My Feelings Can Wait

Ruan Ningwei was caught off guard by a mouthful of dog food, and her expression changed again and again.Originally, because Jing Xiu kept poking her sore spots, her heart felt like a huge rock was pressing on her, and she panicked.But seeing Jing Xiu's gentle expression when he mentioned Ji Youyan, she finally laughed out of tears.

"Ms. Ji will be very happy if she hears it." She sighed with emotion.

It is impossible for her and Lu Zishan to be together, and their fan CP can be together, I don't know if it is a dream come true.

Jing Xiu seemed to have thought of something, smiled a little, and told Ruan Ningwei solemnly: "No tipping off."

Ruan Ningwei was seen through her thoughts, and her eyes dodged.

"It's not allowed to be included in the fanfiction either." Jing Xiu's ears turned red.

It was rare for Ruan Ningwei to see Jing Xiu, who had always been immovable, so arrogant, and couldn't help laughing out loud.

Jing Xiu saw that she was a little happy, and her expression softened again.She smiled lightly, with a very fair look: "I told you my little secret, shouldn't you tell me too?"

Ruan Ningwei was stunned, a little shaken, and a little hesitant.

"If you don't trust me, you can talk to Tao. Give her a chance, and give yourself a chance, okay?" Jing Xiu followed her advice.

After she finished speaking, she was about to get up and ask Tao Xingruo to come in, but Ruan Ningwei quickly grabbed her by the corner of her clothes and stopped her, "Teacher Jing, I trust you."

Jing Xiu turned his head and looked down at her.

Ruan Ningwei's expression was tangled, and her tone was soft: "If Mr. Tao doesn't like me, then I don't need to tell her; if Mr. Tao likes me, then I don't know how to tell her."

"She knows your past very well. She watched you and Lu Zishan go from falling in love to breaking up." Jing Xiu sat down again.

"She won't mind your past, she will only mind that you don't treat yourself well now, and don't take life seriously."

"If your mother knows, she must hope that you can let yourself go and have a good life."

Like the last straw that broke the camel's back, Ruan Ningwei's eyes became moist again.

During the time when she lost her love, she lost weight like a walking dead.Although it was well concealed, the mother found out.She reasoned that she was too tired from work, and her mother advised her not to work too hard more than once, and even blamed herself for being useless, which made her burden so heavy.She vomited reflexively after eating, and vomited tears while hugging the toilet. When she came out, her mother's eye circles were always red.

When she dyed her mother's hair, she felt sorry for her mother's premature aging, but her mother said that she was content in this life.She said that she could watch herself grow up peacefully and live happily without any resentment.

But can she still be happy?Can she really trust fickle feelings once more?

Thinking of her mother's expectations, thinking of Tao Xingruo's secret love for these years, thinking of her dedication during this time, Ruan Ningwei's throat felt a little sore.

After a long time, she spoke.

"Teacher Jing, I can't get into the show when I face people."

Jing Xiu's eyes lit up suddenly.As if she was afraid of scaring her, she tried her best to soften her voice and responded to Ruan Ningwei: "Yes, I know."

"Mr. Jing, do you still remember the first play I acted in? I acted with Lu Zishan. In the play, I acted as a couple with her. After the play, we fell in love because of the play and became a couple. "

Jing Xiu knew this, and Jing Xiu nodded.

"She is cheerful, optimistic, gentle and considerate, and I'm totally immersed in it. I hope that she and I can go on like this for a long time."

"But..." Ruan Ningwei was a little hard to say: "After I surrendered my body and mind, she changed."

Jing Xiu suddenly understood why Ruan Ningwei didn't know what to tell Tao Xingruo.She raised her hand and patted the back of Ruan Ningwei's hand to comfort her.

Ruan Ningwei smiled wryly, "She is getting more and more indifferent to me, more and more alienated. I endured it, thinking it was just a running-in period in love. But I still didn't wait for her to change her mind, and she pushed me away."

"She said that the relationship between me and her is fake. She doesn't really like me, and I don't really like her. She and I are just in the drama, and we can't tell the difference between drama and reality. would make such a wrong decision.”

"So, she came out of the play, and I was the only one left in the play. She even used money to humiliate me, asking me to let her go and not to pester her." She said very calmly.In retrospect, the way I begged her not to break up was really annoying.

She suddenly discovered that it was not so difficult to speak out.Those pains seem to have happened in my previous life.

"For a long time, I doubted myself. I wondered if I really didn't love her at all as she said. I wondered if I really just didn't play for a long time. Later, I Do you even doubt that I am still myself? Will I still just play the role in that play."

"Since then, I have never dared to act in front of people again. I am afraid that I will enter the drama again, that I will not be able to distinguish between drama and reality again, that I will fall in love with the people in the drama again, and that I will be sentimental again."

"I'm even more afraid that more and more roles will be added, and I will become a monster with four faces." Ruan Ningwei said numbly with her snow-white neck hanging down.

Jing Xiu's heart sank.She wanted to scold Lu Zishan, but when she thought of Lu Zishan's frail figure and grief-stricken appearance, she had mixed feelings for a while.

"Ning Wei." Jing Xiu called her seriously, "People will change with experience. Even if you change yourself a little because of playing a certain role, that's normal."

"The life I experienced while acting is just an experience, it belongs to you——Ruan Ningwei's own experience has nothing to do with the role."

Ruan Ningwei opened her eyes wide, digesting her words.

"Besides, you have never been unable to act. In the play, Lu Zishan plays a delicate and sensitive character, while the Lu Zishan you love is cheerful and optimistic. Your love is true and has nothing to do with the play."

Jing Xiu pursed her lips and revealed, "It's true that Lu Zishan loves you."

It was rare for her to be guilty, and she glanced at the door to confirm that Tao Xingruo hadn't heard her help Ruan Ningwei's ex to confess to Ruan Ningwei.

Ruan Ningwei's mind was buzzing for a while, not knowing what Jing Xiu's words meant.

Jing Xiu stood up and asked Ruan Ningwei, "It's unbelievable, isn't it?"

Ruan Ningwei was speechless.

"She's not doing very well. If you want to know the answer, you can go to her and tell her these knots. No matter what, the result can't be worse than now, can it?"

She guessed that the heart knot was related to Lu Zishan, but she didn't know the specific point.But now that I have found the knot in my heart, it is just a matter of prescribing the right medicine.Even if Ruan Ningwei didn't dare to go to Lu Zishan, they could still go to Lu Zishan and let the other party take the initiative to solve it.

Ruan Ningwei grasped the key point in the chaos.She asked Jing Xiu: "Do you know her?" Why, dare to say so firmly.

There was an unnatural flash in Jing Xiu's eyes that was hard to detect.She answered Ruan Ningwei calmly, "Because of you, I investigated her."

"..." Ruan Ningwei didn't know whether to be moved or ashamed.

Jing Xiu asked Ruan Ningwei, "Are you willing to let Tao know about these things?" She said what she had to say, and she should leave the rest of the comforting work to Tao Xingruo.

Ruan Ningwei's clothes were twisted into twists, and her heart was in a mess.After a long while, she took a deep breath and let out an almost inaudible "hmm".

Jing Xiu felt relieved, and was sincerely happy for Tao Xingruo.

She successfully retreated and said, "Then I'll ask her to come in, and you guys can discuss whether the competition should continue."

Ruan Ningwei nodded slightly.

Ji Yoo-yeon is in the studio.She was still putting on makeup when she heard Lin Yue whispering to her that she saw everyone talking about Lu Min's attack on Ruan Ningwei in the work group.

Ji Youyan was very anxious.On the one hand, she consciously agreed to Tao Xingruo to help take care of Ruan Ningwei. Now that this happened, she was not at the scene, and she owed Tao Xingruo's entrustment; Such blame, thinking of her suicide in her previous life, made her afraid that she would not be able to bear it.

Sure enough, soon after she heard that Ruan Ningwei was going to retire from the competition, and even quit the entertainment industry.

But everyone was ready, and when she entered the studio to shoot, Ji Youyan couldn't get away.She forced herself to calm down, hoping to finish the work here soon.

During the break between taking makeup photos, Ji Youyan sent Ruan Ningwei a WeChat message, but nothing came of it.She estimated the end time, and ordered Lin Yue to change the ticket, regardless of her fatigue, to go back and forth between the two places on the same day.

As soon as the shooting was over, Ji Youyan rushed to the airport without even taking off the heavy makeup on his face.

On the way, she called Chen Desheng.Chen Desheng said that he doesn't know what's going on with Ruan Ningwei now, and it's Mr. Jing who is enlightening Ruan Ningwei.

Hearing that it was Jing Xiu who was enlightening, Ji Youyan involuntarily felt relieved.Even if Jing Xiu had spoken harshly to Ruan Ningwei, she still believed that Jing Xiu could comfort Ruan Ningwei well.

After all, she knew that Jing Xiu was such a gentle person in her bones.

She tentatively sent Jing Xiu a WeChat message, asking her, "Is Ning Wei okay?"

Jing Xiu quickly replied to her: "It's all right."

After a pause for a few seconds, Ji Youyan saw the dialog box showing that Jing Xiu was typing.Jing Xiu asked her, "You want to come back?"

There was a little smile in Ji Yuyan's eyes, and he replied, "Well, we're on the way."

Jing Xiu didn't respond.Ji Youyan was eager to see through, but the dialog box stopped moving at all.The screen went black, Ji Youyan rubbed his forehead, and secretly cursed himself for looking at Shu.

She looked out the window, watching the car drive into the tunnel, and her vision dimmed.

"Sister Ji." Lin Yue called her.

"Huh?" Ji Youyan replied lazily.

"The notification light on your phone is blinking. Is there any news?" Lin Yue asked enthusiastically.Of course, she saw that Ji Youyan was chatting with Jing Xiu on WeChat just now, and guessed that maybe it was Teacher Jing who replied.

Ji Yuyan's heart skipped a beat, he immediately turned around, and turned on the screen with vigor.

"It's all right here."

"It's snowing in Lingzhou," Jing Xiu said.

Before Ji Youyan understood the meaning of Jingxiu's words, the corners of his lips were already raised high.

"Huh?" After thinking for a moment, she asked knowingly.

She guessed that Jing Xiu might have asked her to wear thicker clothes?Like...yesterday she asked her to bring a thicker nightgown.

This time, she was patiently preparing to wait until Jing Xiu returned to her, but Jing Xiu returned in seconds unexpectedly.

"Not safe." She said simply.

Ji Youyan was stunned for a moment, and the next moment he softened his brows and smiled broadly.

Obviously it was such a cold tone, but Ji Youyan felt that these three words set off a turbulent heat flow, followed her eyeballs, and warmed her limbs and bones downward.

Not just hot, but...sweet.

Want to go back and see her.

Ji Youyan lowered his head and kissed Jing Xiu's head, unscrupulously changing his original intention of going back.

The author has something to say: Lin Yue didn't see it: I'd rather believe that the Yellow River has no water, and don't believe that excellence has no legs!

Jing Xiu looked at her.

Lin Yue changed her words in a panic: Two legs!Oh no, four legs.

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Ji Youyan looked at her unknowingly crossed scissor hands: ……………