My Feelings Can Wait

But the pain in the memory was just an illusion after all, Jing Xiu quickly recovered and calmed down.Looking at Ji Yuyan's tenderness, she was a little moved and a little melancholy.

If regret is valuable, then the price paid is not wasted.It is a pity that it is impossible for a person to step into the same river twice, so even if he knows that he regrets it, he may not be able to find a path that will never regret it.

Jing Xiu pondered for two seconds, and said sincerely to Gu Zinan: "Teacher Ji is right. But regretting this matter, saying that you will not make regrettable choices in the future, is too idealistic. It is impossible in life to miss once and regret once. To be able to never make a mistake again.”

"Just don't make the same mistake." This is her realization after learning from the pain.

Since the reunion, Ji Youyan has changed little by little, and she can see it in her eyes.Although she didn't know why Ji Youyan changed his mind suddenly, and she was not sure whether Ji Youyan's change could really be maintained.But she understands more and more that there was a problem with the way she got along with Ji Yuyan in the past.

It was her who moved first, she let go of her reserve and pride and led Ji Yuyan to this road, so she couldn't bear Ji Yuyan to suffer a little grievance from her, she couldn't bear her embarrassment, and she couldn't bear to make more demands on her.But maybe it is precisely because of this that they have never really opened their hearts to share their joys, sorrows, sorrows and joys, they have not really fully known each other, and they have entered the running-in period, which made this relationship miss the opportunity to grow.Ji Yuyan stopped at the same place, she unilaterally backed down without a bottom line, but instead only made the distance between the two of them retreat further and further.

Jing Xiu still doesn't know what the best mode of getting along between her and Ji Yuyan is now, but she thinks, at least, she can't make that mistake again.

She took off her mask of forbearance and tolerance, exposing her difficult and true self, hoping to exchange for a little more Ji Yoo-yeon under the mask.This time, she can't be the one who has been taking the initiative.

She was speaking for Gu Zinan, but also for herself.But the speaker had no intention, but the listener had intentions, so Ji Youyan sat down with a guilty conscience.

Axiu... Do you still mind why I didn't explain clearly just now why I was worried about bothering her?

Ji Yoo was annoyed.Sometimes she doesn't know what's going on with herself, and she has clearly made up her mind to change, but when she really faces it, she will always unconsciously revert to her old ways.

"For Xiao Die and the program team, I will try my best to make the big and small things smaller. You can continue the competition with peace of mind." Jing Xiu promised.Everyone bullies the soft and fears the hard, Xiao Die has nothing to do with her and Ji Youyan, but Gu Zinan is different.

Gu Zinan has never dared to think about what to do after this incident, the game and the future, and she felt that she could breathe a little bit after hearing this.

"However..." Jing Xiu changed the subject and reminded: "I can help you for a while, but I can't help you for a long time. You still need to communicate with your economic company. Liang Zi has already formed, as long as Xiao Die returns Jumping around, there is no telling when he will wait for the opportunity to retaliate. It will depend on you later."

Seeing that Gu Zinan had almost finished the cold compress, she peeled off the hot egg while talking, wrapped it in a handkerchief and handed it to her.

Gu Zinan's face, which had just regained some energy, darkened again. "That's enough, Mr. Jing, thank you. The rest is the tuition I should pay." She knew that Jing Xiu had done his best, and thanked him wisely.

She took the egg, rolled it mechanically on her face, and said with a wry smile: "It's really impossible, I'll leave this circle."

"I entered this circle at the age of 16, and the people who were at the same time as me have already achieved some success. Maybe, I am really not suitable for this path. I can't give up, and I can't stand loneliness. Although I am very unwilling, But people must recognize the distance between dreams and reality." The loneliness and depression in her words made Ji Yuyan feel uncomfortable.

In countless frustrated days and nights, this confusion has repeatedly tormented her.

Ji Youyan's brows were gloomy.But out of the corner of her eye, she saw Jing Xiu who was sitting beside her, and she soon let go of her mind.

She raised her hand and flicked Gu Zinan's forehead, pretending to be relaxed and said, "What are you thinking, how old are you now?"

Gu Zinan covered his forehead and stared blankly at Ji Youyan.Jing Xiu's eyes also fell on Ji Yuyan.

Ji Youyan asked Gu Zinan in a warm voice: "What do you think of me now? On the road of career."

"The future is boundless." Gu Zinan said sincerely.Ji Youyan used to be a hit with the traffic, and his popularity was not bad. This year, he also won the TV show, and his acting skills have also been recognized.With popularity and strength, everyone can see that her career will reach a higher level.

Ji Youyan said lightly: "But I am 27 years old this year. When you were your age, I was just like you, and I couldn't do anything."

Gu Zinan choked.

"Where do you see Teacher Jing?" Ji Youyan asked softly.

"Ms. Jing already won a queen when she was about your age. At the age of 25, she already had two queens. Compared with her, am I not worth mentioning?" Ji Youyan asked himself replied.

Gu Zinan was speechless, and after a few seconds, she retorted subconsciously: "It can't be compared this way, Teacher Jing is different. Everyone says that Teacher Jing is a genius with excellent luck." For people in this circle, Jing Xiu is an idol, even a legend.Her achievements are the indispensable result of the right time, place and people.

Ji Yuyan sneered.She stared at Jing Xiu, her tender eyes gradually dimmed, she mustered up her courage, and confided in her heart: "Why can't it be compared?"

"Have you really been convinced? Have you really never thought about it? Why can't we be Jing Xiu? Or, why can't we be the next Jing Xiu?" The voice was not heavy, but it was loud.

This question reveals too obvious unwillingness, even injustice.Not only Gu Zinan's heart froze, but even Jing Xiu's heart trembled.

It turned out that she was so dissatisfied.Jing Xiu's mood was complicated, a little dull pain, but also a little bit of joy because he knew more about Ji Youyan's thoughts.

"Isn't it an overreaching idea?" Ji Youyan laughed at himself frankly.She wanted to see Jing Xiu's expression at the moment, but she didn't dare to.

"It's nothing to overestimate." Before Gu Zinan could answer, Jing Xiu replied to Ji Youyan flatly, "I'm nothing special, just a little more luck."

She has always thought so.It is an honor to be able to do a job you like, and awards and honors are unexpected joys.There are many people in this circle who work harder than her, and even have more strength than her.She was able to get these because of better opportunities and luck than others.Happy of course, but nothing to be proud of.

"Ah Xiu, that's not what I mean. I don't think you are nothing special, I just think..." Ji Yuyan nervously wanted to explain.

Jing Xiu's tone softened a little: "I know, and I have no other intentions. You continue."

Ji Yuyan looked into Jing Xiu's eyes, confirmed that Jing Xiu was listening, and was really not angry, so he relaxed.

She continued to explain Gu Zinan and said: "Actually, it is me, Teacher Jing, and even the movie goddess Shen Zhiman. When comparing them, they are all just a goal and a reference. What's the difference? Actually, at your age, There are many people who are worse off than you. Compared to you, I am alright, but compared to Teacher Jing, I am nothing."

"Zi Nan, I have gone through detours before. But later, I became more and more aware of a truth - don't compare yourself with others, it's too tiring, there will always be someone you can't compare with."

"Maybe, each of us has our own time zone. People born in London will always see the sun an hour later than people born in Rome. Some of them are late, and it is not our fault. We only need to save money in our own time zone. Heat, after a long cold night, we will always wait for the sun in our own time zone." This is what she realized when she followed Wei Yizhen and gradually healed her heart disease after breaking up with Jing Xiu.

This kind of open-mindedness is the quality that attracted Jing Xiu in the first place.However, it seems that this trait has disappeared from Ji Yuyan unconsciously since he was with her.

Jing Xiu's heart skipped a beat when he heard her melodious voice.At the same time, a strange feeling came to my heart.In just a few months, why did Ji Youyan suddenly change so much?

"Even if you're not in this industry or engaged in other careers, except for a few lucky ones, it's not always easy to succeed. Be patient and don't rush, okay?" She comforted Gu Zinan gently.

Gu Zinan was stunned, enlightened.No one has ever talked to her about this, her parents have always complained that she spent so much money studying art, and ended up with nothing, and the brokerage company has always blamed her for being inflexible and unable to seize opportunities, so she is getting more and more Anxious, more and more flustered.

"Mr. Ji, I understand." She agreed with tears in her eyes.

Ji Yuyan patted her head in relief.There are some truths, even if you understand it, you may not be able to do it well, but she tried her best.

Jing Xiu was infected by Ji Youyan.She took out a business card from her wallet, handed it to Gu Zinan, and said indifferently: "If you finish your contract with the agency and want to change jobs to Guangyu, you can come to me."

Gu Zinan was overjoyed and thanked repeatedly.

Ji Youyan was surprised, Jing Xiu was more soft-hearted and kind than he imagined.

Jing Xiu's mobile phone on the coffee table rang, and it was the private doctor who indicated that she had arrived.Jing Xiu called Yao Xiao's phone instead, and asked Yao Xiao to go down to pick up someone. Then, she looked at Gu Zinan's red and swollen face and asked, "It's not convenient for you to go back to the dormitory now, is it? I'll ask Director Chen to open it for you." A new room, will you keep it for two days?"

Gu Zinan wanted to agree, but then he hesitated and hesitated.

"What's wrong?" Ji Yuyan noticed.

Gu Zinan said embarrassedly: "I...I'm alone in the room right now, and I'm a little scared...Xiao Die, will someone suddenly call..."

Jing Xiu and Ji You said: "..."

Well, I've just been frightened, and it's understandable to feel a little bit more insecure.

"Then... you're going to rest in my room tonight?" Ji Youyan suggested.

Bedrooms and beds are considered very private areas, and it was actually a bit difficult for her to sell them.But considering Gu Zinan's mood, she also considered that she might... maybe... be able to stay in Jingxiu's bedroom!Ji Yooyan barely convinced himself.

"What about you?" Jing Xiu frowned.sleep together? !

Gu Zinan said rationally: "No, no, Mr. Ji and Mr. Jing, if you don't mind, just lend me the sofa to sleep for one night."

Jing Xiu looked at her delicate body and felt that she was too unkind.

Ji Yuyan hurriedly said generously: "It's okay, you can sleep in my room." She tentatively said in a cautious tone: "Mr. Jing, I... can I, can I squeeze in with you for one night first?"

There was an unbearable expectation in the big eyes.

Jing Xiu: "..."

"Let's do it first." After a while, Jing Xiu bit his lip and compromised.

Ji Youyan was elated.

The author has something to say: Teacher Ji: Maybe this is my late Valentine's Day benefit?

Teacher Jing reacted: Maybe, you can open another room?

Teacher Ji: ………………Go to bed quickly.

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