Dagami is seriously ill [Quick Transmigration]

"I don't think you like me, you're just used to me being by your side, so when you're scared and fearful, you subconsciously want to put me by your side, to accompany you through the unhappiness." Yan Zhi raised his hand and wiped it away Tears in the corner of the eyes: "When you are sad, I will accompany you. If you don't want me to be close to other people, then I will be obedient. Even if you are ordered to stay overnight, I will go home to accompany you. What about you, have you considered me?" Do you feel like you? I am also a person with flesh and blood that hurts, okay..."

Yan Zhi felt that he was very uncomfortable, and he seemed to be unable to breathe smoothly. He didn't know what to do, but Yang Ruichen's increasingly serious desire to possess him made him more and more afraid.

Up to now, all his freedom has been taken away.

Also trying to take away what little joy he had left.

"So what do you want me to do? What else can I do? You're standing still and getting deeper and deeper. Do you really want to change Yang Ruichen?" Yan Zhi took a deep look at Yang Ruichen and turned to the door. Before going out, he stopped and said: "I think it's better for me to leave, maybe I will help you the most."

Yang Ruichen looked at Yan Zhi's last look at himself, as if with the determination to cut off everything, then turned away without looking back and left.

With a bang, the door was closed.

This door blocks all light.

Yang Ruichen felt that the world seemed to be plunged into darkness at this moment. The gap that was originally filled with light has been completely blocked by this door. Has his appearance gone?Why did you leave because you couldn't stand him?

He lowered his head and spread his hands, looking at the clear lines on his palms, but his vision gradually blurred the lines.

It's over, he lost his face, it shouldn't be like this, why is it like this...

——We told you, we all love looks, why can't we be together.

——The combination of our love and your love can obviously double the value of the love, but you want to occupy us alone and try to control us. What you do will only be counterproductive.

——Look, I can't stand the appearance, this is all done by yourself.

——Love is giving and devotion. You will feel happy only when your appearance is happy. Love is responsibility and responsibility. You should improve your appearance instead of hurting him again and again.Love is not possession, the appearance of your idea has already hurt your appearance, Yang Ruichen, don't you regret it?

Does he not regret it?

The last look in Yan Zhi's eyes not only shows the determination to cut off everything, but also carries endless sadness.

The huge room was so empty that he was the only one left. The portrait on the easel by the window had the brightest and warmest smile, but it wasn't his anymore, right?

So no one in this world loves him anymore, right?

Is that still interesting?

Without beauty, everything loses its color, and everything becomes meaningless.

Yan Zhi was squatting at the door, holding his head in pain, he was really going crazy, couldn't Yang Ruichen, a lunatic, let him worry about it one day? What made Yang Ruichen so insecure.

Is he not doing enough?His existence is not enough to give Yang Ruichen a sense of security?

He was so troubled that he could only seek help from a psychiatrist, so he stood by the window in the corridor and called the psychiatrist.

"Doctor, it's like this. I had an argument with Yang Ruichen just now..." I told the psychiatrist what happened just now.

The doctor frowned when he heard the two of them quarreling: "Did you quarrel?"

Yan Zhi grabbed his hair irritably: "I feel too annoying and tired. Yang Ruichen has been worrying about gains and losses all day long, and he is still afraid even though I am by his side."

"Ruichen loves you with all his heart. In his eyes, there is no one but you, but he is not the only one in your heart. Build a castle in his world that belongs only to you and him, because the area It's very big, he has to have your presence to feel safe."

"It only belongs to me and him?" Yan Zhi put his hand on the edge of the window and unconsciously clenched the edge of the window.

"From the first time he saw you, you were his light and his world, so he was nervous about your emotions, afraid of your leaving, he needed you all the time, more precisely, he loved you very much. Plus Lin Luo's influence, Lin Luo's deformed love has the deepest influence on Yang Ruichen, he wants to possess you in order not to let you leave."

When it comes to possessing these two words, the value of appearance is big.

"I don't know what I should do. I feel that no matter what I do, Yang Ruichen is afraid that I will leave." Yan Zhi looked out the window: "I even thought about leaving secretly to stimulate him, otherwise he wouldn't understand that I was there when I was there. stay with him, and I think I might do that."

He felt sorry for Yang Ruichen, but at the same time he felt uncomfortable, because Yang Ruichen didn't think about whether he would feel uncomfortable at all. He compromised so much but Yang Ruichen didn't make any progress at all. If it goes on like this, it will only get worse.

"If I'm from the perspective of a psychiatrist, it's not recommended, but if I'm from your perspective, from the perspective of Ruichen, this method may be a method."

Yan Zhi felt that it was necessary for him to leave Yang Ruichen for a while, not only because he wanted to tell Yang Ruichen that he lost it before he knew that what he once had was real, but also because he was really tired.

"But the premise is that Ruichen will not have extreme behavior."

extreme behavior...

After being mentioned by the psychiatrist, he felt that his behavior of leaving seemed inappropriate.

Well, in the end, he could only take back his words that he wanted to leave silently. He should give Yang Ruichen a chance. It should be obvious after scolding him so much today.

After the quarrel in the morning, although the atmosphere of the night was a bit awkward, it was not enough to hate each other.

Yan Zhi also found that Yang Ruichen's mood was much better. At least when he was on the phone with his classmates, he didn't stare at him eagerly.

It seems that the morning is somewhat useful.

"Is your wound all right?"

Yan Zhi listened to the concern of the tablemate on the other end of the phone and said with a smile: "It's okay, it's much better, it's just that it looked serious at the time, but it didn't hurt the vitals, flesh and blood."

"That's good, if you say that Yang Ruichen really loves you so badly."

"How to say?" Yan Zhi turned his side slightly, he stood on the balcony and saw Yang Ruichen in the room just walking into the bathroom.

"Actually, from the first day when the two of us chatted in front of him, I was stared at by him, with a particularly terrifying look, as if warning me."

The appearance was a little surprised: "Is it that exaggerated?"

But thinking about it, no matter how exaggerated he has already seen it, this really fits Yang Ruichen's character, but he was afraid that Yang Ruichen would really get himself too deep because of this, this is clearly a deformed love.

"Exaggeration or not, you've seen it yourself. I heard that Yang Ruichen and Zhang Zijun fought because of you."

Yan Zhi: "...knows quite clearly."

"I've been paying attention to both of you."

"Why?" Yan Zhi happened to see Yang Ruichen coming out of the bathroom, and frowned suspiciously. Why did he change into a sweater? Is it cold?

Feeling the temperature outside, the most you can do in the south in November is to add a thin coat. Why do you just change into a sweater?

"Because the two of you always give me a feeling that I can't get involved, a very special feeling, and a feeling that surpasses ordinary love, but I don't know why."

Yan Zhi felt that girls' words were very artistic, and he really didn't know how to understand such a sentence. In the end, he didn't know what to say. He hung up the phone and walked in. in the house.

Yang Ruichen caught a glimpse of Yan Zhi hanging up the phone and walking in, and slowly put down the sleeves of the sweater, but he frowned for some reason, but it only took a second for things to return to normal.

"Finished talking?" Pretending to be nonchalant, she looked up at Yan Zhi.

Yan Zhi put the phone in his pocket: "I didn't talk about anything, but my deskmate asked me if I felt better."

"That's it." Yang Ruichen lowered his eyelids to hide the almost uncontrollable jealousy in his heart. This kind of mood made him feel bad, and he couldn't make his appearance feel scared anymore. He had to control himself.

After speaking, he grasped the wrist, and the position he touched made his brain clear up a little.

"What are you changing your sweater for? Is it cold?" Yan Zhi walked in and bent down to touch Yang Ruichen's hand, but he didn't expect that Yang Ruichen would quickly avoid his touch and was taken aback.

Strange, is it really so effective to have a quarrel in the morning?He didn't answer the phone calls, hung up the phone without asking him what he was talking to, and now he seemed calm.

But the calmer he felt, the more strange he felt, and why he avoided him. Normally, it was Yang Ruichen who wanted to hug him all the time, but now it was Yang Ruichen who was strangely indifferent.

What are you doing?

Yang Ruichen seemed to feel that his reaction was a little big, he twitched the corners of his mouth and said with a smile: "It's colder at night, you should also wear a coat so you don't catch a cold."

"Where is it cold now? Wearing a sweater is too exaggerated. Are you uncomfortable?" Yan Zhi looked at Yang Ruichen's face, which seemed a little pale: "Did you catch a cold, why don't you go to bed early today."

He looked at such a big man sitting by the bed and felt inexplicably pitiful, and what should I say, Yang Ruichen's attitude also made him feel... strange?

As if deliberately keeping a distance from him.

"Well, I should be a little uncomfortable."

"Then you rest." Yan Zhi lifted the quilt for people to lie in, and at the same time joked: "Don't stay at home and don't exercise, if one day I am taller than you, don't regret it."

Yang Ruichen lay on the bed and looked sideways at the face standing by the bed, feeling a little sad: "I want to see you surpass me one day."

But can he still hold on?

I'm tired of him because of his good looks, would you still want to let him watch the day when he grows taller?

Yan Zhi didn't hear the strangeness in Yang Ruichen's mouth, that is, he smiled and covered someone with a quilt. Just when he was about to do his homework, his phone vibrated. He looked down and saw that it was a text message from Ms. Cheng, and it was at the door now?What to do?His brows were wrinkled.

Turning around to leave the room.

But he stopped the moment he stepped out of the door, and turned his head to look at Yang Ruichen. Yang Ruichen was lying on the bed with his back to him, as if he was already resting.

The doubts in my heart became more and more serious, what happened to Yang Ruichen, if it was normal, this guy would definitely stare at him closely and ask himself who sent the message and even told him not to go.

Something is not normal.

But Ms. Cheng downstairs still has to deal with it first, so as not to cause any trouble for him.

Just when Yan Zhi closed the door, Yang Ruichen on the bed immediately turned over and got up, his steps were very hurried, as if he was going to do something, he walked quickly into the bathroom and closed the door with a bang.

After a while, the young man appeared in the mirror of the bathroom with red eyes and panting heavily, as if there was something pent up in his heart that could not be released. His eyes were stained red by the forbearance in his eyes. He clenched his hands and put them on the sink. The knuckles are white from exertion.

"Why, why don't you ask me if I'm not feeling well? Why can someone leave me with just one phone call? Am I that unimportant!!!"

The deep and slightly hoarse roar echoed clearly in the bathroom, and the strong emotions were finally released at this moment.

He looked at himself in the mirror, his eyes were red and angry because of jealousy, and finally he couldn't hold back.

"How did I become like this..."

As if he thought it was too ridiculous, he lowered his head and let out a deep laugh. He raised his left hand, and rolled up his sleeves. The moment he rolled up his sleeves, he saw a dazzling red knife mark on his wrist.

This one was just scratched by him, and the force was not very strong, so the scar was not deep. When Yan Zhi was on the phone with someone, in order to divert his attention from looking at Yan Zhi, he ran to the bathroom and took a razor blade. Now that his appearance is gone again, he really feels uncomfortable, and he should draw another knife to divert his attention.

So he took out the razor blade hidden in the cabinet under the sink, and scratched the scar just now without hesitation.

There will be more bright red blood than before, and the pain will be clearer than before, which seems to relieve his thoughts of looking good.

He is jealous of all the people who can attract the attention of his appearance, why can't he be the one who pays attention to his appearance, he wants to be the only one who pays attention to his appearance.

So in order not to make Yan Zhi feel that he is annoying anymore, he wants to make himself a little more pitiful, maybe that way Yan Zhi will give him more attention.

He just wanted a little more attention, he wanted his good looks to focus on himself.

That's it.

The bright red blood slipped from the wrist and dripped into the white washbasin, which was extremely dazzling.The knife mark on the wrist is so clear that people who can see it will feel terrible, and the depth of the knife mark seems to make the blood flow faster.

Yang Ruichen calmly watched the blood dripping into the washbasin, and finally he calmly washed the blood off the blade, and then used the gauze prepared earlier to slowly stop the blood on his wrist until it stopped bleeding.

Finished everything with a blank face, finally put down his sleeves, walked out of the bathroom and lay back on the bed.

Like nothing ever happened.

Ms. Cheng downstairs brought Zhang Rui.

Yan Zhi looked at Ms. Cheng, and was speechless when she heard her request just now. She said that the company wanted to go out to study for a week and wanted to temporarily put Zhang Rui here for a few days, and this study still had to go, because it was related to promotion. If you get a job, you can only get a salary increase if you get promoted, and then you have the money to take Zhang Rui to the follow-up visit.

"Yanzhi, mom will ask you to do this at the end, okay? I'll help mom take Ruirui for a few days." Ms. Cheng looked at Yanzhi on the steps and begged.

Zhang Rui didn't dare to speak, because she was afraid that her brother would hate her, so she just lowered her head.

Yan Zhi looked at Zhang Rui at the bottom of the steps, and saw that the little girl was carrying a schoolbag pitifully. Ms. Cheng was indeed a wonderful mother, and she was willing to believe in him, a son who had never taken care of her, and was not afraid that he would harm Zhang Rui. Dare to ask him again and again.

But seeing Zhang Rui, he still couldn't hold back his soft heart.

"This is Yang Ruichen's house, so I can't bring Zhang Rui in. I'll go to your house. Say yes, it's the last time. I don't have much patience." Yan Zhi said lightly: "I hope you will be a good mother, don't At least let Zhang Rui feel the warmth of a mother's love as she did to me."

Ms. Cheng's eyes flashed: "I know, this is the last time."

There is actually another reason why Yan Zhi agreed, that is, he wanted to leave Yang Ruichen to take a breather, and he also wanted Yang Ruichen to think about it for himself, just to give each other some time.

Then let's go now.

"I'll go up and talk to Yang Ruichen."

When Ms. Cheng saw Yan Zhi turned around and was about to enter the room, she immediately called out: "Well, I have to go now, can you put Zhang Rui in the room for a while?"

Yan Zhi turned his head to look at the person for a while, and thought it was very ridiculous, he snorted and did not speak any more, and led him into the room with Zhang Rui's collar.

Does such a mother deserve someone to call her?

Can the child just throw it away?

After entering the room, he asked Zhang Rui to sit on the sofa: "Sit back first, I'll go up and get clothes."

When he returned to the room, the light was still on, and Yang Ruichen who was lying on the bed seemed to be fast asleep, and did not respond to his coming in at all.

"Are you asleep?" Yan Zhi asked softly.

"No."

Hearing Yang Ruichen's hoarse voice, Yan Zhi secretly wondered if he had a fever. He was wearing a sweater or something on a hot day, and then hurried to the bedside to see Yang Ruichen. He squatted beside the bed and wanted to touch Yang Ruichen's forehead. I saw the person's pale face and red eyes.

My heart skipped a beat.

At this moment, the wide sleeves slid down to reveal the glaring knife marks on his wrists.

The author has something to say:

Cough cough cough, that Comrade Yang is indeed an idiot.

So in the next chapter, I will know the pain, that candy... keep it in your mouth first.

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Hey, I just found out that I double-updated today.

Silly.