My Feelings Can Wait

Jing Xiu's eyes fluttered, he lowered his head and said angrily to Ji You: "The words are unreasonable."

Ji Youyan clasped her arms around her waist and swayed lightly, and said ambiguously, "Then do you want this gift in return?"

Jing Xiu wanted to say "no", but she saw the vague anxiety in Ji Yuyan's eyes, and softened her tone and joked, "Are you so easy to buy?"

"That's not true." Ji Youyan denied solemnly, "It mainly depends on who is giving the gift."

"Only you can." She leaned close to Jing Xiu's ear, exhaled like a blue sky and said, "You stand in front of me, you don't have to do anything, I just want to dedicate myself to you."

The heat crawled into Jing Xiu's heart along his ears, and Jing Xiu's breathing that had just calmed down became disordered again.

"Ah Xiu, will you accept it?" Ji Youyan was still coaxing her with a seductive low voice in her ear.She lightly kissed Jing Xiu's earlobe, followed the line down, and kissed her delicate mandibular angle and tender swan neck...

Jing Xiu couldn't hold it anymore.She leaned back slightly, avoiding Ji Yuyan's kiss.

Ji Yuyan stared at her with burning affection.

Jing Xiu bit her lip.She compromised: "Before I answer..." After making a sound, she realized how soft her voice is now.She quickly stopped talking again, cleared her throat calmly, and continued: "Before I answer you, please answer my question first."

Ji Youyan's eyes lit up, and he quickly said, "Okay." Let alone one, a hundred is fine.

"Why did you suddenly figure it out?"

Ji Youyan repeated in doubt: "Have you figured it out?"

Jing Xiu left her embrace, turned around to look at the lanterns swaying in the wind in the dark, lost focus and said, "Suddenly want to start over with me, and suddenly become brave and calm...Obviously, if there is no meeting on this show, You didn't mean to come back to me."

"I don't mean not to believe you." She turned her head to look at Ji Yuyan, and said with a faint smile, "I just don't believe my own charm."

She pretended to smile easily, which hurt Ji Yuyan's eyes and also hurt Ji Yuyan's heart.She took Jing Xiu's hand and said in a deep voice, "Ah Xiu, it's not that I don't want to turn back."

"I just don't dare to look back."

Jing Xiu clasped Ji Youyan's hand and listened quietly.

Ji Yuyan said lowly: "I used to... thought you were tired of being with a coward like me, so I broke up with me. I thought I was unworthy, so I dare not pester you."

She lifted Jing Xiu's hand to her heart, and explained half-truthfully: "A few months ago, I passed out once due to hypoglycemia. When I passed out, I thought I was going to die. In a daze, I didn't know Fear, but a sense of joy that I can finally be free. This boring life can finally come to an end." Before she died, she really felt that way in her vague consciousness.

Jing Xiu was moved, and tears welled up in his eyes for a moment.She thought of something, and her heart was pierced.

Ji Youyan wanted to drown in Jingxiu's tender tears.But she still wiped Jing Xiu's tears, and coaxed her: "Don't cry, it's cold and windy, your face will get frostbite easily when it's wet."

Is that the point?Jing Xiu was poked at the point of laughter and couldn't laugh or cry.She glared at Ji Youyan with red eyes, and Ji Youyan took her to the lantern area with a little windshield, and said softly while walking: "So when I come back to life, I will treat the rest of my life as an extra pick-up .I swear in the bottom of my heart, this time I will be myself and live a meaningful life.”

"And my life, without you, has no meaning." She confessed under the rows of red lanterns.

The lights and shadows are shining brightly.The swaying hazy red light reflected Ji Youyan's dark eyes like stars twinkling, affectionate and charming.She raised Jing Xiu's hand, kissed it superficially, and took out a heart-shaped paper ring from her pocket.

"Stay with me and spend the rest of your life with me, okay?"

Jing Xiu's heartbeat was so chaotic that he couldn't resist at all.She pretended to be calm with the last bit of reserve: "Isn't this paper ring a bit ugly?"

Ji Youyan pettedly explained: "I folded it temporarily on the way, but it was not a temporary idea on my mind. It was folded from the diary of the day we reunited."

Jing Xiu's ring finger touched the ring and trembled slightly, "What's written on it?"

Ji Youyan seduced her and said, "How about I tell you if you promise me?"

Jing Xiu lowered her long eyelashes: "Then don't tell me." With such a soft tone, how could Ji Yuyan fail to hear her duplicity.

She domineeringly pushed the ring into Jing Xiu's knuckles, and said with a smile, "No."

Jing Xiu glared at Ji Youyan pretending to be dissatisfied, but the moment he hit Ji Youyan's eyes, he could not restrain his sweetness.

Ji You couldn't help hugging Jing Xiu again, holding Jing Xiu's lips, and murmured: "The diary is very long, but the summary is very short."

"It's all, I love you." She pried open Jing Xiu's lips and kissed them deeply.

This time, after a symbolic resistance, Jing Xiu quickly tightened Ji Yuyan's waist, catering warmly.The long drought meets the rain, Ji Youyan's hands unconsciously cruise along the curve.

Jing Xiu was pulled out of the fire, and a low moan leaked from his throat.Ji Youyan seemed to have been encouraged by something, and the arson became more and more rampant.Jing Xiu's legs were weak, and her thin white long fingers clasped Ji Yuyan's shoulders, trying to find a fulcrum.

The hem of the clothes was lifted up, and Jing Xiu's tight belly was exposed to the air.A gust of cold wind blew by, Jing Xiu shivered and regained his sanity.She bit the tip of Ji Yuyan's tongue lightly, and pulled away.

Ji Youyan looked at Jing Xiu innocently, with no desire to dissipate in his eyes.

"In the wilderness, what do you want to do?" Jing Xiu panted and asked.

Ji Youyan came back to his senses, and felt that he had gone too far after being blown by the cold wind.She quickly pulled her hand out of Jing Xiu's sweater, trying to help Jing Xiu pull up the clothes, but when she thought of Jing Xiu's bra that had just been undone, she subconsciously wanted to reach in and button it up.

Jing Xiu took a few steps back in an instant, her face was full of spring, but her eyes were slightly sullen.

But there is no deterrence at all, like a kitten with fried fur.Ji Youyan approached her, stretched out his hand to help her pull the slipping shoulders, tucked the hem of the clothes, and said softly: "I just want to help you fasten it."

Fasten what?Jing Xiu came to his senses, and felt ashamed and annoyed when he realized the comfort after his chest was untied.She forcefully refused and said calmly, "No need."

Ji Youyan smiled but wasn't smiling.

Jing Xiu turned around with a downcast face, and then Ji Youyan hugged Jing Xiu from behind in a panic, "I was wrong, I won't tease you anymore."

The woman who was hugged returned to the scene and laughed happily.

Ji Youyan was not angry when he was bluffed, he buried his face in the back of Jing Xiu's neck and laughed, making Jing Xiu itchy.Just as Jing Xiu wanted her to relax, the wet and cool water on her skin blocked Jing Xiu's throat.

"You promised to be with me." Ji Youyan sighed softly.

Jing Xiu heard her vague uneasiness. "Well, I promise you." Her voice was not loud, but she answered Ji Yuyan clearly and firmly.

Ji Youyan's joyful breath touched the back of Jing Xiu's neck again.Jing Xiu tried to suppress her restlessness, but Ji Youyan didn't understand her hard work at all, and stuck out her little tongue to lick.

She said softly, "tonight, will you take me away?"

Jing Xiu was numb all over.She reminded Ji Youyan angrily and helplessly: "Have you asked for leave with the director?"

Ji Yuyan was stunned.

"Lin Yue told me that you have to go to the beach to shoot night scenes at four o'clock." Shooting at four o'clock means that you have to get up at three o'clock or even earlier to start makeup.

Ji Youyan is like a salted fish that has lost its dream, drooping powerlessly on Jing Xiu's body. "Actually, it's too late, but, but I don't want to be so hasty..." For the first time when she started again, she didn't want to leave any bad memories for Jing Xiu.

Jing Xiu's heart is warm.She calmed down and said, "So, I'll have someone send you back to rest after having a late-night snack."

Ji Youyan bargained with Jing Xiu: "Then next time I have plenty of time..."

Before she finished speaking, Jing Xiu interrupted: "We'll talk about the next time."

Ji Youyan lowered his head and began to lick and kiss Jingxiu again.Jing Xiu couldn't bear it anymore, and pretended to be angry: "Are you a dog? Let me go."

Ji Youyan clasped the hands around Jing Xiu's waist, and said slyly: "Don't let go. Promise me first, this time you owe it." She was worried that Jing Xiu would recover, and there would be another progress bar.

Jing Xiu was silent.

"If you don't speak, I'll take it as your agreement." Ji You said quickly, "I'll count down tens of seconds, ten, nine, one. Well, that's it."

Jing Xiu was amused by her rascal, but in the end she didn't refute and acquiesced.

The supper is exquisite Western food prepared by Jing Xiu himself, smoked salmon, steamed sea bass... Ji Youyan's index finger twitched after seeing each one.Because of the long delay, Jing Xiu had to reheat the dishes. After starting, she was worried that eating too much at night would not be good for digestion, so she let Ji Youyan taste it, but Ji Youyan did not listen to persuasion and carried out the CD-ROM operation.

Jing Xiu had nothing to do with her, fortunately the portion of each dish of western food was very small.

After eating supper, the two leisurely watched the lanterns for a while. It was getting late, and Jing Xiu reminded Ji Youyan that it was time to go back.

The two walked to the parking place together, Jing Xiu revealed: "I asked Lin Yue to help put the last gift in your hotel room."

Ji Youyan was overjoyed, but still reluctant to part, "I want to pack you up and take you home."

Jing Xiu didn't want to give up, but she was afraid that Ji Youyan would not be able to rest for a long time if she went back late, so she got into the car and left in two ways with Ji Youyan.

Ji Yuyan sat in the car back to the hotel, recalling everything that happened at night, feeling like he was dreaming.She unfolded the black ribbon in her hand, covered her eyes with the ribbon, and pulled the ribbon tighter and tighter like masochistic.Feeling real pain from the pressure on the eyeballs, Ji Youyan raised the corners of his lips in relief.

When she returned to the hotel and turned on the light, the half-human giant panda doll sitting and standing on the bed attracted all her attention.

Giant pandas are exquisite in workmanship, with soft hair and excellent hand feeling. There is a little bright red between the eyebrows, and there is an oversized photo frame sitting under the buttocks.

Ji Youyan picked up the photo frame, and saw that there were nine photos put together in the photo frame. The scenery on the photo was obviously Nepal, where Jing Xiu traveled some time ago.Among the nine photos, except for the one in the middle, each of the other photos has the same panda ornament entering the country.The location of the panda in each photo is different.Because of such ingenious positions, the little red between the eyebrows of the panda presents a striking heart-shaped arc when the nine photos are connected together.

Ji Youyan stroked the panda ornament on the photo, his heart pounding.Although it is very clean, the material is still very old.

She was sure it should be the one she gave Xiao Jingxiu back then.