【Double Black】As You Like It

Nakahara Chuya didn't react to Dazai Osamu's words at first, or he never thought that this person could say such words at all.

No matter how you think about it, it doesn't seem like a joke that the other party can say to him, because the meaning in it is very obvious, and it is understandable to say this kind of flirting joke to anyone, except him.

The two of them haven't said anything similar since a long time ago, even though they passed through each other's clothes, lay on the same bed, and even tasted each other's blood at some point, there was only similar ridicule in language It is absolutely impossible to make jokes.

Maybe it's because everyone is ashamed to face some of their own thoughts and intentions, or never intend to say it.To talk about the past, Chuya Nakahara held back for seven years and never said anything. No one can see any way from the relationship between him and Osamu Dazai.

Even Mori Ogai and Dazai Osamu were not immune to this.

It's not that the observation skills of these two are low, but that Nakahara Chuya's handling of emotions has never been the same as ordinary people.

It can also be said that he himself is not human.

From the very beginning, there was no evasive thought about this fact. Chuya Nakahara himself was loyal to the facts and to himself.Whether he is a 'human being' does not affect his living as a 'human being'.

The concept represented by "man" is not just a mere manifestation of body and soul, its biological intention is also in line with its current form in a certain level, but its inherent essence is different from other human beings. ordinary human.He has a deified part, and there are things that do not belong to him.This reality of being separated from the birth form of "human" from the source makes Zhongyuan Zhongye have his own different views on many things even though he lives as a "human" and in the same way.

Usually silent, more humane than any mafia, know what is good and what is evil, and know how to distinguish between morality and some sophistry arguments.Being able to think about others, he has a steelyard in his heart, and even when killing people, he knows what kind of person should kill what kind of innocent person.Right and wrong, good and evil are not clear. Osamu Dazai used to laugh at him as a dead-headed man, but after all these years, the dead-headed man has not been obsessed with evil karma, on the contrary, he has seen it clearly from the very beginning so he doesn't care .

The other party has always said that he hates the intuitive type, but on the other hand, Zhongyuan Zhong also hates the tactical type the most.The two of them looked at each other and hated each other as if they were created in heaven. Even their likes and hobbies could directly turn around to avoid the one they were most willing to contact with each other, and then poked at the one they hated the most.

So, sometimes the most hated is the one who knows the most.

Others said that Osamu Dazai wanted to die because he didn't understand the world so he couldn't see those pleasant things, but Zhongya Nakahara knew that this person's wish to die was so real, and that bit of loneliness was like gnashing his teeth and claws at him. Everyone says 'look I'm so-so-alone'.But it seems that everyone turns a blind eye to it, and no one cares about it, or even if they know it, they care about it, but they never intend to step into it, and they just stand outside the edge to listen and watch.

Like him, like everyone else.

In fact, I knew it when I was young, but the young man was very high-spirited. Even though he knew that Osamu Dazai had a strong desire to die, he was always unable to speak.

What do you say?Say 'it's not that lonely, isn't it full of people'?Or do you say, "I'm not thinking about it, isn't I accompanying you"?

Said the former Osamu Dazai would call him an idiot, said the latter Dazai Osamu would call him an idiot, and in one sentence, did you go out and your head was squeezed by the door.He is neither a fool nor an idiot to go out, nor will he be squeezed by the door.So I didn't say what I wanted to say 800 years ago, and I didn't do what I wanted to do.

Although Osamu Dazai himself has never said anything about the fact that he is not a 'human', Nakahara Chuya knows that the other party still has such a sense of superiority.This sense of superiority does not make him go into a dead end, but it does make him care.

And it doesn't matter if this person is someone else, but it's him Dazai Osamu who makes people pay more attention.

But his care will only be shown when the other party yells the word 'dog', and it's not obvious.The feeling of "I know you hate me" probably runs through the whole relationship between the two people, and it has existed since the first sight when they met when they were 15 years old.After more than seven years of eloquence, he still hasn't smoothed it out, so he naturally didn't let anyone know about the feelings that were unknown to outsiders that were brewing in the Central Plains.

It is said that they have detailed views on many things that are different from normal human beings, but in the final analysis, the way to cover up the truth of a thing is 90.00% of the truth and [-]% of the false, and most of the other behaviors are reasonable, so then A little bit of unhappiness is naturally easy to cover up.

In addition, if it is Osamu Dazai, he does not need special treatment, as usual, it is basically enough.

After all, from the very beginning, Zhongyuanzhong never thought about the result.

He and the Black Lizard people often drink alcohol, so they discussed many topics with Hirotsu Yananami, Akutagawa Ryunosuke, and Higuchi Ichiyo.However, because Akutagawa Ryunosuke's obsession with Dazai Osamu is so strong that the topic always goes on and becomes Dazai Osamu, which once made him and Hirotsu Yanagi very upset.

No one knows where the topic of drinking will go, but the only certainty is that it is uncontrollable.When the four of them raised their glasses together and said, 'Osamu Dazai is not suitable for a relationship at all', Nakahara Nakaya realized what the hell they were talking about.

Chuya Nakahara: I think we should think about what we are talking about now?

Ichiyo Higuchi: Aren’t we talking about whether Osamu Dazai is suitable for a relationship?

Nakahara Chuya: Why do we have to discuss whether he is suitable for a relationship? ! !

Guangjin Liulang: Ah... this is really... but I don't think it's appropriate.

Chuya Nakahara: So why? !Who started it? !Why is it Dazai again! ?

Akutagawa Ryunosuke: Which woman can be with Mr. Dazai!I don't allow it!

Chuya Nakahara: I knew it!Akutagawa!you again!

He was very sad. I covered my face, and then kicked Akutagawa Ryunosuke out of their conversation circle. Higuchi Ichiyo wanted to follow in the past with heartache, but it is basically difficult to go on without women's participation in the topic of falling in love. So Nakahara Nakaya, who was drunk, directly pressed the person on the chair, and ordered Akutagawa Ryunosuke to sleep on the side with a hammer on the table.

So a man who belongs to himself, a woman who has his heart to belong to, and an old man who does not belong to each other start to sit together with the strength of the wine on their heads and talk about betraying Hong Kong black 800 years ago and running to other places. Osamu Dazai, who went ashore to wash his white clothes and lived a chic life, is he suitable for a relationship.

Maybe it's because she has been abused too much by Akutagawa Ryunosuke. Higuchi Ichiyo, a talented elite woman, slapped the table and said, no, no, it's not suitable. That person looks like a black and black, and his behavior is laughing and joking. Playing around, talking and doing things in a nonsensical way, very inconspicuous, at first glance, he is a person who has no sense of responsibility for people and feelings!Look at his poor Akutagawa-sama!Look at this poor Mr. Chuya!This has harmed tens of thousands of innocent girls. This is definitely not a good person.

Chuya Nakahara slapped the table and he was right!After the filming, I remembered what I was doing, and I was not abused by his Dazai. Now I am happy and comfortable without him. I don’t need to do two labors by myself, I don’t need to be brainwashed by onlyyou in the middle of the night, and I don’t need to do it every day. Dragging a dead man to work and getting a call from a strange woman without walking down the street.It's like a free person can sing a song of freedom for you when you stand up, and when you finish speaking, you have to climb up on the table and be plucked down by Guangjin Liulang's quick eyes and hands.

Hirotsu Liulang said that there is no way, Mr. Dazai has this kind of character, otherwise why does this face look so white and light and delicate, so many girls have been fooled, but none of them really have a relationship with him?This man lost his money and committed suicide if he had nothing to do, which girl could have a crush on Mr. Dazai?

Akutagawa Ryunosuke seemed to have something to say, and Nakahara Nakaya poured a glass of wine into the other party's mouth, meaning that you just drink it and don't make a sound. The three of them got together and executed Dazai Osamu over and over again.

But leaving this matter aside, just talking about Nakahara Chuya's own understanding of Osamu Dazai, he knows that this is a person who cannot be entrusted at all, because there is no possibility.

This world is not attractive to the other party at all, even if they intend to help the good one because of the previous incident, but because there is no difference between the two sides, both sides are the same, and they chose the wishes of their friends before they died.If he could choose, he would even think that the other party would not go to either side, but would choose to die.

Can't cook, can't do housework, is too lazy to go to work, and likes to touch fish. He has a good brain, but he always uses it in strange places. If he doesn't set foot in his territory, he won't care about the life and death of others, and he won't do bad things in front of his eyes. She doesn't seem to care about anything.Rather than saying that Osamu Dazai himself wants to be a good person, it is better to say that everyone pushes him to be a good person.

He will invite beautiful ladies passing by to die in love, regardless of whether he likes it or not.Sometimes he wonders if this person can be anyone, as long as they die together, they don't choose a partner.But probably not, after all Osamu Dazai said it himself, it’s okay to be with anyone, but not with you.

Judging from the current situation, it is simply not a person who can fall in love, live a good life, and get married well.

To put it simply, it is impossible to imagine who such a person will live with until old age.It's not even possible to make the type of assumption that the other party will step into the marriage hall.

The ending of the reception ended successfully under this conclusion, and the three agreed together that Osamu Dazai would definitely die alone with his mother and fetus.

It is precisely because of this that Nakahara never thought about letting Osamu Dazai know his feelings, nor did he ever plan to be with the other party.

He knows the meaning of love and marriage, and understands that these things are part of a complete life in the eyes of most people.But Zhongyuan Zhong didn't think much of it.

Even though he is working very hard to live as a 'person', he has never expected love and marriage in essence. Objectively speaking, his inhuman nature makes it difficult for him to have someone who can accept him. Love may You don’t need to think so much, but marriage is different. Marriage is about running in, living together, raising children, and dying together.Anyway, Zhongyuan Zhong couldn't think of such a woman who could first accept that he was not a human being, and then accept his job as a port mafia cadre, accept the fact that he had killed someone, and accept the possibility that he might die outside one day.

And subjectively, the first person he has a tendency to is Osamu Dazai.The object is that the other party is both good and bad. The bad point is that there is no future. The good point is that from this moment on, the steps after falling in love, including the steps of falling in love, can be directly omitted, because it is completely unnecessary.

Impossible, no more text.

So, that's all there is to it.

Likes are always a matter of one person, if the other person does not need to know, then it is a person.

It should be said that Nakahara also likes Osamu Dazai to draw something, but he really doesn't want to.One doesn't need to confess to the other party, and two doesn't want to be with this person.All in all, it is his personal behavior. In the end, why I like him is actually not clear.

I always feel that if I confess, I will definitely be laughed at for the rest of my life, not to mention falling in love with someone I have hated for a long time, let alone being together, the thought of this possibility makes Zhong Yuanzhong uncomfortable.He thought that he and Dazai Zhi had a hard time, you took your single-plank bridge, and I took my own way. If they really got together again, wouldn’t they become free labor again?

If you think about it like this, just keep the status quo and love it, he doesn't have the mentality of "I like it so I have to talk" and "I love it so I have to get it" that most human beings need.He thinks very thoroughly. If I like it, I like it silently. I can live my life as I want. If I don’t like it, then I don’t like it. He Dazai will not lose a piece of meat.

Many people said that compared to Osamu Dazai, he was more like an individual, or that he was more universal and common-sense than his psychotic thinking.He very much agrees with this point, but most of the time his own perspective is different, and the way of looking at problems is also different.

This not only distanced him from Osamu Dazai, but also made a qualitative change between himself and other ordinary people.

If they are classified into one category, it should not be two categories, but three categories.

'Osamu Dazai', 'Nakahara Chuya' and 'Humanity'.

After all, no one can imagine that someone like Osamu Dazai would say something like 'I want to bite you' to him one day.

The dropped chopsticks fell to the ground and bounced twice. After the crisp sound ended, the two of them looked at each other. Dazai Osamu was still smiling, and the emotions in his eyes were full of tenderness, but Nakahara Chuya was cold. With a shudder, separated by two pots of crayfish and other messy meals, he showed a rather disgusted expression.

In other words, it's too distasteful.

"Wait a minute... I'll give you a chance to reorganize your language. If you feel itchy recently, you can just say so. I'll loosen your muscles for free." There is a mentality of whether the other party is thinking of some weird ideas and wants to make people laugh.

So he bent down to pick up the chopsticks, and went to the sideboard to get a pair of unpacked ones, and frowned and said to Osamu Dazai in front of him: "Don't make such jokes casually, don't you think it's disgusting to me?" I still feel like I should." After speaking, he ignored the other party and started to eat shrimp.

In fact, I can't tell what he was thinking at the time, but he suddenly felt very uncomfortable, very uncomfortable being teased by someone like Osamu Dazai.

However, under this discomfort, there was a sudden pantothenic acid.

"Zhongye?" The person sitting opposite was a little surprised, his chin was out of the plaster hand holding his chin.But he didn't talk, and he didn't want to talk, the sour bubble in his heart just popped, he just wanted to eat shrimp, and he didn't want to see Dazai Osamu's face that was disastrous to the country and the people.

But this person didn't give up, sitting across from him whispered, whispered, and kept calling his name, "Zhongye" all the time.He was a little impatient, so he raised his head and glared at the man, and asked what he was doing in a nonchalant manner, but the other man straightened up immediately and asked, are you angry?

"I do not."

"You're angry."

"If I'm angry, can you still sit here?"

"That's why I'm also surprised, obviously you are angry, why didn't you hit me?"

After hearing this, Nakahara Nakaya raised his head and glanced at Osamu Dazai, "Do you want me to hit you?"

"Do not want to."

"Then why are you talking so much bullshit?!"

"I'm hungry."

As soon as the voice fell to Zhong Yuanzhong, he stuffed a few shrimps into the opponent's mouth, as if he was afraid that Osamu Dazai's mouth would be hot.The other party could clearly see what he was thinking, and said with a smile, don't worry, I won't bite the chopsticks. After taking this bite in his mouth, he looked at him quietly through the pot with white smoke, and finally slowly asked in a very calm tone but always felt that the speed of speech was deliberately controlled.

"Chuya, what do you think we are related to?"

Nakahara Chuya held the shrimp for Osamu Dazai without raising his head, and stuffed it into the opponent's mouth while holding it.

"What else can it be? Ex-partners, enemies, old acquaintances, strangers, you can use whichever you want."

After he finished answering, he looked at the person who was still full of energy before, and instantly withered, with his head on the table and his whole body slumped down pitifully.In other words, it exudes a very decadent and decadent atmosphere, a sense of how it shouldn't be there, and Zhong Yuanzhong, who ignored the muddy mud and asked the waiter to swipe the card to check out, didn't even look at it until his When he grabbed the handle of the wheelchair and was about to push him out, Osamu Dazai handed his back to the back of the chair and looked up at him expectantly with a small white face.

"Is there nothing else?! There must be something else you didn't say?"

"It's gone." Zhongya Nakahara slapped the opponent's face and pushed him back. "I have nothing to do with you other than these few relationships. I have to say that I am the poor man who takes care of you for free now. Are you satisfied?"

Osamu Dazai, who was nestled in the wheelchair, was quiet for a long time and never moved again. He was so quiet that even Nakahara felt that something was wrong. After all, there was no more text after his sentence, which was really not in line with Osamu Dazai's style, so he stopped. I stopped to see what was going on, but I heard a short sneer from the other party's throat, as if he had just uttered half of it from between his lips and teeth and was bitten off, and then heard an inaudible sentence.

"Failed."