My Feelings Can Wait

It's not that Ruan Ningwei didn't bear a grudge against Tao Xingruo for taking advantage of others.

She didn't know how many years she had known Tao Xingruo, even if she didn't have a deep friendship, she always thought that Tao Xingruo was just a seemingly inaccessible person, but in fact he was an upright and kind person.

Therefore, she couldn't understand why Tao Xingruo fell from the sky, gave her a hope, and then forced her into despair.

But she has come to the end of the mountain.Her acting career has been almost completely ruined since she couldn't get into the show.Before her mother's accident, she hadn't received a job for a long time, and the money she earned in the past had fully paid off the gambling debts her father owed before his death.

She watched her mother dying in the intensive care unit and had no choice.

She took Tao Xingruo's card and moved into Tao Xingruo's home, and even moved into her bedroom, sharing the same bed with Tao Xingruo.Tao Xingruo's younger sister was ecstatic when she saw her, but she couldn't even squeeze out a false smile for this poor and well-behaved little girl.

She never thought that no matter how poor or miserable she was, she would sell her body for money one day and become a rich man's plaything.If mother knew, she might scold her for reading sage books for nothing and being shameless.

But compared to those wretched men who had the same thoughts as Tao Xingruo when he committed himself to borrowing money, Tao Xingruo was not bad.

She laughed at herself.Either way, it's sexual orientation.

The mother was rescued, but there was little hope of waking up.She stayed in the hospital day and night for a week, and was finally taken home by Tao Xingruo forcefully.

While Tao Xingruo was taking a shower in the bathroom of the bedroom, Ruan Ningwei dried her body mechanically in the other bathroom, wrapped herself in a bathrobe before going out.Her tears have been shed for her mother, and her heart is numb.She thought, sooner or later, this day will come. Is it right for someone to give you money and take care of your mood?

Unexpectedly, when Tao Xingruo came out and saw her half-undressed on the bed, his eyes were burning, he turned on the air conditioner, sat on the bed, and stretched out his arms to hug her.

then……

He fell asleep without doing anything while hugging her.

Ruan Ningwei was trapped in her arms, smelling the fragrance of bathing on her body, her whole body was stiff.

She didn't know what Tao Xingruo meant, did he want to get him, or did he lose interest when he saw her crying?She seemed to think a lot, but she didn't seem to think of anything. In the end, she was overwhelmed by sleepiness and fell into a deep sleep.

Later, it was like this every night.

After a long time, her hope for her mother's recovery gradually gave up. Tao Xingruo transferred her to another hospital and sent a special nurse to take care of her mother; Send a driver to take her there.

Later, Tao Xingruo signed her into the company, gave her resources, and gave her opportunities.

But from the beginning to the end, Tao Xingruo never touched her.After two months of anxiety, she finally asked her question on another night of sleeping together.

"So, do you want me to touch you?" Tao Xingruo asked her with a half-smile while he was reading a book with gold-rimmed glasses.

Ruan Ningwei immediately turned pale.

Tao Xingruo smiled, took off his glasses, and closed the book.She pulled Ruan Ningwei into her arms, "Do happy things with a lover. You don't like me, how can you be happy when you do it?"

Ruan Ningwei's heart was pounding, she didn't know where to put her hands and feet.

Tao Xingruo didn't seem to care about her embarrassment, as if holding a big beloved doll, he raised his hand and gently stroked her hair.

"I know I'm not your type." Her voice came from behind Ruan Ningwei.

Ruan Ningwei didn't dare to speak, Tao Xingruo was indeed not her type.

Before entering the entertainment industry, she worked as a part-time student and worked as a tutor for Tao Xingruo's younger sister for three years.Tao Xingruo's younger sister is a little girl who has lost her hearing and gradually becomes unable to speak.The little girl Minglang loves to laugh, and Ruan Ningwei likes her very much.But Tao Xingruo and her sister gave her completely opposite feelings.Every time she met Tao Xingruo when she was a tutor, she was inexplicably nervous, so that when she went to tutor later, she silently prayed in her heart that Tao Xingruo would never be at home.

Tao Xingruo looked too serious, and his aura was intimidating.After she saw Tao Xingruo scolding his subordinates and crying once, she saw Tao Xingruo like a mouse seeing a cat - she didn't dare to breathe, and wanted to walk around.

"However, I think that if you know me well enough, you will definitely like me more and more." Tao Xingruo buried her neck, his voice was faint but determined.

Ruan Ningwei's heart trembled, but she calmed down in the end.

She only thought that Tao Xingruo had committed the bad habits of rich people, and buying a body with money was not enough, and she wished that the other party would give her heart wholeheartedly.

This rich man's game, she has experienced it once is enough.

But now, she let Tao Xingruo wipe away her tears with her thumb in a daze, and suddenly she had a slight illusion that she seemed to be liked.

Her tears gradually stopped.

She sniffed, and the first thing she said was: "Don't block Lu Min." Her voice was soft and crying.

After finishing speaking, she also felt that she was ridiculous, why would she think that Tao Xingruo would block Lu Min for her sake.

But Tao Xingruo had indeed done similar things for her.

Both Tao Xingruo and Jing Xiu were stunned, unable to laugh or cry for a moment.Too busy to take care of yourself and take care of others?I don't know whether to call her kind or say she is stupid.

"Okay, I won't ban you." Tao Xingruo promised as he helped her up.

Not only will Lu Min not be banned, but he will also be signed into Ran Wen.This is her reward to Lu Min.

After Ruan Ningwei got up, she was embarrassed to be next to Tao Xingruo, and put her hands on the table to support her numb and weak legs.With tears still on her eyelashes, she hesitated for two seconds, begged Tao Xingruo, and said, "Mr. Tao, I want to quit the show and the entertainment circle, is that okay?" She didn't dare to come to this competition. But if Tao Xingruo let her come, she had no choice but to come.

Tao Xingruo frowned, his aura cooled down. "No." She said these three words coldly.

Ruan Ningwei's knuckles turned white as she leaned on the table, her lips trembled, she had nothing to say.

"Tao, can I have a chat with Ning Wei alone?" Jing Xiu said peacefully.

Tao Xingruo gritted his teeth, sighed almost imperceptibly, nodded and went out.

Her back was a bit sad.

Jing Xiu casually gathered the hem of her skirt, and sat down on the steps opposite Ruan Ningwei.Her expression was no longer as fierce as when she commented before, and she asked Ruan Ningwei like gossip: "Ning Wei, do you really want to quit the entertainment industry?"

Ruan Ningwei looked at her from afar, and after a few seconds, she lowered her eyelids and said in a hoarse voice, "I can't do this job anymore. Teacher Jing, you are right, I will only drag others down if I continue."

Jing Xiu shook his head, and pointedly said: "I never thought you couldn't eat this job, it's you, don't you want to eat this job?"

Ruan Ningwei pursed her lips and remained silent.

"Ning Wei, do you still remember why you got into this business? Is your original intention really gone?"

"Are you really not interested in acting?"

"Are you really willing?"

Jing Xiu asked several questions in succession like a machine gun, and the guns hit Ruan Ningwei's heart.Her throat seemed to be strangled, and she couldn't make a sound.

How could she not remember?She fell in love with acting from the first time she performed in a school stage play.Every time she plays the role of someone else's life, she seems to have found a temporary space to breathe without worry.

Acting is the art she loves, and it is also a way for her to release stress. Later, it became her job for a living.

She also once heard young fans express their love for the first time, she was full of enthusiasm and thought smugly that she would definitely work hard, have a magnanimous star path, and live up to their love.With the first salary, she paid off part of her father's gambling debts, and took her mother, who hadn't been to a restaurant for more than ten years, to a good meal. She remembered her mother's proud and expectant gaze for a long time.

If she hadn't been reluctant to part with her because she loved her too much, how could she brazenly endure the abuse and linger on in this circle.

"Don't be reconciled." Jing Xiu stared at her, and gently uttered her heart. "Come here." She waved to Ruan Ningwei.

Ruan Ningwei couldn't bear her gentle request, and walked to her side with heavy steps.

Jing Xiu stretched out his hand to hold her wrist, and pulled her to sit beside him.

"My cousin, Tao Xingruo, has actually liked you for a long time." Jing Xiu suddenly changed the topic.

Ruan Ningwei was astonished.

Jing Xiu didn't take it seriously, and continued lightly: "She has liked you since you went to her home as a tutor." As if to ease the dignified atmosphere, she teased with a smile: "Unexpected? Mr. Tao, who is all-powerful outside, is actually such an innocent little girl."

Ruan Ningwei's throat tightened, and her claws scratched her heart.It's not that she hasn't thought about this possibility, after all, Tao Xingruo is too kind to her.But soon, she dispelled her overwhelmed guess.Apart from her decent appearance, what is there about her that a proud son of heaven like Tao Xingruo likes?

Besides, if you really like it, why take advantage of others?

Jing Xiu saw Ruan Ningwei's doubts, and explained: "If I said that I gave her a bad idea and let her sneak in, would you hate me?" She was the one who notified Tao Xingruo to let her come forward. To send money.

"..." Ruan Ningwei abruptly turned her head to look at Jing Xiu.

"She thinks that you are afraid of her and it is impossible to like her, so she has never bothered you. Is this true? You don't like people with her personality at all. "

Ruan Ningwei was shaken.What kind of personality is Tao Xingruo?She used to think it was serious and cold, but now... being forced to get along for a long time, she is a little uncertain.

"You're too guarded. If she just pursues you, you probably won't be able to be friends with her after telling the truth, right?"

"So, after she made up her mind to chase you, she took the risk and forced you to be with her. On the one hand, she thought it was convenient to take care of you and your mother, and on the other hand, she felt that she needed a chance for you to slowly Get to know her."

Ruan Ningwei was in a state of confusion, a little suspicious, a little touched, and a little scared.She really didn't want to, and didn't dare to fall in love again.

"You can't get into the show anymore, does it have something to do with Lu Zishan?" Jing Xiu suddenly changed the topic again, which caught Ruan Ningwei by surprise.

Ruan Ningwei didn't have time to hide it, her surprised and flustered expression confirmed Jing Xiu's guess.

Jing Xiu understood.She didn't explain much, but just stared at Ruan Ningwei, persuading her: "Ning Wei, if there is a malignant sore in the wound, if you never face it directly, dare not goug it out bit by bit, the wound will only rot forever, and you will never be able to truly treat it. heal."

She was speaking for Ruan Ningwei, and she was also speaking for herself.She didn't know if she was too greedy. She used to think that as long as Ji Yuyan was good, she would do anything.Later, when she saw that Ji Yuyan had changed, she had to go further, trying to clean up the sores between them bit by bit.

If the heart disease grows in the heart, it will rot like a malignant sore.If you don't end the past well, how can you start over well?

"Life is so long, do you really want to make a prison for a person like this and stop? Give yourself a chance?"

"Is Teacher Ji your prison?" Ruan Ningwei asked unexpectedly, twisting the corner of her clothes with five fingers.

This time it was Jing Xiu's turn to be startled.

After a while, Jing Xiu replied tenderly, "She's different."

"She is my home of peace."

The author has something to say: Teacher Jing is also protecting her little wife today.

Jing Miaomiao: She can only question me, not others.