My Feelings Can Wait

"So when you broke up, I didn't have the face to keep it. I found that I seemed to have lost the ability to make you happy."

"I convinced myself to let you go, you deserve better people." Ji Youyan's voice was very peaceful, which was calm after objectively examining the past.

From the second half of the conversation, Jing Xiu's tears of regret could not stop falling down.

She wrongly blamed Ji Youyan for so long, and made her feel wronged for so long.She always thought that Ji Yuyan's claim that he lost his passport was just an excuse, just to avoid visiting her on the cusp of the storm.She always thought that her parents were peaceful and friendly to Ji Yuyan, and accepted Ji Yuyan wholeheartedly.

The tears she dripped on the back of Ji Yuyan's hands burned Ji Yuyan's heart.Ji Youyan coaxed her: "Don't cry, Axiu, I told you this matter not to make you sad." These things have passed, she didn't want to tell Jing Xiu, for fear of affecting the mother and daughter of Jing Xiu and Jing Shurong relation.

But Jingxiu's breathing became deeper.When she thought of the despair Ji Youyan left with, her heart hurt as if a hole had been broken and she couldn't breathe.

Ji Youyan saw the faint bloodshot between her lips and teeth, and her heart was pierced like a knife.She kissed Jing Xiu's bitten lower lip, "If you must cry, don't bear it, can you cry out? Am I not someone you can cry with confidence?"

Jing Xiu let go of her lips, buried them on her shoulders, and finally sobbed softly.

Ji Youyan patted her on the back, comforting her distressedly.

"Sorry, I don't know anything." Jing Xiu slowed down a little, her voice rustling.

Ji Yuyan rubbed her head lightly, and said sincerely: "It's me who should say I'm sorry. You were right before. I didn't tell you anything that made you lose the chance to comfort me. So I'm glad you are braver than me, Choose to tell me."

"Ah Xiu, in fact, when you broke up, you hoped that I could stay, change, and become braver, right?"

Jing Xiu lowered his head and let out a barely audible "hmm".

Ji Youyan felt sad.In her last life, she understood too late.

"But I am so unbearable, what else is worth your nostalgia? Even an enlightened person like your mother doesn't think highly of me. Have you ever thought that there will be someone more suitable for you than me?"

Jing Xiu looked up at her and said seriously in a hoarse voice: "Don't say that about yourself. I have never thought about it. It doesn't matter what my mother thinks, what matters is what I think. I introduce you to them, no I want you to get their approval, but I hope to get you more love and happiness."

Maybe it's because I couldn't meet too amazing people when I was young. I met for the first time at the age of eight and reunited at the age of 21. The love between her and Ji Yuyan has spanned time and mountains, rivers and oceans. It seems to be destined, only once in a lifetime.

Having fallen in love with Ji Youyan like this, who else can fall in her eyes again?

Ji Youyan smiled and said, "Look, you know the truth, so why do you doubt yourself?"

Jing Xiu choked.

Ji Youyan wiped away the tears from Jingxiu's eyelashes, and said in a warm voice: "Ah Xiu, after the breakup, I have been introspecting, and I have become more and more aware of where I was wrong. It is my biggest mistake to care too much about other people's opinions and forget to listen to your voice. Wrong. Love is irrational, so it can’t be decided by suitability. But if you have to use this to compare, then you must be my best choice.”

"Because it's inappropriate only if you don't love. And I can't love anyone except you." She thought of her previous life, and smiled sadly: "Ah Xiu, to put it in a bad way, I can die in your arms. Happier than me living alone."

Jing Xiu seemed to think of something, and burst into tears in an instant, the pain was unbearable.

She covered Ji Yuyan's mouth, and begged her intermittently: "Don't say such things...I'm sorry, Yanyan, I'm sorry..."

Ji Youyan didn't understand why she had to apologize, and coaxed her repeatedly: "Okay, I won't say anything."

But Jing Xiu was so sad that he couldn't restrain it, sobbing so much that his whole body was shaking.

Ji Youyan was worried that Jing Xiu would hurt her body from crying, so she deliberately kissed her ear to tease her and said, "Don't cry, okay? If you cry again, your voice will be hoarse tomorrow, and friends from the media should think that we have not forgotten to do bad things in the hospital."

Jing Xiu was so kissed by her that he instinctively trembled, and when he heard what she said, he wanted to cry and laugh at the same time.

"What nonsense." She finally smiled through tears, and slapped Ji Yuyan's thigh in embarrassment.

Ji Youyan smiled softly, hugged Jing Xiu tightly and shook lovingly, "It can be regarded as closing the gate, do you think you are a little crying bag?"

Jing Xiu was afraid that Ji Yuyan would not be able to control his strength and hit the back of his head by leaning back, so he leaned carefully in Ji Yuyan's arms.Without the sensational atmosphere, she was a little embarrassed and turned her head to sort out her emotions.

But Ji Yuyan sat up on his knees, and reluctantly leaned in front of Jing Xiu to see her expression.Jing Xiu stared at her with red eyes, Ji Youyan stretched out his hand to support the wall, leaned over and kissed Jing Xiu's forehead.

Jing Xiu's feigned displeasure fell apart in an instant, and her heart softened into a mess.

"Be careful with your shoulders." She put her hands on Ji Yuyan's waist.

Ji Youyan retreated obediently, facing Jing Xiu obliquely in a duck sitting position.She stretched out her hand to take Jing Xiu's hand and put it in her arms, looked at Jing Xiu and said sincerely: "Ah Xiu, no one can protect another person in a watertight way, I can't, you can't, anyone else can There is no way."

Jing Xiu's heart gradually settled down in her soft voice.

"Maybe in the eyes of our parents, we will always be children who need to be protected. But in love, we are adults independent of each other. Whether it is with you, or speaking out, or even making it public in the future, everything is actually It has nothing to do with you. It is my own choice for the life I want to live, and I am the only one responsible for it.”

"You are willing to love me and live the life I want to live with me is already an extra reward for me. So promise me and walk with me, unless one day you no longer love me and don't want to be with me anymore , otherwise don’t be shaken by other people’s words.”

Jing Xiu was moved.She stared at Ji Youyan, her eyes were like water, and she couldn't help but kneel and stand up to get close to Ji Youyan, and pressed a tender kiss on her thin lips that could speak well.

"I promise you." She promised Ji Youyan: "You also promise me, don't make the same mistake again."

"The way you love me, I only accept that you are with me."

Ji Youyan's heart fluttered, "Okay." She hooked Jing Xiu's neckline, licked her lips and said, "A Xiu, I haven't had time to tell you how charming you were on stage just now, right?"

"How charming?" Jing Xiu raised the corners of her lips slightly.

Ji Yuyan leaned against the tip of her nose and said, "It's so charming that my mind is full of fantasies. I want to take off your costumes layer by layer to prove that the goddess really belongs to me."

Jing Xiu's ears felt hot.She wanted to laugh at Ji Youyan what else the one-armed man wanted to do, but there were two coughs from a woman at the door: "Yuyan, is it convenient to come in?"

It's Wei Yizhen.

Jing Xiu immediately pulled up her clothes and sat upright.Ji Youyan laughed, and sat back, responding: "Sister Wei, come in."

Wei Yizhen has actually been here for a while.When she arrived, she saw the ambiguous figures of Jingxiu and Ji Youyan on the bed through the small window on the door of the ward. She thought it was a coincidence that she had come here. , The two of them are getting more and more exaggerated.

She was afraid that she would not know how long she would have to wait until she kept silent, so she had to knock on the door bravely.

Jing Xiu got out of bed and moved a stool from the bottom of the bed for Wei Yizhen to sit on. Wei Yizhen was flattered.

She came to discuss the public relations plan with Ji Yuyan.She talked with Jiang Chun, and the preliminary plan has been finalized.

"The entries on the hot search are obviously intentional people who want to splash dirty water, want to lead the public to pay attention to the love life between Mr. Jing and you, and even fabricate the identity of the assailant, rumors that you have a triangle relationship. Teacher Jing's fans and ourselves Fans here have spontaneously started protesting and clarifying the blurred points of these media, and they have no intentions. This incident has caused a sensation, and people from many sides are asking us about the whole story. Angry. So we are going to use our strength to make this incident a benchmark incident in support of diversity and opposition to prejudice, expand the battle situation, and let everyone's attention shift to "prejudice does not get rid of, harm continues" and support voting."

"Okay." Ji Youyan murmured, "Do you need me to post on Weibo to report that I'm safe, and then explain the whole story, so as to bring this topic out?"

This idea coincides with Wei Yizhen's: "I think so too. I've already had someone write the manuscript, and I've sent it to you on WeChat. You can have a look at it."

Ji Youyan and Jing Xiu looked down at the manuscript, Wei Yizhen hesitated and said, "There is one thing I need to confirm with you."

Ji Youyan and Jing Xiu looked up at Wei Yizhen at the same time.

"Where will you live after you leave the hospital in two days? Go back to your own home, or to Mr. Jing's home?"

Obviously, the media will definitely be watching them these days, and there is no way to hide it when they go to Jing Xiu's house, but Ji Youyan is reluctant to go back to his own house.

Jing Xiu has been listening quietly, not taking part in the conversation.Seeing Ji Youyan's embarrassment, she opened her mouth and said humbly, "Sister Wei, what do you think is better?"

Wei Yizhen said frankly: "Of course it's not troublesome to go back to Yuyan's own home." But she changed the subject and said: "But if you want to make it easier in the future, you can take this opportunity to make it clear. of."

Ji Yuyan's eyes lit up, "How to say?"

"Instead of waiting to be photographed in private and intimate photos later, it is better to hold the initiative in our own hands. You can take advantage of this time as a victim who is easy to be pitied and believed by the public, and openly post on Weibo to show that I stayed at Teacher Jing's house temporarily. I used an excuse that my mother, who is similar to Teacher Jing, thanked you for caring for you, and I would do anything if I wanted to take care of you myself."

"Then it's almost time for Director Gu's official announcement of the film. At this time, you can officially announce that you will star in the film, and at the same time introduce a topic like 'There is a friendship called Qiao Yue and Shen Yu', which is a side that I don't want to believe. You and Mr. Jing have a reason to persuade yourself. But in essence, we are in a state of cold treatment that neither admits nor denies the scandal. "

It is difficult to define the relationship between the same sex itself, unless it is photographed such as kissing, otherwise it is not a solid hammer as long as the two parties do not admit it, no matter how ambiguous it is.

"Of course, there are risks, so in the eyes of some people, you are a transparent cabinet. As long as any link is not well controlled, it may become a real coming out."

Being able to cover up relatively less strictly means relatively more free time together, Ji Youyan was moved.

She asked Jing Xiu silently with her eyes, Jing Xiu hesitated: "Is it okay with your parents?" She heard the quarrel in the bathroom that day, if it really made it public...

Ji Youyan said affectionately: "That's my homework and theirs, leave it to me to solve, you don't need to think about it. You just need to think about yourself, would you like it?"

Jing Xiu's eyes were rippling, and he bent his lips and said solemnly: "I am willing."

The author has something to say: Wei Yi really regrets not bringing Jiang Chun along: Is this a marriage proposal scene? [lemon][lemon]

Sister Ji: No, how can a marriage proposal be so unromantic?

Wei Yizhen: Mr. Jing, you heard me, you can't agree if it's not romantic.

Teacher Jing's duplicity: Okay, I remember.

Inside: It was romantic enough that she proposed to me.

Jing Shurong, who is far away in France, smiles: It is arranged clearly.jpg