watching from the sidelines, looking at each other with cold eyes, I watched this man raise a knife to die in front of me, I watched Dazai Osamu cut his arm with a smile, and lay in the bathtub full of water to bleed to death.

He really didn't think about it, because they knew each other so well, they knew that he understood what Dazai Osamu looked like when he really wanted to die, and he knew that the other party could also know whether he would recognize the omen of suicide.

Everyone knows the reason.

Zhong Yuanzhong also understood that he should not interfere with a person's self-will.

For Osamu Dazai, death is something he dreams of, something he is really willing to get. wrong.

From the age of 15, he knew that what he did was wrong.

But now after seven years, Zhongyuan Zhong also feels that he still hasn't made any progress at all, things he understood when he was young, but he hasn't made any changes until now.

He clearly understood that it was true, but it was also true that he didn't want the other party to die from the bottom of his heart.

This is the only selfishness he has never told anyone, and never wants anyone to know.

Therefore, out of this despicable selfishness, Zhongyuan Zhong really never let go.Perhaps this is the time when Osamu Dazai is the closest to death, but Nakahara Chuya also wants to close that door fiercely, the door that can make Osamu Dazai die.

But to put it bluntly, why don't you want Osamu Dazai to die?

He pursed his lips and didn't speak, but just stared at the other party tightly, not intending to let go.

Even if he stretched out his hand to hold the opponent's arm, which was the injured side of the waist, even if he carried the weight of an adult man with one hand and caused the wound to tear and press the internal organs on the ground, he felt dislocated, he didn't intend to let go.

Alive, alive Osamu Dazai, has warmth.

The stones above the head seemed to be about to fall, and the debris fell a little bit on the sloping stone slab they were on, and after falling, they fell to the bottom of the building along the sloping direction.

Osamu Dazai saw that he still didn't intend to let go, so he began to shake his body, trying to beg him to pull him in this way, but Nakahara Chuya still held it tightly, and his own extreme operation was very tight. , but at this time, he didn't care about anything else, took a deep breath and shouted at the other party.

"Osamu Dazai! Fuck you! Don't make trouble with me!"

"I'm not making trouble, am I trying to find a way to complete the optimal solution?"

"What bullshit is the best solution?!"

"It's you who survive, and I die."

The other party's eyes were so deep that it seemed that they couldn't get in the light of the sky, even though the sun was out today, it brought a tinge of coldness.

That's something he didn't know, the strange gaze, it doesn't look like the broken pot that the other party was still immersed in the darkness and mud when they were in the port mafia, nor does it seem that they got rid of the shackles and put on a layer of skin later The hypocrisy, but it should be called the heaviness of being immersed in it and never getting out.

Nakahara Chuya was stunned by this look alone, he was thinking, maybe something happened to Osamu Dazai before he knew it, but he couldn't tell what it was, just such a look, let him He felt even worse.

Osamu Dazai always brings strange emotions to him.

Whether it's uncomfortable or choked up, no one can imagine that a mafia cadre who is too strong to be human will always be affected by one person.

He is obviously a stable and reliable type, but he will become very angry whenever he sees someone, and he obviously doesn't care about life and death, but he will only fight against life and death because of one person.

He still remembered the words they said back then, very clearly, and never forgot.Osamu Dazai said to him, God loves the world, and under such circumstances, selfless dedication is not precious at all, because everyone has it and everyone can get it, and things that are so common that they are cheap and so cheap that they are so precious will not make people cherish.

He thought maybe this is the case, he may really care too much about Osamu Dazai, he cares so much that he pays attention to him all the time, he doesn't look away every minute and every second, the love of God projected on him is already too much To the point where it can be ignored, it becomes a part of life, never to be noticed again.

He never paid attention, and Osamu Dazai never paid attention.

When you really notice something, it doesn't matter.

Because from the very beginning, Zhongyuanzhong never expected to get anything from the other party.To keep in mind, does not necessarily have to have an echo.For everything he gave, he never expected any response.

It's just, just a simple hope that Osamu Dazai can live.

It doesn't matter if you live in pain, or you live in heart-piercing pain.That ugly and despicable selfishness just made Zhongyuan Zhong also hope that he could touch warm people.Warm, soft, talking and laughing, angry and jumping, even if you always love him, it doesn't matter even if you always say you hate him.He is so selfish, even if he doesn't meet each other all the time, as long as he knows that Osamu Dazai is still alive, he can suffer and let his selfishness pull him.

Saying don't care, is it possible?

When he was 15 years old, when he stomped this person on the ground and kicked his head, he knew that Nie Yuan was all fucking Nie Yuan.

Osamu Dazai, I owe you.

"I'll go to your best solution!"

Zhong Yuan also shouted at the other party with a mouthful of blood in his mouth.

"The best solution for me is that you just stay still and let me pull you up!"

"But Chuya, the tendon in your arm has ruptured, doesn't it hurt if you still hang here without using your strength?"

"It's my business to hurt, shut up!"

"Why don't you let go? It's nothing to you if I die, right?" Osamu Dazai said slowly, without any sense of urgency in their current situation, just like two people sitting in a coffee shop and chatting slowly tone of time.

"Anyway, I'm not your partner anymore, and logically we are now hostile forces-ah, I forgot that the Armed Detective Agency has a truce with the Port Mafia, but it's okay, wait until there is a conflict of interest It's the same. On the contrary, my death is good news for you, or for Mori Ogai."

He doesn't even want to think about the fact that Osamu Dazai called Mori Ogai instead of using an honorific title. He just gritted his teeth and insisted not to let go of his hand. It is really too difficult to maintain this movement, just like Osamu Dazai Speaking of which, the tendon in his arm was ruptured, and he basically didn't need any strength. It took extremely strong willpower to let himself go just by holding on to Osamu Dazai.It really won't work if it goes on like this for a long time. First, he will not be able to catch people, and second, who knows that this platform will fall.

"To shut up."

"You know I'm right, Chuya."

"Shut up for me!"

Generally speaking, the two of them have never been injured so badly. Even if it was the disaster of the dragon head war before, when they killed a dragon with a building, it was only because of the pollution that the body was damaged, and they were sent to the hospital afterwards. treat.No matter how difficult the dragon was, it was just one person's supernatural ability, but this time, all the injuries were caused by hundreds of supernatural beings. Injuries added to each other, and no one came to rescue them, resulting in no disadvantages. It's rare for the two of you to be deflated, and if this deflation continues, it will really be irreparable.

He didn't want this, really didn't want this.

"Chuya, I think you understand?"

"what do you know?!"

"I'm not 'me'." Osamu Dazai said softly, squinting his eyes and gave him a plausible smile. The smile was bright, but it could be seen that the smile was fake, "I am indeed Osamu Dazai, But it's not the Osamu Dazai you know, you know that?"

Zhong Yuanzhong also opened his eyes wide, but he was not very surprised. He did know, it should be said that he knew it from the very beginning.

"Since you know everything, why don't you let go, is it just because it's 'Dazai Osamu', who is the same to you?"

This sentence is a bit problematic, even a little questioning.In essence, it is a bit too much to be able to ask this sentence, and there is even a hint of condemnation in it.

Osamu Dazai thought that Nakahara would also hesitate, and would let go after hesitation, but who knew that Nakahara just lowered his eyes and answered this question without much pause.

"Yes."

he said yes.

"To me, you are all Osamu Dazai, to me you are all the same."

He stared closely at the other party's pupils that shrank from shock and continued, "As long as it is Osamu Dazai, no matter what I have experienced, I will not be surprised, and I can understand no matter what thoughts I have. Obviously different, I also feel that this is indeed 'you'."

"Is it obvious? I thought I was perfect in pretending to be him."

"Oh, it's okay to lie to others, but it's fine to lie to me."

When they said this, the broken load-bearing wall of the roof finally couldn't bear it and collapsed, and the platform they were on finally began to slope down and slide.But it was precisely because of this that Nakahara saw a broken window below. Before they really fell, he exhausted all his strength and threw Osamu Dazai towards the window of the room on the first floor downstairs. .

When he fell, there were broken stones around him, and Nakahara Chuya slid down with his head upside down. He opened his eyes and watched Osamu Dazai being thrown in by him and lying on the floor, and then fell down with a long sigh of relief. .