My Feelings Can Wait

"Auntie, don't cry, tell Yanyan to come back quickly." Ji Youyan heard the male voice say.

Zhong Qingyu choked with sobs and said, "Yanyan, something happened to your father, you should come back quickly. I'm in the No. [-] Hospital of the city. I just... I called you just now, and you changed your number. I can't reach you at all..."

The helplessness in her mother's voice broke Ji Youyan's heart.

"Mom, I was wrong." She burst into tears: "Mom, don't be afraid, I'll be at the airport soon, wait for me, I'll be back soon."

It's been a few years since we haven't seen each other, and it's clear that mountains, rivers and seas are separated between their family, but at this moment, hearing Ji Youyan's voice and Ji Youyan's comfort, Zhong Qingyu still feels like he has found a pillar, and his heart is really there A sense of reality.

When the airport arrived, Ji Youyan hung up the phone, wiped away tears and got out of the car.

On the plane, Ji Youyan pursed his lips and sat tiredly.All kinds of past and present lives played back in her mind like a revolving lantern.

At the age of 20, in order to pursue music dreams, and to no longer be like a hanging string puppet in the hands of parents, follow the path they arranged, and live a life with an end in sight at a glance. She insisted on dropping out of school, giving up the bright future in everyone's eyes, and even a good marriage, which was considered deviant by everyone.

Qing Gao's father, who has been studying all his life, thinks that everything is inferior, and only reading is high.It seemed that from the moment she was born, he had planned her future life: to study steadily and live in peace and stability.After graduating, I will become a university professor like my parents, or take an exam for a civil servant, marry a good man who is well-matched, and live an ordinary but comfortable life.

He despises "stars" who put on heavy make-up and please others all day long on TV. In his eyes, this profession seems to be no different from the old actors.After the fierce quarrel, he said three "yes" in a row, and asked her sharply: "For so many years, I have planned everything for you and for your own good. I asked myself that as a father, I have done my duty and have a clear conscience. Now, I can't say no." Are you gone? I can’t control you anymore, right? You don’t see me as a father anymore, do you?!”

Ji Youyan stiffened his neck and said wronged: "That's what you think is good, not what I want! For so many years, I have no freedom at all, I am a human being! I am not a doll dressed up by others, have you ever asked me what I want? "

He was trembling with anger, and asked her in a deep voice: "So, I'm still wrong, I'm sorry, aren't you?!"

She bit her lip and said nothing, tears streaming down her face.There is no way to communicate at all, he is never wrong, always right.

Her default attitude made him more angry and chilling. He pointed at the door and reprimanded: "Okay, you want to be free, and I will give you freedom! I'm Ji Changsong, I'm sorry for you, and my Ji family can't afford your big Buddha. Ji Youyan , listen, if you stepped out of this door today, I, Ji Changsong, would not have..."

His mother tried to stop him, but he pushed her away.He still said: "I, Ji Changsong, don't have a daughter like you, and Jinghua University doesn't have a student like you. Don't use our name, grandstanding, humiliating family style, and bad school spirit!"

Ji Yuyan looked at his heartless appearance, cried and suddenly laughed, feeling disheartened.She knelt down and kowtowed to him, went back to the room and dragged her luggage, ignored her mother's yelling, and left without looking back.

The mother chased her out and stuffed her with a bank card.The mother's face was full of tears, as if she wanted to say a thousand words, but in the end, she only said: "Let's go, so I can do it for myself."

On the way, she received a text message from her mother, saying: "Yanyan, I am as disappointed in you as your father. But now you can't listen to what I advise you, and I don't want to accuse you of anything. I just hope You, you make your own choice, you are responsible for it, and never regret it. The family can’t help you much, you take care of yourself and do it for yourself. I hope you, your dreams can come true and your career will be successful.”

Ji Youyan crouched down holding the phone, crying heartbroken on the street.

As she left Yanzhou, she looked back at the city one last time.She is full of ambition, and she vows to make a breakthrough.

But the reality is far crueler than she imagined.In the first two years of entering the entertainment circle, she was unknown and accomplished nothing.She dared not contact her former classmates, friends and teachers, let alone contact her parents.

At the beginning of the fourth year, because she switched to film and television, her career took a hit.During the Spring Festival that year, she mustered up the courage to go back to her parents.But she couldn't find them, they moved.

Mother answered her phone and made an appointment with her at an outside restaurant.

Without saying a few words, her mother asked her bluntly if the rumored same-sex scandal between her and Jing Xiu was true.

She couldn't deny it, her silent attitude said everything.

The mother's face changed drastically, and she accused her: "Do you really know what you are doing now? Is this the dream you said at the beginning? Is this the freedom and life you want? Your father said it was a big dye vat I won’t let you go, but I believe in you, and I even wanted to persuade your father for a while. But look at what you did after you went out? Do you know what the news is saying about you? You know that others are talking about me and Did your father point out something? Do you know how ashamed and embarrassing we are when colleagues and friends come to us with all kinds of lace news about you?"

"Tell me, are you really betraying yourself and dating a woman for the sake of fame and fortune?"

Ji Youyan asked her with red eyes: "Mom, is that how you think of me? Is that why you don't believe me?" It's okay for others to think of her that way, even her mother thinks of her that way.

She didn't ask how much she had suffered and how much wronged she had suffered in the past few years, but she just accused and questioned her.All she cares about is their face, right?

"Would it be more acceptable if I said no, I just love her so being with her, I'm gay?"

My mother also blushed and didn't speak.After a while, she said, "I can't accept it, can you change it?"

Ji Yuyan looked at her, tears rolling down his face. "How to change this? I can't help it." Her attitude turned cold.

"You let me down so much. You go, we don't contact you until you think it through." The mother stopped looking at her, as if looking at her again would dirty her eyes.

Ji Youyan's heart seemed to be delayed by something, dripping with blood.Her pride, her chills, made her unable to bow her head.

She held her throat, wiped away her tears, and said word by word: "I'm sorry, I have made you feel ashamed by giving birth to a daughter like me." After finishing speaking, she left behind the bank card that Zhong Qingyu gave her back then, Walked into the snowstorm.

After returning home, she had a small success in her career and sent money to Zhong Qingyu every month. After Zhong Qingyu found out, she would return double the amount of money to express her refusal.Ji Youyan's heart gradually became cold, and later he simply gave up sending money, and only sent something to the school for them during the holidays.

Later, her information was leaked, she changed her number, sent a text message to her mother, and found that her mother's number was empty.Parents and children, it is sad to do this, Ji Youyan gradually despaired.She didn't know what she should do to satisfy her parents and accept her with her parents.In addition to working harder in her career and seeking an achievement, she is powerless and full of hesitation.

Later, she broke up with Jing Xiu, and she was hidden by Dingfeng Snow, her life was in a mess, she couldn't take care of herself, and she completely lost contact with her parents.She followed Wei Yizhen, and in the year she won the Best Actress with her own strength, she wanted to go back to find her parents.However, there was no time to go back.

She is dead.

After carefully sorting out the context of the previous life, and recalling the fragility in his mother's words just now, Ji Youyan regretted it hard.So was it like this in the previous life?Did something happen to my father in the previous life?In the previous life, when my mother was most anxious and afraid, was she unable to contact me like this?

She is such an unfilial daughter.

Ji Yuyan covered his eyes, and took a quick breath.

Seeing that she was in a bad mood, Wei Yizhen comforted her: "Uncle rescued her in time, auspicious people have their own fortune, and they will be fine."

Ji Yuyan responded to her in a low voice: "Yes."

After a long time, Ji Youyan calmed down and remembered to ask Wei Yizhen: "My mother said she couldn't contact me, so how did you know about this?"

Wei Yizhen thought about the whole thing carefully, and figured out something was wrong.She answered Ji Yuyan truthfully: "Jing Xiu called me suddenly. I was also surprised at the time."

Ji Youyan's heart skipped a beat, and he reflexively said, "How did she know?!"

"I don't know about that. I didn't react to ask carefully at the time."

A possibility flashed through Ji Yuyan's mind first, but she felt it was too far-fetched. Then, she thought of the second possibility, which was a little hard to accept.She rubbed the space between her brows, suppressing her doubts first.

She asked for Wei Yizhen's opinion: "Sister Wei, I may need to accompany you in the hospital for a while, look at the work side..."

Wei Yizhen sighed: "There is no other way. I will try my best to negotiate with the other party, and try to postpone it as much as possible. However, the recording the day after tomorrow is too urgent, and there may be no way to explain it."

Ji Youyan's heart also sank.

"After I get off the plane, I will try my best to see if I can find someone to rescue me." Wei Yizhen said reasonably, "Uncle is important. Let's see how Uncle's situation is, and then think about how to arrange it later."

It can only be the.Ji Youyan said in a weary voice, "Well, I'm sorry to trouble Miss Wei."

Three and a half hours later, Ji Youyan, Wei Yizhen, and Lin Yue arrived in Yanzhou.After getting off the plane, Ji Youyan had mixed feelings when he heard the familiar accent that could be heard everywhere in the airport.She never thought that coming back here again would be in such a situation.

A pick-up car has been arranged outside the airport, Ji Youyan got into the car and went straight to the city's No. [-] Hospital.

After getting out of the car and seeing the gold-lettered sign of the Outpatient Department of the City's First Hospital, Ji Youyan's heart began to pound and his legs felt weak.Following the guidance of her mother on the phone on the road, she found her mother's thin figure on the corridor of the intensive care unit.

She was lying on the glass and heading to the ward to watch.Beside her, a woman of about the same age was supporting her. Behind her were two men, one in their fifties and sixties, and the other standing behind her.

Ji Youyan's breathing was heavy, and he walked towards them with heavy steps.

The sound of their high-heeled shoes hitting the tiles was particularly abrupt in the silent night. Zhong Qingyu and the others followed the sound and looked over, and their eyes collided with Ji Yuyan's.

Only then did Ji Youyan see Zhong Qingyu's appearance clearly.Her normally neatly combed hair was disheveled, and her eyes were red, haggard and tired.She has aged a lot, and her normally straight figure has become bent.I will never see the once gorgeous French department again.

Tears blurred Ji Youyan's vision.She couldn't hold back any longer, walked quickly towards Zhong Qingyu, hugged her, and sobbed.

"Mom, I'm back, Mom, I'm sorry, I'm late."

Zhong Qingyu froze for a few seconds, then slowly hugged her back, tears wet Ji Yuyan's shoulders.

No matter how much estrangement there was in their hearts, at least at this moment, Ji Yuyan felt that their hearts were fused together.

Everyone standing by wiped their tears.Lu Fang's mother, Professor Liu, patted Ji Youyan and Zhong Qingyu's backs, and comforted him: "It's good when you come back, it's good when you come back, don't cry too much, it will hurt your body if you cry too much."

Ji Youyan remembered that there were still outsiders, and stopped crying.She let go of Zhong Qingyu, wiped her mother's tears, and asked her, "Mom, stop crying, how is Dad?" She touched the glass of the intensive care unit, and looked at Ji Changsong on the hospital bed with heartache.

"The person has been rescued now, but the doctor said that his physical signs have not stabilized, and we will have to see the situation later." Zhong Qingyu's voice was completely hoarse.

Ji Youyan supported Zhong Qingyu to sit down on the chair.

"Uncle suffered from ketoacidosis with myocardial infarction and other complications, so he was once very dangerous, but if he was rescued in time, he will be fine." The man beside him explained warmly.He looked at Ji Yuyan with forbear love and affection in his eyes.

Only then did Ji Youyan turn to look at Lu Fang's family.

"Yanyan, let me take you to see the attending doctor." Lu Fang thoughtfully said.

Ji Youyan nodded.She thought for a while, then turned to Wei Yizhen and Lin Yue and said, "Sister Wei, accompany Yue Yue to buy some food and warm up my mother and uncles and aunts." In the middle of the night, she was worried that Lin Yue would go out alone.

Professor Liu said politely, "No need..."

"Yes." Ji Yuyan bowed to them sincerely, and said, "Thank you uncle and aunt, thank you... Brother Xiao Fang, thank you all."

Professor Liu rubbed her head, and said kindly: "It's all right." She sat down beside Zhong Qingyu, took Zhong Qingyu's hand, patted it on her knee, and advised her: "Now the child comes back It's over, the past, let's go, the family is safe and sound, it is more important than anything else, don't you think?"

Zhong Qingyu looked at Ji Youyan's disappearing figure, tears wet his eyes again.She nodded slightly.

Professor Liu then looked at the back of his son and Ji Yuyan, who matched well, and sighed.

The girl from the Ji family is still so outstanding, and she is still so considerate and considerate in her dealings with others.They really like it, and so does their son.

Pity.

The author has something to say: Teacher Jing eats lemons: I like it too.

The article involves medical aspects. Because I am not a professional, I wrote it based on the information I consulted, so there may be bugs. Please forgive me.

By the way, I recalled that in the previous chapters, there was an opinion about microphone adjustment put forward by a stage-related worker. I gave a reply and explanation at that time, thank you for your opinion.Later, because of the unhappiness on other floors, I wanted to delete it after replying. In order to delete my reply, I had to delete the entire comment.I hope the little cutie didn't misunderstand.

Anyway, I still hope that the article can bring some happiness to the little cuties.

Of course, if you can, you can also give me a little happiness, and I will be more grateful. :-D